Thoughts

"Click", the door was opened, Shen Duanrui was wet, the corner of his clothes was dripping drop by drop, he walked into the house with an umbrella in one hand and a suitcase in the other, followed by Mu Dongchen who was also covered in moisture.

"Go take a shower first, you." Shen Duanrui stood the umbrella by the door, put the suitcase aside, turned and said to Mu Dongchen.

Looking at the person who obviously needed a bath more than himself, Mu Dongchen shook his head, "Go first, you are completely wet."

"It's okay." Shen Duanrui waved his hand, "Go first, the bathroom is over there." He pointed to the bathroom.

"Can……"

Mu Dongchen wanted to say something else, but Shen Duanrui interrupted him: "Stop moaning, just go, I'll go back to the room and change clothes." Then he walked to the bedroom.Helpless, Mu Dongchen had no choice but to take a set of clothes from the suitcase and take a shower in the bathroom.

Shen Duanrui changed his clothes and came out, his body was much better than before.He poured a cup of hot water and just took a sip when he suddenly remembered that he had not given Mu Dongchen a towel, so he dug out a new towel from the cabinet, went to the bathroom door, and knocked on the door.

"Huh?" Mu Dongchen's vague question came from the bathroom.

"Towel, I just forgot to give you."

Just as I was about to hang the towel on the doorknob, the bathroom door opened a crack, and a slender white hand protruded from the inside, accompanied by mist.Shen Duanrui stared at the hand for a while, then reacted and hurriedly stuffed the towel into his hand.

"Thank you."

The door was closed, Shen Duanrui stood there for a while, went to sit on the sofa, took a sip of the hot water just poured, and leaned on the sofa.

After greeting Mu Dongchen at the bus station, the two were relatively silent.After a long silence, Shen Duanrui asked Mu Dongchen: "Are you back to play?" Very boring topic.

"Yes, or not."

Shen Duanrui was puzzled.

"Going back to a familiar place and seeing familiar people is considered fun. But the more important thing is that I am doing an internship here, so..."

"That's it. Why aren't you over there, isn't it closer to the school?"

"It's always better at home."

"Oh."

Shen Duanrui didn't speak any more, and had nothing to say.What can I say?After being separated for so many years, there is no need to talk about the old things that are familiar to each other now, not to mention that there are things in those things that neither of them wants to recall or talk about.In the years after separation, there were very few contacts with each other, and there were only a handful of topics that could be discussed.For a while, there seemed to be no better way to get along except silence.

The rain was still falling, hitting the ground vigorously, and a lot of water had accumulated in the poorly drained areas to form puddles, and the area was still expanding.The cars coming and going could not be seen clearly under the rain curtain, and the taxis passing by were all occupied without exception, and the people hiding under the eaves were anxiously waiting for the empty cars.A bus came, and before anyone could react, it was already full and left.

Shen Duanrui looked up at the sky, guessing that the rain would not stop for a while, Mu Dongchen beside him frowned slightly and looked at the direction of the bus, as if he was disturbed by the rain and was a little worried.Shen Duanrui thought for a few seconds, then ran out of the bus stop and into the rain.Not long after, he ran back, dripping wet, supported his legs, bent over to pant for a while, and handed the umbrella in Mu Dongchen's hand.Only then did Mu Dongchen look over, and found that he was looking up at him, his body was completely soaked and still dripping water.

"The rain won't stop for a while. My house is quite close to here. You can go to my house first and wait until the rain stops."

Saying that, before Mu Dongchen agreed to Shen Duanrui, he opened the umbrella, pulled his suitcase and walked into the rain on his own.Mu Dongchen looked at Shen Duanrui, then at the umbrella in his hand, opened it, and followed.

The bathroom door opened, and Mu Dongchen came out wiping his head, "I'm fine, you go quickly."

"Okay." Shen Duanrui put down his cup and stood up, "There is hot water here, let's drink some to warm up." After speaking, he walked into the bathroom.

Mu Dongchen looked at the two glasses of water on the table, one was full and one was half-drinked, and suddenly remembered the scene when he first came to Mu Mu's house.Shen Duanrui went to Mu Mu's house later than him because he went home to get his homework.As soon as he arrived, he grabbed his own cup and drank all the juice, planning to drink a second cup.I hurriedly stopped him, but Shen Duanrui smiled and said: "It's okay, it's all brothers, don't worry about these little things." At that time, I was a little surprised when I heard Shen Duanrui's words, but also a little happy, standing there, thinking that I was His brother no longer cares about this matter.

Mu Dongchen chuckled, took the full glass of water on the table, the warm feeling slowly spread from the palm of his hand to his body, after taking a sip, his whole body seemed to warm up.

The rain doesn't seem to be stopping.The sky was very gloomy, and the bean-sized raindrops kept falling from the sky, hitting the window with a "thud-thud", one sound after another, which made people feel uneasy.There is no such heavy rain in memory, as if it wants to wash away and destroy everything in the world, and rebuild the world.Mu Dongchen sat on the sofa and looked out the window, unconsciously rubbed the cup with his index finger, thinking about how to go back for a while.

Taking a deep breath, Shen Duanrui pursed his lips and came out of the bathroom.After all these years, I should have figured it out, and I should completely give up on the impossible.From the day Mu Dongchen left, from the moment I promised Mu Dongchen to be friends with him, everything should be over.If you continue to be persistent, you will only get nothing to do with your friends.Therefore, maintaining the status quo is the best way and the only way.

Sitting down on the sofa, just about to say something, the phone rang, and the sad singing of the [-] group echoed throughout the room.

"Just haven't told you / I'm sorry I love you / I can't breathe without you / I can't watch you cry for miles / It's just that I haven't worked up the courage yet / I haven't told you yet / I'm sorry I love you / Even if one day we leave lost my body / I am still so determined..."

Mu Dongchen withdrew his gaze from looking outside and turned his head to look at him. Shen Duanrui nodded at him and picked up the phone.

"Hello, Yijiu."

"I have already got home."

"Well, good. Don't worry about me, it's you, it's raining heavily, how do you go back, or I'll pick you up?"

"That's it, that's good. Don't get caught in the rain, keep warm when you go back, and be careful of catching a cold. I will come to see you tomorrow. Go to bed early at night and don't stay up late again."

"alright, bye."

Mu Dongchen was quietly listening to Shen Duanrui's phone call.Is that Yijiu his girlfriend?He saw Shen Duanrui's expression was very gentle when he was talking to the other party, with a smile in his eyes and a doting look on his face.He has never seen Shen Duanrui showing such an expression in the past time together.probably.Thinking like this, the words came out: "Your girlfriend?"

Shen Duanrui hung up the phone, and when he heard Mu Dongchen's question, he raised his head to look at him, Mu Dongchen looked at himself with a face of proof, couldn't help but smiled wryly in his heart, and nodded following his words: "Yes. "

In this way, it will be fine.

"What about you?" Shen Duanrui asked back.

"Ok?"

"Where's your girlfriend?"

"Oh, hehe," Mu Dongchen said with a smile on his face, "She's doing an internship in her hometown."

Feeling sad, but with a smile on his face: "If you don't bring it back for us old friends to see, it's really not loyal!"

"Isn't there no chance? Next time I have a chance, I will let you have a look."

"There must be a photo, come and take a look."

Mu Dongchen picked up the phone, fiddled with it a few times, and handed it to Shen Duanrui: "I don't like taking pictures very much, so there are no photos on the phone."

Shen Duanrui took it, and on the screen, Mu Dongchen stood behind the girl and gently circled the girl, with one hand slightly curling a strand of hair in front of the girl, with a satisfied smile on his face.Although the girl is not particularly beautiful, she is very delicate, with curved eyebrows and big watery eyes, full of happiness inside.The white hands held Mu Dongchen's hand in front of her, and they were tightly closed together, never to be separated.Shen Duanrui felt that he had nothing to do to make himself unhappy, so he returned the phone to Mu Dongchen, "It's pretty good."

Hearing the appreciation for his girlfriend, Mu Dongchen was obviously very happy, he smiled and grabbed the phone tightly and pulled Shen Duanrui to ask his girlfriend.

"The two of us... are not bad. There are some photos. It's just that my phone had a problem a while ago, and everything on it is gone. When we take a photo, we will show it to you." Shen Duanrui found a reason prevaricate.Fortunately, Mu Dongchen didn't hold on to this question and asked about other old friends.

"How is Mu Mu? And Li Ming, Xia Mian."

Shen Duanrui breathed a sigh of relief, "They, Mu Mu and Li Ming are together, Xia Mian..."

"Mu Mu and Li Ming are together!" Mu Dongchen was a little surprised.

"Yes, they got together not long after they started college."

"Why didn't I see it before?"

Shen Duanrui laughed: "With your EQ, it's no wonder you can see it!"

"Is my EQ that low?" Mu Dongchen retorted.

"Why not low? When you were studying, didn't you see that Li Ming gave Mumu gifts and chatted from time to time? During the holidays, he specially prepared gifts for Mumu, and the volunteers he filled out were the same as Mumu's. Everyone can see it, but you are the only one who can't see it."

"...Really? I really didn't see it." Mu Mu scratched his head embarrassingly.

"Yes." Shen Duanrui nodded, "You can't even tell that other people like you..." The more he said, the softer he was.

"Ah? What did you say?"

"It's nothing. I said Xia Mian and Bai Yansheng are together."

"Who is Bai Yansheng?" Mu Dongchen had never heard of this person.

"Just Wang Sen's boss."

"Ah?" In Mu Dongchen's memory, Wang Sen's boss was a elusive person, and the chance to see him was rare, and he never saw him once. "How did Xia Mian know him?"

"Who knows."

In fact, it’s not that I don’t know everything, after all, we are friends, after all, we are in the same circle, even if the person involved doesn’t say anything, there will always be others who will talk about it, throw away the exaggerated and untrue parts, and arrange and combine the remaining parts to see the truth of the matter. Probably it can be collaged after all.It's not impossible to talk to Mu Dongchen, but Shen Duanrui doesn't want to talk about other people's affairs casually, let alone his good friend.

"Anyway, the two of them are together now, not in love."

"That's good."

"Yes." Shen Duanrui nodded emotionally, "Aren't you and your girlfriend very affectionate?" The topic returned to Mu Dongchen.Obviously, it would not be a happy topic for me.

"Hey, it's okay. She is a very gentle person, she is very tolerant to me, and we get along well."

"Then do you two plan to get married after graduation?" She didn't give up.

Mu Dongchen smiled shyly: "That's the plan. But it's not like getting married immediately after graduation. After our lives are more stable, we want to buy a house and be together forever."

"Hey... not bad." His face turned pale, and he forced a smile, but his heart was so painful that he wanted to tear himself apart.

I can finally give up.He has already found someone who he wants to be with forever, and he has already made plans for the future, but this future is destined to be without himself.Unwilling to be persistent for so long, this time it's okay, really give up.

The rain outside the window was getting heavier and heavier. Mu Dongchen didn't notice Shen Duanrui's expression. He looked at the pouring rain and worried: "Why doesn't it stop? How can I go back later?"

Shen Duanrui woke up from his own world, buried all his thoughts, and followed his gaze to see that the rain was indeed heavy. "You can stay with me tonight. The rain is so heavy that I don't know when it will stop. Maybe the bus that waits for it to stop and go back will also be off duty."

Mu Dongchen thought about it, nodded and agreed.

"That would be troublesome."

"They're all brothers, what are you talking about?" Shen Duanrui waved his hand and walked into the kitchen, "I haven't eaten yet. Yijiu can't come here today, so I don't have a big meal to eat, but I can still cook some side dishes." Then he got busy in the kitchen.

"Let me help." Mu Dongchen walked to the kitchen and saw Shen Duanrui washing, chopping and cooking vegetables in an orderly manner, looking very skillful.

"How about it, are you surprised?" Seeing Mu Dongchen standing at the door in surprise, Shen Duanrui glanced at him, "Don't worship me too much."

"Do you need me to do anything?"

"Give me a plate from the cupboard and shred the ginger."

"it is good."

The two were cooking together in the kitchen, and a few side dishes were ready in a short while.Green pepper shredded pork, cola chicken wings, mapo tofu, fish-flavored eggplant, tomato and egg drop soup were put on the table one by one, looking delicious under the warm yellow light.

"I'm starving to death! It's finally ready." As soon as he sat down, Shen Duanrui couldn't wait to grab his chopsticks to eat, "Try it, I'm sure my craftsmanship is good." He didn't forget to show off while eating.

After running around all day, Mu Dongchen was also hungry.

"I didn't expect your cooking to be quite delicious."

The taste is indeed very good, beyond his expectation, but he feels that everything is understandable on Shen Duanrui.

"That's right! Don't even look at who I am!"

"But I really didn't expect you to have so many."

"Actually, I didn't know anything at first." Shen Duanrui raised his head and looked at Mu Dongchen opposite him, "Although I lived alone for a while, most of the time I solved it by ordering takeout. Later, I met Yijiu After that, she despised me for a while, and every time she came to my house, she would buy something by the way, teach me how to cook, and even educate me. Thinking about it carefully, what would I have done without her? How about it." The messy and muddled past was driven away by Yijiu, and the warm sunshine was brought by Yijiu, Shen Duanrui thought, without Yijiu, maybe the current self is still passing by and decadent.For Shen Duanrui, Yijiu is an indispensable existence.

"Your girlfriend is so nice to you."

Shen Duanrui smiled helplessly, as a response.