and his "forced" doll kiss

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It is the light that takes away the fear, as if everything is not so scary. .

After falling asleep and knowing nothing, Li Anyun lay on Shi Yu's body. The fabric of the hospital gown was very hard, but the one on him was very comfortable.

"Anjun, can you get off me?" The hand holding him loosened, and it was difficult to breathe for a moment, as if even the air froze.

"No, I want to be with my brother..." Li Anyun fell into a drowsy sleep, speaking with a milky voice, as if as long as she was with her brother, everything could be solved.

"Good night, then hold me tight." When Shi Yu hugged him, the stars turned into ashes and burned into the gentlest dust in the night.

"Well, I can definitely hug you." Li Anyun closed her eyes, her mind was full of the conversation that day, Shi Yu's words, I promise, made up for the shortcomings of sixteen or seventeen years.

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The genius had just turned on a corner, and his body, which was already in pain, was even more painful. Li Zhen felt more and more indebted to Li Anyun. He really never thought that he would get sick.

As the pillar of the family, he didn't want to see Li Anyun bear the consequences because of himself. The flower shop could continue to operate, and he and his family could stay together for the rest of their lives.

But... For Shi Yu, he will blame himself for the rest of his life, and he will never let go of it. He doesn't know why he is so persistent.

"At three o'clock in the afternoon, prepare for the transplant operation." The nurse came over with a commitment letter and signed it for Shi Yu, just like signing a life and death certificate.

"Well, thank you." Shi Yu sat on the edge of the bed, dangling his legs, the line of his back looming. Li Anyun sat on his lap, clinging to him all day, "Anjun, did you fall asleep last night?"

"Asleep, the stars last night were so beautiful, brother, if there is a day, I can also give you my heart, although it is incomplete, but it is enough for you to remember my heartbeat, you are the one that continues my heartbeat." Li Anyun took a sip of milk, and her words smelled like milk.

"You too." With three simple words, Shi Yu struggled for a few seconds, and the more he thought about it, the more confused he became. One thing after another happened and ended in this fragile family. He thought he was lucky to meet him, but in the end he just blamed himself That's all.

"Brother, before you die, go to all the places you haven't been to. If you don't need to confirm that everything is asleep, you can hug you." A few teardrops hung on the eyelashes, and the stars faded. Put away a body of thorns.

"Yeah." Shi Yu closed his eyes, just like at home, the window was facing a laurel tree, the withered petals hung stubbornly on the dead branches, and fell off as soon as the wind blew, the winter sky was gray, against the backdrop Everything in the ward became darker.

"Yu'er, can't we do well? Mom is begging you, okay, mom really... really can't look at you..." Tang Nianlang slumped on the chair, the glass in his hand fell, and the glass shattered all over the place.

"Isn't that a waste? Aren't the previous ones all wasted?" Shi Yu turned his head and smiled, the light fell on the two of them, leaving her in the darkness.

"Yu'er, since you have made a good decision, you can't regret it, and you can't regret it because of a few words. It's fine if you don't regret the decision you make." Words will do.

"Well, I know." Shi Yu nodded, and loosened his hands holding Li Anyun. The medicine in the glass bottle flowed into his body, and his body became cold intermittently. The severe cough made Li Anyun panic.

Tang Nianlang was so frightened that she stood up and could only caress his back to relieve it. Shi Yu lowered his head, his shoulders were trembling with coughing, and he felt that he was going to cough up blood in the next second.

Li Anyun cried anxiously, grabbed Shi Yu's hand, and tried harder and harder until he stopped coughing and his breathing gradually became steady.

"Brother, don't scare me, okay?" Li Anyun supported him on the bed, and Shi Jingyan picked up the glass one by one, "Don't do it, okay?"

"Anjun, don't keep saying things like this. Why do you feel like your previous efforts are in vain? It's just a cough. It's not as serious as you think, and it doesn't hurt at all." Shi Yu hid all the pain in his body Feelings, if it is exposed to his eyes, it will be a toss, so just hide it.

"Family help prepare. After changing clothes, I'm going to push the bed." It was the same doctor just now, holding two sets of light blue surgical gowns, "Just wear them on your body, and you don't need to put your hands into your sleeves." , because it was a laparotomy."

"En." Shi Jingyan took the clothes, helped him take off the shirt and folded it aside, the smell of the surgical gown was very pungent, with a strong smell of medicine, Shi Yu frowned and closed his eyes.

"Li Li, thank Yu'er well when you come out, you know? He really worked hard for you." Tang Nianlang followed behind the push bed, bent down and whispered something in his ear.

"I...I'm sorry...I'm sorry Yu'er, obviously he can leave me alone." Li Li looked at the incandescent lamp passing by above his head, raised his hand and rubbed his eyes, and looked at Tang Nianrou with red eye circles. The liver disease is really tormenting people, sometimes Sometimes the pain was so severe that I could only huddle in the quilt and breathe to relieve it.

"Mom, don't talk to dad." Li Anyun grabbed the armrest beside the bed and pushed forward, speaking softly. He really loved Li Hou, but he didn't want Shi Yu to worry.

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"Family members please wait outside, you can come in and push the bed when the green light is on."

Shi Yu lay on the bed, feeling helpless and fear, more fear, he knew Li Anyun's feeling every time he entered and exited this door, and the beeping sound from the monitor would end at any time, Shi Yu couldn't bear it anymore.

Tears wet the pillowcase, and a thin layer of sweat formed on the back, soaking the surgical gown.

For the first time, Li Anyun felt that she could pass through the whole world alone and bear the pain alone, so she bent down and rubbed his forehead, just like every time.

"Brother, I'll wait for you, wait for you, and then we will go to the alley to see the flowers, to see the scenery that I have never seen before, promise me." Li Anyun watched him being sent to the operating room, and when the door was closed, the whole body He staggered a few steps forward, fell to the ground, and bumped his forehead against the edge of the chair.

"Anjun." Tang Nianlang hurriedly left Li Yan and helped Li Anyun up from the ground. A deep mark was made on his forehead, and he didn't know where it was, and it was still oozing blood.

In fact, Tang Nianlang had already taken root in her heart. She had already compensated him for more than 20 years, and the next few years would not be too far away. Even if Li Li was paralyzed in bed, she could continue to live with him.

Li Di didn't know that Tang Nianlang would think this way, he just wanted to unilaterally give up, they are the ones who shine in this era, although there are always disappointments, but that's how it is.

to continue to maintain the status quo.

"Nian Rou, I'm sorry to trouble you, I seem to always trouble you." Li Yan closed his eyes, feeling that he was pushing into the abyss, and where he would stumble next was another question that had no answer.

"After I came out, I must be the first one to see." Tang Nianlang watched the push bed gradually disappear from sight. Like Li Anyun, his emotions were so out of control that he couldn't control his behavior, so he scratched hard with his nails. wrist.

For a while, I wanted to use another kind of pain to suppress the pain, but it didn't help. I could only wait for the operation to end and declare success.

In the operating room, two push beds were leaning side by side, and the shadowless lamp shone on her body, as if she could still feel a little warmth.

When I entered the operating room for the first time, I was surrounded by cold machines and the sound of surgical instruments colliding in the curved disc, and my heart convulsed violently.

"It'll be fine after a good night's sleep. Take it easy." The nurse pushed the anesthetic into Shi Yu's body. He felt dizzy from the needle, but the cold steel needle pierced his spine, and he kicked his leg unconsciously.

"It hurts..." The first injection had no effect, the drug reaction was not obvious, and it was more pain. Shi Yu curled up on the steel bed covered with nursing pads, and the pain became even worse.

"Be gentle, you arch your back, well, don't look at the mirror above, you have to push it in." The doctor pressed the anesthesia needle into the spine, and the nurse pressed Shi Yu's foot with her hand, "Dr. Song said before There's a kid allergic to narcotics, isn't he?"

"It's him, so he didn't give him that kind of anesthetic, let's start the operation." The doctor put on medical gloves, surrounded the operating bed, and adjusted the position of the shadowless lamp.

"Scalpel."

"Hemostatic forceps."

"Endotracheal intubation."

"Chest compressions, quick."

"Stop, he's breathing too fast, put him on a ventilator."

"Okay, pay attention, success."

"Take your time, take your time, don't waste your efforts."

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After finally surviving the end of the operation, Li Anyun waited outside and fell asleep, curled up in Tang Nianxiang's arms.

It was the light that gave him the courage to keep walking, Shi Yu woke up after the liver transplant, with inexplicable severe pain all over his body, especially the incision on his lower abdomen.

"Anjun, I'm coming out." Shi Yu felt extremely helpless for a moment, looked at Li Anyun, and stretched out his hand to hook his little finger.

"I know." Li Anyun opened his eyes, their sockets were wet.