and his "forced" doll kiss

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I accepted everything I couldn't accept, and I couldn't accept anything I could accept. I stayed up all night, after much deliberation, I decided to tell Lin Zhiqiu so that Shi Yu wouldn't feel that it was his fault.

"Anjun... don't... don't hit..., I'm afraid... afraid..." Shi Yu struggled for a long time, but finally couldn't escape the reality.

"What are you afraid of? I won't do anything to brother Ye Luo, I just want them to know, that's all." Li Anyun opened his eyes, and saw Shi Yu crying, tears streaming down his neck and onto the pillow.

"Don't...uh...ahhhh...Anjun don't..." Shi Yu started crying again, Li Anyun wanted to lift the quilt, Shi Yu grabbed the quilt with the last three fingers that could move, but after a while I have no strength.

Li Anyun leaned down and kissed the corner of his mouth, saliva entangled the temperature of his mouth, pulled out the silver thread, and fell into the abyss.

This kiss is not too precious, it may be a kind of comfort and dependence for him, but for Li Anyun, it is the first step after he has the courage to take.

Shi Yu was imprisoned in this kiss, trapped for the rest of his life, the stars escaped from the sky, trapped by the morning glow and dawn.

Always stay where no sound is heard.

"Brother, I like you, the kind I've liked since a long time ago, the kind that I like until it breaks my heart, and I don't regret it, I know... I know you always think that we are just childhood sweethearts, but..." Li Anyun Before he finished speaking, he felt the corner of his mouth slipping over the hot and humid temperature, Yu slowly turned his head when he saw it from the corner of his eye.

"But I also... like you..." Shi Yu used all his strength to say this sentence seriously, engraving his love in his heart.

"Brother...I like you, I like you so much...I want your heart...OK?" Li Anyun cried, her lips loosened, and her slightly flushed cheeks looked abrupt in the cold temperature.

"Hmm... okay... I signed it... I signed it..." Shi Yu felt that his heart was crushed in an instant, and he had to lick his scars after being dripped with blood.

Shi Xi was supported by Shi Jingyan into the ward, both of them had red eyes, looking at the picture in the ward, everything pale fell into the pupils that had lost their highlights.

There are mottled old traces on the yellowed wall, and the kiss that just ended means that their relationship has restarted, and they both accepted and let go of the past.

"What did you sign? Brother...Are you acting on your own terms again?" Li Anyun watched as Shi Xi took out the envelope from his coat, Shi Yu struggled to stop it, and then put down his redeeming hand.

"No... I don't have..." The physical card in the envelope fell at his feet, Li Anyun bent over to pick it up, and it coincided with what Shi Yu was thinking in his mind, his heart seemed to be wrapped in thorns, and his head was bleeding.

"An'an, have you eaten yet?" Shi Jingyan rubbed her red and swollen eye sockets, trying to wipe away the tears, but she couldn't wipe them off. She was holding an insulated lunch box, which contained porridge and blandly cooked noodles.

"I don't want to eat, Mom..." When Li Anyun saw Shi Jingyan, she couldn't hold on anymore, she threw herself into Shi Jingyan's arms and cried heart-rendingly, crying until her body convulsed, her heart ached, it really hurt.

Tears wet the fabric on her chest, Shi Jingyan hugged Li Anyun tightly in her arms, exerting force with every fingertip.

Shi Yu couldn't see such a scene, and tried his best to turn his head away from them. He had to accept the reality after all, and if he couldn't escape, he couldn't escape after all.

There are no stars in the sky, and the moon is glowing weakly white.

"An An, you opened that box, didn't you?" Shi Xi took out the box that Li Anyun kept in the drawer, and there were a few more scratches on the lid.

"Well, I opened it. I opened it a long time ago. Does it have the same meaning as the marriage certificate?" Li Anyun put the box where Shi Yu could see it, and gently lifted the lid, "If it is the same Yes, I'll sign it."

"What?" Shi Yu forced his sleepiness to stay on the box.

"Brother, if this is the marriage letter between me and you, will you sign it?" Li Anyun stood in the light, waiting for Shi Yu's answer. He was afraid that he would refuse to answer, so he could only keep waiting.

"The signature... I'm yours for the rest of my life, and I'm in your hands. Thank you for your care." After realizing the reality, Shi Yu gave up the old persona and became the boy in his heart.

"At that time, there was no mistake in the bet. Although it was not recognized by others, if you can accept it, we agree." Shi Jingyan shook Shi Yu's hand and signed under the name she signed back then.

"Anjun, if you feel redundant or bored, you can let go at any time." Shi Yu looked at the brackets supporting his limbs, as if even his heart was supported by steel and iron bones.

"Who knows in the future?" Li Anyun didn't have time to fulfill the promise. He knew that he didn't like to make casual promises, so he didn't directly confirm that they would be separated and stay together.

"Let's eat, I'll go buy something strong for An Jun." Shi Xi watched Li Anyun write his name seriously, the paper seemed to have more meaning, and he put it back into the tin box.

It was finally made public, and the neighbors in the neighborhood also exchanged pleasantries, and occasionally a few words were passed to each other's ears, and they were relieved.

Li Anyun shook her head, and opened the lid of the lunch box. The porridge was almost cold, with a little bit of warmth left.

"Brother, I'll feed you." Li Anyun put a tissue under his chin and scooped up the porridge with a spoon. It was fine, but suddenly exploded again.

Looking at the young man lying on the hospital bed, from sweeping tenderness to copying sickness, dragging his half-paralyzed body to continue to live, immersed in entangled painful memories, sinking deeply, and forgetting to forget.

Li Anyun carefully put the porridge into his mouth, and the residual temperature burned his mouth. Shi Yu muttered for a while, lowered his eyes and wanted to say something, retched, and the mouthful of porridge he just fed overflowed the corner of his mouth.

"Brother, I'll eat with you, don't be like this, okay? I beg you...please..." Li Anyun was anxious, put down the bowl, threw herself on Shi Yu, buried her head in his shoulder and neck, tears clinging to his cheeks skin.

"Anjun..." Shi Jingyan didn't know what to say, she tried her best to make herself accept it, but thorns and roses would always bloom at the same moment, and the vines entangled in her heart sank deeper and deeper.

"Mom, what should I do? What if brother doesn't eat?" Li Anyun raised her watery eyes, looked at Shi Jingyan, and grabbed the corner of his clothes with one hand, tightening her grip.

"Brother wants to sleep, An An, do you want to sleep with my brother?" Shi Jingyan rubbed Li Anyun's hair, the little stars in her eyes dripped out, thinking that it would be another day after sunset, it seemed that it would not be so Terrible.

"Yes, I want to be with my brother." Li Anyun kicked off his shoes and gently lifted the quilt, Shi Xi moved Shi Yu to the side so that Li Anyun could go up.

"Brother, Anyun is here. It's so cold. Anyun will be warmed up under the quilt." Li Anyun lay gently beside him, her feet touched his legs, and she put on nursing socks, only touching the layer Cloth, if it was before, he would definitely smile and retract his feet, and the two of them would fight before falling asleep.

Shi Jingyan tucked the corner of the quilt for him, then opened Shi Yu's side, took off the trousers to have a look, then reached out her hand to feel if the fabric was wet.

"Yu'er is peeing again, go and get a clean one." Shi Jingyan untied the cloth from his body and threw it into a plastic basin, the bubbles had already been made, "Thicker ones, it has cooled down."

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Just pestering them all the time, Shi Yu didn't close his eyes all night, and woke up after crying. He couldn't accept that he had gone from a healthy body to a half-paralyzed body.

There was a bouquet of yellow unknown flowers on the window. Ye Luo handed it in from the outside when it was quiet, and left a message, which was also very gentle.

Shi Yu turned his head to look at Li Anyun who was already asleep, and smiled as before, raising the corners of his mouth.

Star returned to the sky and gave him a kiss as best he could, shallow but enough for him to feel.