After the movie queen gets married, she always collapses

Zuo Ruo was silent for a while, the dam that she had worked so hard to build over the years began to crack, she squeezed the corner of her clothes tightly, trying to show a false smile in front of Su Jindai, and whispered to the phone: "The dean doesn't say anything, naturally There is a reason she didn't say, it's actually very worthwhile to trade me alone for the improvement of the orphanage."

Su Jindai saw Zuo Ruo's sadness and her inadvertent fragility, and felt pain in her heart.

Zuo Ruo leaned against Su Jindai's arms, lovingly warming her slightly cold heart with the other's body temperature.

Mi Ju apologized guiltily: "I'm sorry, it took me so many years to tell you the truth."

After so many years, she finally said it.

Zuo Ruo was very generous, she didn't think there was anything wrong with Miju who had taken care of her for so long, it was the best choice at that time.

"You don't need to apologize, Orange, you have paid too much for me over the years, and you don't owe me anything."

"I need you all the time, but I hope you can also be happy and not stay in that time that I have forgotten."

Mi Ju stood up and walked towards the window, looking at the street lights outside, she calmed down and said honestly: "I need you more."

It was she who needed Zuo Ruo to rely on herself, and Zuo Ruo gave her the motivation to live hard, otherwise she would have escaped from this world at the age of six.

She will always remember the five-year-old child who was all dirty, but kept a steamed dumpling with clean hands, and climbed several floors just to get to the top of the building to give it to her.

It was Zuo Ruo at that time who warmed her heart and gave her light.

From then on, every time she felt lonely, she would eat a bowl of dumplings, recalling the warm time with Zuo Ruo.

It's a pity that the girl who gave her warmth has now become someone else's family, but if Zuo Ruo needs it, she will always be the other's family.

Zuo Ruo's thoughts are a little confused now, and he can't comfort Mi Ju, so he can only try his best to deal with it.

Seeing that she was absent-minded, Su Jindai took her mobile phone and said calmly: "Let's talk so much for now, if there are other things, we will talk later."

Mi Ju paused for a moment, and said: "Okay, take care of her, don't let her do stupid things."

No need for Mi Ju to say much, Su Jindai also knew what it meant.

Su Jindai thought of the various drugs she found in the interlayer when she was sorting Zuo Ruo's suitcase. She checked and found that they were all antidepressant drugs, and many of them had strong side effects.

Many of the medicines are almost empty, which shows that Zuo Ruo has been taking them for a long time.

If Zuo didn't want her to know, she would try her best to play dumb, as if she didn't know anything.

She lightly hugged Zuo Ruo's waist, thought for a while, and asked, "When did you lose your memory?"

Zuo Ruo thought for a while, and said, "When I was 17 years old, I fell into the water in my third year of high school. The doctor determined that it was hypoxic amnesia caused by brain suffocation."

"I subconsciously thought that I was dead, so I closed part of my memory. After being rescued, I lost my memory after being rescued. It has been six or seven years since now."

17 years old ...

Su Jindai fell silent, at this age...

Her arms around Zuo Ruo's waist trembled slightly, she pondered for a moment, and asked tentatively: "If you saw the person who caused you to fall into the water again, what would you... do?"

Zuo Ruo calmly said: "I would like to be hacked into pieces."

Su Jindai's body was a little stiff: "..."

Zuo Ruo suddenly remembered, why did the other party suddenly ask such a question?This is very suspicious.

She looked at Su Jindai suspiciously, and said, "It couldn't be you, could it?"

Su Jindai laughed dryly, and said softly, "...No, how could it be, we had never seen each other at that time."

"Really?"

"real."

Zuo Ruo heaved a sigh of relief, forced a smile and said, "Okay, I'm just joking, a thousand cuts won't be enough, after all, that person also gave a large sum of money to the orphanage, so that everyone at that time passed a big hurdle, I guess I won’t be able to make that much money in half my life.”

She endured the faint headache and the suffocating feeling and pushed Su Jindai, and when all the strength was reduced and trembling, she separated at the touch of a touch, trying not to let Su Jindai discover her abnormal natural way : "I'm hungry, and suddenly I want to eat roasted corn, please go downstairs and help me see where it's sold."

Su Jindai could hear the exhaustion in Zuo Ruo's voice, but she just thought it was because she couldn't accept the news just now and wanted to be alone, so she got up pretending that she hadn't noticed anything, and said, "Okay, I'll go downstairs to have a look, but I guess it's too late. No corn, but sweet corn kernels for salads should.”

Zuo Ruo replied bluntly: "It's all fine."

"Then I'm going down."

"Ah."

As soon as Su Jindai came out of the room, Zuo Ruo fell to the ground weakly, and her mobile phone also fell to the ground, and she wiped it aside. She was covered in cold sweat, and her fingers were so soft that she couldn't support her body. All trembling.

"medicine……"

She tried her best to crawl to the suitcase, but her limbs became weaker and weaker, and her head hurt like it was about to be torn apart.

She crawled hard, her brain seemed to be torn in two, and one half made her give up struggling. There was no expectation of her in this world, no one would protect her, and no one would like her.

Her partner was dismissed by a few words, and the other party didn't notice her abnormality at all.

"Give up, there is only pain in this world, no one likes you, this world doesn't love you."

"Your partner is not sincere either. She is lying to you. She doesn't love you. She is telling lies. She is an actress. Everything about her is acting, and only you are serious."

When she was about to be covered up by pain, the suppressed other half encouraged her again.

"She said she loves you, you have to believe her, you still have many lovely readers, the world and the sun, they are all waiting for you."

Two different voices kept arguing in her ears, causing her headache to split. Gradually, she seemed to be unaware of her own existence.

she loves me?

she does not love me?

who am I?

Who am I?

am i really me

Am I really dead?

"No, medicine..."

Panting heavily, Zuo Ruo opened the box, took out the medicine from it with shaking hands and poured it into her mouth, the medicine inside was shaken by her trembling hand that couldn't hold the medicine bottle, and she tried desperately to pick it up on the ground with tears in her eyes. But she tried hard for a long time, and every time she tried to pick up the pills, she would drop the pills again because of her weak hands.

The more she wanted to hurry up, the more anxious she became. The more anxious she became, the more unstable her hand became, and even the pills in front of her eyes appeared double.

She took a deep breath and told herself to calm down. With her trembling left hand, she picked up the medicine on the ground with her weak right hand, and threw it into her mouth without wiping it off.

The pills were very bitter, and the medicine that was taken without water stuck to her tongue and was melted by the saliva, bringing even more bitterness. Her eyes were red with irritation, but she didn't say a word.

After taking several powerful medicines, although her hands were still shaking, they were much better, not as shaking as before.

She knelt on the ground, shaking her hands, and picked up the pills one by one back into the bottle. Tears kept rolling in her eyes and did not fall.

When she finally finished picking up the medicine, and tremblingly closed the lid and ate the next box, tears finally fell down.

While crying uncontrollably, while trying to take the medicine, Zuo Ruo kept telling himself to be calm, to overcome the past, and not to show any strangeness.

After finally taking the medicine and filling it up, the next moment she felt her limbs were numb, a little uncoordinated, and very sleepy.

She knew that this was a side effect of the medicine.

She has been taking this medicine for a long time, and the previous medicine with mild side effects has lost its effect on her. This medicine has strong side effects, and she has taken a little less recently. She did not expect the effect to be so strong this time.

The eyelids kept fighting up and down, and finally, she couldn't control herself, put down the box and lay down on the ground and fell asleep.

Su Jindai, who had been standing outside the door listening to the movement, felt tight in her heart, and wanted to rush in countless times to tell Zuo Ruo that she already knew everything, so that she didn't have to carry her back when she took the medicine.

But in the end reason prevailed.

If Zuo Ruo didn't want to tell her, there was naturally her reason, rushing in by herself would probably scare Zuo Ruo.

After waiting for a while, after making sure that there was no movement inside, she opened the door and walked in. Seeing Zuo Ruo lying on the ground with stiff limbs, she hugged him distressedly and put Zuo Ruo on the bed.

Then he packed up his luggage and stuffed it back into the cabinet as if nothing happened, then got up and went downstairs to buy corn.

There is no roasted corn here, only corn kernels. She bought a bag of raw corn kernels and put them on the cabinet. She sat on the side of the bed and quietly looked at Zuo Ruo's sleeping face, which was still frowning in her sleep. Her heart ached. Soothe her.

"Don't be afraid, I will always be here."

"Even if you are angry, you are angry, you hate me, I will always be there."

Su Jindai lay down and put her arms around Zuo Ruo's waist, her heart was very complicated, but she complained more.

After thinking about it, she got up and made a phone call.

"What did father do back then?"

Su Xuanyuan: "What are you asking about?"

Su Jindai: "What else could it be?"

Su Xuanyuan was silent for a moment, then said indifferently: "I don't know."

Su Jindai gritted her teeth: "Su Xuanyuan!"

Su Xuanyuan: "You can ask him yourself, as far as what you did back then, I don't think he did anything wrong."

"I'll hang up if there's nothing else to do."

"Dududu-"

Su Jindai looked at the hung up phone with gloomy eyes.

No, she must find out what happened back then.

Mi Ju said that the old man gave the director of the orphanage a large sum of money to keep his mouth shut, but he must have done something else, otherwise Zuo Ruo would not have fallen into such a deep shadow.

But let her ask the old man now, the old man will never tell her, it seems that everything has to be checked by herself.

She looked back at Zuo Ruo, who was lying on the bed and was in a state of anxiety. This was the first time Zuo Ruo showed this state after being with her, and she didn't know how long Zuo Ruo would last in this state.

She just hoped that the other party would recover quickly.