After the movie queen gets married, she always collapses

Zuo Ruo fell asleep for a long time, and didn't wake up vaguely until after six o'clock in the afternoon the next day. She stood up and shook her head, which was still dizzy, not quite understanding why she got on the bed.

As soon as she woke up, Su Jindai who was sleeping next to her woke up immediately.

Su Jindai got up and hugged her into her arms. The few strokes almost wanted to rub Zuo Ruo into her flesh and blood. She said with a hoarse voice, "You woke up...you finally woke up..."

Zuo Ruo's brain was dizzy, and his reaction was a little sluggish due to the side effects of the medicine. After a while, he reached out and put his arms around Su Jindai's waist, and said in a hoarse and dry voice, "Don't be afraid, I'm fine."

"Scared me to death, you know that?"

Su Jindai's eyes were red. Last night, she didn't sleep all night, and she didn't close her eyes until noon. This was the first time she faced such a situation.

After taking the medicine and falling asleep, Zuo Ruo was stiff and numb all over. She cried out in her dream and kept calling for help, but no matter how she screamed, she couldn’t wake him up. She even slapped Zuo Ruo twice, but still Can't wake up Zuo Ruo.

The other party seemed to be separated from her by a world, and had no intersection with her.

She even called a doctor, but after the examination, the doctor told her that Zuo Ruo had only taken antidepressant drugs, which contained too much sleeping and calming ingredients, which suppressed her active nerves and prevented her from losing control of her emotions. behavior, so as not to self-harm.

So she just needs to wait until she has had enough sleep and the effect of the medicine wears off, and she will wake up.

Even with the doctor's guarantee, Su Jindai was still very worried, and stayed by Zuo Ruo's side all the time, refusing to leave even half a step.

The feeling of not being able to wake up Zuo Ruo was too terrifying. She never wanted to experience it again. She couldn't even imagine how Zuo Ruo got here all these years. If she hadn't met him again, where would Zuo Ruo be now?After taking the medicine, is another person crying in the dream?Calling for help in a dream, but no one lends a helping hand?

Thinking of these, Su Jindai fell into deep self-blame and remorse.

She even wanted to tell Zuo Ruo the truth desperately, so that she would not continue to suffer. If she could tell Zuo Ruo happy again, then she could say it as many times as she wanted.

Zuo Ruo dimly felt that something was wrong with Su Jindai's mood, and there was more regret in the fear?

She couldn't figure it out, so she could only try her best to soothe Su Jindai's emotions with her weak hands.

"Don't be afraid, don't be afraid."

Her voice was soft and there was a little nasal sound from a long sleep, which made people feel reassured and guilty.

"I can't wake you up, I'm so scared, Zuo Ruo, I'm so scared, no matter how I call, I can't get your response, and I can't help you in anything."

Su Jindai's tears wet Zuo Ruo's thin clothes, and she slid directly into Zuo Ruo's back, but Zuo Ruo was so dull that she didn't notice it. The side effects of the medicine were very serious for her, and her senses were already duller than when she first fell ill. a lot of.

She developed drug dependence.

"How long have I slept?"

"one day one Night."

"It's been so long..."

Zuo Ruo's voice was a little low. She had slept for too long this time, which had surpassed the previous record. The medicine changed this time was much more effective than before.

She looked at her trembling hand, blinked her eyes, the darkness came in a flash, and it took three or four seconds for it to change from blurred to clear.

"Yes, you slept too long."

Su Jindai's voice was trembling with fear, and the hands holding Zuo Ruo were trembling, as if she was not sure whether Zuo Ruo was really awake.

Suddenly, Zuo Ruo asked, "How long have you been sleeping?"

Su Jindai concluded for a moment: "I..."

Zuo Ruo frowned: "You haven't slept all day and all night?"

"Sleep..."

"how long?"

"...an hour?"

Zuo Ruo: "..."

She sighed softly, rubbed Su Jindai's messy long hair, let go of her, looked at Su Jindai's dark eyes, pale lips with dead skin and haggard expression, and said softly: "I haven't eaten either." ?”

Su Jindai held her other hand, feeling the slight trembling in the palm of her hand, she pursed her lips: "I can't eat."

"You didn't eat either, I can't eat alone."

What's more, she was afraid, she didn't dare to close her eyes, and she didn't dare to leave. She didn't even drink her saliva all day and night.

Zuo Ruo was deeply moved to meet such a person who cherished him.What more could she ask for?

She caressed the corner of Su Jindai's mouth distressedly, and said softly: "Then I'm hungry, can you eat with me?"

"Okay, I'm going to order food."

Su Jindai got up to get the landline in the room. When she got out of bed, she almost fell out of bed due to lack of sleep. Zuo Ruo wanted to pull her, but the two of them almost fell out of bed. Fortunately, Su Jindai had been an actress for a long time. The balance of his body was not bad, he stood on the ground with his astonishing waist strength, and Zuo Ruo also threw himself on the bed, holding Su Jindai's clothes in his hands.

Su Jindai: "..."

Zuo Ruo, who threw herself on the quilt, said, "..."

She straightened up in embarrassment and waved her hand: "Unexpected accident, you go."

Su Jindai went to order a meal with suspicion, and within 3 minutes, she returned to Zuo Ruo, looked at her with deep eyes and said nothing.

Zuo Ruo: "?"

"It's so fast, let's go wash up..."

Su Jindai: "Actually..."

After the two spoke at the same time, they stopped at the same time.

Zuo Ruo looked at Su Jindai, wondering why she mentioned the year, what was it?

Zuo Ruo felt that she might hear something unacceptable to her, she paused, and in the eyes of Su Jindai who hesitated to speak, she said as if to evade: "Well, let's wash up first, wait a while Convenient to eat."

She got up limply, obviously already used to the heavy feeling brought by her body after taking the medicine, but this time she felt that her body was extraordinarily heavy, so heavy that she could hardly move her legs.

Zuo Ruo laughed at himself, but he had been pampered for a few days, why couldn't he even bear this little thing?A few years of habits, can you change it if you say it?

Maybe it's true that misfortunes never come singly, and her stomach suddenly began to churn with discomfort. This is not the first time, after the effect of the medicine has increased, she will basically vomit every time she wakes up after taking the medicine.

It's just that she didn't expect it to come so fast this time, she staggered a bit, and almost tripped and fell to the ground by herself.

Su Jindai watched Zuo Ruo struggling forward, and even staggered a bit, subconsciously walked over to try to support her, but Zuo Ruo slapped her away.

"Need not."

Although Zuo Ruo's face was ugly, he insisted: "I can do it myself."

Su Jindai was a little dazed when her hand was opened suddenly, as if she didn't expect that she would be rejected so decisively.

It seemed that something was broken from Zuo Ruo, the kind that couldn't be pasted again.

Zuo Ruo struggled to go to the washroom, and threw up on the toilet, his stomach turned upside down again, the sound insulation of the toilet was not good, Su Jindai could hear Zuo Ruo's movements inside clearly.

She clenched her fists, gritted her teeth and told herself that when Zuo Ruo came out later, she would explain everything clearly.

Zuo Ruo vomited for 10 minutes, until she vomited yellow water and barely recovered a lot. She wiped her mouth and began to wash and take a bath.

After everything was cleared up, she came out wrapped in a bathrobe.

Su Jindai just walked over and wanted to speak, but Zuo Ruo raised her hand and pressed her lips. Zuo Ruo had just vomited, plus she hadn't eaten for a day and now she didn't have the strength to say anything, so she was very weak.

With a sickly blush on her pale face, she pressed Su Jindai's mouth where she wanted to explain, her voice hoarse: "Go and clean yourself up first."

Su Jindai couldn't refuse: "...OK."

When Su Jindai tidied herself up and came out, Zuo Ruo had already eaten.

Although she is not proficient in using the knife and fork, she can barely do it by herself. With the hot water washing, her hand no longer has the shaking feeling before, and it has become a lot more stable, and the knife and fork can be held very steadily.

Seeing Su Jindai come out, she raised her chin towards the steak on the table and said briefly, "Sit."

At this moment, the two's personalities seemed to be switched, but Su Jindai became cautious and scared. She sat across from each other like a little daughter-in-law, seeing Zuo Ruo's calm expressionless face, she tried to speak again.

Zuo Ruo interrupted her again: "I'm hungry, let's eat first, it's the same if I have something to eat before I finish."

Su Jindai was silent for a while, but still picked up the knife and fork.

Her movements are very elegant, even though she eats very quickly, she still does not affect her beauty.

On the contrary, Zuo Ruo, because he is not familiar with knives and forks, always gets bitten by the fork when eating.

Finally, after dinner, Su Jindai saw Zuo Ruo sitting on the bed and went over by herself, after thinking twice, she still said: "Ah Ruo..."

"Su Jindai."

Su Jindai, who was suddenly named, immediately said nervously, "I'm here."

Zuo Ruo: "Blow dry my hair."

Su Jindai knew that it was just that Zuo Ruo didn't want to listen to what she had to say, but Su Jindai just couldn't refuse any of her requests, so she took out the hair dryer she carried in the suitcase and sat by the bed to blow dry Zuo Ruo's hair.

"Use cold air."

"it is good."

The comfortable cold wind blowing on the scalp brought Zuo Ruo a sense of calmness. She enjoyed the feeling of Su Jindai's hand caressing her scalp, and also enjoyed the other party's dedicated service.

but……

Zuo Ruo closed his eyes, listening to the loud blowing sound of the hair dryer, his heart was at peace.

No one is inseparable from anyone, and neither is she.

After drying her hair, Zuo Ruo took Su Jindai to sit down and asked her to blow-dry Su Jindai's hair.

Su Jindai's hair is thick and slippery, and it feels comfortable to the touch. This is not the first time she has touched the other party's hair, but it is the first time she has blow-dried the other party's hair like this.

Su Jindai felt a little uneasy in her heart, Zuo Ruo like this was too unfamiliar to her, she had never seen Zuo Ruo who was so calm, so calm... It seemed that in the next second, they would become strangers to each other.

Strangers...

She doesn't want to.

She won't let go even if she dies.

"The person you saved back then was me."

Su Jindai's sudden words made Zuo Ruo stop blowing Su Jindai's hair.

"Sorry, I lied to you from the beginning."

"You can beat me and scold me, but you can't leave me."

Su Jindai suddenly turned around and grabbed Zuo Ruo's hand holding the hair dryer, with a serious expression: "I can accept all your accusations and resentment, but I can't accept that you leave me and don't love me."

"I know that because of what happened back then, you have been hurt a lot, and you have been left with psychological trauma. I will make up for you twice in the future. Don't leave me, okay?"

Su Jindai looked at Zuo Ruo who had an indifferent expression almost beggingly, Zuo Ruo's caught hand twitched subconsciously, wanting to calm down, maybe she needed to take some medicine to relieve it.

She smiled wryly twice, and said softly, "Let me go first."

With pain in her eyes, Su Jindai struggled and said, "...I don't."

Zuo Ruo felt that the medicine was really effective, and it could still make her so calm at this time, she inhaled her sore and swollen nose, took a deep breath, turned off the hair dryer, and said calmly: "What's the matter, you put it away first. Let me talk."

Su Jindai's eyes were red, tears were rolling in her eyes, and she said in a choked voice, "I'm afraid that once I let you go, you will leave me and never come back..."

"I don't want to go through what happened last night again."

"Zuo Ruo, don't leave me..."

Su Jindai's words are incomparable, but she knows in her heart that this person loves her, but what she did in the past hurt her too much, and she can no longer be as calm as she didn't know in the past Getting along with this person, I was moved by her.

Zuo Ruo slowly sat on the bed by posture, and said with a serious expression: "I know, both of us are at fault for this matter."

"Although I don't remember exactly what happened, I know that the person who can make me give up everything to save is definitely not the kind of person who abandons me and runs for his life."

Seeing that Zuo Ruo understood herself, Su Jindai became excited.

"but……"

Zuo Ruo quickly changed the subject: "Su Jindai, after all these years, why have you never appeared in my life?"

"I……"

I can not……

I dare not appear in front of you, because I am too weak, even if I stand at the top of the entertainment industry, I still can't compete with my father, I don't want to bring you any danger...

Su Jindai has a lot of things she wants to explain to Zuo Ruo. Obviously she can explain in a thousand words, but seeing Zuo Ruo's bright eyes as if covered by dust at the moment, her mouth can't make any sound .

Yes, these are just excuses.

If she could go to Zuo Ruo earlier and make it clear, and stay with him toughly, why would Zuo Ruo have to suffer for so many years?

Su Jindai lowered her head: "I'm sorry..."

Apart from these three words, she didn't seem to know what to say.

It seems that it is useless to say anything, because the other party doesn't need it at all.

Zuo Ruo sniffed fiercely, showed a smile that was uglier than crying, and asked: "So, you recognized me from the beginning, but you just looked at me who didn't understand anything, bit by bit Falling into the gentle trap you laid, let me get used to you, fall in love with you, must you?"

Su Jindai took Zuo Ruo's hand, repeating those three words: "I'm sorry..."

Apart from this, she really can't say anything, because what Zuo Ruo said is true.

It was she who was shameless, it was she who was despicable, it was she who took advantage of Zuo Ruo's feelings to make her fall in love with him and marry him.

Zuo Ruo looked at the proud woman in front of her when she first met her, but now she became so humble in front of him, but she couldn't feel any happiness in her heart.

She suppressed her tears and turned her head away: "Besides these three words, what else would you say?"

Su Jindai didn't know what else to say, she could only repeat the three words 'I'm sorry', as if only these three words could express her current mood.

Zuo Ruo looked at her and suddenly got tired.

No matter how entangled too much, what has happened has already happened, and no one can change it.

"I don't need your apology. To be honest, I have to thank you."

Zuo Ruo's tone was calm and his expression was numb: "If it weren't for the money from your family, the orphanage would not be able to support so many children, so that those deaf children could have surgery, and Miju could afford to pay for it." Tuition fees, no need to work hard for tuition fees."

She twitched the corners of her mouth and laughed at herself: "Thinking about it this way, I got so many benefits without taking my worthless life, and I earned it."

Su Jindai's eyes were red, she grabbed Zuo Ruo's wrist forcefully, and said angrily: "You are not allowed to say that, I am not allowed."

"You are the most important and always will be."

But Zuo Ruo looked at his imprisoned hands and smiled: "I'm not, I'm just an orphan who no one wants, has no parents, and no relatives. I have nothing and nothing is worth it."

"This world doesn't need me at all..."

"need!"

Su Jindai said eagerly: "I need, I need you."

"Trust me, Ah Ruo, can you trust me again?"

"I beg you, trust me one more time, just once."

Zuo Ruo's eyes no longer had the charm they used to have, only empty silence remained, like a walking corpse without a soul.

She looked at Su Jindai who was pleading with her with eyes full of death, and her voice was soft and soft, as if it would be blown away by the wind: "I used to believe in you..."

Su Jindai let go of one hand and swore: "I'm sorry, but you trust me one more time, just once, and I will never let you down again, and I will never deceive you again."

"If I lie to you again, let me be hit by a car when I go out, be caught by an earthquake at home, be caught by a tsunami when I go out, and go to the [-]th floor of hell. I will never be reborn, okay?"

She looked at Zuo Ruo with gentle and loving eyes, trying to warm Zuo Ruo's cold heart with her tenderness, but Zuo Ruo suddenly smiled, overwhelmed her, and said calmly, "Kiss me."

Su Jindai trembled all over, and looked at her in disbelief: "?"

Zuo Ruo's expression was very calm: "Kiss me."

Su Jindai's brain froze, and then she showed ecstasy. Does this mean that she forgave herself?Did she forgive herself?

"Don't you want to?"

"No, I would."

She held Zuo Ruo's face devoutly and kissed it. The two kissed very seriously. It was rare that Zuo Ruo was not driven by Su Jindai's rhythm. Instead, she worked hard to match her. This made Su Jindai want Relax and let Zuo Ruo gain the upper hand.

But as soon as Zuo Ruo noticed that she was retreating, she stopped attacking, which made Su Jindai understand that Zuo Ruo didn't want her to give in, what she wanted was a fair confrontation.

She no longer retreated, and chose the attack she was best at.

Zuo Ruo retreated steadily, and was finally successfully captured by Su Jindai.

After the two turned upside down in the middle of the night, they hugged each other tiredly and closed their eyes, but after Su Jindai fell asleep, Zuo Ruo quietly got up, she stuffed the pillow into Su Jindai's arms, and got up quietly He put on his clothes, packed his things, left the room card in the room, and left silently with his things.

She didn't leave any news or say anything, but just deleted all of Su Jindai's contact information after she left the house, and booked a flight back home overnight.

Before boarding the plane, she called Miju.

The other party seemed to be still asleep and didn't answer the call. Zuo Ruo thought for a while, then hung up, and only sent a text message to the other party, and then turned on the airplane mode and got on the plane.

When Su Jindai woke up, Zuo Ruo had already set foot on the flat land of the motherland, and the first thing she did after getting off the plane was to re-apply for two cards with another card that Su Jindai didn't know, binding all the cards to the original one. Both cards have been changed.

Then she lost the original two cards, and from then on, she and Su Jindai were really strangers.

The previous things were at Su Jindai's house, and she didn't want them anymore. The previous rental house had already been returned, and she couldn't go to Mi Ju's house. She was only Mi Ju's friend, and Su Jindai would know if she asked a little.

The orphanage can't go back either, she is already so old, and there is no room for her to go back.

After thinking about it, the country is so big, there is no place that can take her in.

However, Zuo Ruo thought about the money he had saved over the years, and thought that anyway, she still had manuscript fees, could afford to rent a house, and could afford to live in a hotel, which was how she lived in the past, and her uneasiness stabilized again.

She is reluctant to resent Su Jindai, but she can't choose to let her leave someone with such sequelae, so she can only choose to leave. Maybe Mi Ju will scold her for escaping and the behavior of the weak, but now she There really isn't room for anything in my head.

It doesn't matter if you say she is weak, or you say she is useless.

She really... could only think of this way.

Maybe when she figured it out and was able to face it, she would be relieved.

Standing under the sun in mid-October, Zuo Ruo only felt that his whole body was getting cold, especially his stomach.

Su Jindai didn't sleep well that night, the picture in her dream was that Zuo Ruo left her with something, no matter how much she yelled at him, he didn't turn back.

When she woke up from the dream, the sun was already high, and there was no one in the room except her.

She suddenly panicked, did the dream come true?

What about Zuo Ruo?ran away?

She called out tremblingly, "Ah Ruo?"

No one responded in the cold room.

She continued to shout in disbelief: "Zuo Ruo?"

She waited for a minute, but there was still no response. The person who would always respond to her when she opened her mouth on weekdays was gone.

She jumped out of bed and searched the whole room, only to find that Zuo Ruo walked in very cleanly, so clean that there was nothing left of her in the whole room.

Su Jindai only felt that her heart was empty, and there were bursts of pain as if her heart had been ripped away.

Suddenly, she remembered that there was still a mobile phone, and if Zuo Ruo left, she would definitely turn on the mobile phone.

She dialed hopefully.

After the phone beeped a few times, no one answered, and there was only a voice assistant's voice prompting her to transfer the message function.

She didn't believe it and continued to make dozens of calls in a row, but each time it was displayed as please leave a message, and the other party didn't answer her call.

She sent WeChat and found that she had been deleted.

I sent dozens of hundreds of text messages, but no one replied. All the messages seemed to disappear without any response.

Her hand that was holding onto the phone slipped powerlessly, and her whole body seemed to collapse in an instant, and a burst of darkness flashed before her eyes.

"She doesn't want me anymore..."

Realizing this fact, Su Jindai felt that her world had collapsed, she fell powerlessly to the ground, and her whole body was like an eggplant beaten by frost, she was stunned.

Suddenly, her eyes caught a white thing in the corner of the cabinet, she walked over to pick it up, and it turned out to be a medicine, a medicine she had seen in Zuo Ruo's box.

Zuo Ruo probably dropped it accidentally while taking the medicine, but the other party didn't notice, so it was kept.

Suddenly she thought that since Zuo Ruo had been prescribed by the same doctor before, she would definitely go for a reexamination later on. It is impossible to change doctors at will for this kind of disease, so she just needs to know who the doctor is, and then block people. up.

Su Jindai clenched the pill tightly, her eyes were firm: "I won't let go."

At this moment, she was extraordinarily calm, and took out the phone number to call her manager: "Brother Zhang, help me find someone."

Zhang Qi, who had finally taken a vacation, was puzzled: "Who?"

"Zuo Ruo."

Zhang Qi listened to the familiar name, searched his memory, and finally remembered where he had seen this name before: "... Who are you talking about?"

Zuo Ruo?Isn't that Su Jindai's wife?

Didn't the two go on their honeymoon?He should be abroad at the moment, why is he suddenly asked to help find a wife in China?

Su Jindai repeated: "Zuo Ruo."

Zhang Qi pinched his brows: "Isn't that your wife? Didn't you two go on honeymoon? It's only been a few days, and your wife ran away? Even if she ran away, she might not necessarily return to China, right?"

Su Jindai's heart throbbed when she thought about Zuo Ruo's anomaly before she left, "...you don't have to worry about it, just help me find someone quickly, her ID card and visa were taken away, she should have returned to China. "

Zhang Qi: "All right, all right."

After thinking about it, Zuo Ruo might change the house and phone number in order to avoid himself, and the only person Zuo Ruo can contact at this time is only one.

She pursed her lips: "By the way, help me find someone's phone number. Her name is Mi Ju, a girl. She is now on a long-term business trip in Paris. She is Zuo Ruo's friend. They both came out of the same orphanage."

"Row."

"please."

Listening to Su Jindai's deep and hoarse voice, Zhang Qi persuaded with his own experience: "No matter what happens, I have taken you with me for so many years. You should make it clear what is going on as a husband and wife, otherwise she will After the first time, there will be a second..."

"There will be no second time."

Su Jindai's sensitive nerves were touched, and she said sharply: "There will be no second time, absolutely not."

She has been obsessed with and planned for so many years, she will never let her escape from her side again, this time is already an accident, and she will not allow a third accident to happen.

Listening to Su Jindai's voice, Zhang Qi felt that his spirit might be on the verge of going berserk, so he didn't dare to persuade her anymore.

After so many years in the entertainment industry, although Su Jindai's acting skills are excellent, she has become more and more paranoid about feelings and characters. It would be fine if Zuo Ruo could really control her, but if he couldn't, he wasn't sure Su Jindai would. do something.

One is indifferent and paranoid, and the other runs away after a disagreement. How did these two people get together?It's really puzzling.

He could only appease Su Jindai first, and promised: "Okay, okay, no, no, I'll check."

Su Jindai hung up the phone and threw herself on the sofa. The phone slipped from her hand and fell to the ground. She didn't have any mood to pick it up. She watched the sun rising higher and higher with a numb expression, but she didn't have any feelings in her heart. temperature.

Even if some things are explained clearly, the traces left in her heart will not disappear. No matter how good she is to Zuo Ruo, the black hole left in Zuo Ruo's heart, the suffering of the past few years, is still lingering.

What can she do to win back Zuo Ruo's heart?

She didn't understand, she really didn't understand, why wasn't she even given a chance to make up?

Grabbing her hair in pain, the more painful her scalp was, the clearer Su Jindai's brain became, but the clearer she was, the more she could understand what pain Zuo Ruo had endured all these years.

If it were me, I would definitely not be able to forgive the person who left me with a psychological shadow, re-pretend to appear by my side as if nothing had happened, and continue to fabricate lies to deceive my feelings.

It is precisely because of this sobriety and empathy that Su Jindai can no longer bear to leave Zuo Ruo.

She lay in a daze from the sunrise in the morning until the sun rose to the top at noon. During this period, she did not eat or drink, and lay there as if her soul had been sucked out. Before receiving the news, she had no appetite or motivation.

If it weren't for her occasional eyes turning, people would think she was dead.

Suddenly, the phone that she dropped on the ground buzzed, her brain slowed down a bit, she reached out to pick up the phone and picked it up, Zhang Qi's voice came from the opposite side: "I found Miju, her number in Paris is 19322..."

Su Jindai didn't want to hear this, she only wanted to know one thing: "Where's the news about Zuo Ruo?"

Zhang Qi flipped through the information he found, and said: "I only found out that she returned from Paris on a plane early this morning, and I don't know where she went after that. Her phone number before could not be reached, and I don't know now."

"I also found her previous case here, which contains the phone number of her attending physician, do you want it?"

Su Jindai's voice was hoarse: "Send them all to me."

Zhang Qi: "Don't worry too much. Since she's back, you can definitely meet her. She will need an ID card to make a car. Just check it when the time comes."

"However, there are many problems in her case, you..."

He flipped through the files and sighed: "Be nice to her."

Looking at the thick treatment records, even Zhang Qi, who has been in the entertainment industry for decades, can't bear it. This child is too pitiful.

Su Jindai: "I know."

All the suffering the other party experienced was brought about by her, how could she not know how to treat the other party better?

But the premise of being nice to the other party is that you can see the other party.

The information was packaged and sent by Zhang Qi on his mobile phone. Su Jindai looked at the detailed information on it, and her heart throbbed numbly.

【Name: Zuo Ruo

Age: 25 years old

Height: 162cm

Weight: XNUM X kg

Occupation: Web novel author

Attending Physician: Li Jiao

Symptoms: Severe depression, hallucinations, social phobia, suicidal behavior five years ago, the condition is moving towards split personality, now the hallucinations are gradually hidden, it is recommended to stay in hospital for observation. 】

The following are almost all detailed treatment processes. During the first treatment, the patient was extremely uncooperative, and even once fell into a situation where fantasy and reality could not be distinguished.

It didn't start to improve until the past two years, and the most serious one was in 2083, when Zuo Ruo actually stayed in a mental hospital for a whole year.

During that year, Mi Ju took a leave of absence from school to work frantically to earn money for Zuo Ruo's treatment.

The more she looked down, the more surprised and cold Su Jindai's heart became.

Zuo Ruo was admitted to the hospital for three months but attempted suicide many times, and was forced to use sleeping pills to enter a slumber state for conservative treatment.

Looking at it, Su Jindai's hands trembled so much that she could hardly hold the phone. It seemed that she had exhausted all her courage for the rest of her life to read that small document.

How much she wanted to close the data directly and stop looking at these, so that she could still pretend that nothing happened and continue to keep silent without knowing anything.

But after reading these materials, especially the treatment process, her tears splashed on the screen of the mobile phone drop by drop, making the screen wet.

These are the things that Zuo Ruo has really experienced, these are the sufferings she brought to Zuo Ruo, and they are all the sins she committed.

If she hadn't followed Zuo Ruo back then and made friends with her, Zuo Ruo wouldn't have been forced into the water to save her who was being chased and killed by fanatical fans.

As long as she doesn't go into the water, she doesn't have to go through this.

The pain in her heart seemed to overflow, she hugged the phone and started to cry, as if she wanted to cry out all the grievances she had suffered for Zuo Ruo: "I'm sorry, I'm sorry..."

"I didn't know you'd been through so much in places I didn't see."

In this world, it turns out that there are really people who have exhausted all their strength just to live.

After crying until her voice was hoarse and she could hardly make a sound, she saw the information belonging to Miju at the back, and her phone number was at the top.

After watching the first half of Zuo Ruo's life, she was actually afraid of this phone call. She couldn't face Mi Ju, especially when she knew that Zuo Ruo was in the most painful time, only Mi Ju was with her. My heart is even more painful.

Every pain Zuo Ruo suffered was like a knife piercing her heart.

Zuo Ruo's body is pierced with hundreds of holes, just like her heart that has been cut into pieces by thousands of knives.

She stared at the string of numbers for a long time, until her whole body was so stiff that it made a clicking sound when she moved, then she gritted her teeth and dialed the string of numbers.

The other side rang but was connected after three rings.

Mi Ju's voice was urgent, she asked uncertainly: "Ah Ruo?"

That's right, since she woke up and saw the message left by Zuo Ruo, she has been calling Zuo Ruo's phone, but the messages she got were always unanswered.

She couldn't get through the phone, so she could only wait for Zuo Ruo to take the initiative to call her.

But I didn't expect that this guarding lasted all morning, and I finally answered the phone, but the other party didn't say a word, Mi Ju became more uncertain, and called again: "Is it Ah Ruo?"

Su Jindai was silent for a moment, then said hoarsely, "No, I'm Su Jindai."

Mi Ju suddenly heard Su Jindai speak, and couldn't recognize it for a while, but when Su Jindai's name came out, she immediately became vigilant.

She was silent for a moment, then said indifferently, "You made a mistake."

She gave Zuo Ruo to the other party with peace of mind before because Zuo Ruo's voice sounded very happy, but since she saw Zuo Ruo's message to herself, she kept regretting it.

Why did she have to drag Zuo Ruo out to experience life? If everything could be done again, she would never let Zuo Ruo go out again, so that everything now would not happen.

Before Mi Ju was about to hang up the phone angrily, Su Jindai hurriedly asked, "I want to ask you about Zuo Ruo!"

The air was silent for a long time before Mi Ju said in a cold voice: "You have been with her for almost two months, don't you know anything?"

Su Jindai took a breath: "I..."

Mi Ju continued to ask: "If you don't know anything, how can you have the confidence to let her belong to you? Su Jindai, is it just because you are the three gold actresses?"

Su Jindai: "...that's not what I meant."

Mi Ju: "Isn't that what you mean? What do you want to ask her, if it's something very private, I won't tell you."

Su Jindai: "I just want to know, did she tell you where she went after she left?"

Mi Ju sneered: "I don't even know you, the person sleeping next to her, so how would I know? I handed her over to you because she likes you, not for you to throw her away!"

"I told you before that I told you to take good care of her. She is mentally ill and prone to illnesses. Every episode is very painful. You have lived with her for so long. Didn't you find that she has been taking medicine?"

As she spoke, Mi Ju's voice became irritable. She spoke very forcefully, stabbing Su Jindai's heart every word, but Su Jindai couldn't refute, but just endured it silently.

In the end, Mi Ju was also exhausted, she was also at fault, she should have rushed over immediately, instead of letting Su Jindai look at Zuo Ruo at ease, she was self-righteous.

"I don't know where she went. She didn't tell me. Her previous mobile phone number is lost, and she probably won't use it again. Let's talk about it after she contacts me. Hang up first."

She doesn't really want to hear Su Jindai's voice now, she is afraid that she will vent all her temper by then