atypical romanticism

hospital.

Sunshine filled the corridor, and the air was mixed with the faint smell of disinfectant. Zhou Yu leaned against the wall on one side of the counseling room. Li Zhi hadn't come yet. This was the first time she had arrived early in three years.

In fact, this should be the norm - when you are sick and see a doctor, there is no reason to make the doctor wait eagerly.

But when Li Zhi saw Zhou Yu standing at the door of the consulting room, even though Zhou Yu had sent a WeChat message to ask her the time the night before, he was still taken aback.

Just like a child who has been not serious about studying at home, suddenly one day after class, he will actively pester the teacher with problems. The reaction was not relief, but whether the child was holding back his big move.

Li Zhi poured Zhou Yu a glass of water, and Zhou Yu thanked him and sat on the chair calmly after taking it. There was no over-disguised "normal" and "calm", and his whole body was relaxed.

"Actually, I was satisfied when I received your WeChat message," Li Zhi smiled and said, "But I am more happy, thank you for trusting me."

Zhou Yu rubbed his thumb on the wall of the cup, and said with a slight smile, "I have always trusted you, but I am a person who wants to save face and suffer, and has caused you a lot of trouble in the past three years."

"Now are you willing to tell me about the sensual dogs behind the high walls you have built?"

Zhou Yu smiled, "Of course, I should have told you this from the beginning."

People don't get fat in a day, and money doesn't get earned in a day. Similarly, bipolar disorder can't be acquired in an instant.

In the beginning, it was endless verbal bullying. Compared with physical bullying, verbal bullying is smartest because it can put a knife in the heart of the bullied, and when the bullied tries to seek help, experience Elders who have experienced more hardships in life will only feel that the psychological quality of today's children is really poor, and they are worthy of the "Beat Generation".

Once it hit a wall, it began to be permanently closed.

Fortunately for Zhou Yu, Ms. Yu Hong didn't allow her to stay in the parallel class for too long at all. She was more afraid of Yu Hong's hoarse accusations than the cynicism of those bastards who didn't grow up all their hair—"You Grades, are you worthy of me and your dad? Are you worthy of yourself?"

——Are you sorry for yourself?

I'm sorry.

In the gap between answering a question in class, the textbook was blurred by ink; after writing for half a night, the homework could not be handed in to the teacher; when class was over, the students who covered their noses and frowned when passing by me; in physical education class, they were stopped in the corner of the classroom Here, endless ridicule.Any of the above points, lasting for a semester, is enough to drive a student who has no experience in society crazy, but Zhou Yu survived, and she returned to the experimental class in the second semester.

She thought this farce could end here, but bastards will never "end it" just because you get out of the quagmire - when it ends here, they have the final say.

Zhou Yu felt like a mute whose voice was blocked, his hands and feet were bound by iron chains, and the people around him "had nothing to do with him, hanging high". After he couldn't bear it, he let out a low growl. The expressions of understanding, or the intensified "revenge" of the teachers who were blinded by the lively and cheerful "excellent students" and came back.

When Zhou Yu recalled that year of darkness, he was shocked that he didn't think of killing them with a knife.After the shock, there was gloom and self-deprecation that couldn't come out—you didn't even have the courage to fight them, so you deserved to be used as a vent.

Time is a good medicine, and all suffering and misfortune can be cured by it-but no one has indicated before this sentence that the duration of suffering and misfortune.

Zhou Yu survived the turbulent junior high school and missed the key class. He thought it would be over this time, but life didn't intend to let her go.

At the beginning of September, the moment she stepped into the classroom, she saw a familiar face. That face seemed to have never expected to meet her, and she was stunned for a while, and then smiled, as if to say, it turns out that high school also Still so interesting.

The first and a half months of high school were spent in anxiety, perhaps because Yu Hong was the teaching director, and those people didn't bother her.Trouble may be late, but never absent.

After the evening self-study get out of class, Yu Hong had to hold a meeting, and Zhou Zhou's work unit was also working overtime, so Zhou Yu went home by himself.

After picking out the teaching materials from the bookstore, she was just about to go home when a sobbing sound came from the alley beside her, like a girl.

Zhou Yu didn't think much, turned into that alley, and pretended to be full of those extremely familiar faces.

In the era when surveillance cameras were not popularized, dark and damp alleys were natural places to "chat". A little girl in a disheveled school uniform was pushed to the ground, and the mud wet with slops was particularly dazzling on the blue school uniform.

That girl Zhou Yu had an impression, she was her classmate, a poor student from a difficult family, she was silent in the class, she was almost a transparent existence, her grades were also average, Zhou Yu couldn't imagine the reason why those people targeted her .

After Zhou Yu realized that it was the group of people who were causing trouble, he backed away physiologically, his body trembling uncontrollably—the haze she had finally gotten rid of, and she didn't want to be dragged into the swamp anymore.

She ran out of the alley, and the sound of her footsteps was getting closer and closer. There was a red light on the other side of the road. Zhou Yu gritted her teeth and returned to the bookstore, hiding under the counter.The red light on the other side of the road turned into a green light, and the people chasing her rushed across the zebra crossing.

Zhou Yu breathed a sigh of relief, and the boss looked at her blankly and surprised.

"I'm sorry, Auntie," Zhou Yu thought of the girl who was pushed into the mud, hesitated for a moment, and said, "Auntie, there is a little girl who was bullied in the alley over there, you can go and see her ?"

"I... I'm kind of scared."

"Don't be afraid, good boy," the boss helped her up, "I'll go and see, can you go home by yourself?"

"Yes." Zhou Yu nodded.

The street lights were dim, and the shadows of the trees reflected on the ground were mottled, like a monster with teeth and claws.

That girl should be fine.

They won't look for me, will they?

No way.

The next day, there were two empty desks in the classroom.Zhou Yu looked at one of the empty tables, and his right eye twitched.

At the flag-raising ceremony a week later, the "nightmare" that had disappeared for a week returned.

"Tang Kexin and Zheng Qing from Class One and Three, and five students from Class One and Sixteen, Liu Tao, Qin Yu, and Wang Lun, went to the small alley on the west side of Zhengde Bookstore after self-study on the evening of September 9, together with the gangsters outside the school. Bullying classmates, this kind of behavior is extremely shameful! It violates morality and the law, but based on the fact that these five students have a good attitude of admitting their mistakes, and have already obtained the forgiveness of the victimized students, the school decided to give the above five students a record Punishment for serious demerits, please take it as a warning to all students!"

Excuse me?

Forgive me!

Forgive me.

Zhou Yu looked back at Tang Kexin who was standing at the end of the line, and Tang Kexin was also looking at her.

Suddenly, her scalp went numb—Tang Kexin smiled slightly, made trumpet-shaped hands, and mouthed, "I see you."

A week later, Yu Hong was sent to another city to study and go on a business trip, and Zhou Zhou was also on night shift that week.

Still in the dim alley, there are still those familiar faces. The reason is exactly the same as two years ago, but the target is different. Three years ago, Xinruan accompanied Lin Yi for a walk; now it is because of Ruanxin, the girl who was bullied.

As a result, you softened the other's heart, but they were grateful for your diversion of firepower.

The school uniform that had just been cleaned was crumpled up and thrown into the trash can with swill running, the books in the schoolbag were scattered all over the place, Zhou Yu was squeezed into a corner, his hair was messed up, his hair was pulled by someone, and his eyes were lowered He was forced to see Scum's face clearly.

"Zhou Yu, I wanted to make a new friend when I was in high school," Tang Kexin squinted at her, slapping her face with her white and slender hands, "I never expected that you will never forget me."

"Stop talking nonsense with Xiao Nizi, and you haven't bullied her, do you think she's free?!"

"That's right, you fucking know it's because you meddle in other people's business, sir, I was almost killed by my dad!"

"Who the hell do you think you are?! That old lady Yu Hong doesn't have as many fucking things as you!"

Tang Kexin raised her brows slightly, chuckled, and the hand that was pulling her hair strengthened again. In an instant, Zhou Yu felt that he was no different from the Indians whose scalps were cut off a hundred years ago—both were slaughtered and powerless It is considered "correct" to resist and bully them.

"Zhou Yu, Yu Hong is your mother, right?"

As soon as the words were finished, the endless cursing was quiet for a second, and the self-proclaimed young master was discouraged: "Sister Xin, this girl's mother is that old woman Yu Hong, or let's forget it?"

Tang Kexin sneered: "Do you think it's too late for us to stop now?"

"Since we have started, we must achieve the ultimate." The hand that was pulling Zhou Yu's hair slammed against the wall. In an instant, Zhou Yu's eyes darkened. Before she fainted, a bottle of mineral water swept her from head to toe. The tail was drenched, "To make her dare not open her mouth, there is nothing more entertaining than being dumb."

"The clothes were pulled out for her."

Zhou Yu suddenly woke up, and with the last bit of strength, he tried to push away Tang Kexin who was pressing her down.But Tang Kexin seemed to have seen too many of her stubborn beasts, so she slapped her neatly, and that slap slapped her temple firmly, and Zhou Yu was stunned for a while.

"Who the hell do you think you are, meddling like your mother!"

The well-protected skin was exposed to the air, and a gust of cool wind blew by, causing goose bumps.

"I can't see it, Xueba," Tang Kexin held up the camera and photographed unscrupulously, "It's quite expected, do you have a boyfriend?"

Zhou Yu stared at her firmly, tears filled her eyes, she wanted to wipe them off before they fell, but they pressed her arms firmly against the wall.After Tang Kexin finished taking pictures, she leaned close to her and showed her the photos one by one: "Born to be a bitch."

Tang Kexin seemed very satisfied with her ashen expression, put away the camera, and told everyone to leave: "Take care of your mouth, don't go out and talk nonsense~"

After they left, Zhou Yu sat in the mud for a long time. She stood up against the wall when her calves stopped shaking. She picked up the books scattered on the ground one by one. The card was torn off, since it was already in the trash can, there was no need to pick it up.

It was me who picked it up and felt disgusted, and I was the one who responded.

-

After Xiang Sheng finished his examination, he rushed to the psychological consultation room.Li Zhi just wanted to throw people out, but Zhou Yu stopped her: "Doctor Li, she is my lover."

Zhou Yu looked at Xiang Sheng, his pale face recovered a little color: "I'm afraid that if I don't tell her these things at this time, I will never dare again in the future."

It was only then that Li Zhi understood—how did Zhou Yu suddenly "enlighten himself", he clearly regarded his place as a "gas station of courage".

Whether it's a gas station or a "love thermometer", it's better than her hiding it all the time.

Li Zhi asked, "What happened next?"

Xiang Sheng held Zhou Yu's trembling hand, and Zhou Yu took a deep breath to calm his voice: "They haven't bullied me for too long, Tang Kexin went abroad in the last semester of her sophomore year, and the rest of them didn't have a leader, so they forgot about me. "

"Why didn't you try talking to your parents then?"

Zhou Yu's eyes paused, and he murmured, "I have tried."

"But every time I just started, my mother would interrupt impatiently, saying, why do people only bully you? Don't blame others when something goes wrong, but find the reason from yourself first."

"My reason, what reason do I have?" Zhou Yu laughed self-deprecatingly, "It's wrong to be kind? I haven't regretted it until now, I just hate myself at the time for being really stupid enough to reflect on my own. Question? After being bitten by a mad dog, the first reaction was not to get vaccinated, but to think that there are so many people on the street, why did the dog bite me?"

Zhou Yu's chest heaved violently, and he mocked in a low voice: "The mad dog has logic."

Suddenly, Xiang Sheng hugged her into his arms. The faint scent of roses was like a layer of indestructible armor, protecting all her fragility and invulnerability. Xiang Sheng said firmly and seriously in a gentle and deep voice: "You are not wrong, You are never the one who is wrong, kindness is never a bad thing, you are not cowardly, compared with those bystanders who 'have nothing to do with themselves and hang high', we Xiaoyu are already very brave."

Xiang Sheng let out a sigh of relief, and kissed Zhou Yu's forehead lightly: "We have worked hard to persist until now, Mr. Zhou."

"Sorry, I'm late."