What is the meaning of love

After Ji Qingwan went back, he didn't come to work for three days. Ji Qingxuan was worried about her, but he didn't answer her cell phone, fearing that she would commit suicide.

The last time she was entrusted by her, she knew that the password of her house was Lu Nian's birthday, so she took Xiao Ning to see her.

After Xiao Ning found out about this incident, nothing went well for him. Ji Qingwan was her friend for many years, her best friend, basically a family member. When this happened, Xiao Ning knew her character, so it must be very difficult for her to come out .

The two came to the house in District A, and after ringing the doorbell for a long time, no one answered, so Ji Qingxuan simply entered the password and came in.

When the two came in, they found that there was light from the bay window, so they walked over and saw Ji Qingwan lying on the couch, maybe he was asleep, wearing home clothes, the couch was in a mess, the cell phone was thrown on the carpet, There are leftover wine bottles all around, some are broken, some are neatly placed together, there are many bottles of sleeping pills, the bottles are upside down and scattered on the ground, and there are painkillers.

Xiao Ning's eyes immediately became moist, and he wanted to cry, but couldn't bear to watch such a scene, so he turned his back and asked Ji Qingxuan to deal with it for her.

Ji Qingwan woke up again, and he was in the hospital again. He had been here many times recently, and Xiao Ning was sitting beside him.

Rubbing her sore and swollen head, Ji Qingwan got up and was about to leave, but Xiao Ning stopped her, "Do you still want to do this when you go back?"

Ji Qingwan was in no mood to talk anymore, Xiao Ning refused to let her go, called her brother in, and said earnestly, "If you don't cheer up, the two of you are really doomed. What's the use of you, can you be like a human being?"

Ji Qingwan didn't know how long it had been since he smiled, and he didn't even bother to make an expression, "Can I cheer up? How long do you think it will take me to meet Grandpa's request?"

"There is also a hope. Maybe your grandfather will let go on the way. What are you going to do when you are decadent? Just give up and seek life and death?"

"No one can help you except yourself."

Capital Renmin University is about to go on winter vacation at this time. As the exam week approaches, there are many busy people coming and going in each building. Lu Nian put on a pair of sunglasses to cover his eyes that he does not want to be seen. Dressed neatly, he went back to school to pick up the transfer The formalities, which she has done before.

Someone tried to stop her on the road, but she didn't stop, as if she didn't hear her, and she didn't communicate with anyone. There was a car waiting for her outside. Walking on the quartz road out of the school, Lu Nian took a card removal needle, I took out the card, broke it, threw it into the trash can on the way, and replaced it with a new one.

After getting in the car, she logged into WeChat again, left several people's phone numbers, blocked all of Ji Qingwan's contact information, called Lu Jianguo, said the necessary things, put down the phone, and leaned against the back of the car back.

No matter how long the car drove, she remained in this position for a long time, but she did not fall asleep.

From leaving the house to now, Lu Nian has not said a word, and has done all the things she has prepared in an orderly manner, got out of the car, took only a simple suitcase and some daily necessities, and entered the airport, ready to board International Flights.

An hour and a half later, it was only four hours before she and Ji Qingwan were separated. She had already arranged everything and boarded the plane.

It was about to take off, and Lu Jianguo replied to her that he would go to Ji's house to help intercede. Ji Mingyue also agreed, saying that he hoped that he could live a good life and often called back.

Ji Mingyue's agreement is also a manifestation of Yu's unbearable heart. He is not a heinous person. Will he feel sympathy when he sees such a painful parting?

The flight attendant reminded the passengers one by one, seeing Lu Nian sitting motionless in the business seat, as if isolated from the outside world, she walked to her side, "Dear guest, please fasten your seat belt and switch your phone to flight mode."

Lu Nian was still holding a mobile phone, knowing that she had blocked her completely, and she was staying in the old house, how could she call herself?What are you thinking about.

Seeing that she didn't respond, the flight attendant spoke to her in English, and Lu Nian came to his senses, and apologized to her, then turned off the phone.

Half an hour after the plane took off, it stabilized, and you can drink some red wine casually. Lu Nian looked at the clouds outside the window, and felt that he was getting farther and farther away from the capital, and farther and farther away from her. In a place separated by an eight-hour time difference from her, in a distant country, it is difficult to meet her again.

Lu Nian didn't want to be like this either, he didn't want to be cruel to her, but he couldn't drag her down, her impeccable appearance was what Lu Nian wanted to see the most, not for himself, becoming humble and helpless, being caught by others .

The European boy in the business seat next to her found her lying on the partition and was crying uncontrollably. He poked his head over and wanted to talk to her, but he yelled a lot of pretty girl. Help, Lu Nian restrained himself, didn't want to attract attention, went to the bathroom, washed his face, adjusted his posture, and came back to sit.

Stop thinking about her, think about something else, do something else, stop thinking about her.

Lu Nian took out the tablet, wrote the manuscript offline, and thought about the plot, but the tears fell uncontrollably on the screen, unable to write in, and his mind was full of Ji Qingwan foolishly smiling at himself, playing cool Look, I call her Kugou, and Ji Qingwan looks at me with mean eyes, touches me with my hands and feet, rubs me like a dog in heat, and says the most slutty words in the most serious tone, Asking endlessly, I am not bothered.

It changed again, no other voices could be heard in my ears, the one that was extremely clear was her voice begging myself not to break up with her in a humble manner that day in front of the hospital bed.

Going crazy, why are people so incompetent, she can't control the tears even though she doesn't want to cry, and her body is not obedient, Lu Nian took out melatonin from her bag, drank a lot of red wine, she couldn't drink at all He was about to lose consciousness, put down the seat, and finally fell into a drowsy sleep.

When Ji Qing came home in the evening, the mess in the house had already been cleaned up. She asked someone to deliver the meal, sat at the table to eat, took a good bath, tidied herself up, processed the handover documents that needed to be seen, and prepared for a few days A statement may be issued, telling the company that I will go back to work tomorrow.

Opening the strategic planning document, Ji Qingwan must pull himself together, fall into infinite busyness, compress all the time to the extreme, leave no idle time, one is to work hard towards the goal, and the other is not to have time to think about other things.

At night, she was about to take some sleeping pills to fall asleep, and just after drinking some wine, the screen of her mobile phone turned on, and it was Weibo that she paid special attention to.

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Thank you for your support, and I am sorry to tell you that for a long time, if there is no accident, I will not publish new works, nor will I participate in any public activities.

I have little knowledge and limited vision. In two years, I will study abroad in the UK to enrich myself and prepare to bring you better works in the future. Thank you!