What is the meaning of love

Ji Qingwan wanted to die, so he called Lu Nian, but no one answered.Yesterday was Saturday, today is Sunday, tomorrow is Lu Nian's birthday, why did this happen.

Slowly walking to the front of the dining table, Ji Qingwan ate the breakfast left by Lu Nian, and tears began to fall drop by drop into the bowl. With a push, he lay on the table and cried sadly.

I blame myself. Ji Qingwan feels very uncomfortable. Lu Nian has paid so much for the relationship between the two of them. I don't know what Ji Mingyue thinks. It was just getting started, so what can she do now?All because of loving myself.

Lu Nian also explained her emotional state, she is not single, so if no one pursues her, she won't be troubled by her, and she can't give her an aboveboard love at all, and she has to make her girlfriend angry like this .

No matter what Ji Qingwan thought, he felt sorry for Lu Nian. He was not a person at all, but a scumbag, so he cried more and more uncontrollably.Lu Nian has liked herself since before, and after so many years, she can do whatever she asks, and never refuses any request from him. Seeing that her eyes are full of stars, she only smiles sweetly at herself, but She was so unhappy yesterday, and she gave herself several chances to explain, probably leaving those two books as a hint to herself, so angry and disappointed, she even made breakfast for herself, and she is a psychopath.

When it was almost noon, Ji Qingwan still had some work to do, but now he had nothing to think about, and pushed it all until next week, and couldn't even eat a bite of rice. After taking two bites in the morning, he even felt like vomiting.

Ji Qingwan leaned on the couch by the bay window, and called Bai Jiayin who had quietly saved yesterday. This was the first time she had spoken to her.

Even if it was an unfamiliar number, it was quickly connected over there, and he said in a lively tone, "Hello? Who is it?"

Ji Qingwan adjusted his tone and said, "Excuse me, is this Miss Bai? Hello, I'm Ji Qingwan."

The other side was stunned for a moment, and said softly, "Miss Ji, uh."

"I'm sorry to disturb you, can you tell me where Lu Nian is? I'm really worried about her, and I know she will contact you."

Bai Jiayin didn't speak, she didn't know what to say, Ji Qingwan said again, "Please, tell me."

"Yesterday afternoon, she was with me, but not today. I asked her this morning, she should be at school." Bai Jiayin hoped that the two of them could get back together quickly, because Lu Nian's appearance was too frightening, and she didn't dare to speak to her. Fear of being angered.

Ji Qingwan thought of a way to ask Bai Jiayin to help make an appointment with Lu Nian, and begged her for help in various ways, thanking her in various ways, and felt that she had never asked others so much before, but fortunately Bai Jiayin was easy to talk to.

It was already evening, and Lu Nian was stalked by Bai Jiayin and went to the leisure center. He was not in any mood at first, but Bai Jiayin seemed to have something important to do. Yesterday, Bai Jiayin was angry with him all afternoon. Today, Lu Nian also Time to come.

Lu Nian went to school to do part of next week's work ahead of schedule, so he didn't think about Ji Qingwan's incident when he was busy. The anger accumulated for two days became more and more serious because of her repeated failure to explain. A phone call She didn't even want to reply to a single wechat message, she didn't realize her mistake in a hundred words, and Lu Nian didn't even want to go back at night.

After thinking about it, someone sat next to him and took his hand. Based on the feeling and the familiar smell, Lu Nian knew it was Ji Qingwan, but he was surprised how she found this place.

"Why are you here?" Lu Nian looked at her expressionlessly, letting her hold her, but seeing her tiredness and haggardness in her eyes, she couldn't help but soften her heart, showing worry.

Ji Qingwan lowered his eyes and said, "It's so late and you still have an appointment, don't you plan to go home?" Then he stood up, took her hand and stood up, "Follow me home."

"I have friends coming over." Lu Nian still hadn't forgotten.

"I asked her to ask you out, and she won't come."

Lu Nian was a little surprised, and followed her out, thinking that she still knew how to find him in a different way, so she had a little conscience, so that he would not be so angry.

Ji Qingwan didn't say anything, and drove her home, Lu Nian didn't smile the whole time, with a cold demeanor.After opening the door, as soon as the two entered, Ji Qingwan took Lu Nian into his arms and kissed.

After kissing her for a while, Ji Qingwan let go of her. His already sad mood became even more sad, and he wanted to cry, because Lu Nian didn't do anything, let her kiss her, and he didn't respond at all, just plain look at her.

Ji Qingwan took her hand, sat on the sofa in the living room, stared at her sincerely, and began to explain, "Lu Nian, I know why you are angry, you were in that bookstore at noon yesterday, right? You saw me Yeah, you call me and I tell you I'm in a meeting."

"It's all my fault, I'll tell you everything. For more than a week, that He Yicheng has been showing favor to me. At first, he asked Xiaofu to deliver things. I didn't let Xiaofu accept it, so he asked someone else to come." Look for me, send it in, I won’t let that person in, so he will send it in another person, I have no choice, the employees of the company talk nonsense about what relationship he has with me, so I will be suppressed. Because he comes to the company once a week, It just happened to be yesterday, so I hurried to clarify with him, telling him that this troubled me very much, I have someone I like, it’s just a matter of two sentences, he insisted on finding a coffee shop to talk about, all kinds of requests, I think In the face of being a colleague, and he said that he would only be an old classmate, I agreed, but it was only a matter of a few minutes."

"When I got there, he started talking, and I didn't interrupt just out of respect. It was just a confession. I made it clear immediately after listening to it, and told him not to do it again. I'm very tired. Your phone number, I don't know It was you who called. I just went out out of respect for the other party. I went out within seven or eight minutes. I called you back immediately. This matter has been completely resolved. Don't believe me, I said everything Truth."

The more Ji Qingwan talked, the more sad she became. When she thought of Lu Nian's attitude towards her, she felt very painful. She couldn't bear Lu Nian's indifference, and she just wanted to be loved by her.

Lu Nian believed that what she said was true. Ji Qingwan, who was so logical, was now very bewildered and confused, and looked haggard.Lu Nian began to soften his heart, touched her dark circles, and before he could open his mouth, Ji Qingwan burst into tears, hugged her waist, lay on her shoulder and sobbed, "Don't believe me, None of my words are false, I only love you alone, it is true, and it will always be like this."

Lu Nian only saw her cry once, and it was when she sang last time that she was touched. Now this made Lu Nian feel distressed, so he quickly wiped her tears and said softly, "Don't cry, I believe in you."

Ji Qingwan cried louder and louder, unable to control his mood, he suppressed all the sadness of last night and today's day, and began to cry loudly, which wet Lu Nian's shoulders.

Lu Nian blamed himself and felt guilty, but he really couldn't restrain his behavior, just because he cared too much about her, and sighed, "Why did you lie to me?"

"I just don't want to bother you, because I will solve this matter and it will never happen again, so I didn't tell you. I know I was wrong. I'm sorry. I will tell you everything in the future. It's all my fault." Ji Qingwan Grabbing the corner of her clothes, she said, "I will always love you, I'm not kidding."

It's not that Lu Nian doesn't believe her. Every lover who is passionately in love has said that forever and ever, loveliness. At this moment, Ji Qingwan's heart must be sincere and warm. The more Lu Nian cares about her, the more he is afraid of losing her, especially Ji Qingwan Lu Nian often felt unreal and uneasy because he was so outstanding, but he was possessed by him. He was afraid that what would happen if this passionate love faded away quickly, or if it was transferred, what would he do.

"I went too far, because I love you so much, I'm afraid of losing you, I won't do this again." Lu Nian held her in his arms, wiped her tears, and his heart ached with her.She loves herself, and she must treat her well without reservation, until death.If she loves others, then let her go and guard her behind her back, as long as she can be happy, no matter what.

"You're not too much, it's because I gave you too little. With you, I won't like others anymore." Ji Qingwan is a dedicated person, love for a lifetime is destined.

"Not a lot, you gave me a lot."

"Not enough, you give me more." Ji Qingwan stopped crying, looked at her with red and swollen rabbit eyes, and said seriously, "Don't treat me with such a cold attitude, okay?" ? I can't take it, I'm sad."

"Okay, no more."

Thinking of Lu Nian's eyes looking at him mercilessly, with an indifferent expression, Ji Qingwan would collapse, unable to imagine what would happen to him if Lu Nian fell in love with someone else, he would definitely go crazy, "If you don't love me anymore, or I fell in love with someone else, and I want to..."

Lu Nian interrupted her, "Say nonsense, that's impossible."

"I mean, if you don't leave my line of sight, let me see you, okay?"

"If there is no if, I will only love you." Lu Nian didn't allow her to say that anymore, because she lowered her face, she gently kissed the little mole on the tip of her nose, and planned to go to the refrigerator to get two ice packs and apply them to her With swollen eyes, just as she stood up straight, Ji Qingwan quickly grabbed her hand and dragged her back.

"Where are you going? Don't go." Ji Qingwan said eagerly.

Lu Nian gently comforted her, "Honey, I won't go, your eyes are swollen, I'll get an ice pack."

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