What is the meaning of love

Lu Nian blamed himself very much. Ji Qingwan was usually prone to insecurity, especially when it came to relying on instinct. Every time in a relationship, except for monosyllables, he just kept calling Lu Nian's name. Just hold her tightly.

On weekdays, because she is older and more capable, she always takes on more responsibilities and always wants to take care of herself. She is used to dealing with things by herself, and it is reasonable for her not to tell herself that she should. Believe her, how could you be so ignorant to lose your temper with her and make her cry.

Lu Nian brought an ice pack, and because her clothes were wet from crying, she changed into her pajamas, held Ji Qingwan in her arms, and applied it to her eyes. The redness and swelling disappeared, and there were thick dark circles under her eyes. Haggard, so he kissed her lightly, and said distressedly, "Rest well tonight, don't think about it anymore."

"Don't sleep in a separate room with me." Ji Qingwan said in a low voice, because of the Ji family's affairs, or because of a business trip, it's a last resort. If Lu Nian is not around at home, he can't sleep well.

"Ah."

It was midnight, and Ji Qingwan hadn't eaten all day except for a few mouthfuls in the morning with tears in his eyes. His stomach started to growl, and Lu Nian didn't eat well. He was full of energy, so Lu Nian went to the kitchen to cook. Order food for two people.

Ji Qingwan followed behind her, helping her, and said expectantly, "Can you teach me how to cook?"

Lu Nian glanced at her distrustfully, "Do you want to cook?"

"Yeah, I'll cook it for you."

Lu Nian took the bowl from her and scooped up the finished noodles, "Oh, you can try it by yourself first, and then give it to me if it tastes good."

Ji Qingwan sat down at the dining table with the noodles in his hand, "No, you have to eat it if it doesn't taste good."

The two were hungry, and they finished a large bowl of noodles. They went to take a hot bath together comfortably, and stayed in the bathroom for a while. Read back to the room, just got on the bed, looked at it and it was twelve o'clock, so Ji Qingwan went out of the bedroom again to get things.

Lu Nian even forgot about her birthday, took off her thick bathrobe, changed into a close-fitting underwear, and lay on the left side of the quilt until she came back to sleep together.

After a while, I heard her rushing in, turned off the light with a slap, and just about to poke her head out, Ji Qingwan lifted the quilt and got in, pulling Lu Nian under the quilt.

It was pitch black, Lu Nian asked her, "What's wrong?"

Ji Qingwan took her hand and pushed something open. The bulging dark quilt was illuminated, and the quilt was reflected like a starry sky. A delicate music box-like thing was slowly turning. In the middle of the box was The two are holding hands, the image of a cartoon girl with long hair, the sound of the music is very familiar, Lu Nian recognized that it was his own voice, the song he sang to her.

Just as Lu Nian was about to say something, he found that there was a necklace and a hand-cast ring on the box.

"Happy birthday baby."

Lu Nian smiled sweetly, took those two things, and asked, "When did you prepare it?"

"When you were in school." During Ji Qingwan and Lu Nian's time, one of them was always busy while the other was not, so Ji Qingwan would do this in his free time.

Ji Qingwan lifted the quilt, and the light of the music box was still shining on the ceiling.Lu Nian was pulled in front of her and put on a platinum necklace. The pendant was a heart, and the handmade ring was just the right size.Lu Nian liked it very much, as long as it was a gift from her, the music on the box was switched, and it was the song he sang on the company's party stage.

Ji Qingwan brought the sound source from the company and recorded it here. It should be that the sound quality has been modified by someone, and it is very clear.Lu Nian hasn't expressed his liking yet, Ji Qingwan took out another thing and said, "There is one more important thing.".

Lu Nian saw that it was a small electronic device, and asked curiously, "What is this?"

"Recorder, sometimes it's inconvenient to write. I can't carry it with me, or I can write whenever I want, so here's what I want to tell you."

Lu Nian opened it, and there were hundreds of audios in the list. The earliest time was more than two months ago, and the latest was today, almost every day. Time, have you been preparing so early?

Looking at each one for a few minutes to ten minutes, Lu Nian flipped through it, and his eyes began to moisten.

Lu Nian was only wearing his underwear and no pants. Ji Qingwan was afraid that she would be cold, so he put on a nightgown for her, and said with a smile, "Do you like it?"

Lu Nian wiped away his tears, got into her arms, and said in a muffled voice, "I like it, I like it very much."

Lu Nian, who is also a talented liberal arts student in the capital and a literary writer, has also become illiterate and can only say that he likes it.Lu Nian rubbed her neck and sniffled, "Why are you so nice to me?"

Lu Nian not only often couldn't believe that such an excellent and perfect Ji Qingwan was obtained by him, maybe her shortcomings turned into advantages for him, love is blind.

It’s like someone can privately own Mt. Fuji out of love. Maybe it’s because they have cultivated for thousands of years to sleep together, or because they haven’t suffered enough, so a little more is fine. Anything is fine, and it doesn’t matter if you spend all your luck. .

Lu Nian knew that Ji Qingwan always felt that she didn't give her enough, because she couldn't disclose her relationship, and felt guilty for not being able to express her love for her openly outside, but in fact Lu Nian really didn't care at all, she felt very happy now, very happy Well, what does it matter if you live like this all your life?The love between you and me does not violate ethics or morality. You know me and I know it. Don't want others to bless you, don't legally recognize it, and don't need to be known by anyone.

"Because I love you, don't you too?" Ji Qing asked Lu Nian the same way when she sang for the first time in the evening, and felt silly, because Lu Nian was also stupid.

"Why do you love me?"

"Because is you."

"Why me?" Lu Nian made a mistake and wanted to know why he fell in love with him, but the word love is too difficult to define. When and why are you tempted? Many people even recognize love when they lose it. , How can these be understood clearly?

Ji Qingwan started laughing, put the box and everything on the bedside table, took off the nightgown she was wearing, and crawled into bed with her, "You ask again, it's because of you."

When Ji Qingwan was asked this question, she began to seriously think about why, moved forward, lay in Lu Nian's arms, began to recall the past, and muttered, "When I saw you for the first time, I was in Ji's house. , I thought you were unfamiliar, so I planned to get to know you, then I walked to your side and chatted for a few words, but you just ignored me, like an ice lump."

Lu Nian also recalled and explained, "I don't like chatting, and it's the same with others."

"If I didn't see you beautiful, I wouldn't talk to you."

"Oh, for sex?" Lu Nian thought about it carefully, if Ji Qingwan was not beautiful, he probably wouldn't be able to understand her so many words at all.

"Maybe, the more you ignore me, the more I want to talk." Ji Qingwan was indeed thick-skinned.

"Afterwards, why did you come to my house?" Lu Nian absolutely couldn't do such a thing, so he ran to someone's house after a long time after we met, and even had to stay overnight.

"I don't know, I can't help it." After Ji Qingwan finished speaking, he wanted to laugh. Lu Nian laughed with her when he heard it, and couldn't help himself. He couldn't figure out the reason for what he did before. When he was a student, he fell in love at first sight, or he was baffled by the other party. Attraction, also can not say.

Ji Qingwan went on to say, "At that time, I couldn't figure anything out. I just followed my heart. I probably wanted to have the opportunity to spend more time with you when I taught you how to read."

"I remember watching a movie once, you didn't sit still, I seemed to kiss your face, the reaction was stunned, I felt a little embarrassed, but it was more of a strange feeling, it should be heartbeat, but at that time I I don't understand." Ji Qingwan estimated that he fell in love with Lu Nian at that time, and Lu Nian must have also, and asked, "You must like me too, right? Otherwise, if someone kisses your face, you still don't hide. Let's freeze together."

Lu Nian did know that he liked Ji Qingwan before that, but in the past, Ji Qingwan took the initiative mostly because of his personality. If someone else kissed him, he would probably have slapped him, "Well, you are the one who likes it." relative."

Ji Qingwan laughed, raised his head and kissed Lu Nian's chin, and muttered something else in a low voice, "Also, in fact, now I find that I always thought of you before, and hoped to hear from you. I’m only willing to give you a lecture, but I’m so annoyed to tell others that it’s a waste of my time, what should I say? I must have liked you before the college entrance examination, let me think about it.”

Lu Nian smiled and waited for her to say, waited for a while, looked down at her, and found that she was clutching his waist, with smooth legs on his lap, buried in front of his chest, and fell asleep, breathing steadily.

Ji Qingwan basically didn't sleep all night yesterday. During the day, he wanted to land on Lu Nian again. He was exhausted physically and mentally. He stayed up until now to celebrate Lu Nian's birthday. Lu Nian straightened her hair and stared at her sleeping face for a while. He kissed her face lightly, and fell asleep next to her.