bullying the little thing

AuntieWindy (Auntie Wendy):

Recently, I often dream of a boy, the dream is full of fog, he is standing not far in front of me, I can't see him clearly, but I think he is very familiar, he should be a very important person to me .

I think he belongs to my past, and in my lost memory, he must occupy a very important place, because, in the dream, when he turns away and disappears into the fog, I feel very sad , as if a part of himself was taken away by him.

Yes, I mean, he's a part of me.

AuntieWindy, can you please tell me, have any of your amnesia patients experienced similar symptoms?

If so, how would you treat it?

How should I get rid of the fog in my dream and see his appearance as soon as possible?

Mr. Ouyang always advised me not to worry and let nature take its course, and the doctors he took me to see also said the same.

But Aunt Wendy, I really want to remember about him quickly, because I always feel that it is wrong for me to forget him, he is still waiting for me, if I don't go to him, he will be very sad.

looking forward to your reply.

Kevin

***

As Kevin read the email, he gasped for breath from the excitement and nearly cried several times.

But if he was happy, he had to use reason to weigh Ouyang Hongfei's approach. Indeed, conservative treatment for Chen Yu's amnesia was the most beneficial.

He is the Aunt Wendy referred to in Chen Yuxin.

Because I miss Chen Yu so much, watching Chen Yu's life updates on Twitter every day, I can't fill the emptiness of not having Chen Yu by my side.

So Kevin came up with another way. He changed his Twitter account to "AuntieWindy", and then sent a private message to Chen Yu, telling him that he was a psychiatrist. Through Chen Yu's Twitter content, he understood Knowing that he is a patient with amnesia, "AuntieWindy" has many such patients, so I really want to help him.

They soon became pen pals on the Internet. Kevin majored in psychology in college, and he also wanted to use what he learned in the treatment of Chen Yu.

The communication between Chen Yu and "Auntie Windy" was very speculative, and he talked about everything in his email. Kevin was very grateful for this state. Although he wanted to conceal his identity, he was able to get acquainted with Chen Yu again after all. .

But the question now is, how should he reply to this letter?

Kevin knew very well that the boy in Chen Yu's dream was himself. This dream was obviously a sign that Chen Yu was about to remember himself.

Generally, when encountering such a situation clinically, the psychiatrist will adopt various radical methods such as hypnosis and drug stimulation to guide the patient to restore memory.

But Chen Yu's situation is very special, because no one knows whether his subconscious is really willing to recall the past, or to be more precise, no one knows whether his subconscious is willing to recall all the past, whether it is good or not. , or bad.

After careful consideration, Kevin made a decision.

***

Kevin:

Maybe that person was once a very important person to you, but please remember, that was only once.

Since you have forgotten him, there is a reason to forget him. It is very likely that that person once gave you good things, but also broke your heart.

Therefore, I agree with Mr. Ouyang's approach.If you recall that person, that is to say, you recall everything about him, both good and bad, and they will all come back. Instead of being unable to love and unwilling to hate, it is better to let nature take its course.

Love you Auntie Windy

***

After sending this letter, Kevin sighed deeply. Maybe he was used to being alone, so he didn't feel too uncomfortable.

It's just that he didn't have the heart to study anymore, he took a shower, left the door for his roommate who was used to nightlife, and lay down to sleep.

I don't know how long I slept, but I slept very deeply, when suddenly there was a very loud sound in my ear.

Kevin didn't react for a while, and when he realized that the sound was the ringtone specially designed for the sleeping number, he quickly got up from the bed, ignoring turning on the light, and stumbled to the desk in the dark to pick up the phone.

Looking at the incoming call area displayed on the screen, he swallowed again and again. Before he could decide whether to answer it, he pressed the answer button with trembling fingers.

Before the phone could be attached to his ear, there was a voice that made him miss it day and night:

"Hello? Kevin? Is that you?"

His voice didn't change much, and Kevin could imagine his current expression from his tone, his eyes were wide open anxiously, maybe he was still crying.

"Hello? Please, talk to me! I'm Chen Yu! I remember it, I remember it!" His voice began to tremble, but he was still crying.

Kevin wanted to comfort him, but when he opened his mouth, there was a choked sound, and he quickly covered his mouth, only to realize that his own face was already wet.

"Kevin, I know it's you! I miss you! Everything! Come talk to me! Kevin, I miss you so much..."

On the other end of the phone, the person he was thinking about was already crying, but Kevin smiled gratifiedly for a moment. He wanted to let his temper and say what he had kept in his heart for three years.

But he can't do that.

"You...you made a mistake."

"Eh?"

He should be surprised, maybe a little disappointed?But, at least now he doesn't cry anymore.

"I...my name is not Kevin." His tone was pretending to be calm, although his heart was already overwhelmed.

"How, how..."

"Oh, maybe that's the case. The person you're looking for is the previous owner of this number."

"previous……"

"Well, my number is a second-hand number I bought three years ago."

The other party didn't speak for a long time, but Kevin seemed to hear a sigh.

"Hello? Are you okay?" It was still a very calm voice, deliberately showing the concern of a stranger.

"Well, it's okay, that's right, the voice is..."

He still remembers his voice!His vocal cords are not damaged, and he can make a natural sound without special pronunciation!

"I'm in a hurry, if you have nothing else to do..." Kevin said this sentence in a voice that even he felt unfamiliar with, which was tantamount to self-harm.

"No, I have something else to do!"

Although he didn't know what else Chen Yu wanted to say, he was very grateful that the other party didn't hang up the phone immediately.

"Please... If possible, you can still contact the previous owner of this number. Please help me tell him that I don't hate him anymore, I miss him very much. Oh yes, my name is Chen Yu, and I live in America, the address is..."

"I'm sorry, I have to interrupt!" With a low and hoarse voice, Kevin felt that Chen Yu must have thought that the person talking to him was an indifferent middle-aged man, "It is impossible for me to know the previous owner of this number. The number bought by the sales department of the communication company."

"Then... sorry to bother you."

"Wait a minute!" Realizing that the other party was about to hang up, Kevin nervously delayed the time.

"how?"

"I think... I'm just curious, the previous owner of this number was yours..." Kevin thought for a while, and decided to speak out boldly, "Is it your lover?"

He felt his heart beating violently against his chest, and while waiting for Chen Yu to speak, the surrounding air seemed to suddenly thin out.

"Oh..." Chen Yu sighed softly, and Kevin seemed to see his sad and helpless face, "It's the past tense, loved, not loved"

"Ming, I understand." Kevin suddenly trembled all over his body. He was flustered for a moment, as if he wanted to cut off the grief that kept pouring into his heart, and immediately hung up the phone.

***

Were you dreaming just now?

He suddenly had such an idea.

It wasn't a dream, because the next day, there was a letter from Chen Yu lying in "Auntie Windy"'s e-mail box.

"Does he really don't want to contact me anymore? Is he a very important person, but he is separated like this? I want to go to him and tell him how I feel now. I want to tell him that I can't let him go! I don't I don't hate him anymore, I still want to be with him!

"But I don't know what role he plays in my life. He is more important than a friend, but not as close as a lover. The worst thing is, when I think of him, I feel very sorry for Daniel. Love Daniel, there is no doubt about it, I put my life on it!"

Even just reading the text, Kevin can feel the contradiction in Chen Yu's heart.It's not worth it, he doesn't deserve Chen Yu's trouble at all.

"Don't go to him, forget him, and grasp the present happiness."

"Auntie Windy's" letter was surprisingly short.

But soon, Chen Yu replied another letter.

Wouldn't "AuntieWindy" be more than a pointer?Or is my problem mediocre?In fact, I also feel the same way, am I being too greedy?Ever since I remembered the past, I never wanted to see him again, but the guilt also came.

"I said, I dare to swear with my life, the person I love is Daniel. But since fate reminds me of Kevin again, it is impossible for me to forget him, because he participated in my past, he shaped A part of my memory, he becomes a part of me!

"But I won't go to him again, maybe he thinks so too. Now that our time to be together is over, let's make the most of the present.

"I think, thinking about him, remembering the days with him, is what he means to me today."

***

In autumn, the street trees are covered with yellow leaves, and the sunlight penetrates through the slightly abrupt branches, forming countless transparent beams of light under the bright sunlight.

The white pigeons on the square pecked at a few bread crumbs scattered by tourists, fluttered their wings, and flew over the steeple of St. Mary's Church.

The cool wind penetrated into the collar of the gray-black windbreaker, and Kevin shivered, but he didn't feel cold, but felt refreshed.

He slowed down and took this familiar road every weekend to go to church, but now he is like a tourist, sizing up and savoring the scenery along the way.

The bells of the church, the laughter of the children, and the whistle of the pigeons flying by, against the backdrop of the scenery in front of you, is an indescribable peaceful beauty.

He knew that the peace in front of him could not spread throughout the whole world, and in a certain corner of the world, some people were still enduring bullying.

May there be no more bullying and prejudice in the world. This is his prayer to God many times. However, this is just a good wish and an unrealistic fairy tale.

However, at least I hope that bullies can repent as soon as possible, those who are bullied can cheer up as soon as possible, and kind people can become strong enough to protect their lovers and stop the spread of bullying.

I pray that everyone can live happily, and that all the pain will become the past one day.

"Chen Yu, being missed by you is my happiness. Missing you is my salvation."

(End of the article)