Temporary cohabitation

When Cheng Shi got home, Cheng Yu was about to leave. He said that he had to go back to the hotel to work overtime because he had a design drawing tonight, so he couldn't stay for dinner.

Cheng Shi nodded, "Okay, see you tomorrow."

Ren Mingyao was still in the kitchen and couldn't leave for the time being.He was not willing to do these housework in the past, but it is not difficult to do it when he is proficient, but now he is getting more and more handy.

Cheng Xiaojun was obediently waiting for the meal to be served, playing with a rainbow seal in his chubby little hand.It's a souvenir medal from yesterday's amusement park.

Cheng Shi wanted to hug him, but he didn't reach out for some reason, but just sat beside him, "Xiaojun... Do you want to go to the amusement park and have fun?"

Cheng Xiaojun nodded.

"Where do you want to go next time? Little uncle will take you there, okay?"

Cheng Xiaojun thought for a while and said, "Go to Dad's house to play."

Cheng Shi obviously didn't expect this answer, and he was stunned for a long time before he forced a smile, "...ah."

"Cheng Shi." Ren Mingyao called him, "Come here and have a taste."

"Just come."

Cheng Shi quietly took a deep breath, put away the redundant complex emotions, rubbed Cheng Xiaojun's head, got up and went to the kitchen to help serve the dishes.

Ren Mingyao noticed that he was a little tired, "Did you have a good chat with the editor?"

"It's okay." Cheng Shi said, "I've been talking about work all the time, and I'm a little tired."

The cooperation proposed by Yihe was too unexpected.Even though he refused without hesitation or regret, he still inevitably worried about his future career.

The popularity accumulated in the past is left on the old website.If the serialization platform is changed to China, he will register a new account and start from scratch. It is still unknown how everything will develop.

Without those eye-catching eye-catching pictures, perhaps his works will not receive much attention.He thought that the achievement in front of him was a good start, but it was also very possible that it was already his peak.

For so many years, he can only paint and put all his thoughts on this job.If he can't even paint well, what else can he do?

Thinking about it this way, it would be best for Xiao Jun to go with his father, after all, he can't even guarantee his own future...

Cheng Shi's mood became more and more heavy, and he even felt a little restless, so he had no choice but to turn his eyes to the human cub to soothe his mood, and took off the beautiful rainbow badge - he even held it when eating, "Little Jun recently bought a lot of new toys."

It goes without saying that Cheng Yu bought him, but more than half of these new toys were bought by Shen Weiran.Being asked by the cub's father to have a good relationship with the cub, Shen Weiran can think of the most direct and effective way to give toys, a lot of toys.

Mr. Shen's style of doing things is to spend money on things.In fact, it can't be wrong, at least now Cheng Xiaojun is really willing to talk to him, when he can't open the toy box.

Cheng Xiaojun is not like other children who love the new and dislike the old, the novelty passes quickly and can be dismantled a lot in an afternoon.When he got a new toy, he only played with that one all day, so there were still many boxes of toys in the house that he hadn't had time to unpack, and they were piled high on the bedside.

Ren Mingyao commented on this: "Little prodigal son."

In fact, Cheng Shi also felt that buying too many toys was a bit wasteful, but considering that it was his beloved baby, he could buy as many as he wanted.

"As the old saying goes, boys need to be poor." Ren Mingyao filled the soup, put it in his hand and asked, "Do you want to put sugar?"

"If you want...boys should be rich too." He retorted.Only when you were loved well when you were young, you will have the confidence to do everything when you grow up, and you will not be trembling with others' kindness, "Don't be like me, a coat will be cheated away."

The unintentional words came out, and the two of them were stunned at the same time.

Cheng Shi looked away in a panic, trying to think of something to cover this issue quickly, but today his brain seemed to be rusted and extremely dull.He could only listen to Ren Mingyao saying, "The first time we met, the school uniform jacket I gave you to protect you from the rain, haven't you returned it to me yet?"

"..."

"Did you never say you liked me?"

"Why suddenly..."

"I never said, since when did I like me."

Cheng Shi panicked even more thoroughly, and didn't understand why he said these words all of a sudden, "It's a good idea not to talk about the past."

Ren Mingyao originally planned to have a good talk after dinner.But seeing Cheng Zhi's guilty conscience so obvious, something was obvious, "Have you ever written me a love letter?"

He finally couldn't hold back and asked, "Why didn't you tell me?"

Why not.They've been in the same room for so long, of course it's impossible that they couldn't find a chance, it's just a deliberate concealment.

Cheng Shi's mind was in chaos, and he couldn't figure out how he knew about the love letter, so he could only say dryly, "It's all in the past anyway... Even if I tell you, you'll only feel bad after hearing it. There is no way to change anything.”

Ren Mingyao said, "I'd rather suffer than you lie to me."

The string in my heart has been stretched invisibly for a reason, and there is a reason for it.

He now suspected that Cheng Shi hadn't told the truth from the beginning.All those disasters—giving up calling for help in the dark alley, dropping out of school and leaving home, living alone for eight years, Cheng Shi said that all of that had nothing to do with him.

But now there is a love letter that turns all whitewashing words into sophistry.

The most suffocating reality lies ahead.Whether he doesn't trust him or doesn't like him enough, Cheng Shi knows everything, but he doesn't want to tell him.

There is also a big difference between his unconscious expressionless face and his deliberately cold face.Just like now, Cheng Shi looked at him as if he was about to curse, and he was extremely fierce.With inexplicable grievance mixed with anger in my heart, I said in a choked voice, "What did I lie to you?"

Maybe it's more wronged.The quarrel that hadn't yet formed was choked in the throat, and the momentum for no reason weakened by more than half, turning into a small group of whimpers, "Why do you say that about me..."

Is he doing something wrong?

He obviously tried his best to make everyone feel better.

Why are you still not satisfied?

There was a palpitating silence in the air.There was a chaotic hum in his mind, and Cheng Shi turned his head with difficulty, only then did he realize that the baby chair beside him was empty.

Probably because they think the two adults are too noisy.Cheng Xiaojun climbed down from the chair, returned to the sofa to play with toys by himself, and was about to jump off the sofa again.

"Xiaojun!" Cheng Shi's heart was suddenly empty.Seeing him stepping on the toy and tripping, his young body slammed into the corner of the coffee table obliquely, but it was too late to catch him.

Cheng Xiaojun got up slowly, and sat on the floor in a daze, with a glaring bright red head on his face.

Blood flowed into the eyes.

Loud cries belatedly resounded through the living room.

**

The wound was not deep, and on the left side of the forehead near the hairline, I went to the hospital for three stitches.The doctor said that taking good care of him will basically not leave scars, and once the bangs are covered, it will not be visible, and it will not affect the image of the handsome boy.

Cheng Shi's whole heart was flooded with guilt.The three stitches seemed to be sewn on him, and every movement of the doctor made him gasp in pain.

Medicines for external application and internal use should be taken from a prescription.Cheng Shi held the payment slip in his hand, "I'll get it. You should go home first."

Although it is not appropriate to think this way, Ren Mingyao feels that he is more worrying than Cheng Xiaojun at the moment, "How do you..."

"I beg you."

He tried his best to suppress it, and in the hospital corridor at night, he pleaded in a low voice, "Go back."

Ren Mingyao was silent for a long time before saying, "Go home early."

Cheng Xiaojun had already finished crying and stayed quietly in his arms.Cheng Shi hugged him tightly, "I'm sorry...Xiao Jun, I'm sorry."

Cheng Xiaojun still didn't understand that it wasn't the little uncle who hurt him.He raised his hand and touched Cheng Shi's forehead, but he didn't feel any wound left by the collision. He was confused but said sensiblely, "Xiao Jun doesn't hurt anymore."

His small chest still smelled of milk soap, but it was unbelievably warm.Cheng Shi lowered his head and pressed his cheek against him, and could even feel the small palms pulling on the back of his head, imitating the movements of adults to comfort him.

Such a sensible child is about to leave him.

Maybe that's the right thing to do.Cheng Shi thought that being with someone like him would only lead to torture.Either Cheng Xiaojun or Ren Mingyao.

Ren Mingyao's disappointed eyes were engraved in his mind during dinner.He seemed to be doing nothing wrong, or doing anything right.

Ren Mingyao was good enough to him.But he still made Ren Mingyao sad.

If he still has a little conscience, he should stay away from others and stop harming others.

There is no closing time for the hospital, but I still have to go home.

No matter what happens in the future, this night is doomed to sleep peacefully.

Cheng Shi wanted to put the child in his arms to sleep.It's past the usual time to sleep, and Cheng Xiaojun cried for so long again, but he didn't feel sleepy at this time, and walked hand in hand until the front of the house.

There was a light on in the living room.Of course, Ren Mingyao didn't sleep, he bought materials and wrapped anti-collision strips on the corners of the table.The corners and corners of the milk blue cover the living room, and every piece of angular furniture becomes gentle.

Cheng Shi silently led Cheng Xiaojun into the bedroom.Even the desks, chairs, bookshelves and the corners of the bed are tightly wrapped, "Xiaojun... Play here first, can you not come out? Don't come to the living room. Uncle has something to say. Can you?"

He squatted down and repeatedly confirmed with Cheng Xiaojun, took out the building blocks and poured them on the floor mat.Cheng Xiaojun picked up a piece with half understanding, nodded to him, "Oh."

Cheng Shi gently closed the door.In the living room, Ren Mingyao was wrapping up the coffee table, and there was not much bumper strip left.

"Don't do it." His voice trembled.

Ren Mingyao didn't stop his movements, and didn't answer the words. He wrapped around the last paragraph as if he hadn't heard anything before turning around.

"Why do you want to do this?" Cheng Shi watched segments of gentle blue spread out in every corner as far as he could see.I feel so sad, but I can't even tell what I'm asking and who I'm asking, "Xiaojun is leaving! Why are you still like this...why? He's not mine."

"Xiao Jun is not mine."

He cried.Perhaps earlier, in the hospital, at the dining table, I couldn't bear the redness of my eyes, I couldn't help it long ago, "I know it's wrong to think so...but I don't want Xiaojun to be taken away by others."

"Why does he have to go with others? What if others are not so precious to him? What if others don't treat him as well as I do? I want him to grow up healthy and happy, and I want him to live a better life." I'm a hundred times better. I can too... I'll take care of him too."

The last sentence, especially unconvincing after tonight's accident, "He...he is my baby."

"Don't cry." Ren Mingyao sighed silently in his heart. He had the illusion that he knew this beforehand. He pulled him onto the sofa, hugged him into his arms, and wiped away the tears on his face. "If you don't want to, I won't let you cry." Anyone take him away from you, okay? Don't cry."

"But Xiaojun, he likes his new father very much."

After finally expressing these selfish thoughts, I finally didn't have to pretend to be generous because I cared about other people's thoughts, and it was surprisingly easy.

There is a natural sense of intimacy between father and son. He could see it clearly, and he was always panicked. Won't you forget me?"

"No." Ren Mingyao said firmly, "You will always be his little uncle. No matter whether it is Dad or anyone else, no one can replace you. You will never be replaced."

Cheng Shi curled his lips, as if he didn't quite believe it. He lowered his head and tears still fell fiercely, "I can't bear it."

"Then I'll be your baby, can't you?" Ren Mingyao said solemnly, "I'll be your baby. Even if Xiaojun leaves, I will always be here."

How can there be such a big baby.

Adults can't be as cute as children.

Cheng Shi was originally immersed in sadness, but when he caught a glimpse of this man's ears that were faintly red while being serious, he felt a strange feeling in his heart.

Ren Mingyao protected his back with one hand, leaned over and took out two tissues to wipe his nose.His ears quickly turned red, and he thought for a while before asking, "Why do you know about that love letter?"

Ren Mingyao pinched the tip of his nose, his voice became very strange.

"I asked Cheng Yu. He vaguely heard gossip from other people when he went back." Ren Mingyao said, "Write it secretly? Why didn't you give it to me earlier."

He finally didn't deny it anymore, and after thinking for a while, he said, "It's actually very naive. Do you want to read it?"

Ren Mingyao said unexpectedly: "Is it still in your hands?"

"Yeah." Cheng Shi said, "But it's mine. Just to show you."

"Row."

Ren Mingyao followed him into the bedroom.Cheng Xiaojun was still sitting on the floor pushing building blocks. He opened the closet and took out an old biscuit box from the bottom drawer.

He has many such containers.Whether it is a storage box, a storage bag, or a biscuit box.Carefully hide it tightly, like guarding Pandora's curse, if you accidentally release it, it will cause disaster.

This item was not even included in the story that Ren Mingyao was willing to tell until winter.

Cheng Shi took out the letter paper that had been restored for a long time from the envelope, tried his best to piece together hundreds of pieces with transparent tape, but still inevitably left several blank pieces.

He unfolded the fragile letter paper, put it in front of Ren Mingyao and paused for a second, then quickly folded it and put it back, "I can only take a look at it."

"..."

Ren Mingyao only saw "Mingyao:" at the beginning.The neat and clear fonts are the handwriting that he has learned from his memory. The moment he saw it again after many years, his body felt faintly numb as if it had been electrified.

Afraid that he would snatch it, Cheng Shi repeated, "This is mine."

Ren Mingyao suddenly remembered that he had read a strange sentence.Forgot where I saw it, and said "I have a crush on you, it has nothing to do with you".

At that time, I thought it was unreasonable, but now I don't need to say much to understand it.

He didn't pursue it any further, and watched Cheng Shi carefully put away his treasure.The heart-wrenching soreness was unspeakable, "Did he tear you apart in the alley that day?"

"……Um."

He put the biscuit box back, pulled Ren Mingyao back to the living room, and whispered, "Xiaojun is here. Let's go out and talk."

It seems reasonable to keep the secret until winter.

He doesn't have such a good acting talent, and he can perfectly hide his emotions all the time.Even if there is no news from Cheng Yu, Ren Mingyao will realize that something is wrong sooner or later.

He was just wishful thinking to delay the opportunity to confess.

"I broke a bone that night. Aunt Lan picked me up the next day when she found out. The hospital she took me to and the surgery she performed with me. I struggled in the hospital for a long time, and some fragments were really hard to find. It’s gone. The nurse also helped me wipe off the muddy water with alcohol and cotton swabs, and borrowed scotch tape for me.”

Cheng Shi folded his hands and clenched his trembling fingertips.

Since you want to say it, then say it.

"I dare not go back. I dare not see you. As long as I don't see you, people in the family will not know who you are. As long as I disappear, he has no reason to go to school to make things big... I'm really afraid I'm scared to death! We have never done anything bad, just because of a love letter, you will be regarded as the same person as me, you have worked so hard, just because of me, because of me... you will be like Those two senior brothers are also notorious, and if they can't stay and transfer to another school, they have to leave their hometown..."

He wasn't lying.He really felt that what happened back then had nothing to do with Ren Mingyao. Ren Mingyao didn't do anything wrong, and he didn't even know anything at all.

The matter of the love letter back then was his wishful thinking from beginning to end, and he almost got his monitor involved.He was afraid that going back would turn out to be the worst.So as long as he is the one who left his hometown, if he doesn't go back, he can pretend that nothing happened.He doesn't have to face anything, and everyone can keep going forward.Isn't this the best solution?

No one forced him not to go to college, he was depressed and didn't want to go to college.No one forced him to leave, he was the one who didn't dare to face the worst outcome, that's why he left Ren Mingyao there alone.

He just wanted to lose Ren Mingyao again!

The ups and downs in his voice became more and more violent, he refused Ren Mingyao's interruption to stop, and he also refused to hug.He shrank in the corner of the sofa, holding his head and turning into a ball, as if he wished to become a sponge embedded in the sofa, becoming something without brains and emotions, which was much easier than being a human.

The sound emanating from a ball of sponge also became muddy.

"I dare not tell you... I am afraid that you will find out that I am such a cowardly and unbearable person. I don't want you to find out, I have been hiding it from you, so I am not only timid, but also hypocritical. "

Everyone is qualified to accuse Cheng Yu of escaping, only he can't.At least Cheng Yuming came here, at least people dare to admit it.

What is he?

He did it secretly and kept it hidden, not daring to mention it.

"Now you know everything, get it... It doesn't matter, I really don't know what you like about me. I hate myself for being like this, but how can I change? I also want to know how to change so that I can't be like this, but I am such a person! I am such..."

He felt so tired, as tired as he had ever been.It's not because of Cheng Xiaojun or Ren Mingyao, but because he feels tired of himself.

Every time he feels that he can have it, he will lose it immediately, and every time he feels that life is getting better, he will immediately face something again.He can't blame anyone, because all the results are caused by his own actions.

Ren Mingyao stared at him intently, and could almost read the sense of despair from his curled up posture.

He said silently, let's break up.I beg you.

You also leave me once.That way we're even.

Then he would go away by himself, go back to his lonely and nameless life, back to his peaceful and isolated days, not interacting with anyone, and not making anyone sad.

But Ren Mingyao didn't say that, and found the switch of this sponge. He was too fragile to bear a hug, so he could only gently pinch his fingertips, and patiently recalled his sanity, "Cheng Shi, open your eyes... ...Cheng Shi, look up at me."

"I hear you. I know what you are. Now do you want to hear what I have to say?"

Cheng Shi shook his head vigorously, trying to cover his ears, but let out a hoarse "hmm".

I can't wait to stir myself into the sweeping robot as garbage.Can't wait to disappear in place.

But I still want to hear it.

When he was extremely disgusted with himself.When he wanted to retreat, back into the world that only had him.

The warm fingertips caressed his blushing face, and the cold tears disappeared into the fingerprints.Ren Mingyao said word by word, "Cheng Shi."

"I love you."

The living room was extremely quiet, only the staggered heartbeat and breathing could be heard.

Cheng Shi raised his head slowly, his amber eyes glistened with tears.

Incredible light, getting brighter and brighter.

Cheng Xiaojun stared at the door for a long time, and finally couldn't bear the loneliness, and ran over with the gauze on his forehead.Pulling up Ren Mingyao's finger, he put it awkwardly in a heart-to-heart gesture and showed it to him.A crisp child's voice sounded, "I love you."

The author has something to say:

Come to Liao!

stay up late

Mainly if you can’t write this, Kazhang’s conscience will hurt

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