I have nothing to do

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In the local donkey forums, one after another, people share their experience and strategies of challenging the wild mountains in the suburbs alone.

In these guides, the wild mountains are so beautiful, and the villagers are also very enthusiastic. There are no wild animals, only the fragrance of birds and flowers and lush trees. It is like a paradise in this northwest region.

The girl made up her mind when she slid the mouse and saw that it was written in the guide that it was suitable for beginner hikers to climb alone.

She chose a sunny day to go out, first by bus, then by rickshaw, and then by real walking.

When the sun was setting, the sky suddenly began to rain. The rain was getting heavier and heavier, and the girl was still trapped on the mountainside. She was eagerly looking for a place to shelter from the rain. The thunder was rumbling. Although she was wearing a raincoat, she was already soaked.

She didn't dare to hide under the tree, so she could only grope forward. Suddenly, a light appeared in front of her, and she finally saw hope.

It was an apple orchard, full of apple trees, and there was a small room with light shining through it. As soon as the girl walked to the door, someone opened the door inside.

An old man smiled kindly.

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"You deserve...heh."

Jian Ce held the cigarette in his mouth, lowered his eyes and sneered. He stuffed the cigarette into his mouth again, took a puff and then took it out to shake it. After a while, his feet were already covered with soot.

The color and language match, is it that you are not worthy?

Jian Ce has never known what went wrong in her life.

He was a child of someone else's family since he was a child, his grades are not bad, and he is also good at sports. As he grows older, he is getting taller and more handsome. He has been the most eye-catching one in the crowd since junior high school. In high school, someone said that he was prettier than the stars on TV. He watched it too, and felt that it was true. He prepared for the art test as if he was playing. He didn’t have to be a star. He could study. I can go to college honestly.

But God seems to have always favored him, and he was easily admitted to the Film Academy.

The family members were very happy. Teacher appreciation banquets and school entrance banquets were held one after another.

He went to the capital with the dream of becoming a star, went to university, and then things started to look a little different.

The classmates are all rich, and they need to grit their teeth and tighten their belts for food and clothing, or simply save money to afford them.

The classmates are also very beautiful, whether girls or boys.

And some classmates are rich, beautiful, and good at acting.

Jian Ce's professional courses can only be regarded as above-average, not the best, but they are definitely not bad, just like his image.

When the well-connected classmates started filming, Jian Ce was an extra in the commercial.

He comforted himself that Qunyan is also very good, accumulating experience and accumulating money.

When he graduated from university, he didn't get into any drama troupe.

But it doesn't matter, most of the students didn't pass the exam.

He has become a North Drifter, it’s okay, many of his classmates are also North Drifters.

Then there are running groups, shooting commercials that never write their names, and occasionally acting in a drama, the audience is not as large as the actors.

People often tell him that he is very good, but he just lacks opportunities.

He himself said so to himself.

Not long after he joined the industry, someone wanted to hire him, but he refused. He thought his future was just beginning.

But then he realized that his future is now.

The days were wasted to the point that his face was no longer youthful. He calculated the resources in his hand and found that there was nothing he could take out.

What Weng Chi showed in front of him was a rich second generation who was not that rich, and he was the standard destination for many [-]th-tier florets and small Internet celebrities.

Jian Ce knew in his heart that this might be the best thing he could meet at this stage, but he was still a little bit reconciled, not reconciled to finding an ordinary person after holding back for so many years.

Then why did you refuse to take care of him in the first place?

For ridiculous dignity?

Then Yan Yu appeared, bringing Cheng Xinyuan with him, he was very surprised, how could a person like Yan Yu get involved with a great director, Yan Yu could do it, but he couldn't.

He was even more dissatisfied.

After that, things were different from what he thought. Weng Chi, Cheng Xinyuan, Director Wang, and many others, they were all in the same circle as Yan Yu, but for themselves, they seemed to have seen it, and they seemed to be in the same circle. did not see it.

The relationship between Weng Chi and Ming Ze was beyond his expectation, and he almost gave up Weng Chi.

Jian Ce felt that this ambiguity could not go on any longer, he had to catch Weng Chi, but Weng Chi gave up on him.

Mingze appeared immediately, and he smiled softly.

"Yan Yu, did you think of me when you were with Weng Chi? So I was the last to know about you being together? And Mingze told me."

Mingze told Jian Ce that day that he wanted to tell him something, and asked Jian Ce if he wanted to hear it. Mingze always spoke like this, as if he was asking you, but in fact it was just an announcement.Jian Ce could only say that he wanted to hear it, and Mingze smiled and told him that Weng Chi has a new boyfriend now, and he seems to be Jian Ce's classmate.

Jian Ce's first reaction when he heard this was not surprise, but a little joy. He wondered if Weng Chi had a new boyfriend, did that mean that Mingze could let him go.

But Mingze obviously didn't have this plan.

He asked Jian Ce Yan Yu how this person is and whether he is reliable, Jian Ce honestly said that he is not bad, but he doesn't know much about others.

Mingze laughed even happier after hearing this answer. He said that you are not a bad person, but I hate you.

Jian Ce had too many likes, but he didn't care much about them. He felt that those likes were superficial and useless. He held his likes tightly and never gave them alms. Now, he The benefactor, smiled and said he hated him.

Do you want to torture him because you hate him?

"Yan Yu, why did you like me before? You liked me before, if I guessed correctly."

"You know I like you?" Yan Yu was surprised, he always thought he was hiding it well.

"Ha, why don't I know." Jian Ce stroked his hair back with his fingers, "Your eyes are quite obvious, since you were in high school."

"Really..." Yan Yu didn't know why, but Jian Ce's words relieved him a lot.

It turned out that he had always known that he liked him silently, whether it was in high school or after the reunion, he knew that he liked him, but he didn't give any response.

So the ending of this secret love has been written long ago, but I have been avoiding it, saying that I don't care about the result every time, and saying that it is just a spiritual sustenance every time.

But at this moment, Yan Yu felt that he had really reconciled with his past self.

You are not great, you are not stupid, you don't need to be moved by yourself, and you don't need to confess yourself, it's just a past relationship.

"I liked you before because I thought you were very nice." Yan Yu said calmly.

Jian Ce nodded, then shook his head again, he smiled wryly and said, "Then now, I'm not well now."

"You're fine now too..." Yan Yu paused, and then said, "It's just that I don't like it anymore."

Yan Yu's answer made Jian Ce raise his eyebrows, and he said:

"Am I okay? I thought you'd hate me."

"Why do I hate you?" Yan Yu's expression was full of doubts, "You didn't do anything to me, if it was because Weng Chi started liking you, then I did the same, it's not your fault, as for you and Ming Ze's business is your business, it has nothing to do with me..."

"It should be relevant now." Jian Ce threw the cigarette on the ground and crushed it with his feet, "Ming Ze will not let you stay with Weng Chi."

"I know."

"Aren't you afraid?"

"I'm afraid." Yan Yu lowered his eyes, "Will it work?"

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When I wrote it, I wondered if everyone would think that the mental activity was a bit strange, but I didn’t modify it after thinking about it, because I think it’s quite subtle, but I don’t rule out the possibility that I will change it when I wake up tomorrow.

And about Jian Ce, I have been saying that he is not smart, he is another kind of "ordinary person", and he made many wrong choices in his life path, so it may lead to the current result.

It is mainly Mingze's pot.

Mingze ([-])

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Mingze's head started to hurt more and more, he needed to go to the hospital more and more, and he needed to take more pills.

The butler will give him a glass of warm water, and then give him medicine. After eating, the butler will give him a piece of chocolate.

He seldom eats sweets because his father said sugar is bad for teeth.

But that day when he saw his father buy cotton candy for the little child, his father smiled very gently.

He would still visit his mother secretly, even if she didn't want to see him.

The mother would say that it would be fine without him, and that without him, he would have divorced a long time ago.

It was years later that Mingze realized that this was the mother's biggest lie.

Because she married her father without him, and she didn't divorce her father without him.

With or without her, she would not divorce her father, she just wanted to find an excuse for her behavior, and children are the best excuse.

But back then, Mingze was still young, he didn't know that adults were such selfish things, he was terrified, he even felt that he had caused his mother to come to this point.

When he is alone, he often thinks of the little kid holding up the marshmallow, he looks so cute and happy.

The mother said that they are a family of three, so is he also the father's child?

He ran to ask the housekeeper, but the housekeeper said that this is not something you should think about, young master.

But he couldn't help thinking, so he kept begging the housekeeper to tell him more, he would definitely keep it secret and be very good.

Mingze begged too many times, and the housekeeper had no choice but to pat his head, saying that this was all an adult's business.

Mingze thought for a while and asked, "Does he look like me?"

The butler paused, and then said, "His eyes are very similar to the young master's."

Mingze: "Is it a boy or a girl?"

Butler: "It's a boy."

A boy who is related to him and looks very similar, isn't that his brother?

Mingze's head started to hurt again. He hugged his head and squatted down. He said it hurt so much, as if someone had hit his head with a hammer.

Then he was sent to the hospital again. The doctor asked him many questions, but he didn't really remember them. He was drowsy and answered instinctively.

Then he was hospitalized, and he didn't quite remember the days when he was hospitalized. He was still groggy, and the world seemed to have only two colors, white and black.

Only the housekeeper visited him when he was in the hospital.

Mingze didn't ask why the others didn't come, he seemed to have grown up all of a sudden, he knew a lot of things that he couldn't ask.

After returning home this time, he didn't go to school anymore.

He couldn't remember too many things, such as the little bird he had kept for a few days, the little white dog who liked to drill into his garden, and the red goldfish in the fish tank, all of which disappeared strangely.

Mingze told his father that he wanted to raise a cat.

His father looked at him with disgust and said that a cat is a life too.

Mingze didn't understand the meaning of his father's words. He knew that a cat is a life, a bird, a puppy, and a small fish are all lives, and there are people.

He went to tell the housekeeper that he wanted to raise a cat.

The butler shook his head in embarrassment. He said, young master, it's okay if we don't raise animals. Raising animals will be troublesome.

Not even agreeing with his best housekeeper, Mingze had no choice but to give up.

One day Mingze actually ran into that little boy, his younger brother, on the road.

He told the driver to pull over, then he got out and walked over to the little boy.

The little boy was still small, he squatted at the entrance of the alley with his back to Mingze, there was a bowl in front of him, and a cat was eating the cat food in the bowl.

"What are you doing?" Mingze asked curiously.

"I'm feeding the cats." The little boy said in a grandma's voice, "The cats have no home and no food. I'll get them."

"You can take it home and feed it."

"No, Mom will sneeze."

Mingze squatted there and watched the kitten eat with his brother for a while, and then the bodyguard came and took him away. He thought he must come back tomorrow to feed the cat with his brother.

Mingze went there the next day, but his head hurt again, so he had to come back.

On the third day, there was no brother or cat in the alley.

As he grew older, Mingze gradually understood what was going on with him. He understood, but it was difficult for him to control, and his mother's illness became more and more serious.

As long as Mingze went to see her, he would come out full of scars, in addition to visible scars and invisible scars, his mother would ask him why he hadn't died yet, if he died, everyone would be very happy.

Finally one day, he asked his mother why you haven't died yet, everyone would be happier if you died.

It wasn't long before the mother was picked up.

Not long after, my mother died.

Newspapers are full of stories about the love between father and mother. Mingze reads one report after another, and begins to wonder the boundary between truth and falsehood.

After my mother left, my father hardly ever came back.

Mingze went to visit his younger brother secretly. The boy has grown up a bit. He goes to school normally, and his mother will always wait for him at the school gate.

Mingze found himself jealous of him, jealous that he has a gentle mother and gentle father, jealous that he can lead a normal life.

Later, Mingze felt that he hated him a little bit, and Mingze wondered if everyone would be happy if he died.

It seems not, it seems that no one will be happy when my younger brother dies, including myself.

Mingze felt that he also liked his younger brother very much, because he couldn't help but look at him, because his eyes were very similar to his own, and because he had half the same blood as himself.

Mingze didn't know whether his father was happy or not, but he himself was very happy.

When the father died, he took his hand and said to take care of the younger brother, because they are brothers.

At the funeral, the younger brother came, followed by his mother.

When the younger brother looked over, Mingze couldn't help smiling at him, he thought his younger brother finally knew his existence.

Although I am the one on the bright side.

He didn't know how much his father left to the mother and son, he thought there must be a lot, at least it would allow them to live without worry.

He would still visit his younger brother, park the car at the gate of his school, and watch him run happily from school.

He got into sex and found it to be a wonderful act.

The tyranny in his bones seems to have a reasonable place to go.

Then the butler got old and couldn't control him anymore. He couldn't stare at him to take the medicine anymore.

So when he doesn't take medicine, Mingze will vent his excess emotion on sex.

Fortunately, he was never short of a bed partner, and he was never short of money.

Of course, not everyone has special hobbies. He has seen those who really cried miserably, but he doesn't understand them very well, because if you want to get something that doesn't belong to you, you must pay an unusual price. Could it be that these people walk into Didn't his room understand this before?

You can't go back on your word halfway, he's not a philanthropist.

Mingze began to gradually take over the family business. The process was very difficult, but Mingze managed it, because only he was not afraid of death, he was not afraid of his own death, and he was not afraid of the death of others. Those old people in the company said he was inhuman, Mingze thought. They actually only found out about this today.

The younger brother's mother also died. Mingze knew that his younger brother's mother owed a lot of debts, so he went to his younger brother's mother's funeral.

Not long after, he took his younger brother home, and he had to take care of him personally, because he was his only brother.

Nobody can change this.

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In a few days, it will be moved to Fanwai, and the text will be updated tomorrow.

In fact, I have been struggling with a question for the past few days: what kind of character is Yan Yu?

I finally got the answer today, so I will update it tomorrow~~