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After a crazy night, Li Li seemed to be sleeping peacefully.

As for Su Cheng, he couldn't fall asleep no matter what, and sat on the edge of the bed feeling a little remorseful.

She knows that for Li Li, that black hole-like life experience has always been the source of her pain, and her identification of her "crime" is the most unbearable aspect of herself.Talking out is not enough to heal. When a person exposes a side that he doesn't want to face up to, the wound may not heal, and it may get worse.

Su Chenghou was afraid that when Li Li was so stimulated, and even a little stunned by the shock, he did not comfort her pain well, but was dazzled by desire, and entered her body before he could control it. , if this happened to strengthen Li Li's recollection of those painful memories in the past, wouldn't it be more painful for her to wake up tomorrow morning?

She was afraid of herself, causing Li Li a second trauma.

The more Su Cheng thought about it, the more anxious she became. She quickly turned on the desk lamp, took out all the books on psychology and psychological counseling at home, and then went online to search the webpages of various psychologists, searching for "how to comfort after talking about trauma" and the like. After reading the post, she took notes while taking notes, and deleted them while taking notes. After several hours, she finally condensed a few words, which she wanted to say to Li Li.

At this time, I looked out of the window, and it was already dawn, and the slight sunlight penetrated through the gauze curtain, caressing the sleeping Li Li's face.

Su Cheng sat on the stool next to the bed, just stared at Li Li, motionless, as if he couldn't get enough of everything, wishing to remember the arc of each of her eyelashes.

If Li Li doesn't wake up, she can look at her like this all morning.

After a good night's sleep, Li Li slowly opened his eyes, and what he saw was this person who was sitting and staring at him motionless.

"You, why are you sitting here?"

Li Li was a little surprised and rubbed his eyes, as if he had misread it.Why isn't this person who is more sleepy than himself lying on the bed?She suddenly saw a pile of psychology books scattered behind Su Cheng, as well as a pile of web pages that had not been closed on the computer screen, and she could see that this person hadn't slept all night.

Just as she was about to speak, Su Cheng put a finger on her lips.

"Hush... Li Li, don't say anything, listen to me."

Su Cheng knelt down in front of the bed on one knee, and took out a piece of paper from his pocket. The words on it were densely written and scratched messily.

"I'm afraid I can't say it well, so I wrote it down, don't mind." Su Cheng knelt down and touched his head. It could be seen that she was a little embarrassed and nervous, as if she was about to defend her graduation. For fear of not being passed.

"Li Li, thank you for being willing to tell me your true thoughts. I am stupid and can't say anything that can comfort you. You may feel that no one in this world can understand your pain, so you would rather wrap yourself Get up, but I want to tell you, you can trust me, I am willing to feel all your feelings, from now on, you will no longer bear it alone, no matter how dirty the past is, I am in the future, we will create our own Our own glorious world, I love you, I accept all of you, and I will give you all my love."

Li Li listened to Su Cheng recite this passage word by word, as solemnly as if he was reciting an oath.

She cried and laughed again; laughed and cried again.

That dark self, that self full of hatred and anger, that self that doesn't know how to love, was just held in the palm of Su Cheng's hands.

If someone thinks you are good and wants to be with you, this is appreciation, admiration, and liking;

If someone knows that you are bad, but still stays with you, it is acceptance, pampering, and love.

There must be an angel who threw her the luck of being loved. She is full of expectations for the future that belongs to them described by Su Cheng.

If it is said that when he was a child, he was just being pushed away by time like a walking dead, but now, Li Li wants to go to the future by himself, together with Su Cheng.

Because of you, I have dreams to dream.

Li Li hugged Su Cheng very, very hard.

"Su Cheng, from now on, I will hug you as tightly as you hug me."

Although the earth revolves and rotates around the sun, this planet is not flat. There are mountains, valleys, and seabeds where light cannot penetrate. The world we live in has never been fair and universal.

Therefore, not everyone is lucky enough to live under the sun. Over time, a group of numb and rotten people piously worship the dark flowers that bloom in the rotten swamp. Their vision is distorted and they cannot see the flowers on the petals Their sense of smell is blocked, and they cannot smell the stench from the stamens. They use their own lives to show their loyalty, and they lick the pus and blood from the wounds addictively to express their understanding of the true meaning of life.

Li Quanzhi is such a person, and Lin Ru is not.

Fortunately, when Li Li was struggling in this dark swamp, Su Cheng made a hole in the sky above her head. She raised her head and saw the warm and scorching sun. She closed her eyes and smelled To the fragrance of oxygen.When she was terrified and dragged back by the gloomy world, when she sadly thought that she was about to be backlashed, she saw Su Cheng stretched out his hand to her, and with the warmest smile and sunshine, said to her: " Li Li, hold me and come up."

Su Cheng, you are the light of my world.

……

Later, Li Li sent Lin Ru a text message:

Mom, do what you want to do, if I let you go, you also let yourself go.

……

There are always philosophers, psychologists, writers

They are all urging everyone to forgive those who have hurt themselves.

even thank them for making themselves stronger

but has anyone thought

Some hurt so rotten, so heartbroken

And I also have the right not to forgive

Maybe it will be calm at last

It's just me reconciling with myself, I respect that scar

Nothing more

nothing to forgive you

The author has something to say:

Not everyone says "I'm sorry" to you, but you have to respond "It's okay", and you also have the right to choose not to forgive.

Of course, we may have different perceptions at different stages. Will the relationship between Li Li and his family change?Let's leave it to time for now.