The cold goddess always wants to bend me

As soon as the words came out, there was a loud cry, as if to vent all the grievances, all the worries and fears.

Wei Zhi's already numb heart began to ache again, and the pain became more and more painful. She couldn't breathe in the pain. She wanted to hug her and wipe away her tears, but found that she could only speak the most useless words to the phone : "I was wrong, don't cry, okay?"

"I'm going to cry, so you're allowed to bully me, but I'm not allowed to cry?"

"Then you cry, no, you can't cry, your eyes will be swollen and hurt if you cry, it's better not to cry, okay, when I go back, you can vent your anger however you want, okay?"

Wei Zhi's heart went from numbness to pain, and now it's about to break.She is extremely eager to appear by her side immediately, to apologize for everything she has done, or to beat or scold, as long as it can make her not cry, she is willing to do anything.

"No, I... I just want to cry, I can't... I can't control it, I can't control my tears, and I... I can't control thinking of you, it's obviously your fault, why... why am I so uncomfortable." Phone The voice on the other end was intermittent, she was crying so hard that she couldn't complete a sentence, her voice was soft and nasal, but as soon as she finished speaking, the phone was occupied by even more fierce crying.

Wei Zhi's eyes were sour, and his exhausted face was replaced by deep self-blame. At the same time, there was an unconcealable joy spreading in his heart. Tears welled up in his eyes, half distressed, half joyful, because Yu Xinxin was getting more and more tired. The more ferocious crying made her feel distressed, and she was delighted by Yu Xinxin's uncontrollable miss, but this distress soon overshadowed her joy, and deeper regret and guilt began to occupy her heart.

What kind of girlfriend is she? She promised to love her forever, but left her after she was injured in a car accident, and separated from her when she needed her most. She hurt her so much, and she still couldn't control it. I miss her so much.

"Stop crying, okay? It's all my fault. Stop crying, okay?" Her voice was like a broken cup, filled with prayers. She really couldn't bear Yu Xinxin's tears. Regret was about to overwhelm her.

Yu Xinxin didn't speak, and cried for a while next to the phone, until her sore eyes swelled again, she got up and opened the refrigerator door, took some ice cubes wrapped in a towel and put them on her eyes, her nose twitched, and said: "Stop crying, I'm tired of crying." Her voice was a little hoarse, but her emotions settled down, as if all her grievances had been vented.

Wei Zhi sat down against the edge of the bed, clenched the mattress with his thin fingers, and said softly, "I'm sorry."

"If possible, I never want to hear you say these three words."

After experiencing the heart-piercing pain, she realized that the three words "I'm sorry" never meant sorry. Behind this was the unbearable and unbearable pain that she had to bear. She didn't want these three words.

"I..." She wanted to say sorry, but she couldn't say it, but what else could she say besides sorry?

"Aside from being sorry, don't you have anything else to say?" After she calmed down, her voice was low and a little alienated.

"..." Wei Zhi lowered her head, the knuckles of her fingers sunken into the bedding bulged, and her back slowly bent, as if she had taken on too many things, and it was difficult to stand up again. She bit her lip tightly, and after a while, she finally went With a sigh of relief, he said softly but firmly: "Xinxin, no matter what I say or do, no matter what happens, I still love you, and this will never change."

Yu Xinxin's eye sockets began to become moist again, she raised her head, held back her tears, her heart was sore and astringent, she took a soft breath with her throat choked, and after a while, she whispered: "What are you still talking about?" Are you unwilling to tell me? Am I not worthy of your confession?"

Wei Zhi opened his eyes slightly, and said with trembling lips, "I'm sorry."

"I said I don't want to hear you say these three words."

Tears were withdrawn slowly, Yu Xinxin was very calm at the moment, even indifferent, she leaned on the sofa, her eyes looked at the ceiling, but inexplicably remembered the joy they had on the sofa one time before, when she was also Looking at the ceiling like this, Wei Zhi leaned on her body, talking softly about love, she was so gentle and patient at that time, pushing her into the abyss of ecstasy one after another , but all this looks so ridiculous now, she said coldly: "Do you really love me?"

If he really loved her, how could he have the heart to leave her alone in the hospital, how could he have the heart to let her think endlessly, she has been very disturbed for the past two months, Wei Zhi's attitude towards her is very different from before, no No matter how gentle she is, she is no longer patient. She sometimes wonders if Wei Zhi is tired of her, and if she is just a tool for her temporary entertainment. After all, she has such conditions, what kind of girlfriend or boyfriend does she want, otherwise? Why did she drop out of school behind her back?And why did you leave her?How could he be willing to break up with her?

Thinking back to the half a year she spent with Wei Zhi, she was confessed inexplicably, fell in love with her inexplicably, felt sorry for her uncontrollably, and finally fell in love with her hopelessly. She has always been there as she expected. Slowly approach her until you can't leave her at all.

She has always pretended not to care, but now she can no longer pretend not to care. Does she not love her at all, or does she have no confidence in her?

In the past, she felt that Wei Zhi was too unreal to her. Regardless of their appearance, family background or experience, they should be two opposites. It is normal for them not to know each other or to pass each other. become like today?What is he to her?

"I love you, I really love you, you believe me." At no moment has her heart been so flustered, she is like a victim floating in the middle of the sea, tightly holding the last piece of driftwood in her hand.

"Do you really love me?"

"I love you, I love you, I love you, you believe me, no one will love you more than me."

The words from the other end of the phone, like a precise machine, filled in the parameters to the point of expressing infinite affection, this kind of affection made her addicted, and every time she said a word, her heart softened a little until it softened. It couldn't be softer, but it was full of bitter taste.

"Besides that I love you, what else do you want to tell me?"

The string in her heart collapsed tightly, but it snapped at this moment, she was so painful that tears fell, she knew there were some things she shouldn't hide from her, even if it was her most embarrassing past, but she couldn't stand Xinxin's questioning Her love can't bear that the person she loves treats her in such an indifferent tone, it will make her have no hope of going on.

"Do you still remember the person I told you about that I felt guilty about? The reason why I was in such a hurry to come back was because of her."

"If it wasn't for that accident, I should have fallen in love with her, spent my life with her happily."

The light outside the window has been completely dimmed, the living room is groggy, someone forgot to turn off the light in the bathroom, warm yellow light squeezed in through the crack of the door, stingily illuminating the furnishings in the living room a little.

Yu Xinxin froze in place, and for a moment many thoughts disturbed her heart, making her breathless. Wei Zhi's words pierced her heart fiercely like a sharp knife, and she heard her own voice trembling:

"Then why do you like me again?"

"Xinxin, I don't like you anymore. I love you. You are my everything. You make me look forward to this world again. You are the medicine that saves my life. How can I not love you?"

— the medicine that saved your life?

——Because you want to live, you fall in love with someone?

—Even though, this person can be anyone.

The truth is so cruel sometimes. When you are far away, you long for it infinitely. When you catch up with her and find that everything is not as you wish, you are so disgusted.

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I have written to the end, after the abuse, they will live happily together forever