The cold goddess always wants to bend me

The person on the other end of the phone was still talking intermittently, and Yu Xinxin didn't know if she heard it clearly. She stared blankly at the crooked curtains blown by the wind in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows, and her whole body began to become numb and hollow.

"Her name is Shu Yixin. I met her in the third grade of junior high school. At that time, I was very silent because of my parents. At that time, Gu Mingxi even made fun of me, saying how would I find a boyfriend in the future if I am such a ignorant person? She just She appeared at that time. She was a transfer student. When I followed the class teacher to the teacher that morning, I noticed her at first sight. She was really beautiful and clean at that time, like an elf who came out of a fairy tale. , She is so cute, she loves to smile, when she looks at me, she smiles very sweetly, I was thinking at that time, how can there be such a beautiful person in this world, besides Gu Mingxi, she is the most dazzling person in my life I feel very comfortable when I get along with her. Whether it is the indifference of my father or the depression of my mother, it can disappear. Gradually, I found that I like the feeling when I am with her. At that time, I didn’t understand that it was a What kind of mood, but later I understood, that kind of mood is called heartbeat."

Yu Xinxin bit her lips tightly. She turned on the hands-free phone and put it on the tea table. She hugged her legs with her hands and buried her head in her knees. She curled up with tears streaming down her face. She really wanted to Shout out: Stop talking.

But the voice on the phone didn't stop, she continued.

It was cruel, but it was the truth she wanted.

"Later, I became more and more obsessed with this feeling, but I didn't quite understand it until one time, a woman found me and claimed that she was Gu Mingxi's girlfriend. Because she couldn't find her, she came to me, hoping I can help bring her a message. I was shocked by the relationship between this woman and Gu Mingxi, but the feeling in my heart gradually became clear. I didn't know how to face her for a while, so I had to avoid her. Hid her, so she cried, such a beautiful person shed tears in front of me, told me that she liked me and wanted to be with me, my heart was about to melt at that time, but I didn't answer her, even at that time I am not very old, and I know that the road for the two girls is difficult. I don't want to hurt her, and I don't know how to face this special relationship. She cried very sadly, and gave me a letter, and then said Will wait for me to leave, but as soon as she left, I regretted it. I struggled all day, and finally decided to agree to her. From the moment I made up my mind, I felt like a bird lived in my heart, all the time No longer fluttering wings, my heart is about to fly to the sky. I wanted to confess my love after school, but she was picked up by her family in advance. Only then did I know that it was her birthday. I thought about listening to it on her birthday. If you don't get the answer you want, you should be very disappointed, so you are going to find her, but the servant at home called and told me that my parents had quarreled again, and my mother was very emotional that time, and they thought I was their daughter Well, if I come back, they won't continue to quarrel, after all, every time I quarreled in the past, my father would leave silently when he saw me come back. "

The voice on the other end of the phone paused for a moment, as if she was wiping away her tears. Yu Xinxin's whole body was numb due to being curled up in a ball for a long time, and she was as quiet as a statue.

The curtain in front of the window changed various postures in the breeze, and she looked extremely gentle. She thought that Wei Zhi must have liked that girl very much at that time, and the heartbeat in his youth was the most beautiful, let alone such a beautiful person.

She changed her posture, stretched her hands and feet, and tears spread in her eyes, but she didn't make any sound.

At this moment, she is the best listener in the world.

"You know what happened after that. My mother knew my father's secret. Their relationship was completely broken, and there was no possibility of repairing it. My mother was sent to the hospital. It was at that time that she was found to be pregnant. I It's very strange, my father doesn't like women, why did he let my mother get pregnant, but after a period of depression, my mother was dragged by Gu Mingxi to see a psychiatrist, and then her condition improved day by day, and she even began to look forward to With the arrival of a new life, she no longer waited for her father to come home every night, and she no longer shed tears all day long. Sometimes she would show a warm smile when she touched her stomach. I also dare not accept my beloved girl, because my mother once told me that your father is sick, so he doesn’t like mother, he, one day he will know how disgusting it is between a man and a man, I was dumbfounded I froze in place, thinking in my heart: So the relationship between women and women is also disgusting to my mother? Her condition has just improved, and the doctor said that she should not be stimulated. I dare not show the slightest flaw in front of her, so I and Shu Yixin We just get along with each other like this, I tried to alienate her, told her that I don't like women, but she stubbornly thought that I was lying, she said that my eyes can't deceive people, she said that I like her, no The reason was very stubborn, I was very troubled at the time, I didn't even have the courage to open the letter she wrote to me, I just threw it in the drawer, pretending that I never received this letter, and then..."

She seemed to be recalling something painful, her voice began to tremble, and it took a long time for her to calm down.

"Later that letter was read by my mother. She had a quarrel with my father, and she had a complete emotional breakdown. She hit me, said I was disgusting, and that I was a pervert. She..." Wei Zhi's voice could hardly continue, But she still insisted, "She kept beating her stomach, cursing all the time, saying that my dad and I were abnormal, and the thing in her stomach must be abnormal. She was very emotional at that time, her face She was also terribly pale. She locked herself in the room and couldn't listen to anyone's words. When I opened the room, I found her standing on the balcony with an expression I had never seen on her face. She was numb, not like Living person, I was terrified at the time, begged her to come back, told her that I did not accept that girl, she smiled at me, very lightly, and then without the slightest hesitation..."

"She jumped down, but she was not rescued, and she died twice."

Wei Zhi finally couldn't hold it back, covered her mouth and wept softly. She suppressed it for too long, and held back the words in her heart for too long. When she said it at this moment, it was like a crack appeared in a solid embankment, and a raging flood came out, gradually The cries drowned out everything.

Yu Xinxin bit her lip, the smell of blood filled her mouth, Wei knew how uncomfortable it was at that time, she must think that she killed her mother, so she has been regretting and blaming herself for so many years.

She leaned closer to the phone and said softly, "It's okay, everything is over, you are already fine, you just fell in love with someone, there is nothing wrong with liking."

"No, it's my fault. I should have hidden the letter better, or burned it directly, but I didn't, because I couldn't bear it, and that happened because I couldn't bear it."

"Wei Zhi, there is nothing wrong with liking and loving. What is wrong is the prejudice in people's hearts. Auntie just chose an easier path because she couldn't think about it for a while. She loves you in her heart, but she didn't have time to say it."

"No, she hates me."

——Otherwise, why would you not even want to see me for the last time.