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After going back that day, Mu Zhanxi actually wanted to ask Meng Yinan what happened.

But Meng Yinan was very good at putting on an obedient and pitiful look, as if to say, "Brother, don't ask me any more." Mu Zhanxi had nothing to do with him, and couldn't speak a few times.

This thing just happened.

Meng Yinan's glands that had experienced pain also returned to calm, so he didn't take this matter to heart.

Only two nights later, when Meng Yinan finished reading and was about to go to bed, his neck began to throb and hurt again before and after falling asleep.

He didn't take it seriously at first, but something went wrong with the gland, and it was burning like fire, and it got worse and worse.In just a few minutes, the pain caused my brain to go blank.

Meng Yinan endured it as usual, but in the end the pain was so painful that he couldn't move, and he curled up under the quilt for a while before recovering.

Maybe the pain consumed a lot of energy, he gradually couldn't even open his eyelids, and fell asleep in a daze.

The next day the glands were back to normal, and the pain at night was like a vivid dream.

But Meng Yinan knew that it was not a dream, and also knew that his glands were very unstable.

As for the occasional pain, don't worry about it when it's okay, or if something really went wrong, I don't know.

Two days later, Meng Yinan breathed a sigh of relief when the glands were no longer abnormal.

Before meeting Mu Zhanxi, he seldom went to the hospital when he was sick. Fortunately, he never had a serious illness. He has grown up so much, and he knew what medicine to take to deal with what symptoms. If he feels uncomfortable, he can solve it by himself.

However, the glands are different. Meng Yinan experienced the developmental period for the first time, so he obviously couldn't handle it with ease, and was a little dazed and worried.

It's just that he doesn't want to trouble Mu Zhanxi, and he won't ask his brother to take me to the hospital.After all, it doesn't hurt after the pain, and it's not a problem if it doesn't hurt.

And he didn't want Mu Zhanxi to know about it, so of course he wouldn't mention it.

In order to prevent the gland from being so cold again, Meng Yinan hid from Mu Zhanxi for the past two or three days, for fear of being caught out.

It's not all about hiding, this is Mu Zhanxi's home, where can Meng Yinan hide?

He just rarely went out of the room, and he didn't take the initiative to find Mu Zhanxi, and he didn't go to Mu Zhanxi's room every day and sleep in other people's bed like before.

Probably because he said before that he didn't want Meng Du to know that they had a good relationship, and Mu Zhanxi didn't react too much to his abnormality.

Everything was fine, everything was developing as Meng Yinan imagined, but he couldn't help feeling lonely.

In order to relieve this kind of loneliness, Meng Yinan diverted his attention by studying. In three or four days, he roughly browsed the teaching materials sent by Mu Ting, found some questions in a targeted manner, and took pictures of them after he finished writing them. shipped.

He and Fu Yun haven't seen each other for half a month. Fu Yun said that he missed him very much and showed him a lot of sweet videos. Some of them were puppies who wanted to eat meat and whimpered under the table, and some of them went to the fields to have fun and roll all over the place. body mud.

Meng Yinan also felt very happy watching the puppy video, but Fu Yun told him that he was going to do other things after a short conversation. Compared with Meng Yinan who was flustered at leisure, he obviously had a lot of entertainment.

If Fu Yun stopped talking, Meng Yinan would feel bored again.

Then like an unsolvable circle, when he was bored, he started thinking about Mu Zhanxi again.

Although there was a wall between them, Meng Yinan couldn't help but want to find him.

He was very happy when he was with Mu Zhanxi, and that kind of happiness was different from being with friends. Recently, Meng Yinan became nervous, his heart beat faster, and he felt that he was drifting away and could not get real.

In short, let him describe it himself, it is a light and floating feeling.

Meng Yinan was a contradictory child. He was obviously afraid that Mu Zhanxi would find out about his glands, and wanted to keep it a secret. He deliberately didn't see Mu Zhanxi, but when he didn't see him, he wanted to stay with him.

Meng Yinan felt that he had been split into two halves, both of which had a certain degree of rationality and sensibility.

Half of them told him viciously, "Don't go," and warned Meng Yinan that if he went, he would be found to have gland problems, and Mu Zhanxi would find him troublesome and would not like him.

And the other half cried loudly at Meng Yinan again, yelling "Go, go, I want to find my brother", obviously crying or crying for you.

Meng Yinan was entangled in her own thoughts and was extremely annoyed.

By the time he realized it, he had already walked out of the room and stood in front of Mu Zhanxi's door.

Meng Yinan stood for a while and wanted to knock on the door, but in the end he didn't, so he went back lightly, and before he reached his room, he wanted to come out, so he went downstairs to get a glass of water.

He didn't go out much all day, and it was already dark by now, and it was after nine o'clock in the evening, so he thought about being thirsty.

It's just that Meng Yinan was very thirsty and it was not the time. He was unlucky and met people he didn't want to see.

Meng Du was heating up supper in the kitchen.

Due to the special layout of the house, Meng Yinan couldn't see the kitchen if he didn't go to the corridor, but when he got to the corridor, he would also be seen by Meng Du at a glance.

Meng Du obviously noticed the movement, turned his head and saw Meng Yinan.

Meng Yinan stopped where she was, and left without stepping forward or turning around.

To be honest, this was also the first time the two had been alone since Meng Du's honeymoon.

Although Meng Yinan didn't look forward to it, and didn't want to meet Meng Du at all.

"Yinan," Meng Du said first, then turned his gaze back to the pot, and turned off the low heat, "Come here."

Meng Yinan hesitated for a moment.

Meng Du has a thinking logic that is difficult for Meng Yinan to understand, and he often does outrageous and bizarre things, but it is difficult to see his essence on the surface.

When he was facing Meng Yinan, he just spoke more naturally, he didn't deliberately soften his voice, and his expression was more focused. In the eyes of others, he might think that Meng Du was a young and gentle father.

Of course this is not the case.

"Come on, we haven't seen each other for a long time." Meng Du looked at Meng Yinan with an indescribable look, sometimes making Meng Yinan mistake him for affection, "Let's talk."

Meng Yinan thought, what is there to say.But he still walked over and stood at the door of the kitchen, two or three meters away from Meng Du: "I don't think there is anything to say."

Meng Du ignored this sentence: "How do you feel here?"

Meng Yinan said, "It's okay."

"Didn't you have a good relationship with the new brothers?"

here we go again.Meng Yinan showed a bored expression: "No."

"Remember what I said to you before?" Meng Du's voice was not too loud, and he probably didn't want to be heard by others, "You will be an Omega in the future, and it will be very sad if you don't find an Alpha to rely on."

Meng Yinan's scalp began to tingle, and he felt sick when he heard these nonsense: "I will not become an Omega."

"No," Meng Du was convinced of this, "it must be an Omega."

Meng Du's certainty reminded Meng Yinan of the grievances he had suffered. He heard heavy breathing, and it took him a while to realize that the sound was made by himself.

"I said I won't differentiate into an Omega," Meng Yinan gritted his teeth, "Why do you say that? Just based on the medicine you put on my table? Do you think I will become an Omega after taking it?"

"Yes," Meng Du was not in the mood to cook anymore, so he turned off the fire and looked at Meng Yinan, "Meng Yinan, I have traveled a lot abroad this time to find the best things for you. Will turn you into an Omega, as long as you obey..."

"What's the best thing?" Meng Yinan couldn't bear it anymore, "Have you read that thing yourself? Do you know the characters on the medicine bottle? Have you read it? People who haven't matured will eat it—"

"Yes." Meng Du also frowned, as if he couldn't understand Meng Yinan's anger, "Father doesn't understand English, but he doesn't know how to joke about such things. I asked for you. He is an authority." Expert, this is specially for undifferentiated children like you, and can help you choose the gender you want."

Go crazy, Meng Yinan thought, what kind of expert, what helped me ask, what gender do you want.

Meng Yinan never really thought about what gender she must be differentiated into.

The person who really wanted to help Meng Yinan choose was Meng Du. Those experts, who went around, were all for his own unreasonable desire to control.

Meng Yinan no longer wanted to talk to Meng Du, and prepared to leave under pressure: "Stop talking, I won't take that medicine anyway, and I don't want to die yet."

Meng Du was very angry and raised his voice: "Meng Yinan—"

Meng Yinan added: "Don't let me see it appear on my desk again."

Realizing that the volume was too high, Meng Du restrained himself a bit, but still refused to end the conversation: "Meng Yinan, are you warning me? Are you showing me face?!"

Meng Yinan turned and left, not wanting to hear another word from him.

"You stop for me!"

Meng Yinan still left, and Meng Du followed up in a few steps, grabbing Meng Yinan's arm: "Okay, I can't call you now, can I?"

Meng Yinan looked at him coldly.

"Your wings are stiff, right? If you want to go by yourself, that's fine, you can get out now and get out of here."

Meng Du poked Meng Yinan's heart heavily with his finger: "Ask yourself, who picked you up, who raised you, who gave you such a good house to live in, who gave you such a good life ?”

"I'm just helping you choose the gender of Omega. It's all for your own good. Why are you playing with me?" Meng Du's voice stimulated the eardrum, like a needle piercing the ear, "And Meng Yinan, let me tell you, You can stand here and lose your temper with me today, and that is the right I gave you!"

Meng Yinan felt her glands start to hurt again.

My head hurts too, buzzing.

What he has always hated the most is Meng Du saying this.

In fact, when Meng Du picked up Meng Yinan, he didn't give him much love or material things. When Meng Yinan was a child, he ate his leftover staff meals, was ill and was left alone, watched dirty and obscene scenes, and was banned for being beautiful. Meng Du ordered his hair to grow, and if he cut it off, he would be beaten. He was also pulled out by Meng Du to show off, and Meng Du's friends looked at him with obscene eyes and touched his cheeks with dirty hands.

When I grow up, I have to endure his vanity and be controlled and manipulated by him.

Why?With Meng Du picking him up?

Meng Du picked him up, but did he treat Meng Yinan as an independent person?

He never thought about what Meng Yinan needed, never thought about Meng Yinan's joys, sorrows, sorrows, and joys. He was selfish and only considered himself.

Unfortunately, Meng Yinan was going to be picked up by him, and he wanted to call him daddy. Like all children, he had expected his love, listened to his words, wanted his only family to love him more, and then suffered a lot of hurt.

Therefore, Meng Du said that he gave Meng Yinan many, many rights, let Meng Yinan live in a good house, go to a good school, and be glamorous. Meng Yinan felt great shame and pain.

The shame is that Meng Yinan calls him father for a day, and he always depends on others, without self, and the pain is that he is still unable to be an adult, leaving Meng Du to live by himself.

But at this moment, Meng Yinan wouldn't be very rational. He didn't want how big he was and what he could do after he got out.He only wanted one thing, and that was, well, then I'm going to fuck off.

If he could stay away from Meng Du and this kind of life from now on, Meng Yinan would rather become a homeless, unwanted child, and live a hard life, but he didn't want to be manipulated anymore.

It's like everything goes back to his childhood, anyway, he was born to be unpleasant, and was abandoned by his parents when he was less than three years old.

So he shook off Meng Du's hand expressionlessly and said, "Then I'll go", then walked through the living room without thinking, opened the door, and closed it with a "bang".