deep blue

There are two worlds inside and outside the door.

One place is warm and comfortable, with the smell of food, you will not feel lonely, but there are countless unsatisfactory boredom and pain; the other place is cold, hard, without good living conditions, lonely and helpless, but free.

Meng Yinan's head was hot, and he left Mu's house in a fit of anger, walking along the road aimlessly.

He didn't know where he was going or where he could go.

When I was young, I was afraid of being abandoned and not being loved. When I grew up, I found that I was alone.

He is not even comparable to the stray cats and dogs in the yard. The stray animals all have friends who can go with them. Two or three of them squat not far away and can be a companion. Meng Yinan only has himself.

He kicked the small stones on the side of the road while walking, feeling empty and dazed, and he didn't know how it became like this, just like every time he went to a new environment, he would feel so dazed for a while.

He sometimes wonders why he is himself, why if it is Meng Yinan, can it be someone else?Why is Meng Du's adopted son, can't he be born in a family that likes him?And why he was treated like this, obviously he did nothing wrong.

If Meng Yinan was someone else, born in a family where his parents loved him very much, then he could be self-willed, mischievous, and disobedient, and no one would poke his heart and say that everything he had was given and given by others , will not use the care of parents and family as a bargaining chip to control and manipulate him.

Meng Yinan can be very happy, feeling that every day is sunny, happy all the time, and life is meaningful, instead of being irritable, anxious, wanting to run, wanting to escape, but can't find a place to hide and rest.

So miserable.Meng Yinan thought.

He wondered for the countless times, why did Meng Du pick him up?

Meng Du was not rich. When he adopted Meng Yinan, he didn't have much savings and no relatives to help him. He was alone from the beginning to the end, and his own life was already stretched. Why did he have to raise another child?

Afraid of being alone?But Mengdu has many bed partners, so he doesn't need a mop bottle.

Worried that Meng Yinan will die if no one cares?But he didn't pay much attention to raising it.

And why?It can't be because it's fun.

Just like the countless times before, Meng Yinan couldn't come up with a convincing and logical answer this time.

He stopped thinking about it.

Because compared to Meng Du, Meng Yinan had other things to consider now.

It was winter at this time, and it was colder than Lincheng, with the feeling of coldness before snowfall, the wind was blowing, and the chill wanted to penetrate into the bones.

Meng Yinan had just come out of a warm place, and his head was still hot and angry, so he didn't feel that cold.However, after walking for a while, the whole body cools down, and the body surface temperature drops, requiring more heat to keep out the cold.

Of course, he didn't have the ability to foretell, and he didn't know that he was about to freeze when he went downstairs to drink water, so he didn't wear a coat, only a set of ordinary home clothes, and he got goosebumps in a few minutes.

I didn't eat much in the afternoon, and I've digested it all by now, and my stomach growled.

It seemed that he was really unlucky.Not only was the spirit devastated, but the body was also tortured.

Meng Yinan tucked his hands into his sleeves, held his warm forearm with cold palms, and kept himself warm. At the same time, he told himself, "I'm not hungry, I'm not hungry." It was my stomach calling me, and I was only half hungry and cold.

He walked along the road for a while, but the residential area was too big, and he didn't know the way or direction. He didn't even get out of the villa area for more than ten minutes, and kept circling in places he didn't know.

After five consecutive sneezes, Meng Yinan had no choice but to stop wandering around and began to look for a shelter from the wind.I happened to pass by the community slide, so I found a windless corner under the slide and sat down.

so cold.Meng Yinan huddled into a ball, put his hands to his mouth and breathed out, thinking that if he had known earlier, he would have fetched a piece of clothing.

But that's very spineless, and Meng Yinan couldn't go upstairs to dress himself warmly and then go out in front of Meng Du angrily.

After all, that's a lot like mental retardation.

Meng Yinan took another breath, and the white mist floated out from between his fingers, and soon disappeared.

Well, it's pretty silly now.

Who would choose to run away from home in winter?Can't it be summer?In summer, I can make do with spending a night outdoors, but how can I stay in winter?

Wouldn't there be news about "the frozen boy found under the slide in the xx community of C city" tomorrow?

Meng Yinan took another breath, and finally leaned slowly on the slide, looking up at the moon.

He thought, maybe Meng Du thought that he wouldn't stay outside for long, that he would succumb to the cold sooner or later, and would go back if he didn't care, so he didn't care about him.

It should be so fearless.

And when Meng Yinan compromised and went back, there would be conflicts over the same thing next time.

Because Meng Yinan is penniless and underage, in this day and age, it is difficult to live well without home, and there is a high probability that he will compromise. He would rather stay at home and quarrel with his family in the dark, and worry endlessly, than suffer from hunger and cold , Helpless wandering.

Meng Du should think so, and never worried that Meng Yinan would get out of control.

ridiculous.

Meng Yinan hugged his knees and said to himself, it doesn't matter if it's cold.

He didn't want to see Meng Du again, and he didn't want to see that face that was so proud of Meng Yinan's fiasco.

Meng Yinan is also a stubborn little donkey, he will never admit defeat or compromise.And he told himself fiercely that he would never go to a place with Meng Du even if he died of freezing.

……

Maybe dry sitting for 10 minutes, or two for 10 minutes.

Meng Yinan didn't take his mobile phone either, and kept it in his room on the second floor. At this time, he couldn't know how long it had been.

He was a little dazed from the cold, his toes began to stiffen and tingle through his shoes and socks, and his exposed parts such as his cheeks and ears had long since become numb from the cold. At this moment, it seemed like a dream, when he heard someone calling his name.

Meng Yinan moved and wanted to get up to look, but couldn't stand up all at once.

The voice calling him was getting closer, until Meng Yinan recognized who it was, and then called out: "Brother."

It's just that Mu Zhanxi didn't hear it and was still looking for him.

Meng Yinan held onto the slide, stood up vigorously, and shouted twice, "I'm here", and waited for a while before seeing Mu Zhanxi's figure.

Mu Zhanxi probably didn't see him under the slide, but when he heard his voice in the silent night, he took a few steps forward and asked, "Meng Yinan? Is he here?"

Meng Yinan said yes, then waved his sleeves at Mu Zhanxi, and Mu Zhanxi finally saw him.

"What are you doing here? You—"

Mu Zhanxi ran over a few steps, looking very angry, his brows were all wrinkled together, but seeing Meng Yinan shrunk into a ball from the cold, half of what he said seemed to be cut off suddenly, and his voice fell silent.

Mu Zhanxi also held a down jacket in his arms. He wanted to put it on for Meng Yinan, but when he touched Meng Yinan's cold fingers, he took off his own without hesitation and covered Meng Yinan In the coat, wrap it tightly.

The body-warming coat wraps around the body, and the warmth is wrapped from the outside to the inside. Meng Yinan's hands are tucked into the slightly longer sleeves, feeling the warmth of the body, the fingertips are slightly numb, and even the body is shivering warmly .

"Brother," Meng Yinan blinked, "Don't catch a cold."

Mu Zhanxi dressed him up, pulled the zipper to the top, and even helped him put on the hat before putting on the clothes he was holding in his hand before, with a blunt tone: "You dare to come out in pajamas, don't you care?" Do I have a cold?"

Looks very angry.

Meng Yinan had nothing to say, and he couldn't get away with it at this time, so he lowered his eyes and said sorry.

Mu Zhanxi said indifferently that he didn't need it, but he still squatted beside Meng Yinan, reaching out his hands to touch Meng Yinan's cheek.

The palms of his hands were dry and warm, and covering his face could drive away the cold. Mu Zhanxi stayed in a place where he was very cold for a while, then put his hand into the hat and covered Meng Yinan's ears.

My ears are freezing too.

With Mu Zhanxi's palm, Meng Yinan was like a rescued animal. He even squinted his eyes comfortably, and put his face in Mu Zhanxi's palm without moving.

"Is it better?" Mu Zhanxi asked him angrily.

Meng Yinan considered the situation and nodded obediently.

After all, it was still very cold outside, and the warmth brought by Mu Zhanxi was only temporary, and he didn't have any pants, and Meng Yinan's pajama pants didn't have much fleece, so they weren't warm enough to wear.

Mu Zhanxi put his hands on his knees again, and asked after a while, "Can you stand up?" Before Meng Yinan could answer, he said, "I'll carry you on my back", then turned around and squatted on Meng Yinan's back. In front of Nan.

Meng Yinan froze for a moment, touched Mu Zhanxi's back with his sleeve, and whispered, "I don't want to go back."

Mu Zhanxi turned to look at him, and seemed to have something to say, but in the end he didn't have the heart to say it, so he avoided the seriousness and said, "It's too cold outside, don't stay here."

Meng Yinan still lay on top of him, hugged Mu Zhanxi's neck, and after walking a few steps, he still whispered, "Brother, I don't want to go back." He was losing his temper.

"Did you quarrel?" Mu Zhanxi asked suddenly.

Meng Yinan hummed.

Afterwards, Mu Zhanxi didn't say anything, and walked in the direction of Mu's house.

Meng Yinan stopped talking.

Mu Zhanxi's coming to him was already a great favor for Meng Yinan, so he shouldn't be willful, and hoped that Mu Zhanxi would meet his various demands again.

This is already good.

When there was no Mu Zhanxi, Meng Yinan would think about whether to admit defeat to Meng Du, but when he heard Mu Zhanxi's voice and saw Mu Zhanxi appearing, he felt that his previous thinking was naive. There is no such thing as losing or winning. won.

Because of Mu Zhanxi's presence, those grievances and pains were not offensive and became insignificant.

If Meng Yinan's previous life lacked meaning, then at this moment, he felt that it might not be so.Those times were not meaningless, but he spent many empty and boring years in exchange for someone who treated him well.

This should also make sense.

Meng Yinan rested his chin on Mu Zhanxi's shoulder, waited, but couldn't hold back, and sniffed lightly.

Mu Zhanxi sighed, his tone gentle and helpless: "I haven't said you yet, why are you crying?"

Meng Yinan lowered her head, rubbed her forehead against Mu Zhanxi's shoulder, and called her brother.

Mu Zhanxi agreed.

Meng Yinan called again: "Brother."

Mu Zhanxi said, "Yes."

Meng Yinan repeatedly confirmed his existence, thinking that it was very real and not a dream.

That's enough.

They quickly went downstairs to Mu's house. Mu Zhanxi put Meng Yinan down, thought for a while, and opened the door anyway.

Meng Yinan glanced in, and although he didn't see Meng Du, he was rather reluctant to go in.

Mu Zhanxi stood at the door and looked at him, as if there was nothing he could do about him, and finally said, "If you don't want to go back, you won't go back."

Meng Yinan raised his head and asked him, "Then where are we going?"

Mu Zhanxi didn't answer, and asked him to come in first and give Meng Yinan a cup of hot water. At this time, Meng Du was not on the first floor, so Mu Zhanxi asked Meng Yinan to sit in the living room and wait for him, while he went up to the second floor.

About ten minutes later, Mu Zhanxi came down again, carrying Meng Yinan's schoolbag on one shoulder, and gave Meng Yinan his phone, telling him to go.

Meng Yinan looked at him blankly, and asked again: "Where are you going?"

Mu Zhanxi said, "Anywhere will do."