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Two days before Meng Yinan's birthday, Mu Zhanxi finished the competition and returned to Yangcheng from other places. The next day, he applied to leave school and went from Yangcheng to Lincheng.

In the few hours before Mu Zhanxi went home, Meng Yinan was actually a little nervous.

This kind of nervousness has nothing to do with Mu Zhanxi himself, but Meng Yinan intends to tell Mu Zhanxi his life experience that he only learned about not long ago, but since he wants to tell it, he has to look back at the past again, and because of this, he has to go back to the past. So many complicated thoughts, I don't know where to start.

He didn't know where this nervousness came from. After thinking about it for a long time, he felt that it might be some kind of emotion similar to being close to home.

Meng Yinan walked around the house several times, going up and down the stairs, unable to calm down, and finally thought about finding something to do, so he had a sudden idea and planned to cook a meal for Mu Zhanxi himself.

When it comes to cooking skills, although Meng Yinan has never dealt with this thing, he is still a person who has opened a stove. He thinks that cooking skills are nothing more than making dishes more delicate and more beautiful on the basis of satiety. A little bit, the taste is a little bit more fragrant, and the taste is a little bit better...

In other words, as long as Meng Yinan is willing to cook carefully, he can definitely make a good lunch.

So without further ado, he put on an apron, found some recipes on the Internet, and went ahead.

It's just that some things are much harder to think of than to do.

It took Meng Yinan more than half an hour to find all the materials he needed. Some things didn't seem to be available at home, so it was obviously too late to buy them now.

Mu Zhanxi would arrive in Lincheng in less than two and a half hours, and Meng Yinan had to go to the station to pick him up.

So Meng Yinan took the next best thing and chose a simple curry rice.

It's just that something happened this day, and he repeatedly went wrong.

First, tears blurred my eyes when cutting onions, and I was accidentally cut by a knife, and then when I was looking for a Band-Aid, I turned around and accidentally knocked off the plate of freshly chopped onions, and the diced onions spilled all over the floor.

After Meng Yinan managed to clean up the floor, he realized that time was running out.

In order to speed up, he carried out the two steps of cutting vegetables and cooking at the same time. He first burned oil and put onions, and then went to chop radishes and potatoes.

But today was a little unlucky, the potatoes hadn't been cut yet, the first alarm clock that Meng Yinan had planned to remind him to change clothes and go out rang.

He went to the living room to get his mobile phone to turn off the alarm clock, and then went back to the kitchen. The onion caught fire directly in the pot.

Meng Yinan: "..."

Looking at the smoky kitchen, Meng Yinan had already begun to regret why he had to cook.

It's too late, and there may be traffic jams on the way to the station. He has to leave early, but he still feels that he can finish this meal within an hour... Who gave him the confidence?

He had no choice but to turn off the fire first, open the windows to ventilate, and waited until the smoke and dust had dispersed and the kitchen was no longer choking before preparing to wash the pot.Xin said that at least the kitchen should be restored to its original state before his brother came home.

But just thinking about it, the second alarm clock rang again.

Meng Yinan glanced at the time, struggled for a moment, sighed and thought, forget it, I won't be able to clean up in a while, if I miss my brother's arrival time because of this, it will be a mistake.

So he checked the gas and the doors and windows to make sure that there would be no more safety accidents, and then he left the mess in the kitchen and went out.

Because this series of accidents greatly affected the use of the kitchen, Meng Yinan said he was hungry after receiving Mu Zhanxi, and suggested eating outside, to which Mu Zhanxi readily agreed.

But after the meal, Meng Yinan forgot all about the kitchen.

It wasn't until he got home that there was still some faint smell of oily smoke in the house, and Meng Yinan regained his memory.

Mu Zhanxi was very experienced in this, and he knew the smell as soon as he entered the room, so he went straight to the kitchen after changing his shoes.

Meng Yinan didn't even have time to stop it.

Sure enough, half a minute later, Mu Zhanxi opened the kitchen door, turned to look over, and called Meng Yinan's name: "Explain?"

Only then did Meng Yinan rub his hands and walked over: "Brother, I originally planned to give you a surprise..."

Mu Zhanxi looked at the kitchen again: "It's quite a surprise."

Then he didn't know that the word hit Meng Yinan's smile, so he couldn't help laughing, and couldn't stop it for a long time.

At this point, all tension dissipated.

Meng Yinan said, "I'll take care of it, you don't need to worry about it", and at the same time grabbed Mu Zhanxi's hand and explained to him: "Don't be angry, I really thought I could make something delicious thing."

In the end, the two of them cleaned up together.

After the cleaning was over, Meng Yinan went to change out of the clothes that still smelled of oily smoke, took a shower, put on the newly bought little dinosaur pajamas, and lay down on the sofa looking at his phone beautifully.

After waiting for about 10 minutes, Mu Zhanxi took a shower, threw the dirty clothes into the washing machine, and came down from the stairs.

An unknown movie was playing on the TV, and I clicked on it at random. Meng Yinan didn't watch any plot, and didn't know where it was going, so he turned off the TV.

Mu Zhanxi sat behind him and hugged him, rubbed on the back of his neck for a while, and asked, "Didn't you say you have something to tell me?"

Meng Yinan was still nervous about how to speak, but after the onion was burned, he suddenly relaxed, and he didn't feel nervous after that.

He leaned on Mu Zhanxi, thought about it, and decided to start talking about going to City D with Meng Du two weeks ago.

This is a relatively long story. From before going out to returning home, Meng Yinan told Mu Zhanxi all his feelings, knowledge, and thoughts.

He said to Mu Zhanxi, "So, in fact, no one wants to abandon me."

Like a bystander, Meng Yinan told the stories he heard about his parents, about his childhood changes, about all the absurd and lucky beginnings of his life, and about his growth experience.

There are indeed many regrettable and pity parts in this story, but fortunately Meng Yinan knows that he is always loved. For him now, that is not the reason for him to resent anyone, but to know that he would have a happy life prove.

"Brother, I think if you meet my parents, you will definitely have a lot to say to them." Meng Yinan smiled as if he didn't care at all, without showing much sadness, and asked proudly and proudly, "You know why? ?"

Mu Zhanxi hugged him tightly and asked cooperatively, "Why?"

"Because you all like me even though there is an age gap," Meng Yinan said nonsense, "It is said that young people today have a big difference in thinking from the previous generation, and there are not many people who share common hobbies like this. gone."

Then he patted Mu Zhanxi's head with a bit of arrogance: "You have to know how to cherish."

"Really?" Mu Zhanxi was amused, and leaned over to kiss him, "Are you a hobby?"

"Oh, that's not it."

"Then what are you?" Mu Zhanxi pressed him into the blanket of the sofa, kissed Meng Yinan in the softness and warmth, and after a while, he raised his arms a little and repeated the question just now, with a slight upward sound at the end, "Yeah." ?”

Meng Yinan licked the corner of his mouth and asked, "What are you talking about?"

Before Mu Zhanxi could answer, he put his arms around his neck and asked seriously, "Brother, what do you like about me?"

Mu Zhanxi looked at him, as if he was still thinking, but didn't speak.

"Then if it's someone else." Meng Yinan paused and hesitated, "If it wasn't me who came to the house back then, but someone else, would you like it?"

Fate and fate are very wonderful things. It must be at a certain predetermined time and place before a thing will happen, whether it is good or bad until the end.

At the beginning, Meng Yinan also felt that Lincheng was the same as every move in the past, it was just a change of residence, there was no difference, but now he felt that it was a turning point in his life, and it was a great thing.

But for this great good thing, he didn't want to just use the two random words "fate" and "fate" to explain it.

People will always look for an inevitable reason for a good thing, as if only in this way can they prove that "in any case, this good thing will happen to them".

It's just that trying to prove that "Mu Zhanxi will like Meng Yinan no matter what" seemed a little too unreasonable.

Because there is no "if" or "if" in the world, there is no such option as "if Mu Zhanxi meets someone else" or "if the person who comes to the house is not Meng Yinan".

So Mu Zhanxi replied: "I don't know."

But he said again: "But if I meet you, I will definitely like you."

Meng Yinan blinked: "Why?"

"If you have to say something, I think you will come to my house in the end, no one else." Mu Zhanxi pinched Meng Yinan's face, did not answer directly, and repeated, "I will definitely meet you."

Meng Yinan seemed to be determined to ask a result: "Then tell me, why? Why did you come across this?"

Mu Zhanxi thought about it and answered.

If you have to say "if", then as early as the day when Meng Yinan lost his parents, nothing happened, and Meng Yinan would have grown up in a loving family.

It is very likely that Meng Du will not have a relationship with Mu Zhong, but start a family with someone else.But without him, Meng Yinan's relationship with Mu Zhanxi would not end here.

Because Mu Zhong himself was a classmate of Meng Yinan's parents, if his parents were still alive, maybe they would have known each other earlier.

"Yinan," Mu Zhanxi touched his face, then bent down and pressed on Meng Yinan, holding him in his arms, "A long time ago, Brother Ting read a book, and there was a sentence in it that was very good. , saying that you want to share it with me probably means that there is nothing that is not meaningful.”

Meng Yinan moved a little, and Mu Zhanxi turned sideways, turned Meng Yinan from the bottom to the top, rubbed his chin on Meng Yinan's forehead, and said softly, "I haven't told you about me before. In fact, my mother passed away very early. She was in poor health when she was pregnant with me and insisted on giving birth to me. She was seriously ill and hospitalized shortly after giving birth to me, and passed away within a few months."

Meng Yinan didn't expect such a topic, and felt a little sad. He put his hand on Mu Zhanxi's back and touched it, wondering if it would be a little comforting.

"Actually, my dad didn't blame me, but when I grew up, I felt that he would, or I was afraid that he would blame me. I was afraid that one day he would say 'it's all your fault', so I was very afraid of living with him."

Meng Yinan said "Yes" and listened obediently.

"It's the same for Brother Ting." Mu Zhanxi said again, "I'm afraid he will blame me for killing my mother."

So after Mu Zhanxi became sensible, he had to go to school in Lincheng, live alone, and endure loneliness silently.

This is not because his father and brothers don't care about him, but because he can see his fear and tolerate his willfulness.

When Mu Zhanxi was a child, no one in his family would tell him the truth about his mother’s death, only that he was sick, but he would always hear from relatives, neighbors, and friends in his father’s business... those who seemed unable to say anything to a child , but there will always be something heard from the population who spits out a few words.

For example, they would sigh and say it's a pity, or they would look at Mu Zhanxi with pity, or say, "If I don't have this child, I will raise it, maybe my health won't be so bad...".

After hearing these words too much, Mu Zhanxi would also think, "Is it really all my fault?"

It's just that no one in the family blamed him. When Mu Ting was a child, he always hugged the pillow and quilt, and slept with him when it was too hot; if he heard something bad, he would tell Mu Zhanxi, "What do they know, Xiaoxi, don't believe it."

So is Mu Zhong, who seems to be a cold father who doesn't care about him, but actually just doesn't know how to communicate with Mu Zhanxi, especially when he grows up, so he has to send Mu Ting often.

Mu Zhanxi is escaping from living alone, but also relaxing in loneliness.

He has been trying to believe that everything has meaning, because it is meaningful, so nothing should be forgotten and replaced.

He said to Meng Yinan, "I'm not saying this to make you sad."

Instead, when Meng Yinan told him about the past, Mu Zhanxi felt that it was also an opportunity to tell him something more serious.It's just that the purpose is not to make tonight sad and feel sorry for those regrettable things, but to answer Meng Yinan's question.

There are not so many "ifs" in the world. Perhaps in a parallel time and space, there is a possibility that they will never meet, but Mu Zhanxi believes that there are more "inevitables" between them.

For example, Meng Yinan grew up healthy and in a warm family, so the friendly relationship between Mu Zhong and Meng Xiang will never be broken. One day, Mu Zhong was thinking about how to let his youngest son open his heart, and inadvertently thought of Meng Xiang There was a young boy of the same age in the family.

Maybe Mu Zhanxi will meet Meng Yinan at that time.

Xiaomeng Yinan must be very spoiled, but when he sees the indifferent brother Xiaoxi, he will follow him like a puppy who has just recognized his master, sniffing here, sniffing there, "brother brother" keeps saying Call.

Or, Mu Zhanxi's mother is also there.

Mu Zhanxi would tell his mother that he followed his father a few days ago to meet a kid named Meng Yinan, who was Aunt Meng Xiang's son.

The kid is a bit capricious but also very cute. He said he likes to eat this and doesn’t like to eat that, but Mu Zhanxi gave him a very sour candy, and his face was so sour that he wrinkled his face, but he still said "Thank you brother", and he was still happy Playing with the brother who gave him a very sour candy.

……

There will be [-] possibilities for them not to know each other, but there are also [-] possibilities for them to know each other.

There are so many "others" mentioned by Meng Yinan in the first [-] categories, and everyone Mu Zhanxi meets who is not Meng Yinan is "others".

But among the last ten thousand species, because of the existence of Meng Yinan, those "others" couldn't find him.

Therefore, Mu Zhanxi may not be able to answer his question about "if", but he can always give a perfect answer——

As long as they meet, Mu Zhanxi will definitely like Meng Yinan.

And they always meet.