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After Fu Xinglin asked Cui Zhannan, he vaguely remembered that he seemed to have had a long, long dream during his coma.He can't quite remember what he dreamed about now, but he remembers that he should have dreamed of Shu Jianlin.

He can no longer recall what happened in the dream, but he can guess what he dreamed without fully remembering it.What is related to Shu Jianlin...is nothing more than the years in high school and...the things after they broke up.

In the past, when he hadn't come out of the emotional pain, he often dreamed that Shu Jianlin abandoned him cruelly and left, and then he was still in the dream, trying to persuade him to stay.Every time he wakes up, he wants to scold himself and despise himself. Why is he so worthless in his dream?

This should be done in real life, Cui Zhannan couldn't do such a shameful thing.So dreams are still dreams, and reality is always the opposite.

These years, he no longer dreamed of Shu Jianlin, and he couldn't even think of him very much.If Shu Jianlin hadn't suddenly become the spokesperson of Yuemei's products, he would have forgotten about him long ago.

But Fu Xinglin asked this suddenly... Could it be that he said something that shouldn't be said when he was in a daze?

Cui Zhannan glanced at the boy's calm face, but couldn't figure out what the boy meant for a while.So he asked very conservatively: "Why do you ask that? Am I talking in my sleep?"

Fu Xinglin looked calm on the surface, but only he knew how messy his mind was at the moment.Judging by Cui Zhannan's appearance at the moment, he probably forgot everything he did.So...he didn't need to mention it again.After all, it was quite embarrassing. He was hugged and kissed by a man for no reason... It was embarrassing to say it.

And he didn't know how to open his mouth for such a thing.So it's best to forget.

"Well, you don't seem to be sleeping very well, and you talked a lot in your sleep." Fu Xinglin said vaguely.

Cui Zhannan choked for breath, thinking that he must have said a lot.Looking at Fu Xinglin's appearance of holding back what he had to say, he guessed that he must have said all the embarrassing things in the same way.

Even a thick-skinned person like him felt a little embarrassed at this time.

"Then... what did I say?" Cui Zhannan still wanted to resist, hoping that he hadn't said too much.

Fu Xinglin pursed his lower lip, and did not answer Cui Zhannan immediately, but turned his face to look at Cui Zhannan with calm eyes.In fact, he is not the kind of person who asks the bottom line, and he still feels that this matter is embarrassing and awkward, and he wants to quickly turn this matter over.

But whenever he wanted to pretend that this had never happened, he would think of the trembling feeling when he was hugged by Cui Zhannan and kissed by him.Although it was only a superficial touch, for him who had zero emotional experience and sexual experience, all experiences were stimulating, novel, and even...fascinating.

He attributed his strange emotions to curiosity, but he didn't dare to think deeply about the real reason behind it.

In addition to that, what he cared about very much and couldn't pretend it didn't happen was Cui Zhannan's vague "I love you".Obviously, he dreamed of someone, something...someone he really loved.

Every time he thinks about it, he feels depressed.Hugging him and kissing him and saying "I love you" to others, Cui Zhannan is an incomprehensible person!He is the only one who can do such absurd things!

It's not that he wants to know who this person is, he just doesn't want to pretend that nothing happened.He had to at least know why he was treated so inexplicably by Cui Zhannan.He called it... an explanation for himself.

Yes, that's what happened.

So Fu Xinglin raised his eyes, and the creases on the thin eyelids deepened instantly.

"I didn't hear everything clearly, but I heard you kept saying 'Don't go, don't go' and so on." After a pause, "Oh, you seem to have said something like 'I love you'."

Cui Zhannan: "..."

Depend on!What a shame to throw it at grandma's house!He still said this? !

Fu Xinglin looked at him and smiled coolly: "What? Brother Nan, did you dream about your girlfriend?"

Fu Xinglin obviously said this sentence with a smile, but it made people feel a chill inexplicably.At this time, Cui Zhannan was so focused on embarrassing himself that he didn't even notice that Fu Xinglin's tone was wrong.

He smiled naively: "I... said his name?" He wanted to try again.

Although there were not many people in the upper class in City B who didn't know about the incident between him and Shu Jianlin when he was in school, but after all, so many years have passed, and now he feels hot when he mentions this young and frivolous , Naturally, I don't want people to see the joke.

Especially Fu Xinglin.

If people know that he, Young Master Cui, still misses the first love who dumped him after so many years of wandering, then he might as well crash himself against the wall to death right now.

Fu Xinglin's expression became a little more bored, and he said coldly, "No."

Cui Zhannan suddenly breathed a sigh of relief, thinking that it was okay.So he immediately said nonsense: "Hey, I actually don't remember what I dreamed about, maybe..."

Fu Xinglin didn't say anything more, but his emotional state was obviously not as good as before.

He thought of the girl he saw on the campus of University A, and the girl who stuck to Cui Zhannan at Herbert's Bar later.Thinking about it, a playboy like Cui Zhannan must never be short of people, and I don't know which one he dreamed of.

He really didn't need to ask.

But at this moment, Cui Zhannan was greatly relieved.

He was actually quite worried about letting Fu Xinglin know about his affair with Shu Jianlin.After all, Fu Xinglin is still not enlightened, and seems to be quite repulsive towards homosexuality. He can't let Fu Xinglin know that he is gay. He is afraid that he will be scared away.That may be worth the candle.

Cui Zhannan looked at the boy on the opposite side who was drinking water quietly with his head bowed, and asked worriedly, "Apart from talking in my sleep, did I do anything else?"

Fu Xinglin stopped drinking water, and the tips of his ears suddenly turned a little red.Without raising his head, he said in a muffled voice, "No."

***

After that day, Cui Zhannan rested at home for another day.After all, with such a serious illness, one day is definitely not enough to adjust.

Knowing that he was sick, his parents even came to visit him, cook him food and buy him medicine.Father Cui was stunned for a moment when he found that his medicine cabinet was full of fresh medicines.

"Have you bought medicine?"

Cui Zhannan glanced at the medicine box in his father's hand, and felt sweet in his heart: "Yes."

"I didn't tell you earlier, I bought you some..." The man muttered and put all the medicine he bought into the medicine box.

Cui Zhannan thought of Fu Xinglin.

Fu Xinglin not only cooked for him that day, but also bought him many commonly used medicines, which were sorted and put in the medicine box.If Fu Xinglin hadn't taken care of him this time and helped him cool down, he would probably have a fever.

Although in the end no matter how he tried to persuade Fu Xinglin to stay at night, he still left, but Cui Zhannan was still happy.He felt... at least Fu Xinglin still cared about him and cared about him.

After recovering from illness, Cui Zhannan returned to work.Because of the delay of a few days, there was a backlog of work after returning to the company, and there were several documents on the table waiting for him to review and process.

I heard Zhao Yi report that Shu Jianlin and his manager came to Yuemei that day, very low-key.Manager Zou also chatted with him for a while, and there were basically no major problems.And now the advertising posters have been shot, and the promotional samples will be released in the afternoon, everything is going smoothly.

After hearing this, Cui Zhannan just said "um" a few times to express his understanding, and he didn't have any unnecessary reactions other than that.Zhao Yi didn't think it was strange, because Mr. Cui always cherished words like gold.

On the surface, although he was carefully reviewing the documents, in fact, his mind had already drifted away to nowhere.Since the phone call between the two of them that day, except for the string of numbers lying in the missed call list, Shu Jianlin never took the initiative to contact him again.

In fact, this is also good.The fate between them ended more than ten years ago, and now it is true and there is no need to establish contact.

After the launch of Yuemei's new product, the response was good. Many people were attracted by the advertisement. For a while, Yuemeijia's new blush became a hot new product in the beauty industry.Accompanying it is a steady stream of income.

Everything is in Cui Zhannan's plan.

Although the process was a little twists and turns, but fortunately, the ending is good.And it was precisely because of this that some people in the company who originally disdained Fu Xinglin began to agree with him.

Because I have to say that this product can sell so well, the advertisement that became popular once it was launched is indispensable.So the company is also starting to prepare to invite Fu Xinglin to guide, maybe the advertising research and development of the next new product still needs Fu Xinglin's creativity.

This matter is not in a hurry, so it has not been put on the agenda.But Cui Zhannan is very willing in his heart, because he wants to see Fu Xinglin during working hours.He thought that in that case he would be happy all day.

During this period of time, he was busy with work, so he didn't see Fu Xinglin much, which was strange.He gave Fu Xinglin and Yao Junze the code of the combination lock at home, so they could enter the house smoothly even if he was not at home during tutoring.He was not at home several times during their tutoring sessions.

In fact, there are only a few precious opportunities to see Fu Xinglin in a week, but he is unable to get away from work many times.

But even though the two haven't met each other, they chat on WeChat every day.Cui Zhannan is extremely sticky, but he is not annoying.So now Fu Xinglin has one more agenda in addition to studying, exercising, and doing experiments in his daily life-chatting with Cui Zhannan.

Maybe it's not called chatting with him, because Fu Xinglin himself is quite willing to use a small mobile phone to talk to him about some unnutritious things.He feels that his life has changed a little recently compared to before.

For example, he used to like to be alone and enjoy being alone.But now...he felt that it would be nice to have someone to share his life with.

At the end of autumn and the beginning of winter, Yao Junze's latest exam results came out.To the surprise of the whole family, his single subject score in mathematics jumped from the middle of the class to the fifth in the grade!Chang Hui and the others were so happy that they were about to cry.

And this kid also took the second place in the class, No. 16 in the year group. Compared with his mediocre results before, this is definitely a qualitative leap!The Yao family was overjoyed!

Chang Hui thought that she would be satisfied if her son's math grades improved, but she didn't expect that his other subjects also improved.I found out after asking my son that during the period of studying with Fu Xinglin, Fu Xinglin not only tutored him in mathematics, but also occasionally helped him look at other subjects.

"Brother, take this back to Mr. Fu." Chang Hui stuffed a very thick red envelope into Cui Zhannan's hand, "With him, your nephew will not have to worry about getting into a prestigious university in the future."

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