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After leaving Cui Zhannan's house, Fu Xinglin had nowhere to go, so he could only wander the streets.

The weather is already very cold now, and it will be winter in a few days, so the night wind blowing on my body is really not ordinary cold.However, Fu Xinglin seemed not to feel it at all, and just walked slowly along the street with his coat open.

After the cold wind blows, his mind clears up a lot, and Fu Xinglin can't help but think of Cui Zhannan.

He thought of every bit of their relationship in the past few months.Maybe he was too dull, but in fact... Cui Zhannan had other thoughts about him, he should have been aware of it long ago.

This feeling is like knowing the answer and then looking at the question, many hidden details will be obvious.

Fu Xinglin hates homosexuality very much.Under the trend that mainstream society has gradually recognized and accepted this group, he still hates it extremely.

After knowing Cui Zhannan's sexual orientation, he should hate him.But at this moment, Fu Xinglin was very clear that he couldn't hate Cui Zhannan at all.

Fu Xinglin stood next to the crosswalk signal light, looking at the oncoming pedestrians, his eyes were a little empty.

The signal light turned red and then green, green and then red again, and he stood there without moving.People passing by will look at him unconsciously, as if wondering why he is not good at speaking.

Fu Xinglin stood there for more than ten minutes, and he felt that his body was almost frozen to the point of unconsciousness.He seemed to feel the cold after knowing it, so he involuntarily tightened his coat.

He knew that he needed warmth now, if he kept hanging out like this, he would get sick from freezing without freezing to death, and he would definitely not joke about his health.

Fu Xinglin thought that maybe he could get a room in the hotel for one night.But after thinking about it for a moment, he didn't bring his ID card when he went out today. Even if he wanted to stay, the hotel might not be able to open a room for him.

So Fu Xinglin gave up this idea.

He took out his mobile phone from his pocket and opened the address book.

Fu Xinglin actually doesn't have many friends, it can even be said to be very few.Apart from classmates, there seem to be only a few friends of the same age.He doesn't like to have fun and be good at socializing like boys of the same age. He has made no more than five friends over the years.So it is not easy to find someone who can take him in for a night.Especially in a foreign city...

However, Fu Xinglin's hand flipping through the address book suddenly paused, and the name "Qi Dong" appeared on the phone.After thinking about it, Fu Xinglin still dialed.

Soon there was a connection: "Hello?"

"It's me, Fu Xinglin."

"Hey, Xinglin. It's so late, what's the matter?"

"Didn't disturb your rest?"

"No, it's still early before I go to bed, and it's not like you don't know that I'm a night owl."

"Qi Dong, do you... have any vacant rooms?"

The boy on the other side of the phone was silent for two seconds, and then his tone became more serious: "What's wrong, bro? You're not at school?"

"Well, I can't go back to the dormitory."

"Where are you now? I'll go find you."

Fu Xinglin raised his eyes and looked around, and finally gave an address on the phone.

Qi Dong and Fu Xinglin are fellow villagers, both of them are from D City, but Qi Dong is from D City, while Fu Xinglin's family is from a subordinate county.Qi Dong is two years older than him, and is his senior from the same school and school.The two are fellow villagers and brothers of the same major, so the relationship has always been good.

Qidong's family conditions are relatively good. He made a girlfriend right after he entered college, and soon moved out with his girlfriend to rent a house.Fu Xinglin had been to Qi Dong's house before and stayed there, so he knew that his house had spare rooms.

Of course, an important reason why he was able to talk to Qi Dong was that just a few days ago, he just made a fortune with Qi Dong.Qi Dong was one of the participants in the advertisement for Yuemei this time.Although not many people participated, at least they helped Fu Xinglin, so after Cui Zhannan's bonus came out, he generously distributed some to Qi Dong.This incident made Qi Dong regard him as a brother even more.

Qi Dong is not short of the money, but he values ​​Fu Xinglin's character, so he basically responds to Fu Xinglin's requests.It was for this reason that Fu Xinglin was ashamed to trouble him at night.

***

Qi Dong's car arrived soon, and Fu Xinglin didn't feel as if he came back to life until he got in the car and turned on the air conditioner.

Qi Dong is not tall and slightly fat, but has a very kind face.He looked at the restless Fu Xinglin with some worry, and asked, "Xinglin, what's the situation? Can you talk to brother?"

Fu Xinglin pulled his lips and smiled, but didn't say anything.

Qi Dong scratched his head and said embarrassedly: "Brother, I didn't know you were coming today. So what, my wife and her girlfriends came today, so I took up the empty room at home. How about this, I will bring you Go to the nearest hotel and get you a room..."

"Don't bother," Fu Xinglin waved his hand, "I didn't bring my ID card, or I would have opened the car myself."

Qi Dong opened his mouth and said "oh", then he didn't know what to say.

He has known Fu Xinglin for several years.This kid has always been mature and wise beyond his age, which is what Qi Dong admires most about him.Don't look at his young age, but in fact he has a very unique vision, and he also has a lot of ideas.Many times he felt that he was like a younger brother in front of Fu Xinglin.

But today's Fu Xinglin is very abnormal, it is really different from him in the past.Qi Dong couldn't help worrying, wondering if something happened to him...

"Brother Dong, why don't you deliver it to a nearby convenience store, I'll find a place to live for the night..."

"How can it be successful?" Qi Dong disagreed, "Besides, you are in this state... I can't rest assured."

After a moment of silence, Qi Dong still couldn't hold back and asked: "Brother, if you really encounter something, tell your elder brother, maybe I can give you some advice or something. I just listened to it on the phone. There is something wrong with you when you come out, so when I went out, I told my daughter-in-law that I might not go back tonight. I will stay with you today if I don’t do anything. If you want to talk, just tell me what’s on your mind. No matter what, I have lived two years longer than you, maybe I can point you in the direction of some things that you don't understand at all."

Fu Xinglin glanced at Qi Dong and pursed his lips.Maybe Qi Dong is right, some things he can't figure out, let an outsider look at them, and there may be different opinions.

So Fu Xinglin considered the words in his heart, and simply expressed the confusion he was experiencing at the moment.It's just that he didn't mention his name, he just said that there was such a man who said he liked him.He also didn't tell Qi Dong the real reason why he hates homosexuality, he just said that he is a straight man and can't accept that men like men for a while.

After listening to it, Qi Dong did not show the surprise or surprise that Fu Xinglin thought he should have. On the contrary, his reaction was very calm, as if he was listening to a very ordinary thing.This almost made Fu Xinglin wonder if he didn't explain clearly.

After listening, Qi Dong was silent for a few seconds, then looked at Fu Xinglin and said seriously: "Anyway, just because this person likes you doesn't mean he's at fault. On the contrary, every sincere liking should be respected, even if The other party is a man."

Qi Dong pondered for a moment and continued: "I heard what you said... This person actually treats you very well and takes good care of you. He should really like you. I can understand you. For a straight man, being liked by a man It should really be a very troublesome thing. Because I am also a straight man, so I can understand you. But in this society, you also know that homosexuality is not such a rare thing, and there are such friends around me , I think some people get along very well, even better than men and women. You don’t have to reject them so much. If you think you don’t hate this person, you can actually try to understand him, not to say You like him, but I think you may change your mind in the process of getting to know him. And if you find that you still hate this person, then you just have to stay away from each other forever."

Qi Dong smiled and patted Fu Xinglin on the shoulder: "If you want to blame it, blame you for being too good-looking, which makes men miss you."

Fu Xinglin laughed, and pushed Qi Dong: "Fuck you."

"Anyway, brother, I suggest that you don't blush with others unless you are forced to. Once they have done nothing wrong, they just like you. For a person who really likes you, any dislike and Hate should hurt him much more than usual. If we don’t like it, we just don’t like it. Don’t hurt others. Second, I heard you say that this person can take care of you in so many ways. I think he’s a bit of a bitch in City B. I can bear it. Many friends have multiple roads, so there is no need for us to block our own roads. We will have to hang out in this city in the future, and there is no harm in getting to know more people, right?"

What Qi Dong said was the truth, Fu Xinglin naturally agreed, so he nodded.He unconsciously remembered what he said to Cui Zhannan tonight.Maybe...he was a bit too much, those hurtful things he said...

"Anyway, you have nowhere to go tonight. As for me, I have also made up my mind to risk my life to accompany the gentleman. Let's go, brother, I will take you somewhere." Qi Dong started the car after saying that.

Fu Xinglin stretched out his hand to buckle the seat belt and asked him, "Where are you going?"

"You'll know when it arrives."

Qi Dong drove Fu Xinglin all the way into the urban area. This is a bar street. At the time when people should be sleeping, this place is brightly lit. It seems that the brilliance of this place has just begun.

Qi Dong took Fu Xinglin into a bar called KenBar.

Fu Xinglin is no stranger to the bar, and can even be said to be very familiar with it.But this bar was different from the ones he had been to before.He found that almost all the staff here are men, and they are all young men with very good appearance conditions.

Most of the people who come here to consume are men, and there are only a few women here and there.

He followed Qi Dong all the way inside, and they ordered two glasses of wine at the bar.Before Qi Dong could say anything, Fu Xinglin saw...men in the middle of the dance floor.They hug, hold hands, face to face...

Fu Xinglin suddenly realized that this place should be the legendary gay.

Qi Dong glanced at the shocked expression on Fu Xinglin's face and thought it was very funny for a while.

"This bar is relatively clean among the gay bars in City B, without those eye-catching scenes. I brought you here to let you know about this group and see if you can accept it."

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