make zero with tears

Cui Zhannan's expression was very serious, and there was no teasing, teasing, or joking that Fu Xinglin thought he should have in those beautiful peach eyes...

Even the previous drunkenness could not be seen in those black and white eyes.

Very clear and clean.

This made Fu Xinglin very sure that what Cui Zhannan said at this moment was completely true when he was awake.

He felt as if he had been hit hard, and the shock that this incident brought to him was much higher than Cui Zhannan's frivolity and rudeness to him before.

He should have punched him like before, he should have let Cui Zhannan know that his warning was not a joke, he should have made Cui Zhannan cut off all thoughts he shouldn't have about him.

However, looking at the man in front of him with nervous expression and hopeful eyes, he couldn't do it.He could only let his hands hanging by his sides clenched into fists little by little, but he couldn't lift them up a bit.

Cui Zhannan carefully observed the changes in Fu Xinglin's expression, and was ready to get out of the way at any time, in case the kid suddenly hit him.

However, after waiting for a while, he found that Fu Xinglin didn't seem to intend to do anything, so he couldn't help but breathe a sigh of relief.

The atmosphere was awkwardly silent, Cui Zhannan didn't know what to say for a while.To be honest, his confession has never failed.In other words, anyone who was attracted to him in the past would eventually like him.

Fu Xinglin was the only one who was indifferent to his confession... This really made him wonder where to start.

He stared at him with staring eyes, neither responded nor fought with him, this... what does it mean?

Cui Zhannan was puzzled.

Fu Xinglin could feel his breathing being messy, and he could also feel the blood flowing backwards in his body.He felt as if he had been punched hard by someone, and his mind was befuddled.The complicated emotions were about to squeeze his heart to explode, and for a moment he even felt that he might not be able to bear the burden of so many emotions rushing up all at once.

So he could only stare at Cui Zhannan with rounded eyes, his ears buzzing.

After a long while, he finally recovered his voice: "What do you mean?"

Cui Zhannan was stunned for a moment, and then immediately said: "That's what you heard."

Cui Zhannan's expression is very calm, he doesn't seem to feel ashamed or embarrassed because he likes a man.He confidently and generously expressed his love for Fu Xinglin in this way, without concealing it at all.

His magnanimity made Fu Xinglin feel a little funny that he was about to collapse from being tortured by various emotions.

The boy's eyes were a little red, he stared at Cui Zhannan for a moment, gritted his teeth and asked, "What nonsense are you talking about? Huh? Did you forget that I just..."

"Of course I haven't forgotten," Cui Zhannan snapped, "Even if you are angry and want to hit me, I will admit it. I will not deny my feelings. I can't lie to you or myself. I just like you, not a friend." It’s not my brother’s liking, nor my brother’s liking.”

Cui Zhannan said it lightly, but he kept praying in his heart that Fu Xinglin would never be so innocent as to beat him.

Obviously, Fu Xinglin really didn't intend to fight him.

Fu Xinglin is not stupid, of course he can understand Cui Zhannan's meaning.But... this shouldn't be, all of this shouldn't be.Aren't they friends?Cui Zhannan even always claimed to be his brother.he thought...he thought...

But it turns out that this rare feeling...isn't it friendship?Cui Zhannan has other plans for him?

When did it start?How long has it been?

Too many questions rushed into Fu Xinglin's brain, making him feel like a splitting headache.His always clear brain is now a mess, he can barely grasp the last trace of clarity and ask Cui Zhannan word by word: "Don't you like women? Cui Zhannan, open your eyes and see clearly, I am a woman." man!"

Cui Zhannan took a deep breath, and then said slowly: "Xinglin, I won't hide it from you, I'm bisexual. Do you know what bisexuality means? Whether it's a man or a woman, I might fall in love with you. In other words, what I like now is you, your soul, and the joy and excitement you bring me, it has nothing to do with whether you are male or female."

Fu Xinglin's face turned pale in an instant, and he looked at Cui Zhannan like a monster.

Cui Zhannan pursed his lower lip, and his voice was low and soft: "Also, there is one thing I need to explain. Tonight... I didn't actually mistook you for anyone. Even if I was too drunk to be conscious, I still I know that the person next to me is you. I said that later... It was an expedient measure to calm you down. I have no feelings for He Xiangning now, and she is in the past tense for me. I hope my present and the future is yours."

"So you're all pretending tonight?"

Cui Zhannan pondered for a moment, and said: "Not all, I admit that I feel a little sad to see He Xiangning with other men, but that's all. This sadness has nothing to do with whether I like her or not. It’s just a kind of regret for my feelings. The person I like is you, and it has always been you. The reason why I drink too much tonight... more is because I can’t do anything about you. I have a lot of love for you, But I don't know if I should tell you. On the one hand, I want to get close to you, but on the other hand... I am afraid that I will scare you, and that you will stop talking to me. "

Cui Zhannan's tone was very serious and sincere. Anyone who heard it would think that he was a poor person who couldn't love in love.Even Fu Xinglin felt the same way.

However, he couldn't feel pity at all.He didn't even know why he was in pain at the moment.He just looked at Cui Zhannan in silence for a long, long time.

Cui Zhannan was about to lose his patience after so long.

This is his second tactic.He felt that since it was not enough to use force against Fu Xinglin, it would be better to turn to attack.No matter how bastard Fu Xinglin is, he probably wouldn't do anything to someone who likes him with all his heart, and... Cui Zhannan is also confident that he can impress him in this way.

If he could coerce Fu Xinglin emotionally, Cui Zhannan felt that this would satisfy his desire to conquer better than sleeping with him by force.

"Cui Zhannan." Fu Xinglin opened his mouth and realized that his voice was hoarse.

Cui Zhannan raised his face.

Fu Xinglin's complexion was still not very good, and there was no blood on his lips.He, the one who was confessed to, seemed to be in more pain than Cui Zhannan, the one who confessed.

"I don't like men."

"I know." Cui Zhannan nodded, "I'm not telling you this today to ask you to promise me anything. I just want you to know my heart, and I don't want to have any more regrets."

After thinking for a while, Cui Zhannan added: "I used to only like women like you, and I didn't believe that I would like men in the future. But then I found that what I was looking for was the soul that could really attract me. As for the body, It doesn't really matter. Why don't you... consider giving it a try?"

Fu Xinglin closed his eyes, looking tired and depressed.When she opened her eyes again, there was no longer any emotion in those beautiful eyes.

It's like two bottomless ancient wells, with no waves and no waves, people can't see clearly or see through them at all.Cui Zhannan's heart suddenly rose.

Maybe... the development of things is going to be out of his control.He had this hunch.

"Cui Zhannan, you don't understand what I mean." Fu Xinglin's voice became much colder, "It's not that I can't accept liking men, I just hate homosexuality. It can even be said to be... disgusting. Maybe in your words, I call it' Homophobia', but it doesn't matter what it's called, I just know that the most disgusting and repulsive thing in my life is homosexuality."

When Fu Xinglin said these words, his eyes were frighteningly dark, and his calm expression revealed a hint of madness, which was shocking to watch.

"Perhaps a little more extreme, I even hope that all gays in this world will die. I think it is torture to breathe the same air as you. Do you... understand what I mean?"

Cui Zhannan's expression suddenly changed.

Fu Xinglin took a deep breath and let it out slowly: "So, Cui Zhannan, I will not give any response to your liking. Also, don't try to assimilate me. In my opinion, this kind of behavior is a kind of harm to me. Humiliation. Maybe...we won't even be friends in the future."

Cui Zhannan frowned tightly, but didn't say a word.

"I'm leaving, you should have a good rest." After throwing down these nine words, Fu Xinglin left without looking back.

Cui Zhannan still maintained his original posture and stood where he was, but this time he didn't step forward to stop or save him.He heard the sound of the door closing, and then his clear and moist eyes dimmed for a moment.

"Damn it, why are you pretending to be lofty! Disgusting? Disgusting?" Cui Zhannan pinched his waist with both hands and turned to face the direction Fu Xinglin left, yelling, "Fuck! Gays are fucking eating or drinking your house, it's your turn to be disgusting? I But fuck you, Fu Xinglin! Fuck! I really fucked you up! Stupid idiot! Damn..."

Cui Zhannan was really pissed off by what Fu Xinglin said just now, and he was so angry that his liver hurts.He had been suffocated for a long time and accumulated a lot of anger, but now he vented all his anger.He scolded more and more badly, and finally even the eighteen generations of Fu Xinglin's ancestors were scolded.

However, the person concerned had left long ago, and no one else knew a single word of his yelling and cursing except for himself.So even though he scolded happily for a while, he didn't feel at all comfortable in his heart.

He was really pissed off.What kind of man does Cui Zhannan want?You have to fight to the death with such a stubborn stone!Damn, do you really think he cares about Fu Xinglin?

At this moment, Cui Zhannan felt like giving up, and he also thought about not wanting to mess with Fu Xinglin anymore.But as soon as he thought of Fu Xinglin's face just now, he felt overwhelmed again.Cui Zhannan is rebellious by nature, he will do whatever others don't let him do.

Doesn't Fu Xinglin hate homosexuality?Alright, then he has to assimilate him into the most disgusting, repulsive and disdainful homosexual!He also wants Fu Xinglin to love him to death, and wants him to become a homosexual through and through!

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