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I still remember that when Fu Xinglin was in Luo County, he looked down on Cui Zhannan's face that he accepted Liu Zheng's care as a matter of course, and only thought that this person was really annoying.But now that Fu Xinglin has gotten along with him, he gradually understands Liu Zheng a little bit.

Cui Zhannan seems to be born with pride, he is like a cat, like a little prince in a kingdom.No one can resist his charm, and they can't help but want to protect his pride in front of him, and want to do everything they can to be good to him.

Fu Xinglin looked deeply into Cui Zhannan's eyes, and felt that his heart, which had been empty all along, seemed to be filled by this person in front of him.It's like he's...alive again.

Cui Zhannan turned his head curiously, and looked at Fu Xinglin from bottom to top: "Why?"

Fu Xinglin's big hand unconsciously stroked Cui Zhannan's smooth hair, and said with a smile, "Because you were born with a young master's fate."

Cui Zhannan curled his lips in disdain.

Fu Xinglin just lowered his head slightly and looked at the person lying on his lap, unable to pay attention to the programs on TV.He stroked Cui Zhannan's hair for a while, and rubbed his ears for a while, like a child who received a doll gift for the first time, and couldn't put it down for this rare gift.

And Cui Zhannan is obviously that "doll".

Cui Zhannan has long arms and long legs. While watching the program on TV, he reached out to pick up a strawberry.He picked off the stem of the strawberry, turned his face and stretched out his hand to bring the strawberry to Fu Xinglin's mouth: "Try to see if the strawberry from your house is delicious."

Fu Xinglin opened his mouth obediently, and let Cui Zhannan feed the strawberries into his mouth.

The sweet juice of strawberries filled the entire mouth, that refreshing, sweet feeling...just like Cui Zhannan gave him.

So novel, so sweet.

"good to eat."

Cui Zhannan smiled: "I asked the nanny to buy these from the fresh food supermarket downstairs. I feel that the strawberries in D city are not as authentic as I eat them."

Fu Xinglin unconsciously ran his hand along the man's hair, and said with a smile: "The strawberries in D City are in season at this time. I'll come back in a few days and bring you some, or...you can go to play again if you have time." , eat as much as you like."

Cui Zhannan smiled, raised his long arms around Fu Xinglin's neck, pressed him down, and kissed him on the lips: "What? Are you in a hurry to take me to see the parents?"

After the words fell, Fu Xinglin was startled, and Cui Zhannan's eyes froze for a moment after seeing the change in Fu Xinglin's expression.He let go of Fu Xinglin's neck a little uncomfortably, coughed lightly and smiled, and said in a joking tone: "But if your parents see that you brought a man back, will they kill you?"

Fu Xinglin looked into Cui Zhannan's eyes in silence, and didn't speak for a while.

Cui Zhannan felt very uncomfortable.He was the one who talked too fast just now, talking nonsense about everything.The relationship between him and Fu Xinglin was not entirely clear.Even the two acquiesce that their relationship should exist underground and cannot be made public.Not to mention the elders of the two families?

On Cui Zhannan's side, because his parents know his virtues, they probably wouldn't be too surprised if Cui Zhannan was with Fu Xinglin or someone else, and they even hoped that he could find someone reliable to live with him for the rest of his life.

But in comparison, the situation in Fu Xinglin's family is not so clear.In such a traditional family, he is the only son in the family.For such a family, the harm caused by the son being gay should be unpredictable.

In that case, it will definitely be a big battle, and it is even possible to sever the parent-child relationship.

What's more... Cui Zhannan never thought about being so far away from Fu Xinglin, and even now Cui Zhannan thinks that the two of them will not be too long, maybe one day they will blow up.

It's also because he didn't know what to say just now, and he talked nonsense, which made Fu Xinglin embarrassed.One look at his expression, Cui Zhannan knew that he had said something wrong.

but……

Although Cui Zhannan never thought of staying with Fu Xinglin forever, but now he likes him sincerely.At the very least, it can be seen from the fact that Fu Xinglin restrains his private life from messing around outside, Fu Xinglin still has some weight in his heart.And these days, he can also feel Fu Xinglin's dependence and love for him more and more day by day, but Cui Zhannan still feels a little uncomfortable after receiving such a reaction from him.

Cui Zhannan is actually very clear, although many men are open to playing with the same sex nowadays, but there are very few people like him who dare to admit their sexuality to their family members.Including himself, he has never publicly announced that he is gay.

Everyone wants to break the world, but everyone can't break free from the world.

So Fu Xinglin would have such a reaction, which was expected by Cui Zhannan.

It's just... he still feels uncomfortable.It's like a puppy I raised, who is obviously very sticky to me in private, but as soon as outsiders are present, it will stop wagging its tail and hide away from me.

In front of people who can completely relax and trust, Cui Zhannan is sometimes not very good at deliberately hiding his emotions, and even reveals them very clearly.So he propped up the sofa and sat up. Instead of sticking to Fu Xinglin as before, he sat on the sofa with his back straight, with a short but unnegligible distance between him and Fu Xinglin.

The atmosphere began to undergo slight changes.

Fu Xinglin's mind is clear, so naturally he will not fail to understand the reason for Cui Zhannan's change.But he was just silent and didn't say anything about it.He just quietly looked at Cui Zhannan's side face, and after a long silence, he opened his mouth and said:

"Brother Nan, the professor of our research group introduced me to a senior who has graduated for many years and is starting a business." Fu Xinglin seemed to change the topic, "He plans to do robot research and development, and also plans to develop a related technology Educational APP."

Cui Zhannan also recovered from those inexplicable emotions, and looked at Fu Xinglin with a smile: "Are you interested?"

Fu Xinglin nodded generously: "Well, I want to know more about it. I also have a fellow from my hometown who is also a senior of the same major, and I want to join in. We are both good at this field."

Cui Zhannan's eyes widened for a moment, as if he was distracted by Fu Xinglin's words: "What? Want to start a business?"

"Have the idea."

"Don't take the civil service exam?"

"It doesn't affect each other." Fu Xinglin smiled lightly, "And even if I take the civil servant test, I probably won't take the test from my hometown."

Cui Zhannan was a little surprised: "Then where do you want to take the exam?"

Fu Xinglin looked into Cui Zhannan's eyes without blinking, and smiled: "City B."

Cui Zhannan was startled, and then his heart started beating wildly.His mouth became dry uncontrollably, and his ears were burning hot.He turned his eyes away uncomfortably, as if he didn't dare to look directly at the scorching heat in Fu Xinglin's eyes.

"Why...you suddenly changed your mind?"

The boy shrugged and smiled at him: "Maybe the reason, you know."

***

Fu Xinglin left early the next morning.

Because his ticket was temporarily rebooked, there were not many trains he could choose.The tickets for the good time were sold out long ago, so he could only catch the high-speed train early in the morning in the hazy sky.

Cui Zhannan is not a person who can get up early. To him, getting up early is no different from killing him, and he is very angry when he gets up.So Fu Xinglin didn't even expect him to get up in the morning to see him off.

Besides, it was rare to have a vacation for Cui Zhannan to have a good rest, and Fu Xinglin was also reluctant to let him toss.So when Fu Xinglin got up in the morning, he was very light-hearted.He folded the quilt in the guest room, went to the kitchen to make some breakfast for Cui Zhannan, and was about to warm it in the pot when the door to the master bedroom opened.

Fu Xinglin was taken aback for a moment, then turned his head and looked over.

Cui Zhannan rubbed his sleepy eyes, yawned, and grumbled, "Didn't I tell you to call me in the morning? Why don't you call me?"

Fu Xinglin really didn't expect Cui Zhannan to get up at this time, so he could only look at Cui Zhannan whose hair was still messy and said dryly: "I want you to sleep a little longer."

Cui Zhannan was not very happy. Last night he clearly agreed that he would drive Fu Xinglin to the station this morning.At this time, there is no bus, and it is also very difficult to take a taxi.And his house is far away from the subway station, if he doesn't drive him, he doesn't know when he can get to the station.As a result, the boy didn't intend to wake him up at all, and it seemed that he planned to go quietly by himself.

Cui Zhannan was already in a bad mood because he got up early, but now he was even more depressed, so his face was as dark as a pot.

Fu Xinglin could see that he was unhappy, but he also knew that it was wrong to talk about this situation, so he had no choice but to ask Cui Zhannan to come over and have breakfast.The last two finished their breakfast in eerie silence.

Today is New Year's Day, and it is still early in the morning, so there are hardly any cars on the street.Cui Zhannan drove the car silently, and Fu Xinglin, who was the co-driver, drove all the way to the station.

On the way, Fu Xinglin turned his face to look at Cui Zhannan from time to time, but Cui Zhannan didn't look at him the whole time, and kept his face cold and didn't say a word.Fu Xinglin pursed his lips, but he still didn't speak.

Until the car arrived at the station, it parked in the parking lot outside the station.Fu Xinglin tightened his grip on the straps of his backpack, and turned to look at Cui Zhannan: "Brother Nan, are you still angry with me?"

Cui Zhannan snorted coldly: "How dare I be angry with you? What ideas do you have?"

Fu Xinglin sighed softly, leaned his upper body forward and held Cui Zhannan's shoulders so that he faced him, stared into his eyes for a moment, and explained gently: "I didn't mean to sneak away by myself. I don't want you to get up early and toss, I want you to sleep well."

Cui Zhannan looked at Fu Xinglin sullenly.In fact, he is not so narrow-minded, and he is far less angry when he wakes up. He just... Maybe he just enjoys the feeling of being cared and cared by Fu Xinglin all the time.

He likes the way Fu Xinglin is nervous about him.

"Lanjue can sleep at any time, I'm not short of this one. I just want to see you a few more times before you go home, have I committed a crime?"

Fu Xinglin was taken aback for a moment, and then the corners of his mouth curled up unconsciously.His hand was originally holding the man's shoulder. At this time, he went down his arm and gently grabbed the man's hand. He smiled and said, "Okay, Brother Nan, don't be angry. I did this No, forgive me, okay?"

Cui Zhannan raised his eyebrows: "Do you really think you did something wrong?"

"Ah."

"Then kiss me and I won't be angry."

The boy stared into the man's eyes, then he unbuckled the seat belt in a smooth manner, leaned over with his entire upper body, and pressed one hand on the back of Cui Zhannan's head to send a lingering and passionate kiss.

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