I take paranoia as a victim

Xiao Cheng stepped up the steps with one foot. When he heard this sentence, he didn't know whether he should continue to walk forward. He didn't expect Bai Yiheng to ask such a question suddenly, and his whole expression was a little dazed.

Bai Yiheng laughed in his ear, and then stopped in his footsteps.

"Why don't you keep going?"

Xiao Cheng turned around and looked at him. The man's expression was still gentle, with a natural smile on his brows and eyes, as if the person who asked that sentence just now was not him.

"Why did Mr. Bai suddenly ask me this?" This has nothing to do with their future work, right?

Bai Yiheng pointed to a strand of hair on his cheek, and replied with a natural expression: "I will probably be very busy in the future, and will often travel and work overtime. If you have a partner, you'd better explain it to him in advance."

He couldn't find a single fault in his answer, Xiao Cheng was not so narcissistic, and Bai Yiheng probably looked down on a kid like him who didn't even graduate from college.

He flicked the hair on his cheek and replied at the same time: "No object."

Bai Yiheng smiled lightly, and when Xiao Cheng looked over, he generously met his gaze, "Have you never thought about falling in love?"

His tone was gentle and casual, just like chatting among friends, making it difficult for Xiao Cheng to feel any resistance.

Although the two met for the first time, Xiao Cheng still replied honestly: "Talked, we broke up."

In fact, he doesn't like to share his relationship experience with others. After all, the reason for breaking up is not glorious, and he seems stupid to say it.

Bai Yiheng didn't ask too much, Xiao Cheng really heard his laughter this time, even his face was still smiling, and the contours of his face became softer because of this smile.

Infected by his emotions, Xiao Cheng couldn't help laughing along with him, and asked, "What is Mr. Bai laughing at?"

Bai Yiheng looked directly into his slightly curved eyes, "Don't worry about falling in love, it's okay to be late."

Xiao Cheng nodded solemnly, "Mr. Bai must be telling the truth."

Bai Yiheng was stunned for a moment before realizing that he was being teased by Xiao Cheng.

Xiao Cheng laughed round the corner that he didn't have a date.

"I have always felt that there is no rush for emotional matters. When fate comes, it will naturally happen." When Bai Yiheng said this, he looked straight at Xiao Cheng with a focused and serious expression.

Xiao Cheng nodded, "Mr. Bai is right."

He felt that he was like a child facing an elder, and there was a restraint in his words, so he added: "It's really important for two people to be happy."

A person's enthusiasm is always limited. If there is no response for a long time, no matter how strong the feelings are, they will be wiped out.

And the most important point, Xiao Cheng didn't say it.

There is no room for deception in relationships.

The biggest reason why he decided to break up with Luo Jingshu was not that he didn't love Luo Jingshu, but that Luo Jingshu had been deceiving him from the beginning to the end, even when he found out, he still refused to admit that he was wrong.

Xiao Cheng thought to himself while taking off the scarf around his neck.

He never stopped loving Luo Jingshu, even now, Xiao Cheng can't say that he doesn't love Luo Jingshu.

It's just that before that, he cared more about and hated Luo Jingshu's tricks and deceptions on him.

Bai Yiheng didn't answer his words. He felt that Xiao Cheng probably didn't need his own answer. The young man seemed to have fallen into his own thoughts.

Although Xiao Cheng didn't tell Bai Yiheng what happened between him and his ex, but from the tone and demeanor when he said that sentence just now, Bai Yiheng could guess that it was probably not a pleasant experience.

He had no intention of prying into Xiao Cheng's privacy, the idea only went around in his mind before he suppressed it.

The atmosphere at the dinner table was very pleasant, Xiao Cheng quickly put aside the little disappointment, and listened intently to what Xiao Yu and Bai Yiheng had to say.

He had to admit that the walk just now was indeed very effective. Although he and Bai Yiheng didn't say a few words, the distance between the two of them was indeed shortened a lot.

When Bai Yiheng talked about some interesting things he had experienced in the past, Xiao Cheng was able to express his views appropriately, and even joked a few words in good faith.

After a few times, Xiao Cheng discovered that Bai Yiheng in life had a good temper, and he could hardly see any negative emotions on his face. Even when he talked about his embarrassing things, there was a smile in his eyes.

This man is good at controlling his emotions and expressions, and he can't even deduce his true inner thoughts from his expression.

Xiao Cheng admired such a person the most, because he couldn't do it himself, he always showed his inner thoughts on his face.

"Where does Cheng Cheng plan to live after that?" He An picked up a piece of pork ribs for Xiao Cheng with his serving chopsticks, and asked in a low voice.

There are not many properties under Xiao Cheng's name, but when he was an adult, He An gave him an apartment, which was the place where he planned to let Luo Jingshu live.

But it's impossible for Xiao Cheng to live there. Bai Yiheng's place of work is in city a, so of course Xiao Cheng has to live in city a.

Hearing this, Bai Yiheng stopped talking with Xiao Yu, and turned to look at Xiao Cheng, "If Xiao Cheng doesn't mind, you can live with me."

He winked at Xiao Cheng: "There is another room in my apartment that is vacant, and no one usually lives in it."

He An thought for a while, "That's fine too. After all, Cheng Cheng only stays for two months, so he can live at Yi Heng's house first, and we'll talk about it later."

"Will this trouble Mr. Bai too much?" Xiao Cheng tried hard to swallow the ribs in his mouth, almost choking on him.

Bai Yiheng handed him a tissue, "No trouble, I live alone, and the house is quite deserted."

That's it.

Speaking of living alone, He An talked to Bai Yiheng about finding a partner.

Bai Yiheng is not only a high-level executive of the company, but also a friend of the Xiao family and his wife. He An treats him like a younger brother and is extremely concerned about his affairs.

"I introduced you to a very beautiful girl last time. She is well-educated, gentle and virtuous. Why didn't you fall in love with her?"

Bai Yiheng was wiping his fingers with a wet tissue, and couldn't help but smile helplessly when he heard this: "It's because they didn't like me."

He An snorted. It's not like she didn't know the truth of the matter. When the girl told her about it, she felt quite regretful.

It is said that Bai Yiheng is gentle and polite, delicate and thoughtful, but he just doesn't like her.The two met twice, and Bai Yiheng rejected her the second time they met.

"You said that you are 30 years old and don't want to fall in love. Is it possible that you really want to be single for the rest of your life?"

He An was muttering, and suddenly glanced at Xiao Cheng again, and said jokingly: "Cheng Cheng must not follow Yi Heng's example, Mom still expects you to bring the date to me."

"Cough cough." Why did he suddenly mention him, Xiao Cheng couldn't help coughing in a low voice, covering his lips, but when he looked up, he saw Bai Yiheng looking at him with the corners of his lips slightly curled up.

Xiao Cheng had an inexplicable feeling that he didn't dare to look directly at him. He staggered his gaze and smiled flatteringly at He An.

"Mom, I'm still young."

He An thought about it, and then ordered: "You can find it first, but don't mess around, you know?"

How dare Xiao Cheng, when he thought that Bai Yiheng had heard all this clearly, his cheeks turned red.

There is a shame of being surrounded by people watching embarrassing things.

Before Bai Yiheng left, Xiao Cheng exchanged contact information with him.

The man's wechat profile picture is a big SpongeBob SquarePants. When Xiao Cheng saw it for the first time, he almost thought he added the wrong person.

"My niece changed it." Bai Yiheng explained: "This is my life account. There are not many people in it, and they are all friends, so I didn't think about changing it."

It can be seen that he should love his family very much.

Xiao Cheng gave him a thumbs up, "It's very beautiful, and it fits Mr. Bai's temperament very well."

Bai Yiheng hissed, and suddenly stretched out his hand and tapped Xiao Cheng's forehead lightly, and his fingertips were ready to leave.

Xiao Cheng was stunned and looked at him with wide eyes.

Bai Yiheng's voice was low, and he looked at Xiao Cheng fixedly, "How many times have you teased me tonight?"

Xiao Cheng didn't dare to stretch out his hand to rub his forehead. He was sending Bai Yiheng out, so he couldn't help but feel a little uneasy at the moment, "Mr. Bai is angry?"

Bai Yiheng looked at him for a while, then the tense expression on his face suddenly relaxed, and a smile appeared from the corners of his eyes and brows.

"I'm not going to argue with a kid."

Xiao Cheng realized later that Bai Yiheng was clearly trying to scare him just now.

"Childish." He muttered, but he didn't hear the man next to him speak for a while.

Xiao Cheng stopped and looked up, but Bai Yiheng stretched out his hand at this moment, and quickly tapped the tip of his nose with his fingertips.

Xiao Cheng suddenly felt a cold on the tip of his nose - Bai Yiheng wiped a little snow on his nose.

This year's snow has just arrived, and it's not very big. There is only a thin layer on the ground. After a while, you will probably be able to see the scene covered in snow.

Xiao Cheng endured and endured, took out a piece of paper from his pocket, and wiped off the water droplets after the snow melted, with a complicated expression on his face.

Bai Yiheng clenched his hands into fists and put them on his lips, coughing softly, "Are you angry?"

Xiao Cheng's nose was red, and he looked at Bai Yiheng seriously, with a depressed tone in his tone: "Where did the snow come from?"

Bai Yiheng was taken aback, "It was smeared on the leaves."

Xiao Cheng breathed a sigh of relief, he thought Bai Yiheng had picked it up from the ground.

The coldness is second to none, Xiao Cheng just thinks it's dirty, after all, the snow on the ground may have been stepped on by shoes.

Only then did Bai Yiheng understand what he meant, and couldn't help laughing twice: "I still can't do this kind of thing."

Xiao Cheng didn't realize how ambiguous the actions just now were. First, he treated Bai Yiheng as an elder. As long as it wasn't too much, he thought it was fine; second, because He An just said that she introduced a girl to Bai Yiheng, Xiao Cheng subconsciously thought that Bai Yiheng was heterosexual.

Bai Yiheng didn't know why he really became childish, maybe it was because Xiao Cheng's tone when he complained to him was too soft and dull, like acting like a baby, he couldn't hold back.

When sending Bai Yiheng into the car, Xiao Cheng looked down at the handsome face in the car window, with a slight smile on his lips, "Mr. Bai, I will trouble you in the future."

Bai Yiheng looked up at him, with imperceptible pleasure in his dark eyes, "I am looking forward to my life in the future."

Xiao Cheng watched the car drive away, and scattered snowflakes fell on his shoulders, and he reached out to stroke them away.

Looking at the vehicle that disappeared into the night, he opened his lips slightly and let out a breath, finally feeling a little more at ease in his heart.

The future will get better and better.

Since Luo Jingshu was ridiculed by him last time, he didn't send him any more messages. Xiao Cheng spent two weeks in peace, and it was on Luo Jingshu's birthday that his mood became heavy again.

The things to give to Luo Jingshu have been prepared a long time ago, and they are placed on Xiao Cheng's desk.

Jiang Zihe asked several times overtly and secretly, but Xiao Cheng didn't tell him what it was.

The thing is not heavy, but he seems to be carrying a heavy object, and his arms are so heavy that he can hardly lift it.

Luo Jingshu sent him a message 10 minutes ago: [Brother Cheng, I'm at the gate of S. 】

Xiao Cheng took a deep breath, grasped the bag in his hand, and walked with heavy and firm steps.

His face was slightly stiff from the cold wind, and he couldn't show any expression, only his eyes were a little red.

From a distance, Xiao Cheng saw Luo Jingshu's figure.

The boy was wearing a wide sweater, a pair of long and straight legs wrapped in jeans, and a pair of white sneakers on his feet. He was tall and straight, with a strong scent of green onions, very similar to the milk dog written in the novel junior.

But Xiao Cheng knew that Luo Jingshu had never been a harmless little milk dog.

He is a wolf cub who bites with a muffled sound.

When the wolf cub saw him, a smile suddenly appeared on his expressionless pretty face, and he stared into Xiao Cheng's eyes unblinkingly.

"Brother Cheng."

Xiao Cheng seemed to have returned to a month ago, the time he sprained his ankle while playing basketball, Luo Jingshu also came to look for him at this time, in the dark night, as soon as Xiao Cheng saw his face, he felt boundless energy.

So he endured the pain and pretended that his steps were normal, not wanting to show a look of embarrassment in front of the young man.

Walking those few steps almost exhausted his strength, so that after returning to the dormitory, his ankle was swollen high, and the swelling did not subside for several days.

When Xiao Cheng thought of this incident, his eye sockets became more sour, and the complicated emotions in his heart surged up again. He hummed in a low voice, and turned his head to prevent Luo Jingshu from seeing his red eye sockets clearly.

"Let's walk a little bit forward." Xiao Cheng said, and walked straight forward. The hem of the coat drew an arc in the air, which was quite ruthless.

Luo Jingshu stepped forward with a long leg, and followed in two steps.He has grown up very fast recently. He was about the same height as Xiao Cheng before, but now he looks a little taller than Xiao Cheng.

The two walked side by side, Luo Jingshu turned his head to look at Xiao Cheng's long eyelashes, feeling itchy inexplicably.

"Brother Cheng, have you had dinner yet?" His voice was soft and gentle.

"Yeah." Xiao Cheng replied casually, seeing that it was almost done, he stopped.

He was mainly worried that he was too close to the school gate, and if there was a quarrel later, the security guards would be attracted, so he simply walked away.

It happened that it was cold and few people went out, and this place was illuminated again, it was not too dark, and it was an excellent place for conversation.

Luo Jingshu stared deeply at his face, he always felt that Xiao Cheng had become thinner, and the outline of that face was more rigid, when facing him, there was no smile in his eyes.

When he was looking at Xiao Cheng, Xiao Cheng was also looking at the young man in front of him.

Luo Jingshu's face was indeed impeccable, gorgeous and delicate, even the color of his lips was redder than others, making his skin as white as jade.

He stood up straight, like a straight pine tree, with dazzlingly long legs, and the shape of his legs was even more perfect than that of a girl.

Xiao Cheng comforted himself in his heart, at least he didn't suffer from this. Although Luo Jingshu's character is not very good, at least he looks good.

After the deliberate softness faded away, Luo Jingshu's voice was deeper than usual, but it was not like Bai Yiheng's hoarse magnetism of a mature male voice, but a kind of youthful gentleness.

"Brother Cheng, why didn't you wear more clothes?" Luo Jingshu pinched Xiao Cheng's earlobe with his fingertips, startled by the cold temperature.

He couldn't help regretting that he was wearing a sweater today, so he couldn't take it off for Xiao Cheng at this time.

Xiao Cheng tilted his head and avoided his hand, "No need, I only have a few words to say."

He handed the bag in his hand to Luo Jingshu, and said softly, "Open it and have a look."

Luo Jingshu reached out to take it, and rubbed his fingers against Xiao Cheng's hand, but saw that the other party dodged very quickly.

He frowned slightly, and suddenly had a bad premonition in his heart, "What did Brother Cheng give you?"

"You'll know when you open it."

Xiao Cheng crushed his fingertips and put his hands back into his pockets. He said lightness just now, but now he couldn't help regretting that he didn't wear a thick coat.

It's too damn cold.

Xiao Cheng's thoughts wandered a bit, I really don't know how Luo Jingshu managed to wear only a sweater in this weather.

When Luo Jingshu opened the box, he held his breath slightly.

He looked down at the things in the box, his expression froze suddenly, his long eyelashes trembled slightly, and his fingers tightened suddenly, with such strength that the edge of the box was deformed.

Inside were two receipts and two torn air tickets.

Luo Jingshu felt a suffocation in his heart, he paused for a while, then stretched out his hand, pinched the small ticket with his fingertips, and read the information on it clearly.

It's a Christmas Eve themed necklace.

The item on the other receipt is a pair of couple watches.

Luo Jingshu still had an impression of this. When he and Xiao Cheng went out on a date, he saw the advertisement for this watch on the big screen on the street.

So at that time, Xiao Cheng was going to buy it?

Luo Jingshu let go of his fingertips, and the receipt fell lightly back into the box. He raised his eyes to look at Xiao Cheng, his eyes were deeply red, "Where's the thing?"

The voice was hoarse.

Xiao Cheng took a good look at his red eyes, closed them, clenched his hands in his pockets into fists, "Throw it away."

Luo Jingshu grabbed the box tightly, "Is it Christmas night?"

The corners of Luo Jingshu's lips were tense, and his heart ached from the belated pain. He couldn't help thinking masochistically, no wonder Xiao Cheng could hear what he said, maybe at that time, Xiao Cheng was nearby .

What kind of mood did Xiao Cheng come to him with, and after hearing that sentence, he threw away the gift he was going to give him?

Luo Jingshu always thought that he didn't care, but when Xiao Cheng said to throw it away, his first reaction was regret.

Xiao Cheng prepared a gift for him for the first time, but he didn't even know what the gift looked like.

Xiao Cheng didn't wait for him to continue to regret, and reminded: "There are still things down there."

Luo Jingshu only saw two air tickets just now, and after reading all the information on them, he was completely speechless.

These are two air tickets from S City to Rome.

Xiao Cheng once made a romantic promise with him.

It was the morning when they first fell in love, Xiao Cheng woke up drunk, and after he confessed to Xiao Cheng, the young man half-kneeled in front of him and asked him: "Year after year, when you have time later, you can go to Rome with me." ?"

He still remembers himself laughing at that time and asking, "What are you going to do in Rome?"

Xiao Cheng told him: "The Trevi Fountain in Rome has a very beautiful legend. If you throw a coin with your back to the fountain, you can make three wishes."

"I once made a wish on the sculpture of Poseidon, the god of the sea. If one day I have someone I like, I will take him back to Rome again, and throw coins at the fountain, praying for eternal love."

When Xiao Cheng said this, his eyes were sparkling, and his cheeks were flushed with embarrassment. He probably felt that he was such an adult, yet he still believed in such legends.

But he was indeed begging Luo Jingshu, his eyes were full of hope, which was the longing and anticipation for the future.

Luo Jingshu still remembered his reaction at that time. He stroked the corners of Xiao Cheng's eyes with his fingertips, rubbing the corners of the young man's eyes to blush. When the expression on his face changed from anticipation to anxiety, he nodded casually.

"Okay, if given the chance."

The opportunity was given to him, but he lost it by himself.

Xiao Cheng tore up the ticket.

If he hadn't said those words that night, Xiao Cheng would have given him the necklace and the watch, and then they would have boarded the international flight and cast coins with their backs to the fountain when Rome was still warm.

All this is gone.

Luo Jingshu's expression became bewildered, and the corners of his eyes seemed a little wet. He put the ticket back in a panic, and called out in a trembling voice, "Brother Cheng!"

Xiao Cheng wanted to take the box back, after all it was useless for Luo Jingshu to keep it.

The boy's reaction was great, he hurriedly put the box in his arms, staring straight at him with those red eyes, as pitiful as a puppy abandoned by its owner.

"Brother Cheng, don't do this."

Xiao Cheng withdrew his hand, "Okay, you can keep it if you want."

Anyway, just a few pieces of useless waste paper.

He sniffed, his body was frozen stiff, "Luo Jingshu, let me say this one last time, let's break up."

"seriously."

Luo Jingshu blinked, his eyelashes were stained with water, his eyes were wet and full of panic, "I know I was wrong, but you promised to give me another chance."

Luo Jingshu had never been so sober as at this moment, so he also realized very clearly that Xiao Cheng really wanted to break up with him.

He can no longer deceive himself, Xiao Cheng is just angry.

Huge fear and grievance surrounded Luo Jingshu, and the pain in his heart made him turn pale. He didn't know how to react, so he could only reach out and grab Xiao Cheng's wrist, for fear that if he didn't pay attention, this man just disappeared.

Xiao Cheng shook off his hand, his tone was cold and heavy: "I lied to you."

Luo Jingshu would rather that what Xiao Cheng said at the moment was a lie, but he knew very well in his heart that everything Xiao Cheng told him just now was true.

"Brother Cheng, are you really going to abandon me?" With a hoarse voice, he stared at the expression on Xiao Cheng's face, not missing the slightest reaction from the other party.

Xiao Cheng frowned, "Don't make yourself so pitiful, Luo Jingshu, don't you realize your mistake?"

Luo Jingshu opened his mouth, with a hint of despair in his eyes, "You won't give me any chance to make up for what you can't do."

"That's not necessary." Xiao Cheng rubbed his temples, and his head started to hurt again.

"You don't love me, so why do you want to hold on to me?" There was exhaustion in his words, "Luo Jingshu, ask yourself, from the moment we know each other, what can I do to you?"

Xiao Cheng's calmness that he had maintained all night was finally torn apart, his eyes were also red, and his tone was much more excited than before.

"You feel wronged, don't I feel wronged?"

"Where did I offend you, it's worth your effort to play with me?"

Luo Jingshu stubbornly grabbed Xiao Cheng's arm, and admitted his mistake in a low voice: "You didn't apologize to me, it was my fault."

He was finally willing to admit his mistake, but it was too late.

Xiao Cheng was extremely tired: "If you have any guilt towards me, let's get together in the future."

Luo Jingshu pursed his lips, "I can't let go, Brother Cheng."

His voice is very soft: "I like you."

He likes Xiao Cheng.

At the beginning, he was indeed thinking of playing around, but at some point, the young man became an inseparable existence around him, but he was too defensive, and he was still unwilling to admit that he was really moved.

It wasn't until Xiao Cheng was about to break up with him that Luo Jingshu discovered this belated heartbeat.

Perhaps it was because when Luo Jingshu saw those two tickets just now, Luo Jingshu could no longer deceive himself.

He thought, when he promised to go to Rome with Xiao Cheng, did he feel touched in his heart?

It was him who was so stupid.

Hearing these words, Xiao Cheng couldn't bear it any longer. He grabbed Luo Jingshu's arm with his backhand, clenched his fist and punched him on the cheek.

Xiao Cheng has been holding back for a long time, and finally waited until Luo Jingshu became an adult, this punch was merciless.

Luo Jingshu didn't hide, his head tilted when he hit him, and there was a tearing pain from the corner of his lips, probably bleeding, but he didn't care, he just looked at Xiao Cheng sadly.

"Luo Jingshu, how long are you going to lie to me?!"

Xiao Cheng grabbed his collar and pushed him forward forcefully.

Luo Jingshu staggered, took two steps back, and pressed his back against the tree, his back hurt by the raised bark.

Xiao Cheng's angry voice sounded next to his ears:

"You say you like me now, who do you want to disgust?"

Luo Jingshu snorted softly, the pain on his face was nothing compared to the sharp pain in his heart when he heard these words, he looked mournful, and tears fell from the corners of his eyes.

Xiao Cheng didn't want to believe his words anymore.

The author has something to say: Niannian: A sad little wolf dog who lied so much that his credibility was negative in his wife's heart

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