desolate

When Zhou Ze and Pei also saw each other in the psychiatric hospital, both of them felt turbulent waves in their hearts.

It was as if those invisible hands finally broke the rope at this moment, and then the pouring rain flooded the gap between the two of them, and the dense water vapor gradually filled the space. The soil and grass were wet, so The smell spread out.

And just 10 minutes ago, Zhou Zegang came out of Professor Lu's consulting room holding the diagnosis and treatment sheet - as a patient.

It had been almost two weeks since he last met this amiable old man.

Although the other party asked him to come to the hospital the next day for a computerized diagnosis in order to accurately determine his problem, Zhou Ze obviously put this suggestion behind him.

He never felt sick.

Or mental illness, isn't that nonsense?

But as for why he came again today, according to what Zhou Ze told the doctor, it was because his mental state was getting worse recently; and according to what he thought in his heart, it was to escape and deal with it.

Zhou Ze did a series of examinations according to what Professor Lu said, and while waiting for the results, he went downstairs and planned to stroll around the hospital with plenty of flowers, trees and greenery.

Although the psychiatric hospital has become an urban legend among the citizens because of the nature of the disease, in fact, everything in it looks so normal, no different from other general hospitals.

Zhou Ze followed the long stairs to the open space on the first floor. There were more people downstairs, some were staff members, and some were people who came to see the doctor.Most of the patients are with their family members, supporting and comforting each other, but it makes him feel alone.

So Zhou Ze wandered around the outpatient department for a short time, then turned around and went to the other side where there seemed to be fewer people.

When a person is alone, it is easy to think of many things involuntarily.Zhou Ze is like this.

Not to mention that this kind of cranky thinking actually occupied a lot of his life.For example, now—he is looking at the green ivy and the endless concrete road under his feet. The sense of unknown where he will go next moment will not affect him at all. what happen.

People should have caught him playing truant, right?

Looking around for him?

What kind of expression will people show if they see themselves climbing over the wall in the surveillance?disappointment?surprise?question?

Zhou Haiyang will definitely contact Ma Wenjing, and then he will lose his temper or preach endlessly.

Zhou Ze even feels that he is like a disobedient and ignorant child in the rebellious period. Everything he does and thinks is to fight against his parents, perhaps to get attention, or to satisfy spiritual needs... …

But in fact he understands, no.

not like this.

Zhou Ze walked slowly, stepping on every step steadily and tightly. The short corridor came to an end in the blink of an eye. He turned along the next road, but a group of people appeared directly in front of him.

There was a nurse in white, a family member with different expressions, and a patient. The family members and the patient were arguing, and the nurse was arguing.

Immediately afterwards, Zhou Ze stopped and watched from a distance—the woman in hospital clothes was about 40 years old, her hair was messy, and she looked very tired. In addition, her emotions fluctuated too much, and her eyes were tearing apart. His demeanor was as if he wanted to die with the people around him, so he estimated that the woman's real age should be a little younger than he thought.

"I'm not sick at all! Don't think I don't know what you're thinking about sending me here! There's a way to let others judge!" The woman resisted the approach of the nurse while accusing several people who looked like family members loudly, "Your hospital is the same as them. Isn’t it just for money? What a shame! You guys are going to kill people!”

"Stop making trouble, this is the inpatient department, it will disturb the patient's rest! The family members don't watch..."

"You guys are going to kill people! I'm not only going to make trouble, I'm going to sue you! Robbed my money, smashed my store, and Zhu Jiahao, don't think I don't know, you killed him..."

"Don't slander people! My brother obviously died of his own illness!"

The family members watched with cold eyes, and the nurses couldn't argue with each other.

Demons and ghosts, demons dancing wildly.

Zhou Ze subconsciously took half a step back, wanting to stay away from this Shura field.

But before he had time to turn around, he saw a figure that didn't fit in behind the group of people pulling me.

That black shadow stood silently behind this group of noisy adults, as if he had become accustomed to the farce in front of him, and he was waiting for these people to calm down.

If there are categories of people, then at this moment Zhou Ze felt that the person in front of him should be in the same category as himself.

When Pei Ye slowly shifted his eyes from Su Ya to Zhou Ze, no one noticed, not even himself——in his originally indifferent eyes, there was a sudden, undetectable flicker.

At some point later, when Zhou Ze talked about this encounter, he used such an unappetizing description-"Two rotten fish and rotten shrimps suddenly met in a pool of stinky water."

I really don't know whether to secretly rejoice or consider myself unlucky.

But the two were interrupted before they could say a word.

The farce of the adults is escalating, and it only takes one unsightly swear word to move from the mouth to the hands.

Then, when Su Ya was pulling with several people, she was pushed into the rain by someone, and she fell hard. Before she could get up, the nurse took the opportunity to give her a calming shot.

It didn't take long for people to be taken back to the ward.

Zhou Ze stayed downstairs and didn't leave, and he didn't know why he stayed here.

He watched the woman go from hysterical to quiet in just a few minutes, watched Pei Ye follow the nurse to carry the woman to the hospital bed, and watched the woman being pressed around and around with restraint belts.

He probably knew why Pei Ye was so tired every day.

……

Sometimes, Pei also resented Su Ya.

He hated him so much that he wanted to stab her to death with a knife, and then stab himself to death with a knife, and hated to the point where everyone would die.

But he is afraid of death.

No one is not afraid of death, even life is meaningless.

In his impression, that beautiful and capable Su Ya has been dead for many years, and what is alive is an uneducated, stupid woman, an ignorant woman who only wants to find a man to marry.

But no matter what, this woman gave him a bite to eat, so Pei could only endure it.

Sometimes he also thinks, when he can't bear it anymore, he just walks away.

But when he really heard the roar of trains and planes, he suddenly realized that he couldn't go anywhere at all—his feet were already stuck in the ground, and after finding that he couldn't pull them out, he didn't want to pull them out.

"The patient is very emotional now, so don't make trouble for your family members." The nurse was reprimanding Zhu Guofu and others outside the door with a straight face, "And you haven't paid the hospitalization fee and medical treatment fee yet?"

Zhu Guofu and his younger sister Zhu Honglan were silent at this time, especially after the nurse asked for payment, Zhu Guofu, who was fat and steamed, immediately turned his head and pointed to Pei Ye in the ward: "You ask him, he will give you the money. "

Pei Ye glanced over abruptly, and Zhu Guofu immediately puffed out his stomach, as if supporting himself.

The nurse looked at Pei Ye who took the payment slip, silently took pity on the kid who seemed to be in his teens, and then continued to urge him to pay the bill with a straight face.

Pei also roughly calculated that all his savings were used to pay the fee, and there was less than 200 yuan left.It is impossible to say that you can afford the money.But when he was done with the pain, he still stuffed the bills into his trousers pocket.Before going out, he looked back at Su Ya who was lying on the hospital bed, and made sure that she was fast asleep, so he locked the door of the ward in front of Zhu Guofu and others.

He turned to stare at these people, and said sneeringly, "Aren't you leaving? Wait until she wakes up and then chop you with a kitchen knife?"

Zhu Guofu was a little apprehensive, but he still said, "I won't leave! You can either pay back the money or give it to the shop!"

With a brother in his early years, Zhu Honglan also took out a note to agree: "That's right, black and white, we won't leave if you don't pay me!"

Zhu Honglan held up the IOU, and her hand was almost on Pei Ye's face. In the end, he pushed her away impatiently, and before Zhu Honglan fell to the ground and cried loudly, he said nonchalantly: "If you don't want to leave, you will Stay here to pay the medical bills, anyway, I was adopted by her, and not her own son, so I don't know if you can stop me if I want to leave."

These words temporarily frightened the Zhu Guofu brothers and sisters, they were neither willing to pay a penny for Su Ya, nor did they want to talk shamelessly with the hospital.So, seeing that Pei was about to leave, they changed their previous attitude and rushed to leave first.

The backs of the two next to each other are as funny as two ducks.

After they left, Pei Ye slowly went downstairs to the nurse's station on the first floor to pay.

Walking from the second floor to the first floor, one can see the short corridor between the two buildings of the outpatient department and the inpatient department, and Zhou Ze sitting in the corridor doing nothing.

Pei Ye stopped leisurely and paused.

Zhou Ze saw him as soon as he looked up, but his eyes were a little empty, as if he hadn't woken up from his fugue: "... If you abandon her, is it against the law?"

Pei Ye was taken aback for a moment, then seriously considered the question, and came to a conclusion: "I don't know."

Zhou Ze's eyes slowly refocused after asking this question, as if reflecting his abruptness, he coughed dryly in embarrassment, then lowered his head thoughtfully: "Anyway, your parents broke the law."

Pei also sat next to him and said along with him, "How do you know if they didn't want me on purpose?"

Zhou Ze said, "I guess."

Pei also let out a laugh from his throat: "Why don't you guess in a good direction."

"Like?"

"died."

Zhou Ze rarely looked at him squarely: "...So do you think your parents' death is a good direction?"

Pei Ye: "..."

Why didn't you find this sharp-tongued person annoying before?

Seeing that he didn't answer for a long time, Zhou Ze stopped talking and turned his head to look away.But at this time, his mood has been inexplicably much happier, and even the heavy rain blocking the road outside the eaves feels much more pleasing to the eye.

But this seems to be the first time he said such a teasing joke to someone he doesn't know well, and it took him a long time to suddenly realize that something was wrong—won't such a joke make people feel uncomfortable? Comfortable?

This idea brought about panic and anxiety, which even Zhou Ze himself found ridiculous, so he tried to avoid this idea by diverting his eyes and attention.

In the empty corridor, the people in the building were trapped by the increasing rain. Zhou Ze and Pei also sat at the two ends of the public seats. Next the third person.

The dark green shrub leaves were swayed by the rain, and less cold water would occasionally fall on the back of Zhou Selection's hands.

After the two were silent for 2 minutes, Pei Ye spoke first: "During the big break, a man went to school to look for you, but you were not here."

Zhou Ze immediately realized what was going on, and pursed his lips heavily: "Yes."

Pei also pretended not to notice his small movements: "Why don't you ask for leave?"

Zhou Ze hesitated for a moment: "I want to skip school."

"You good students are really interesting, and you play truant like others." Pei also sneered, "Why, do you think this is cool?"

Zhou Ze sniffed: "...That's right, it's pretty cool."

Pei Ye slightly raised his neck, and said in a very serious tone: "Cool fart."

He didn't think so at all.

But Xu felt that the relationship between the two had been evened out, that the other party had been exposed to family ugliness, and that the other party had been exposed by himself.

No one has to look down on anyone.

pretty good.