he can't see our ears

In the middle of the night, Lao Zhang advised me not to think too much, why not put aside all doubts, clear my mind, and act as if nothing had happened.

I became more and more tired and sleepy, and gradually my thoughts began to wander.I nodded "hmm" to what Lao Zhang said, and some of the words were listened to, while others were not.

I fell asleep on his desk.He didn't call me, but put on a coat for me.

When he was putting on his clothes, I actually woke up a little bit and felt a little bit conscious.

Half asleep and half awake, I thought it was my elder brother who had come back and was patting my arm or shoulder like a few days ago.

When I woke up, the morning light was twilight.My hands were numb, my back hurt, my neck was twisted, and my mouth was dry because I slept with my mouth open.

Lao Zhang was not in the house, and the door was unlocked.I took my bag and mobile phone, decided not to wait for him, and there was no need to say goodbye, just leave.

He was right yesterday, I shouldn't dwell on these things anymore.

What's the use of entanglement any longer.I am an ordinary person, and there are still many things I want to do in this life. They were originally placed in my future plans one by one. If I continue like this, none of my plans will be realized.

Ever since I received the call at three o'clock in the morning that day, I have stepped into a fork in the road, and it is a fork in the road that I shouldn't have stepped into.

It was as if I was walking casually on the road, and suddenly slipped and sprained my foot, and slipped into a deep ditch beside the road.After falling into the ditch, instead of climbing out quickly, I kept digging down, digging up layer after layer of mud, and digging the ditch deeper and deeper.If I continue to dig like this, the top of my head will be farther from the main road, and it will be even more difficult to climb out.

I used to never understand one thing: After I became an adult, why did my elder brother leave the home of my childhood?The key is why instead of driving me away, he left by himself; but let me stay where he was, and he left by himself.

Now I seem to understand.

If I were asked to describe the reason in detail, I would not be able to tell.But I do understand a little bit.

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This time I also left Lao Zhang's residence early in the morning, later than last time.Today the weather is more sunny and not so cold.

Last time I went to the beach, I saw some unknown things.If I go again and look at the reef beach, will it prove that it was a hallucination last time, and all I see are ordinary local children playing.

If I could see the children playing in clear light, I would be completely relieved and relieved.

But should I really go there?

Could it be that the sea is tempting me, offering answers as bait, drawing me closer again to things I shouldn't ponder?

In the end, I made a detour to the bus station instead of taking the road closer to the sea.

It was already noon when I returned to City A, I went to the hospital habitually, and I realized that I didn't need to come here until I reached the gate of the hospital.

I have to live in City A for two more days.Because of a hiccup on the freeway, I had to get through my chores with the rental car company.When I leave again this time, I don't plan to rent a car and take the intercity bus back.

Where should I go these two days... Finally I went to the residence of my eldest brother.Maybe it's not good to live in his house without authorization?But I went anyway.

I harbored an unrealistic fantasy... maybe the big brother will come back too?

After entering the house, I had nothing to do.There is no TV in the big brother’s house. Although there is a computer, it must have a password, and there must be personal privacy in it, so I didn’t try to open it.

It suddenly occurred to me that I should clean up the refrigerator for my eldest brother.It’s okay to talk about other things, as long as the rented house is not due, put it in the house first, and it’s not too late for me to deal with it when it’s due; but the things in the refrigerator can’t be left all the time, it will create a small ecosystem of.

The refrigerator was as full as I imagined, with vegetables, fruit, sauces, cooking wine, and everything. It was not at all like the refrigerator of a young man living alone in the traditional concept.In my impression, when I was young, my eldest brother was also very good at buying vegetables and cooking. He would cut and prepare the vegetables for a few days in advance, divide them into small portions, and open the box directly when needed. Cooking is fast and delicious.

Most of the fresh food in the fridge had to be thrown away, and there were two cans of Sprite and six cans of beer, all unopened, which I decided to drink within two days.

In the evening, I only turned on the small lamp on the desk and sat at the desk drinking.

I didn't sit on my eldest brother's bed because the bed was too close to the wardrobe.

I dare not go near the closet, and I don't even want to look at it.It's like there's a ghost hiding inside.Of course there are no ghosts in the closet, but there is a big cardboard box, and in the box is the diary of my eldest brother when he was a child.

I picked up my phone, remembering that I hadn't read the posts on the Internet for a long time, and now I suddenly wanted to read them again.

There was nothing new on Weibo, so I went to the forum again.The last time the clothes of other victims were found, it was the first "reveal" on this forum, which was earlier than the official news.

I found the longest post on this matter, and sure enough, the user who made the "reveal" last time is still posting things.He updated the news he heard in the form of a reply in the original post, but now no one has read it.

His latest reply was sent last night, and he was talking about the victim's clothes again.At first glance, it seems that there is no progress, but on closer inspection, the content this time is very outrageous.

He said he had inside information: the police inspected the clothes and found that the tears were caused by biting. After technical analysis, the bite marks did not match the characteristics of sharks or other fish, and did not even belong to any land beasts. They were left by human teeth. Yes, only human teeth can leave such marks.

I was dumbfounded.Does this mean that someone bit the clothes to pieces?

There are only two replies below, one is to guess about the murder, and the other is to make jokes with color, and the guesses are not very reliable.

The poster didn't say much, and there is no follow-up.No other information has been found for the time being.I felt a little irritated, and suddenly wanted to contact the policewoman from before again.

Will she know something?I am a family member of the victim, and now the police are looking for the missing elder brother. If I ask them about the case, is it a reasonable request?

Thinking of this, I realized something was wrong again, no, why did I start to worry about these things again... Didn't I just make up my mind in the morning, didn't I decide to stay away from these strange things?

No, I can't let myself go.Can't think about it anymore.

So I put down my phone and decided to take advantage of the alcohol and go to sleep.

It was dark and I was getting sleepy soon.I didn't sleep on the big brother's bed, but lay on the sofa where I couldn't straighten my legs.

Many people say that drinking alcohol can help sleep, but it is not true. Drinking alcohol only makes people sleepy for a while, but actually the quality of sleep is even worse.

I fell asleep quickly after I lay down, but my sleep was not solid, and I always woke up a little after a while.

I don't know how long I lay there, but I woke up suddenly.It was as if someone had touched my shoulder.

When I went to bed, I left a lamp, which was a small lamp on the desk.The moment I opened my eyes, the desk lamp flickered, and I looked at it intently, and its light became stable again.I don't know if it's the remnant of the dream or my eyesight.

The lights flickered again.I simply stood up and went to see if there was a bad connection.

As I passed the window, I glanced out of the corner of my eye and felt for a moment that something was wrong on the street.

I went to the window and looked out.This area is not a commercial area, there are no advertising lights, only the windows of sporadic residential buildings are lit.The lights do not reach all the streets and alleys, and many corners are completely hidden in the black.

At this moment, I returned to the beach in a trance, as if what I was looking at was not houses and trees, but the dark sea and jagged rocks.

In the crevices of the reef, something slender and soft is winding.

It's not a snake, it has more tentacles than a snake; it's not a seaside dweller, it's slender than a human being; it's not my misjudgment, it's still moving, it hasn't stopped.

It occasionally passed by places with faint light, and the undulating black body glistened with water.

There is a court under the apartment, which is the brightest area in the vicinity.I squinted and waited, watching, to see if that thing would pass by the field, if I could get a full view of it.

Just thinking about it, I was shocked by my own thoughts again - why did I want to watch this?

Obviously the current situation is not normal, why am I still standing in front of the window so calmly?What did I see, and what did I expect to see?

But I can't move away.There seemed to be two forces pulling in my heart, one reminded me that the situation in front of me was abnormal, and the other made me unable to look away, keeping my eyes on the reef beach and the sea.

Finally, something in the crevice of the reef passed the lit field, but the light failed to reach it.I heard the subtle sound of it scraping against the plastic runway and the grass, but there was nothing solid in the lights.

It was already close to the embankment, and at such a distance, I could better judge its size. It was bigger than I estimated, and it must be bigger than humans or sharks anyway.

An outrageous idea suddenly popped up in my mind.Is this big brother?Is he back?

I'm at his house.This is his new home. It doesn't belong to his mother, his biological father, or me. It's his new home.

Would he be offended if he came back and saw me in his house, eating and drinking his food, looking through his personal belongings?

Will he hate me more?

I took a few steps back in panic, away from the window, then turned and grabbed my backpack and rushed to the door.

Now the new anti-theft doors are very complicated, how to open the door?Twist left or right?Why can't it be opened after a turn?Is it a few more twists?

Doors in my house were much easier for me as a child.Twist the round knob on the wooden door and release the spring used to lock it back. There is also an anti-theft door outside. The door is made of iron bars, with a screen window on it, and you can directly see the corridor.

I have already opened the wooden door, standing in front of the iron gate, staring at the darkness deep in the corridor.

What's in the crevices of the reef is out there.

The damp fishy smell filled the entire corridor, rushing into the room one after another.I didn't open the anti-theft gate of the fence, because I always kept my mother's advice in mind, not to open the door to strangers casually.

I heard a click and a click, the sound of wet bare feet stepping on hard ground.The voice is very familiar, I have heard it before, that is, the morning after I went to see Lao Zhang for the first time, I fled with my back to the rocky beach, and such a voice came from the stone pier on the embankment behind me.

I guessed right just now, the eldest brother is indeed back.The pearl fisherman in the sea walked towards me step by step, holding his eldest brother when he was a child in his arms.They touched the anti-theft door lightly, trying to come in, but I dared not open the door, and I dared not just welcome my elder brother back to his own house.

I turned around and went back to the house, and started to tidy up. I wanted to return the things I had moved to their original places. I took out all the mobile phones and computers in the backpack, checked the boxes in the closet, and looked at the letters, classmate records, certificates of merit and diaries inside. Is the order of placement correct, and then cover the box, as if no one has touched it.

Then what should be done?

Then I should disappear.I don't belong here, this is my brother's home alone.

I glanced at the door, and the pearl fisher carried his eldest brother through the anti-theft door, entered the house, and stood by the shoe cabinet.I have to go now.

I put on my coat, went to the window, and opened the sash.

There is a first-quarter moon hanging in the night sky, and the reef beach is not downstairs, but in the distance.I am in the silent sea, and the land is in front of me.

The eldest brother's voice came from behind: "It's going to be another spring outing, right?"

"Hmm." I responded.

"I bought fruit candy and three-color jelly for you. They are packaged in small boxes. You don't need a spoon. It's convenient. Tear one and eat one."

"Great, that's all I like to eat," I responded.

"Mom is gone, I will take care of you in the future."

"Ah."

The eldest brother approached step by step.I should have left his house immediately, but I couldn't help but look back.

Oh, why can't I bear it again?It's the same when driving on the highway, I can't help but look back.

The eldest brother stood a few steps away from me. He had no ears, no eyes, and no body structure that I was familiar with. His whole body was sharp and his skin was not flesh-colored, but rippled with waves reflecting moonlight.

The eldest brother said, "You shouldn't be here."

"I know." I replied.

I jumped out of the window, only to be pulled back by a force.Is it Big Brother?Why don't you let me go?If I stay in a house that only belongs to him, won't he be disgusted?

The eldest brother hugged my waist and dragged me back to the room.

He turned and left for a while, brought sugar and three-color jelly from the kitchen, and brought out the silver carp wrapped in tin foil and grilled.

He put these things in front of me, but the person disappeared. I looked around and couldn't find him, just like when he disappeared out of thin air in the back seat of the car.

But I felt him soon enough, could feel his hand on my shoulder, patting.

I opened a candy.The sugar is the size of a cherry, white, and may taste like milk or lychee.It glowed softly in the warm indoor light, looking less like sugar than a gorgeous pearl.

After swallowing the pearl, it got stuck in my throat and I couldn't breathe anymore.

A heavy thing pressed up, covering my whole body, as if my elder brother pulled a thick winter quilt for me.

Before I lost consciousness, my eldest brother kept patting my shoulder gently, coaxing me to sleep like a mother.