he can't see our ears

I'm so ridiculous.I overcomplicate things.

The essence of these things is very simple, it is a kind of mental illness inherited in the family.Or it's not "genetic", but some kind of bacteria from the ocean infects the human body, causing encephalitis, or affecting certain neurotransmitters, causing people to hallucinate.

Everyone has different symptoms after being infected. Some people become paranoid and anxious, but they can still live a normal life;

Once upon a time I was in it and it was difficult to discern the truth.Now my condition is better and my thinking is clearer.

After a few days, the black rocky beach in front of my eyes gradually disappeared, and the nightmares also decreased.

Drunk people will claim that they are not drunk, and they will not realize their gaffe until they are sober.This is how I am.Now that I am better, I realize how outrageous the previous hallucinations are.

The rocky beach, the candy, the tide, the big brother who came to me... must be my hallucinations.What else could it be?

Now the symptoms of hallucinations have basically disappeared, but I still have some physical symptoms, the body temperature fluctuates a bit, and the stomach is not very good.So I suspected that it was infected with some germs, and it was not cured.

I should go to the hospital.But now I'm very weak, it's a bit difficult to go alone, I have to call an ambulance... It seems that it won't be possible?

I decided to observe at home for a day and see the situation tomorrow.

I'm hungry.This is a good thing, I have never had an appetite before.

When I got home, I relied on takeaway for meals. Now that my health has improved, but I still don’t have the strength to cook, so I can only continue to order takeaway.

I ordered pan-fried buns, which is my elder brother's favorite.

When the delivery man arrived, I opened the door, and two hands stretched out through the crack of the door, handed over the bag and ran away.The takeaway staff are always in a hurry, and they always pass things with one hand, then turn around and leave.

Because I was sick and weak, I couldn't hold the bag firmly for a while, and the bag fell to the ground.I sighed and picked it up, dragging my tired stomach back to the living room.

When I was eating, I suddenly thought that I should have opened the door wider just now, and I should have seen the face of the delivery man.

I have stayed at home for such a long time without seeing a single outsider. Is my hallucination symptom really gone now?I had such exaggerated hallucinations before, will it still be there now?For example, will I be like my elder brother, who can't see people's ears or eyes?

You can turn on the TV to watch, or you can watch online, but this may not be accurate.Brother, it is normal to watch the people in the video, but you can’t see certain parts when you watch the real people.

Soon I had the opportunity to confirm my guess.

In the afternoon, I received a call from the policewoman from before.She said that there were several cameras in the local area that captured the eldest brother, and she wanted me to go to City A again to identify him.

She definitely doesn't know what I've been through these days, and she thinks I'm doing well.

I told her before that I don't want to take care of these things anymore, and she shouldn't take care of them. It seems that she didn't listen to me.

Just go once.My intuition tells me that she must have other reasons for looking for me, not just to identify the surveillance screen.

Although I don't have the strength to go to the hospital, I do have the strength to go to City A, and I don't have to drive, and I get there quickly, faster than waiting for a takeaway to arrive.

I was relieved to see the policewoman.I don't have the same symptoms as my brother.

I can see her ears and I can see her eyes.She has hardly changed from before, the number of eyes and ears has not decreased at all, and has slightly increased.

We talk at the police station.Of course not the interrogation room used on suspects, but their office.

The intuition before was not wrong, they were not for me to identify the surveillance screen, but for another thing - Lao Zhang disappeared.

Not long ago, the people in the farm could not find Lao Zhang. At first they were not in a hurry, thinking that he had just wandered off somewhere, but after many days they couldn’t get in touch with him, and found that Lao Zhang’s personal belongings were all gone. It was still there, and they didn't even take away their mobile phones and belongings. Only then did they realize that something went wrong and reported the case.

During the investigation, the police found that this old Zhang was my elder brother's biological father. Before he disappeared, I had been to his residence, and I might be the last person to see him.

I was willing to cooperate, so I told the policewoman how I went to see Lao Zhang, and what Lao Zhang said to me.

The last time I saw him, I woke up from his room and he was gone.

Did he disappear on this day, or did he come back after I left and then disappeared again?I don't know.

The police still can't confirm that this is a criminal case, so I'm not a suspect, I'm just here to cooperate and provide clues.They didn't limit my freedom, they just let me keep in touch anytime.

After walking out of the police station, I decided to visit Lao Zhang's beach.Not to see Lao Zhang's house, but to see the rocky beach.

The last time I saw something flowing in a crack in the rocks, I ran away with my back to it without looking back.

I want to go to see it again. Last time I may have hallucinations. In fact, there are no slender things different from humans in the reef beach. They are just ordinary people playing on the beach.

When I arrived in the country this time, I didn't go to the beach right away, but first went to Lao Zhang's residence to have a look.

The little house he lived in was locked, probably by someone from the farm.I went into the house, nothing had changed in the house, it was still so messy.The manuscripts, foreign story books, and domestic ancient novels that Lao Zhang showed me are all placed on the top of the debris pile.

Looking at the notebooks and books in this room, I can't help but feel sorry. If Lao Zhang just disappears, these things will be cleaned up sooner or later. The information he has collected so hard for so many years will no longer exist. The things he learned , no one will ever know.

I left the hut and walked towards the beach in the direction I remembered.

Today the air is very fresh, without the strong fishy smell before, and the seaside is not cold, even warmer than the city.

I came to the embankment and found the same spot I had stood on before.Black Reef Beach has disappeared.

Knew it!The experiences that day were all hallucinations, caused by the brain being disturbed by the disease.Now that I'm doing better, I can finally see what the sea actually looks like.

To say how beautiful the real sea is, it is not.I think it is very ordinary, as ordinary as the streets I see every day.

There are figures on the beach.I climbed over the stone pier on the embankment, walked slowly, and gradually saw the appearance of those people.

People nearby are crawling on the sand.His posture reminded me of what happened to Lao Zhang's relative's house, that female relative who was a bit crazy.It is said that she was found lying on the beach, with only the upper body remaining, as if she was climbing from the sea to the land.

The same is true of this nearby person now, but he is not dead, he is healthy, with a smile on his face, and a faint sound of breath in his throat.

From the scars on his face and lower body, he was my eldest brother.

So he is here.It must be because the area is too remote and there are no cameras, so the police have been unable to find him.

There is another person in the distance.The man stood in the rolling waves, gray and wet.He saw me, smiled and waved to me, as if beckoning me to play in the water together.

That man is my eldest brother.Although it was the first time I saw him, I recognized him immediately, he was my eldest brother.

It's November now, and the seaside is very warm, which is very suitable for swimming.So I took off my shoes and stepped into the waves crashing into the sand.

The big brother on the beach stopped me.I look back at him.

Not long ago he reminded me not to look back.I always love to look back, look at my childhood, look at my diary, look at the back seat of the car, and look at everything that needs to be turned back.He told me that if I look back again, I will be transparent and happy, and if I don't look back, I will always suffer.

But this memory is fake, a nightmare I had when I was sick.I heard that the nightmare is reversed, that is, I should turn back.

I looked back at my brother.

My elder brother hates me and doesn't want me to live with him.So as soon as I looked back at him, he let go of his hand and stopped stopping me from walking towards my eldest brother.

It was hard to stand in the waves and I almost fell a few times.

The eldest brother supported me and asked me if I could swim.Of course I do, but I rarely swim in the sea.

I looked back at the embankment again, black reefs gradually appeared on the shore, and the sea water was receding towards the city.

Mom was right, everyone eventually grows up to be who they are.

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Matthia:

The following are the sources of inspiration for this article:

(Not an interpretation! Just a source of inspiration)

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'My mother told me when I was little,

The sea is my hometown.

Born by the sea, raised by the sea.

sea ​​oh sea

is where I live,

The wind blows, the waves surge,

Drift around with me.

sea ​​oh sea

just like mom,

Travel all over the world,

Always by my side. "