straight to heaven

It's funny to say that my biological mother turned out to be a passer-by in my life, coming and going, waving her sleeves and hardly leaving any traces.

When I was a child, I would cry and lose unnecessary temper because of her leaving, and my posture was very ugly, but now thinking about it, my face is blurred.

I'm growing up, and she's aging.

Throwing a stone into the lake, after a bang, even the ripples quickly disappeared.It felt like a novelty.

At the end of a beautifully priced dinner, she drank red wine, so she found a driver.I didn't find out where her new home was, but I heard her say to the surrogate driver, "Send him off first."

The driver's words were broken, he adjusted the navigation, and asked casually, "Sister and brother?"

She didn't answer, I looked sideways and her eyes were closed.

When I got there, I opened the car door with my bag on my back.She only spoke at this time, maybe because she was still drunk, she sounded like a baby: "Hey, Xiaoshan..."

I caught a glimpse of the valet looking at him quietly from the built-in rearview mirror, and the fire in my heart suddenly ignited.

"Mom." I called her, and suddenly felt very funny: "You can't do this to me."

This is the first time I have spoken to her like this.But I don't regret it.

After a few seconds of silence, she raised her hand and patted my schoolbag, as if suddenly sobered up.

"Okay, then I won't bother you."

I don't know if I should be happy or not, but one of my mother's few advantages is that she is frank as hell and never lies.

My life went back to normal after that, as if she hadn't been there.

But in a sense, I really shouldn't be happy.

Because very soon, the end-of-term papers will come out, the winter vacation will be after the parents' meeting, and until the ninth day of the Lunar New Year, before the school arranges make-up classes during the holidays, there will be a full half a month, and I will not be able to see Pei Yanlai logically.

My grades are mediocre, I can't get up and down, I can occasionally squeeze into the top [-] in the class when I am in good condition, and I can slip to the bottom [-] in the class when I am not good.Overall, it is maintained at a score that is on the verge of going online.

Just like myself, no merits and no faults.

But for some unexplainable special reasons, I failed to get a good score at the end of this semester.

I didn't notify my mother.No one will come.Li Kui knew about my family background as a "left-behind teenager" and didn't say much.

What is somewhat surprising is that Pei Yanlai showed up at school today despite not taking the final exam.

He is tall and is in the last row.

I was sitting in the second-to-last row, but the adjustment two weeks ago and the whole group shifted made me and him separated by a classroom-wide Chuhehan boundary.

Li Kui was talking eloquently at the student class meeting on the podium, but my mind was not on him, my eyes drifted away, and I drifted to the corner where Pei Yan came.

He was neatly wearing a school uniform, the zipper was pulled to the top without rigidity, and his slightly lighter pupils were staring at Li Kui, with a very attentive listening posture.

Probably because of his new cognition, I was able to receive a dangerous and mysterious signal from his upright sitting posture.But it may also be an illusion, he didn't think about anything at all.

The class meeting lasted for more than half an hour, and I kept looking at him, but he didn't give me even half of his eyes.For a few moments, I became ridiculously jealous of Li Kui.

After the class meeting is the parent meeting, students leave the classroom to make room for their parents.

While paying attention to Pei Yanlai's movements from the corner of my eye, I was packing my schoolbag slowly, and then I was right, "just in time" to bump into him at the back door.

"Pei Yan is here."

I called him in a daze, not even knowing what to say next.

He glanced at me when he heard it.Maybe it's because he's still wearing that fake skin now, so he responded lightly with "um", which is considered a polite response, but from head to toe, he didn't mean to stay half divided for me.

I opened my mouth and stood there in silence for a few seconds, maybe not so long.It is the anxiety that lingers in my heart that prolongs the time in my dimension.

Before I could organize my words, Pei Yanlai frowned quickly, and there seemed to be a flash of coldness in his narrow and deep eyes.

At first I thought that he was deeply impatient with my vagueness, and my heart suddenly turned cold, but things were not as I expected.

Pei Yanlai's reaction speed was extremely fast, and when he quickly stretched out his hand to me, a dark gust of wind was torn apart.My eyes are naturally sensitive, and tears are almost a daily occurrence, so I subconsciously shut them tightly.

I was pulled forward lightly by him, and when I came back to my senses, I realized that I was blocking the way of the people behind me, and I was almost bumped into by the crowd who only cared about joking.

"Thank you." I finally found something to say.

Thanks to those few people who don't have eyes, the distance between me and Pei Yanlai is very close now.

He didn't know whether it was intentional or not, he didn't let go of the cuff of my school uniform.The tip of my nose is facing his lower lip, and I can touch it with a small step forward.

Perverted, I couldn't help taking a breath and smelling the perfume on his neck and shoulders.

Heart notes are dark rum mixed with creamy vanilla.

The taste is still sweet, and it has just been sprayed not long ago.

"Please," he didn't move away, the distance was too close, his voice was not loud enough for me to hear clearly: "Stop talking nonsense."

My heart tightened, and I didn't choose what to say: "Then let me say something else. What do you want to hear?"

Pei Yanlai's response was a barely audible cold scoff.

I immediately raised my eyes to look at him, his bad tempered appearance really pleases me - the corners of his mouth slightly tugged, showing a kind of contempt that is unlikely to appear on his face, plainly More loose and wild, in short, sexy as hell.

Can he bite me... Grass, I'm such a pervert.

When I saw him speak, he still had something to say.

"Pei Yan is here."

—but was interrupted by an unexpected visitor.A mature woman, her voice is a little hoarse, and she can be heard as a smoking gun.

Pei Yanlai slowly let go of my school uniform.

I looked towards where the voice came from. It was a very elegant business woman with beautiful and sharp features, like a mixed race.

The moment he saw her eyes, a not-so-outrageous idea popped up.

This is Pei Yanlai's mother.

I guessed right.In the next second, Pei Yanlai changed his stance and tilted his head slightly. I guess he was a little impatient.

He called "Mom" to the person who came.

Neither salty nor bland, neither close nor respectful.

I was afraid that the emotion of wanting to slap someone else's cabbage would spread over my face, and a sudden guilty conscience pulled me back a step.

I stepped out of the "unsafe distance" with Pei Yanlai, and also respectfully said "Hello, Auntie" to the visitor.

Pei Yanlai's mother glanced at me, only nodded to me, and said "Hello" in a condescending and non-enthusiastic manner.

It's not a simple character at first glance.She was wearing a suit, like a corporate executive, or some kind of rookie, oppressive and glamorous.Although not many, Pei Yanlai has her shadow in him.

The mother and son had a bad atmosphere.I was not a child who was good at pleasing the elders, and I knew that it would be no good to stay here for too long.

In a dilemma, Pei Yan took a look at me.

I received the signal, simply said hello, and left the battlefield quickly.

When I came to the corner, I still couldn't help but turned my head once.

But the passing crowd blocked my sight, and I couldn't see Pei Yanlai clearly.

When the parent meeting started, the students had already left, and I had no reason to stay.

But I want to wait for Pei Yan to come.

He's unhappy, and I don't want to do nothing - even though I don't know exactly what I can do.

I stood guard at the school gate, counting the heads of those who escaped from the campus, until the parent meeting ended, another wave of people poured out.

What a good look.Some people are dumbfounded, while others are triumphant.The communication between the parents is even more hypocritical and submissive. On the surface, they are harmonious, but on the inside they are not giving in to each other.

I haven't experienced it, but I can probably guess.

The crowd faded.

Pei Yanlai and his mother kept an intimacy distance and walked out side by side without communicating.The two walked to a black business car, and his mother got into the car, her back was ruthless.

Then the engine roared, and the car quickly ran away.

——In the completely opposite direction from Pei Yanlai's house.

The winter in this city is very cold, and it is not warm even if it is baked by charcoal fire.

I tried to keep up with Pei Yanlai and ran towards his back.During this period, a string of funny white mist spewed out from his mouth, his figure was buried under the dim streetlight, as if wrapped in thick mist.

That's all I can see.

"Pei Yan is here." My opening remarks are very dry, usually only his name.

He didn't answer, kept silent, and pretended not to hear what he heard, probably not waiting for my next words.

On this road, this is the first time I have been so close to him blatantly, no more than 1.5 meters away.

He didn't wear heavy cotton clothes, and he never seemed to be afraid of the cold.

I looked at his shoulder and back, the tip of my tongue hurt from being bitten by my teeth, and I trembled when I spoke.

"Let's discuss it. Just today, let me follow you downstairs... okay?"

He didn't answer, and was forced to stop by a red light at the last intersection of the overlapping road section.

The signal light changed color after ten seconds, and I took a step forward, not knowing whether to continue going straight or turn left to go home.

"..." I was a little embarrassed.

Ancestor, you can tell me whether it is life or death.

The city's main road is noisy and impetuous, the night scene is scattered by the headlights, and the convenience store doors not far away are opening and closing, saying welcome to someone.

Pei Yanlai was at the intersection where cars came and went, and the pedestrians beside him looked hurried.He was out of place, his eyes were empty and full, and he looked at me with no emotion, even a kitten or a dog was fuller than this.

"..." Complacent forgetting to form sex, once beaten back to its original shape.My fingers stiffened, as if a basin of cold water had been poured on my head.

I was apprehensive and hesitated in place.

But there was no time to think about it, the signal light turned green, and Pei Yanlai had already stepped on the zebra crossing.

Two seconds later, he stomped on the snail shell at the entrance of the sewer.Looking at Xiaotan from a distance, I don't know whether it is alive or dead.

The crackling sound was very small, and the crackling was continuous, like a strange signal.

It was at this moment that I suddenly realized that Pei Yanlai hadn't yelled at me.

Damn, take a gamble.

I followed, above board for the first time.