straight to heaven

The next morning, I woke up facing the back of the couch.

The air conditioner was soft and gentle, but it was covered with sweat.I moved my arm, only to realize that the quilt cannot be blamed.

The sofa space is not big, but two big men who are about 1.8 meters high sleep on it—Pei Yanlai squeezed up and hugged me so that only my head was exposed.

He was in a light sleep, and when I moved, he woke up too.

I am well aware of Pei Yan's self-esteem habit. When he opened his eyes, I didn't ask him when he climbed up, but just said "Morning".

He hummed and got up to take a shower.I moved my left shoulder halfway, and probably used it as a pillow for me all night last night.

I followed him into the bathroom together.

There are two dental cups on the water table.Pei Yanlai and I stood side by side, I washed my face while he brushed his teeth, and he washed his face while I brushed my teeth.

After washing up, Pei Yanlai pulled the towel from the towel rack.

I asked him, "Do you want to take a shower?"

Pei Yan took a look at me, her eyes drooping slightly, the bath towel was in one hand, and the other hand was pressing on the back of my neck.

His soft lips landed on mine first.His breath has a refreshing mint smell, just like mine.

"Kiss first."

Good morning kiss?

I don't have time to think about all this miscellaneous stuff.

... Grass, I can hardly breathe.

On the day of Li Xiaoxiao's wedding, the weather was so weird that it became a trending search. It was clearly going to be summer, but there were hailstones larger than grains of salt. The weather forecast still had the nonsense of "21 degrees cloudy and sunny".

No one can predict the sudden extreme weather. No way, the wedding originally planned to be held outdoors can only be moved indoors urgently.

Pei Yanlai and I were stuck on the road for nearly an hour. The newlywed red envelopes were very thick, and it took a long time for the light spot responsible for bookkeeping to light up.When entering the banquet hall, the ceremony was about to begin.

I rushed in quickly, Pei Yan came to hold me, rubbed my head a few times.

I was dazed and looked at him.

He seemed to be looking at a silly dog ​​and thought it was funny, "Your hair is as messy as a chicken coop."

Li Xiaoxiao's mother suffered from severe arthritis in her legs, and the pain was even worse in rainy days. She was pushed here by a wheelchair.Li Xiaoxiao, wearing a mermaid wedding dress that dragged the floor, squatted on the ground, wiping her mother's tears.

Pei Yanlai and I didn't bother anyone, but she quickly spotted us and walked over with her skirts in hand.

"Xiao Shan, Pei Lu, did you come here together?" Her eyes were still a little wet, and her voice was hoarse.

I guess she's not in the mood to tease me at this point, but she still feels guilty when she says "come together".It was Pei Yanlai who stretched out his hand, changed the subject, and said with a calm and gentle face, "Li Lu, I wish you a happy wedding and everything goes well. I will grant you a longer marriage leave."

Li Xiaoxiao was flattered and shook hands with him: "Ah, thank you for your blessing."

Pei Yanlai smiled.

Beauty is the ultimate move of the Buddha to block and kill the Buddha. This time not only I was envious, but Li Xiaoxiao was also stunned for a moment.I immediately coughed to remind Li Xiaoxiao to recover.

"...Pei Yan is here?"

Not far away was a sixty-year-old man in a suit and leather shoes. He looked this way and called for someone hesitantly.

"Professor Xu." Pei Yanlai nodded to indicate that he was an acquaintance.

He gave me a sideways look, and his sexiness when he was calm was very good at me.I understood, but I couldn't help swallowing, and said, "I'll be sitting in the second row from the left, and you can just go there."

Pei Yanlai hummed, greeted Li Xiaoxiao, and walked towards the middle-aged man.The distance is too far, I can't hear what the two are saying.

"God back."

Li Xiaoxiao patted me: "I said you are too idiotic, your eyes are so revealing that a blind person can see them." She paused, then changed her words: "I didn't mean to say that Boss Pei is blind. He, either Is it that kind of indifference, or a real straight man."

"..."

I have no intention of keeping secrets from my friends, but today is Li Xiaoxiao's big day after all, not a good time to talk about it.

"But how did Pei Lu know Professor Xu?" She raised her eyebrows.

I was still thinking about the word indifference, which is rich in meaning. Her question spanned too much, so I froze for a moment and asked, what?

"It's the spirited old man just now." She explained: "My husband and mother-in-law both teach at Yanda University, and that is the dean of Yanda Law School."

Dingrun's colleagues only know about Pei Yanlai's educational background abroad, but I know that he studied at Yanda University for the first semester of his freshman year.I explained a few words to Li Xiaoxiao, she was silent for a moment, and then unexpectedly said: "As expected of your white moonlight, this is too reckless."

I thought of something and didn't want to talk too much about it, so I gave Li Xiaoxiao a hug at the right time.

"I won't say much, and you may not want to hear it. You must be happy and always be yourself."

She also patted me on the shoulder and said solemnly, "Thank you."

I suddenly remembered the year I first met her.

This woman is like a knife that won't fade even after being exposed to the sun in the desert.When I entered Dingrun, I had already passed the most depressed period, but I was still like a rotten log, and I would not open my mouth to survive even if I was desperate.

Lao He doesn't like Lao Hu, and naturally he doesn't like me either. It's normal to ask me to do this or that. Lao Hu weighs the pros and cons and asks me to make small sacrifices. It's natural to turn a blind eye. .

I always remember that once when he was having a party with his friends in the clubhouse, because there was no good wine, he called me to go to his house to get it.In the snowy day of minus eight degrees, I had a low fever and waited for three hours at the door of the villa for his assistant to deliver the door card. When I arrived at the club with the wine, he used the excuse of being unable to leave, and I stood there in the cold wind. 03:30 in the morning.

To be honest, if Assistant Lao He hadn't contacted Li Xiaoxiao and Xie Yi to pick me up, I would either have used 8000 yuan of red wine to drink for Lao He that night, or I would have passed out in the snow before he came out .

I hold grudges, but I also remember kindness.

The past came to my mind, and I was somewhat emotional at the moment: "I should thank you."

Li Xiaoxiao let me go.She quickly understood what I was talking about: "It's all about the year of the monkey... I still remember it."

I smiled lightly.

She pondered for a moment, but suddenly said: "However, it's strange to say that Lao He's former assistant told me that I don't know who called him that day, and threatened that if he didn't ask someone to pick you up, he would bear the consequences, so he Just contacted us."

She thought for a while, and continued: "If I remember correctly, the assistant didn't seem to be long, so he left and went back to his hometown."

Threatening Lao He's assistant?

to save me?

"……What did you say?"

My mind was in a daze, and I forced myself to digest the information with difficulty: "How come no one has ever mentioned this to me?"

Li Xiaoxiao spread his hands: "I forgot it after listening to it, and I just remembered it."

"..."

Yes.

It wouldn't be so weird if someone was following me and watching my every move.

I looked at Pei Yanlai, he was still communicating with that professor, his elegant and beautiful skin seemed to never fade.When I was young, I peeled off God's mask step by step, and now, after years, I have found out the devil's true heart inch by inch.

He looked at me across the passing crowd. I knew my eyes were too hot, so I looked away in a panic.

I'm too slow.

It wasn't until now that I realized that Pei Yanlai had been watching me the whole time.

It's just that when he looks at me, I always look back.

"Do you know?" Li Xiaoxiao said suddenly: "I don't love my husband, and he doesn't love me either. I got married because of my mother. She was overworked when she was young, and now she is in very poor health. I don't know if she can survive A few years. Her biggest expectation is that I can find someone to marry and settle down before I get old and fading like those children of her friends. She always feels that a woman will have no worries for the rest of her life like this."

I was a little surprised.She never said these words.

"Can the crumbling whole be saved by destroying individuality?" Of course the answer is no, she didn't smile, "But I can't refuse my mother. I don't want her to have regrets."

sad?No doubt about it, but I can't say anything.She may be looking for someone to talk to 10 minutes before marriage, but my position is only to listen.

After 5 minutes, the ceremony began.

Dingrun's colleagues were all on the right side of the stage, and I took my seat in the corner of the second row on the left, leaving a seat for Pei Yanlai next to me.

The groom is not tall and ugly, but he has a decent temperament and a gentle manner.

Li Xiaoxiao didn't lie to me, you can tell whether you like it or not.They approach each other with restraint and politeness, more like two young actors than newlyweds.But Li Xiaoxiao's mother choked up badly. She was speaking in a wheelchair, and the microphone amplified her shortness of breath.In the whole wedding, only at this moment, Li Xiaoxiao shed tears.

When the bridesmaid came onto the stage with her wedding ring, Pei Yanlai was long overdue.

The master of ceremonies asked the woman, are you willing to love him, respect him, accept him, and be loyal until the end of your life, regardless of sickness or health, whether poor or rich?

Li Xiaoxiao didn't speak, just nodded.

Silence should have been embarrassing at this moment, but the atmosphere of the wedding team was very online, and a VCR of romantic love was placed on the background wall at the right time.

I watched the new couple on the flower terrace, Pei Yanlai took the initiative to spread his hands, and then I grabbed him and said, I love you.

Serious and not so solemn.

Pei Yanlai lowered her eyes, said nothing, just looked at the stage, playing with my fingers.

By the end of the ceremony, the hail stopped.

The buffet that was originally arranged on the lawn was set up again, but the west garden is low and has stagnant water, so all the guests moved to the east garden for dining.

The crowd in the banquet hall dispersed, and I wanted to follow, but Pei Yanlai went straight to the west gate.

I never said it out loud, but I knew he, like me, didn't like crowds.I followed him to the deserted West Garden.

After the rain and sleet, the vegetation in the garden was washed with water vapor, the air was exceptionally fresh, and the crisp and bright chirping of small birds could be heard not far away.

"What are you doing here?" I squatted down to look at a purple flower.

Pei Yan said, "Let you see me."

I froze for a moment, and looked up to chase after his figure.

Pei Yanlai stood against the light: "Look at me carefully, and then say it again."

"What?" After I asked, I had an answer in my heart, but I was not sure: "...I love you."

Pei Yanlai tilted her head, "You didn't speak like that just now."

So I stood up, straightened my neckline, and repeated earnestly: "I love you."

"Pei Yan is here."

"In sickness or in health, in poverty or in wealth, I love you, accept you, and remain faithful until death..."

"...I won't leave you either."

I tampered with the affidavit.I don't shy away from talking about death, but I'm afraid of separation.

It was a long silence.

Pei Yanlai and I looked at each other, and it was rare that we were not confronting each other.

"There is a piano over there." I don't know if it was an illusion, but his tone was unprecedentedly gentle at this moment: "Help me get it."

Bewitched by him, I just said "Oh" dully, and then picked up the violin left by the band from the band at hand.

It must be a long time since Pei Yanlai touched the piano.

Standing under the canopy of broad-leaved evergreen trees, when he set up the piano and bow, the first few notes were not smooth, but soon became better.

The privacy of music determines that every performance of Pei Yanlai is full of emotions. I used to eavesdrop from downstairs in his house, whether it was vague or clear.Sincerity and the desire to express are qualities that Pei Yanlai lacked innately, but this is one of the few times that he stripped himself open and told me what was on his mind.

Atimeforus, death and the same hole.

Halfway through the song, I went to kiss him.

The tree protrudes its gnarled roots from the ground, and the lyre is leaned against it.He bit my upper lip ambiguously, and scolded me for playing tricks. I explained that it was not my intention to play hooligans.

It was he who seduced me.

We went to the toilet stall and came out almost an hour later.

The banquet in the East Garden is still going on.I walked into the crowd and pulled up my collar guiltily. I met Xie Yi and chatted a little more. When I turned my head again, Pei Yanlai fell far behind and was stopped by a beautiful girl in a goose yellow dress.

Pei Yanlai took out her mobile phone, and the girl was also holding the mobile phone, and it seemed that they had a happy conversation.

Had a great time talking...

I picked up a glass of champagne and approached.

"Pei Lu, this wine tastes good, you try it?" I didn't drink it at all, just talking nonsense.

The girl was delicate and sweet, she smiled when she saw me coming, and then she found an excuse to leave.I don't know whether I should praise her for being too winky, or reflect on whether my face is too ugly.

Pei Yanlai flicked the glass wall with her fingertips, and the amber liquid surface rippled.

"Lin Xiaoshan, what did you tell me a while ago?"

I was still thinking about the girl just now, and said in a daze, "What did I say?"

"..."

Pei Yan came closer, and this distance reminded me of the absurdity of the toilet cubicle. There was no one around. He pressed my Adam's apple with his thumb, and said excessive words with this exaggerated face: "If you don't want to quit drinking, there are still people at home. Lots of dresses."

I almost forgot to breathe, my Adam's apple rolled, and I put the wine glass on the table next to me.

"No, I'm joking, I didn't drink." I explained: "I just want to ask, did she add you on WeChat?"

Pei Yanlai withdrew and returned to a safe distance.

"Correct."

My temples twitched: "Yes?!"

Add WeChat when you meet for the first time?If there is a moral court, I will immediately sue Pei Yanlai for not abiding by male morality.

I was alert for a moment, and I couldn't help but glance at his mobile phone screen.

But the action was too obvious, Pei Yanlai laughed inexplicably, and handed me the phone directly.

The girl only sent him a message, which was a photo.

In the photo, the cloudy clouds briefly exposed the midday sun, and spots of light leaked out from the gaps in the leaves.Pei Yanlai played the violin under the tree with eyes closed, and I leaned against the trunk and stared at it for a long time.Looking at the angle, it was taken secretly from the corridor on the second floor of the room.

The picture is not a video, and the sound will not be preserved, but this still scene is Pei Yanlai and my "Atimeforus".She is the moment catcher.

I used Pei Yanlai's mobile phone to send her a "thank you" from the bottom of my heart.

Pei Yan coming?Pei Yanlai had no objection.

A gust of wind brings the music of the orchestra, listening to the melody is like an Ave Maria, and the notes are condensed into a peaceful and holy river.Suddenly, I thought of Li Xiaoxiao.

Beside the gate of the banquet hall, she dragged her skirt and walked in front of the flower path, and said to me, those who ask for infinity should not make prayers, because the gods will not listen to them if they ask for too much.

But although I am greedy, I am lucky enough.

Pei Yanlai responded to my appeal, and the world was before my eyes.

The author has something to say:

Inspired by Milan Kundera's "The Unbearable Lightness of Being": "Whoever wants infinity, just close his eyes."

This is not the end of Xiaoxiao, but I just want to epitomize the marital status of some women in her.