How to break the old attack

Lu Yan's words seemed too naive to Lin An.

Opening your mouth will definitely confirm the other party's mind. Everyone is happy if the other party likes and accepts it, but what if the other party refuses?

Not just the psychological shock and disappointment.

It may also be that he can no longer stay with Lu Yan without any scruples like he is now.

Even if he and Lu Yan didn't have this scene today, someday in the future, because of something or someone they meet, they will only be strangers passing by.

From Lu Yan's standpoint, before he signed the contract with him, Lu Yan just regarded him as a stranger, not like him, knowing all the passing by.

At this point, he told him as a stranger that he actually had different thoughts about him very early on.

However, it is impossible for anyone to accept a stranger's confession.

Lin An didn't believe in such absurd things as love at first sight.

For him, confessing his thoughts to Lu Yan was accepted by Lu Yan at zero percent.

Lin An will not do things without any hope, nor does he want to do them. He doesn't care whether they are together or not.

He just wanted to spend this year of living with Lu Yan well, and he only wanted to meet again someday in the future, as long as he was no longer a stranger.

After thinking about it, Lin An threw away the tablet, broke free from Lu Yan's arm, grabbed a corner of the quilt, and lay down on the bed.

The whole face was buried in the quilt, as if to hide himself.

Every time, he could convince himself well, but his heart was so stuffy that he could hardly breathe, as if someone had ripped out his heart.

When he was convincing himself for the first time, he felt overwhelming discomfort.

No matter how uncomfortable it was, he knew that there was Lu Yan beside him. Facing the culprit who made him uncomfortable, Lin An gritted his teeth and gave up on himself.

A muffled voice came from under the quilt: "I'm sleepy, I don't need you to warm the bed."

Lu Yan's mind was not pure, and he had been thinking about coaxing Lin An to tell his true thoughts, or confessing something to him.

As a result, he waited for a long time, waiting for Lin An to meditate, waiting for Lin An to lift the quilt and hide in the quilt, and when Lin An threw him a sentence with a very obvious meaning, it was to drive him away.

The change was so fast that Lu Yan didn't react.

Slowly figured out that Lin An's voice was not quite right, so he didn't care so much, put his hands on Lin An's sides, and half leaned down.

Trying to tear off the quilt covering Lin An's head: "Don't be sullen, what should I do if I'm bored?"

Lin An arched slightly under the quilt, protesting silently, but refused to get out of the quilt.

His tone was not very good: "You made me sleep because of your noise."

Lu Yan didn't dare to move anymore, he just leaned halfway and didn't pull Lin An's quilt.

His dark eyes narrowed, his jaw line was tense, and he was very distressed by the current development.

He wondered if he said something wrong, or did something wrong, which made Lin An unhappy.

After thinking about it, it was only when he coaxed Lin An to confess his thoughts that Lin An changed, and hid under the quilt without saying a word.

But why?

abruptly—

Lu Yan had a bad feeling.

Could it be that Lin An said that the person he liked was when he was a student, so it doesn't mean that he still likes him now.

Lu Yan remembered what Li Xingshou said, and Lin An cried.

If Lin An liked him when he was a student, would he give up this liking because of his disappearance?

As the person involved, he may not only remind Lin An of the sad things, but also encourage him to confess his thoughts here, so everyone should take a good breath.

Angry at him disappearing for no reason, angry at his ignorance after he came back.

However, Lu Yan had another bad feeling.

After so many years, would Lin An have someone else he likes, otherwise why would he say "You are not him, what's the use of liking you, he may not like it".

Thinking of this, a nameless fear welled up in his heart, he didn't want Lin An to like others.

So, he hugged Lin An through the quilt, and while hugging Lin An, he lay on the bed on his side, buried his face in the quilt, as if he was going to bury Lin An's back of the neck.

Suddenly, like a child who is afraid of losing the most precious and beloved thing, he can't hold on to him, fearing that the person in his arms will disappear as soon as he lets go.

He said, "Lin An, I was wrong."

The fault was that he didn't tell him that he liked him when he was a student, so he just disappeared.

The fault was that after disappearing, it made him cry silently.

The mistake is to get close to him and get familiar with him in the first place.

Even if it's just like Li Xingshou, it's much better to be friends with him than before.

He hugged Lin An tightly, wishing he could tell Lin An directly that he liked him from before to now, but now he didn't have the courage to say so.

Not only could he not be sure if Lin An liked him before, even if he was sure, he couldn't be sure if Lin An still liked him now.

What if he suddenly confessed that he and Lin An had lost their lives now, wouldn't it be that they would have no chance to get close to Lin An.

He was terrified in his heart, thought over and over again, and asked the question he wanted to ask the most: "Lin An, when he was a student...do you still like him?"

He wanted to know the answer, but he didn't want to know.

He just wanted to hear Lin An say "I still like it".

In the narrow space under the quilt, Lin An heard Lu Yan's question, and slowly opened his closed eyes with a faint light.

If he didn't like it, how could he enjoy the time with Lu Yan now.

Thinking so in my heart, the words came out a little more stubbornly: "I don't want to like it anymore."

Instead of letting this liking be fruitless, it's better not to like it, and bury it in the bottom of my heart like it used to be. If you don't dig it out, you won't feel it anymore.

I don't want to like it anymore.

This sentence is more like Ling Chi than "he doesn't like it anymore".

Lu Yan's throat was dry, and his internal organs were all mixed together in pain. With a hoarse voice, he asked, "Why don't you want to like him anymore? Is he... not good?"

Lin An couldn't breathe, maybe it was because there was less air in the quilt, or maybe it was because he remembered the tightness in his chest before, so he poked his head out from under the quilt.

As soon as he came out, he met Shang Lu Yan's eyes without halo, which were as gray as fog.

Lin An met his eyes, and Lu Yan's expression gave him the illusion that he was about to cry.

In the blink of an eye, there was no trace of crying on Lu Yan's face.

To Lu Yan, he seemed to be looking at another person through Lu Yan, who was Lu Yan when he was a student. He looked at him and rarely showed his true thoughts.

"He's not good," he said.

"It's not good at all." Lin An lowered his eyes, his eyelashes trembled slightly, after all, he could only utter a few words, and then said to chase people away, "Lu Yan, I'm tired, you go back to your room."

When Lin An said "he is not good", Lu Yan lost his soul, got out of bed in a daze, opened the door, and then slowly closed the door.

At the moment when the door was closed, he suddenly heard Lin An's voice in the room, a very soft voice.

He said: "So, why disappear without saying a word..."

In the middle of the night, there were only sporadic lights left outside.

Lu Yan couldn't sleep, so he stood alone on the balcony blowing cold wind, which could make him feel better.

He is now completely sure that Lin An once cared about him and liked him.

He should have been so happy that he couldn't sleep, and then confessed his liking to Lin An the next day, maybe the two of them could be together so sympathetically.

But now it won't work.

Lin An said that he didn't want to like him anymore, which meant that Lin An was resentful when he left.

If he had known Lin An's thoughts back then, he would not have disappeared without hesitation, at least he would not have let Lin An give up so little by himself.

He grabbed the balcony railing and looked at the ground tens of meters below. Fortunately, it was not too late. He came back before Lin An put him down completely.

When he came back, Lin An couldn't let him give up on him.

A night without dreams.

After the New Year's Eve concert, Lin An's work schedule is still very full.

After washing up and going out, the breakfast prepared by Lu Yan was on the table as usual. He hurried to catch up with the announcement, took a piece of toast and put it in his mouth, and went to the door to change his shoes.

After changing the shoes, I realized that Lu Yan and Yao'er didn't seem to be at home, and the house was so quiet that there was no sound at all.

He didn't care about looking for people and dogs, he ate toast in twos and twos, opened the door and went out.

As soon as he went out, his head hit a hard chest, and his whole body was hugged tightly by the other party, with warmth in his ears: "Walk without looking at the road, what if you fall?"

Lin An raised his head, his gaze indifferent.

He has always been clear that Lu Yan is not wrong in liking this matter, it is only time that is wrong, and it is enough for him and Lu Yan as they are now.

In the usual calm tone: "There are a lot of things today, so hurry up."

Lin An's attitude didn't change at all, Lu Yan breathed a sigh of relief in his heart, he was really worried that if he saw Lin An today, he would lose the tenderness he had before.

He affectionately wiped off the bread shavings from Lin An's mouth: "No matter how many things you have to do, you must also pay attention to your health and safety."

Lin An noticed that Lu Yan seemed to be more gentle than before, and he couldn't resist his gentle offensive, so he avoided Lu Yan's hand: "I'm leaving."

Before leaving, he noticed Yao'er on the ground and rubbed Yao'er's head: "Be good at home, don't tear down the house."

When Lin An told Yao'er, Lu Yan went to press the elevator for Lin An, and waited for Lin An to come in in front of the elevator door.

When Lin An entered the elevator, he stood outside the elevator door and said, "Lin An, I will pick you up from get off work at night."

He can no longer do things under the leadership of Lin An. He wants to break the previous balance and turn passive into active.

"There are a lot of things recently, and I don't have a fixed time and place to get off work." Lin An settled down, "Just let Uncle Yu take me home."

Lu Yan shook his head and said firmly, "You don't have to worry about the time and place, I will contact Assistant Chen when the time comes."

He added: "Even if you go to the North Pole and the South Pole, I will still pick you up."

Lin An: "..."

There is no need to be so exaggerated.

The author has something to say: Lu Yan: Will I die if I confess?

Me: No!

Lu Yan: I'm so pitiful :)

Me: I'll try to get you to confess quickly.

Lin An stretched out his hand: strangle to death.