How to break the old attack

Lin An was wearing pajamas, leaning against the head of the bed, sending messages with her mobile phone.

There was a bit of inhuman coldness on his expressionless face.

[Sister Li: I have been taking care of this child for so long, and it can be seen that his intentions are not bad. What did he do wrong? Are you so merciless that you want to let him go? 】

【Sister Li: If you want to fire him, you have to give me a reason. 】

[Lin An: Harassing my sweetheart, is this reason enough? 】

[Sister Li:? ? ? 】

Lin An didn't bother to explain too much, the expulsion of Shen Yu was imminent, and he was about to cut the page and let Xiao Chen deal with Shen Yu's affairs, but the strangeness in the quilt made him snap his fingers.

Lin An turned his head to look at the people around him. When he brought Lu Yan home last night, just letting go of Lu Yan's hand, Lu Yan would be so frightened that he thought he was going to abandon him.

In the end, Lin An had no choice but to take the man back to his room, and managed to coax him to sleep.

At this time, Lu Yan was almost sleeping next to him, lying on his side facing him, with one arm on his waist, even if he fell asleep, he didn't leave a single chance for him to stay away from him.

Lin An felt Lu Yan's arms tightening, and soon, under his gaze, Lu Yan opened his eyes sleepily.

Because she cried for too long last night, her eyes were strangely swollen. Lin An felt distressed when she saw it. She put down the phone in her hand and reached out to caress the end of Lu Yan's eyes.

There is a layer of tenderness under the cold voice: "Are you awake?"

Lu Yan's brain was not fully awake yet, his eyes were so dry and painful that he was stunned for a while, when he heard Lin An's voice, he turned his head slightly and saw Lin An's face clearly, he instinctively tightened his arms again.

It seems that people are going to be firmly imprisoned, and they are not allowed to go anywhere.

Lu Yan had a dream. In the dream, he went back to the day when he and Lu Sheng quarreled. Lu Sheng said a lot of things that hurt him, and he was also so angry that he didn't want to care about Lu Sheng anymore.

But this time, when he turned to leave, there was an extra voice in his mind telling him to take Lu Sheng home.

Before the dream woke up, he reached out and grabbed Lu Sheng who was about to run.

This was the first time he had really caught Lu Sheng since he dreamed about Lu Sheng.

In the past, either he woke up from a dream, or after he grabbed Lu Sheng, the scene turned into a body that had been chopped into pieces.

At the end of the dream, Lu Yan also met his mother, and took Lu Sheng to say goodbye to him.

In the dream, he was so dumb that he couldn't cry, but this was the most peaceful sleep he had ever slept, and when he woke up, he didn't have any stress attacks.

Lu Yan attributed all this to the first person he saw when he woke up, as long as he stayed by Lin An's side, he seemed not afraid of anything.

He always knew that Lin An was his life-saving straw, but he never thought that this life-saving straw would bind him so tightly and lead him out of the abyss little by little.

"Lin An." Lu Yan found his own voice, and while calling Lin An's name, buried his face in Lin An's body.

Lin An let out a "hmm", always felt that the people around him became more clingy after yesterday, and not just a little bit.

He didn't ask Lu Yan how he was feeling, whether he was in a better mood, worried that it would bring back bad memories of Lu Yan, so he quietly stayed by Lu Yan's side.

When Lu Yan called him, he responded, letting him know that he was still there.

After a short silence, when Lin An thought that Lu Yan was falling asleep again, Lu Yan wrapped his arms around his waist and moved his hands.

After groping for his hand, his five fingers were separated by Lu Yan's five fingers, and the two hands were tightly clasped together.

Lin An heard Lu Yan say something sullenly: "Lin An, I want to take you to meet Shengsheng and my mother."

Lin An was really surprised that Lu Yanhui offered to take him to meet his younger brother and mother.

Leaving him aside, Lu Yan went to see Lu Sheng and Lu's mother to face his own fear.

He didn't know how much courage Lu Yan used to say this, but as long as it was something Lu Yan wanted to do, Lin An would accompany him unconditionally.

Lin An said, "Okay."

It was a gloomy afternoon, with dark clouds sweeping in, and it looked like a downpour was imminent.

The cold wind in Tongqi Cemetery smelled of sea water. The cold wind messed up Lin An's forehead hair, and the damp and sticky air made people feel a little depressed.

From the time the car was parked, Lu Yan never let go of Lin An's hand, and the clasped fingers turned white because of Lu Yan's own stiffness.

Both of them were wearing sunglasses, Lin An couldn't see Lu Yan's expression for a while, judging from Lu Yan's breath, he could feel that Lu Yan was afraid.

Lin An didn't hurry to urge Lu Yan, holding flowers, he stood with Lu Yan at the intersection of the cemetery.

At this time, Lu Yan said, "In foreign countries, although there are no ashes of my mother He Shengsheng, my father also erected a tomb for them."

"Every time I went to see them, I just stood at the intersection and looked at their tombstones from afar."

"After I returned to China, I wanted to come here to see where they really buried themselves. I thought I had built up my mind for so long and had the courage to face them."

"Later I found out that I was much more timid than I thought. I was just a coward. I didn't even have the courage to go in and see them."

Lin An heard Lu Yan's trembling voice at the end, and even his heart ached slightly.

Even if they don't feel the same way, but it's human nature, everyone will understand, understand what Lu Yan is afraid of, and understand Lu Yan's inner desire to see them.

Lin An endured the dryness in his throat and asked, "Are you going in to see them today?"

Lu Yan suddenly smiled in relief, and looked at Lin An through the sunglasses with red eyes: "I've escaped long enough, it's time to meet them."

Lin An asked, "Aren't you afraid?"

"Scared." Lu Yan said honestly, then took Lin An's hand, put it on his lips and kissed it, he said, "But I found that with you by my side, I am not so afraid."

The cemetery has not been taken care of for a long time, and a lot of weeds have grown around the tombstones of Lu Sheng and Lu's mother, and the bouquets placed in front of the tombstones are also withered and scattered when touched.

Lu Yan dealt with the weeds around the tombstone by himself. Originally, Lin An wanted to help, but Lu Yan was afraid of hurting Lin An's hand, so he refused to let Lin An do it.

Lin An had no choice but to hold the bouquet and stand aside waiting for Lu Yan to finish dealing with the weeds. Looking at the two gray and white photos in front of him, he felt mixed feelings.

Unlike the profile photo he found, Lu Sheng's photo here is smiling.

The young man smiled happily, and when he laughed, he really had the shadow of being flamboyant when Lu Yan was a student.

Sometimes people's words are really the most disturbing. Who would have thought that their jokes during the after-dinner tea talk would cause a teenager to encounter such a desperate thing.

When Lu Sheng was alive, Lin An hadn't seen him, but he had seen Lu's mother. The woman came to the school to hold a parent-teacher meeting, and he could tell that she loved Lu Yan very much.

At that time, just like this photo, I smiled gently.

After Lu Yan finished handling the weeds, he came over to take the bouquet in Lin An's hand. The moment he saw the two photos above, his eyes turned red again.

Putting the flowers in front of the tombstone, Lu Yan knelt down slowly, and said in a guilty voice, "Mom, Shengsheng, I'm here to see you."

Lin An couldn't hear Lu Yan's voice, resisted the urge to hug him, clenched his fists, and waited for Lu Yan to finish.

Lin An was afraid that if he listened for a second longer, his eyes would turn red. He simply didn't listen to anything and looked at the void in the distance.

It wasn't until someone held his hand that Lin An turned his head and lowered his eyelids to look at the person holding his hand. Lu Yan had already taken off his sunglasses at some point.

In addition, after crying last night, now her eyes are red and swollen, Lu Yan smiled at Lin An, "Have I become ugly?"

Lin An shook his head: "Not ugly."

Lu Yan smiled again, then stood up, knelt for a while, he shook slightly: "I'm done talking with them, let's go home."

Lin An rubbed the corner of Lu Yan's mouth with her fingertips: "Don't force yourself to smile, you go to the toilet and wash your face, I'll wait for you here."

After hearing Lin An's words, Lu Yan really didn't laugh anymore, he said, "Will you accompany me?"

Lin An shook his head this time: "Go by yourself, I have something to say to Aunt Lu in harmony."

Lu Yan was very obedient, and didn't make a fuss about asking Lin An to go with him. He looked back at Lin An in a few steps, and then went to the toilet.

Standing in the wind, Lin An saw that Lu Yan had completely disappeared from his field of vision, so he looked at the photo on the tombstone. His black eyes were very pale, but the wind wiped the ends of his eyes a little red.

He didn't notice Lu Yan who had disappeared from sight, and walked quietly behind the tree.

Lin An sighed deeply at Mother Lu and Lu Sheng. He never believed that a dead person could hear the words of a living person, but for Lu Yan, he wanted to say it.

Lin An was left alone, so he said without hesitation: "I know, I don't have the qualifications to say such things."

"But I think, if you can see it, you should see that Lu Yan's heart is suffering enough."

"He really loves you, because of your departure, he has suffered a lot, can you see how he is sick?"

"Can you see him crying heart-piercingly?"

Lin An spoke calmly, with tears in his black eyes under the sunglasses, he choked up and said, "If you can see, can you listen to my request?"

Lin An took a deep breath, his chest was so stuffy that he couldn't breathe: "If it's possible, if you still love him and don't want to see him in such pain again, can you tell me in one night, even if it's just a word? Lu Yan..."

"You still love him..."

"Let him not be in so much pain."

Lin An's voice was neither soft nor loud, but every word hit Lu Yan's heart.

Lu Yan leaned back against the tree, raised his face and still couldn't let the tears come back to his eyes, and ran down his cheeks, but he laughed softly.

Mom, sound, I have found someone who can save me.

I'm not in so much pain anymore.

Lu Yan thought, this time, even if it cost him his life, he would still protect this person well.

作者有话要说：感谢在2022-02-0523:59:35~2022-02-0800:52:17期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who threw the grenade: halva is not sugar;

Thanks to the little angel of irrigation nutrient solution: just 2 bottle;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!