Schrodinger love

Jiang An froze all over, always feeling that he was too dazed recently and fell into a sweet dream late at night.

The touch on his lips was real, jerky and hot, and he asked uncertainly: "Sui Sui, is that what I understand?"

Wen Sui hummed with a nasal voice, and explained: "Actually, I still can't tell what kind of feelings I have for you, but I don't want to spend time distinguishing, and suddenly I don't think it's that important. Just treat it as Schrödinger's love." ... Anyway, I know one thing, I like you very much, I like you very much. So whatever you want, just come and get it."

Jiang An took a breath. Over the years, he had never asked for anything, because he knew that he could not get what he asked for.But now Wen Sui told himself that he was willing to give him whatever he wanted.

I had already prepared to wait for a long time, or even die without a medical condition, but I never thought that the day when my dream would come true. These words fell into my ears, and they were as beautiful as hallucinations.

After a long time, his heart began to beat violently, and he said in a hoarse voice, "Then I'm very greedy, I want everything."

Wen Sui looked at him from a little distance away, his eyes filled with tenderness: "Okay, you have the final say."

He was so obedient, Jiang An was silent for a few seconds, couldn't help but grabbed his neck and brought it to him, and kissed him again, this time it wasn't as soft as before, it became very deep and heavy, like It is to confirm whether it is true.

The breathing of each other gradually became warmer in the middle of the night, and the love that had been hidden for a long time when they were young suddenly became turbulent and hard to suppress.

A circle of dim light glowed under the street lamp late at night, two long shadows stacked together, intertwined and intimate under the shadow of the moon, never separated for a long time, as if to make up for the countless pasts that were missed.

Wen Sui felt that dizziness surged up again after a long absence, he still hadn't learned how to kiss, he just held onto the other person's jacket tightly, his fingers curled together stiffly, and his whole body was trembling uncontrollably.

It wasn't until he felt a piece of softness licking the seam of his lips that he suddenly came back to his senses and bit the other person in panic.

Jiang An took a breath, put the tip of his nose against him, and murmured, "Why do you keep biting people?"

"Rabbit... a rabbit bites when it's in a hurry." Wen Sui murmured with red face and lowered eyes, "Next time, I will definitely behave better."

Jiang An parted slightly, touched his lips gently above his eyelids, and said with satisfaction: "This is enough."

Wen Sui raised his eyes to look at him, there was a little light in his pupils, and he said softly, "You really worked so hard in those three years, I'm sorry, I just saw those letters, blame me, I didn't even think of such a simple principle."

Finally understanding the reason for his sudden confession tonight, Jiang An quickly pursed his lips, feeling a little disturbed.

He didn't want Wen Sui to know how long he had liked him and how long it lasted. This feeling was too heavy, and anyone would feel great pressure on it. Speaking out would only increase his distress and self-blame.

Now that I can get a response from the other party, then all the bitterness and suffering in the past can be brought over in one stroke, so there is no need to talk about it.

After all, he hid his love very well at that time, and even when he wrote those unanswered letters, he never mentioned his obsession and love for him too much.

Jiang An thought about his words, and said jokingly: "I don't blame you, it's hidden so deep, and I didn't intend to let you find out. As for the content, of course you have to write the letter in a miserable way, otherwise why would it make you feel bad?"

Wen Sui paused for a few seconds, a little annoyed in his heart, and tentatively asked: "So, did you... like me at that time, I mean before we separated. Isn't it painful for such a long time?"

Jiang An was quiet for a while, twisted his thumb in the palm of his hand, and said lightly, "I don't know, I was young at that time, so I knew what I liked."

"It turns out that you sometimes couldn't tell the difference." Wen Sui breathed a sigh of relief for no reason, touched his lips lightly, and discussed, "After that, what should I call you?"

Jiang An tilted his head to look at him: "You can call it whatever you want."

"When there are others around, call me brother." Wen Sui was afraid that he might misunderstand, so he added, "When we are two, we can change to something else."

Jiang An hummed, and asked with interest: "What else?"

Wen Sui was dumbfounded, and couldn't find another title for a while: "I...let me think about it again."

"Is it so difficult to think of a name?"

"I've never been in a relationship before, so it's not normal if I can't figure it out?"

"Well, think about it carefully." Jiang An looked at his frowning expression, as if he was really thinking hard, and smiled again, "I'm a little hungry, let me try the meal made by my boyfriend."

Hearing the word boyfriend and suddenly changing his identity, Wen Sui suddenly became shy and stammered, "Wait for me here, I'll pack up and go back to the hotel with you. I don't know when my parents Come back, in case it's like last time..."

This time, he really became a target, and he probably couldn't explain it clearly with eighty mouths.

"That's really cheating, take your time, don't worry." Jiang An rubbed his head and sat down on the bench next to him.

Wen Sui nodded, and quickly ran back while stepping on his slippers.He put the porridge into the thermos, then put away the letters and put them in a pocket. After thinking for a while, he went back to the second floor to find a small notebook and packed them before coming out again.

It was already late at night, and there were very few passers-by on the street.The two took a taxi back to the hotel, and when they entered the room in a daze, Wen Sui realized that the relationship had completely changed.

The relationship between him and his brother really became lovers, which seems absurd and reasonable.That taboo stimulation made the heartstrings tense, just thinking of this, the heart couldn't help but start beating wildly.

Jiang An sat down at the small table, unscrewed the insulated box slowly, and looked up at him: "What are you doing in a daze, let's eat together."

Wen Sui came back to his senses, pulled a stool and sat down next to him, stirred with a spoon, scooped up a spoonful, put it near his mouth and blew.

Probably because she seldom makes such an intimate move, the movement is a bit unnatural: "Come on, I'll hello...hey you."

Jiang An was amused, and the bad mood that had been clouded for several days disappeared.Staring straight at him, he slowly opened his mouth and swallowed the porridge.

The corners of his lips raised slightly, and he said slowly, "It's delicious, we are really smart every year, and we can learn everything quickly."

"You must be wearing ten layers of filters." Wen Sui scooped up another spoon against his reddened ears, motioning for him to continue.

Jiang An enjoyed this change very much, and his eyes fell on his fair knuckles, which turned a little red from the heat of the porridge. Although it was jerky, it was really cute.

After eating a bowl of porridge for nearly half an hour, Wen Sui swallowed the other bowl wholeheartedly, and the warmth spread throughout his body, making his whole body feel warmer.

He took off his coat and threw it aside casually, then opened the bag he brought over, and found out the little notebook he brought over.

When handing it over, the whole person showed an uncomfortable awkwardness: "When we were separated before, I dreamed of you many times, and I drew some scenes when I remembered them. If the paintings are not good, you can look at them casually." look."

Jiang An reached out to take it, and slowly opened the somewhat yellowed sketchbook, the edges were rolled up, and it looked really old.Just seeing the content, I was really a little stunned.

It's not because of anything else, it's because Wen Sui really has no modesty, the whole painting style is almost at the level of a kindergarten class, if the stick figures on it are not marked with their names, they can't even tell the difference between men and women.

Wen Sui stared at his slow movements, leaned over cautiously, put his head on his shoulder and explained: "Do you understand? These are the appearances of you in my dreams. This one shows you walking, where exactly, It’s been too long since I’ve drawn it, and I can’t understand it myself.”

Jiang An laughed, and leaned on the back of the chair, turning slowly: "Continue."

"This one is for you to do your homework. It should be easy to understand. I also specially marked the name of the exercise book, three big characters "Must Brush Questions"."

"This one is for sleeping in the dormitory, because the quilt is covered, and this egg-like circle is your head."

"This one is a scene of playing on the court. There are too many spectators nearby to draw, so I drew a few wavy lines instead."

"This one was on my 16th birthday. I dreamed that you went to see me by the river, but you didn't say hello to me, you just looked at me from afar."

.........

There are a lot of pages, and the more you turn back, the more complicated Jiang An's mood becomes. I don't know if it's a coincidence, but Wen Sui's paintings are all scenes that he has experienced before.

Maybe there is really something called mind-to-heart connection in the world, or this person knows too much and misses himself too much, so there are so many pictures of himself in his dreams.

Whether it's true or not, at least this sketchbook made him truly feel that Wen Sui had already given his sincerity to himself unconsciously.

Just thinking of this possibility, the emotion that has been restrained and suppressed tonight is a little uncontrollable.

He looked sideways at the person next to him. Under the bright light, the color of his eyelashes became very light, and his neck was slightly hooked, revealing a curved and attractive line. Because he was still explaining endlessly, his mouth opened and closed, revealing from time to time A little tip of the tongue.

Wen Sui spoke dryly, licked his lower lip, and concluded: "Anyway, I just want to tell you that I really miss you too, and I'm not just talking nonsense to lie to you."

"Well, I see." Jiang An poured a glass of water for him and handed it over, and said without opening his eyes, "I'm really happy now."

Wen Sui put the notebook aside, pinched his chin and turned his head around, staring into his eyes suspiciously: "Why don't you look at me if you are happy?"

Jiang An was forced to meet his eyes, blinked his eyes, and his voice was smudged a little hoarse: "I'm afraid I don't have enough concentration."

The atmosphere was quiet for a few seconds, as if a match was thrown into the dry air, and with a sizzling sound, the whole room could be heated up, and many ambiguities were slowly growing.

Wen Sui unconsciously bent his fingers, rubbed against his cheek, and murmured: "You... seem to have a fever, very hot."

Jiang An came back to his senses, raised his hand and touched his forehead with the back of his hand, knelt on the wet ground in the cemetery all day, and stood outside with the wind blowing for a long time, it really seemed a little hot.

He lowered his arms, unfastened two buttons, and said softly, "It's a little bit hot, it's okay."

"You change into your pajamas and go to bed. I'll go buy medicine and a thermometer." Wen Sui got up quickly, and ran out of the room like the wind, before even closing the door.

Jiang An was dumbfounded, got up and gently closed the door, took off his coat and hung it on the hanger, and changed back into comfortable pajamas.

He lifted the quilt and stared at the empty ceiling, still feeling a sense of unreality.

But the porridge left on the table, the sketchbook I read, the lingering touch of the kiss and the fiery confession just now, all reminded myself that this years-long crush was finally over.

As he was dazed, he heard a beep and the door opened.The longing man rushed in with a large pile of medicine, half kneeling on the edge of the bed.

Wen Sui grabbed the back of his neck, pressed the thermometer on his forehead, looked at the displayed number and muttered: "39 degrees, not too low, do you want to go to the hospital?"

"Not so delicate, no need." Jiang An rubbed his fingers on his arm, and said softly, "Just take some medicine, just because I'm afraid that the cold will infect you."

Wen Sui hadn't realized how it could be contagious, but suddenly remembered the kiss before, and fell silent again, his ears turned red.

Jiang An stared at the tip of his ear, and added another sentence: "I won't kiss you these few days, and I will kiss you after the illness recovers."

"You're all sick, can you stop thinking about..." Wen Sui omitted the key words, took out a few boxes of medicines and held them in his hand, took another glass of water and handed them over, said fiercely, "Take the medicine and go to sleep. "

Jiang An became obedient, but refused to sleep after taking the medicine, and patted his palm on the pillow quietly, silently hinting.

With his back turned to him, Wen Sui changed into his pajamas awkwardly. He had done countless things before, but now he felt very ashamed.During the movements, he still felt a hot gaze fixed firmly on his back.

This person had a fever, and even his eyesight became warmer, it was absolutely amazing.

He turned off the light, lay down on him slowly, and then complained: "Jiang Nian, you need someone to accompany you to sleep. Are you just six years old?"

"Because you will be very fragile when you are sick." Jiang An leaned his head on his arm and looked at him unscrupulously. "You don't sleep? You haven't had a good rest these days. You will go back to school tomorrow, so take a good night's rest."

The atmosphere tonight is so good, I always feel that it will be broken after sleeping like this, which is a pity.

Wen Sui pursed his lower lip, reached for the mobile phone next to him, and slowly opened WeChat and said, "Shouldn't this important day be announced to the world?"

Jiang An followed him to take his own, slid the screen away, and teased him with a smile: "What do you want to tell, I listen to you."

Seeing his synchronized movements, Wen Suicai immediately realized what they were doing, and suddenly stopped the hand that posted on Moments.

It is one thing to communicate with each other, but if their relationship is really made public, it will probably cause huge waves.

Forced to delete the typed text word by word, Wen Sui lowered his eyelashes and sighed: "Forget it, it's still not for the time being."

As for how long this temporary duration is, even he himself is not too sure, and dare not think about it.Tonight was probably overwhelmed by emotions, and only now did he realize how much impact this decision would have on him and Jiang An.

The two of them didn't speak any more, and fell into a moment of silence.

"Well, will you regret it?" Jiang An asked him softly.

Wen Sui shook his head, and said firmly, "No, I just...for a while, I haven't thought of a better way to deal with it."

Jiang An rubbed his hair, and said lightly: "You don't need to think about this kind of thing. Today is our first day together. Thinking about it now, isn't it a bit too worrying?"

"That's right. It's more important to live in the present moment. Anyway, the soldiers come to cover up the water." Wen Sui always had a big heart, and instantly convinced himself that he became happy again.

Full of desire to confide but wanted to share with others, Wen Sui slowly swipe contacts, and carefully chose a former hotpot restaurant owner who had little to do with them in life.

[Do Not Disturb]: Uncle, I want to share a piece of good news with you, I am in love

Jiang An's phone vibrated next to him. Seeing the notification, he silently dimmed the screen and pondered how to reply.

Immediately afterwards, Wen Sui sent another message: "There is no one to say, so I just came to say a few words to you. If you are asleep, sorry to bother you, I wish you good night."

Jiang An pondered for a few seconds, then tapped the keyboard to reply:

[J]: Congratulations, no matter how difficult the future is, I wish you a long life

[Do Not Disturb]: Thank you uncle for your blessing!Good night!good dream!

Jiang An stared at the conversation and sighed slightly. Out of the corner of his eye, he glanced at the excited kid next to him, suffering from a headache.

At that time, if Wen Sui knew that this person was him, it would be hard to imagine what kind of reaction he would have. Maybe he should explain it to him sometime.

But there are not many opportunities, and there are few intersections, so it is really difficult to speak.

Over there, Wen Sui quit the chat history, feeling that it was still not enjoyable, so he changed another contact person and typed quickly:

[Do Not Disturb]: Son, come out, Dad will tell you a shocking secret, I am in love

[No answer]: oh

[Do Not Disturb]: No, you are so indifferent?What about celebrating with gongs and drums?

[Stop picking up]: Well, I just fell asleep and I was really sleepy

[Do Not Disturb]: Fuck, then I will make you sober, my partner is a man, is it exciting?

[No answer]: oh

[Do Not Disturb]:? ? ? ? ? ? ? ?

[Do Not Disturb]: You usually gossip, so you don't want to ask who he is?

A reminder is displayed below: The other party has turned on friend verification, and you are not his friend yet.Please send a friend verification request first, and the other party can only chat after the verification is passed.

Wen Sui cursed in a low voice, raised his phone in disbelief and turned his head to look at Jiang An, his face full of resentment: "Ji Xiaoyu, son of a bitch, actually blackmailed me, is he trying to rebel."

Jiang An turned around and put his arms around his waist, resting his chin on his shoulder, and said in a low voice, "Is that how you want others to know?"

"It's hard to fall in love with you, and I can't show my love, it's annoying." Wen Sui was talking, and felt the arms around his waist slowly draw in, and his back suddenly pressed against his burning chest.

He instantly became bewildered, and stammered: "You... Didn't you just say that you still have a fever and haven't kissed me recently?"

Jiang An lowered his head, rubbed against his neck, and asked slowly: "What are you thinking, who said I want to kiss you."

"Then you don't mean to..." Wen Sui was speechless, didn't he, he was so steep on the first day of being together, is his brother playing so wildly?

Thinking in a mess in his mind, the hotness that he had looked at just now came back in an instant.He felt his warm lips touch his neck, and the tip of his hot tongue touched that piece of skin. His whole body seemed to be nailed to the bed, unable to move.

Jiang An gently held his neck with his teeth, biting slowly, and said vaguely: "If you don't plant a strawberry, it will be easy to tell the world."

The author has something to say: Sui Sui: Why is it so difficult to show affection

Ji Xiaoyu: I'm tired, let's delete each other

Jiang An: Actually, it’s not difficult

Schrödinger's love, the opening question!In fact, I just want to say that the emotions between them are very complicated. It can’t be summed up by just lovers. There are red envelopes in the comments~