are you a clown

For Lin Chensan, such words are too deceptive.

Lin Chensan nodded without thinking.

Things have long since gone off track.

When thinking about it afterwards, Lin Chensan didn't know how he became like that, and the risk he had to take was still too great.

Although she thought her head was clear at the time, thinking about it now, it was still difficult for her to understand why she just nodded like that when she was clearly awake.

In order to fulfill such a promise, she will really inquire about everything about Lin Jianwu.It's just that everyone has something they don't want others to know, so is such behavior allowed?

Even if you have to get hurt because of this, don't you feel afraid?

She thought that in front of Lin Jianwu, she would look timid and weak from the beginning to the end, and she would be led by Lin Jianwu with emotions to the end... In fact, it was the same, but she couldn't guarantee that, after learning about a certain After these things, she was able to control herself very well, achieving and knowing the general attitude before.

She is not necessarily the kind of person who likes to be able to practice completely to the end.It is very likely that at a certain moment, you suddenly don't like it.

Because she is like this, she has to come to an emergency to understand what kind of person she is.If it is possible, Lin Chensan also wants to only have the emotion of liking.She doesn't want to hate anything at all, if what she hates is something she once liked, it's even more unacceptable.

But since there are likes, there will be dislikes.

Although I really don't want to accept myself with such a personality, but I can't do anything to escape when things are imminent.

Or is Lin Jianwu not afraid of her understanding, rather than the disgust she might feel, does she still want to know herself in the eyes of others?

Lin Chensan didn't care at all about himself in the eyes of others, but Lin Jianwu's words, um, he would care a little bit, but even if he was hated, it didn't mean he couldn't let go.

She is afraid of being hurt, but if that kind of injury has to be endured, Lin Chensan thought, she will face it calmly...the fact that cannot be changed, cannot be resisted, in the final analysis, that is the same thing... a certain meaning In fact, Lin Chensan is quite strong.

Lin Chensan sat in Lin Jianwu's arms as Lin Jianwu fiddled with her hair. When her hair was almost blown, she looked back at Lin Jianwu and said the guess in her heart: "Sister, you Do you think there is something wrong with me?"

"Why do you ask this?" Lin Jianwu's hand fell on Lin Chensan's neck, making the other party show a somewhat satisfied expression because of his touch.

"...There is no special reason." Lin Chensan thought for a while, and suddenly didn't know how to translate what he had just thought into words.I always feel that there will be mistakes in the expression, which will distort the original intention, and finally convey it to the other party's ears, and it will become another meaning.

In this world, there is no real empathy, nor complete understanding, so there is no need to add to the other party's troubles for things that you don't quite understand.

Lin Chensan didn't know everything about Lin Jianwu, and Lin Jianwu didn't necessarily know what kind of person she was, and she had nothing to say.

"I don't think there is any problem!" She said, not knowing what Lin Jianwu knew.

"There is no problem."

Lin Jianwu's hand moved away from Lin Chensan's neck, and Lin Chensan felt the beating of the blood vessels in the neck at the moment Lin Jianwu's hand left.

The throbbing of the blood vessels did not last very long, and ended quickly.This is physiological, not pathological.

From this level, there is indeed no problem, but the answer Lin Jianwu gave her is obviously not that simple.I really don't know why Lin Jianwu was able to affirm her like this, but, perhaps out of a kind of liking, Lin Chensan thought that he was healed instantly because of such an answer.

I really like Lin Jianwu, I'm afraid I don't like it any more... Lin Chensan blushed and stuttered a little: "...as long as there is no problem."

"San San, go to bed first, I'll blow your hair." Lin Jianwu's voice came from behind Lin Chensan.

But Lin Chensan said: "Sister, can I blow your hair for you?" Her tone really fulfilled the four words 'feeling cowardly and weak' just now.

"It's very late. But Sansan, you have to get up early to go to work today, right?" Lin Jianwu put her hand on Lin Chensan's dry hair this time, and rubbed it, "...Let's talk about it next time .”

Lin Chensan: "..."

The quiet atmosphere lasted for a while.

Lin Chensan didn't know how she said that, but she just said it: "...Do that again."

"Ok?"

"Just do it again."

Lin Jianwu smiled and agreed to Lin Chensan's request: "Okay." Then he rubbed Lin Chensan's head again.

*

Because Lin Chensan fell asleep right after going to bed, and she didn’t know what happened after that when she woke up at dawn, and after buttoning most of the shirt, the still cold air was still bare. Lin Chensan trembled all over as she climbed up with her two legs, and then she looked at a certain place on the bed belatedly.

Soon she stopped and turned her face away.

Lin Jianwu was lying on her side, facing her side, with the quilt covering her body well, and some faint sunlight came from the window, casting scattered shadows on Lin Jianwu's face.

With her eyes closed, Lin Jianwu's face looked a little peaceful and a little melancholy.

Lin Chensan felt that she had turned into a child who was still in kindergarten. She sat down in the middle of the bed, clasped her hands between her legs, and moved her gaze from the right side along the edge of the bed little by little, moving up the folds. , leaned back, and finally landed on Lin Jianwu's forehead hair.

Her hair was fluffy and a little curly, covering most of her eyebrows. She made up her mind to let go of the clasped hands, and she stretched out her hand, driving the terminal nerves of her fingertips with a very light and soft feeling, Flicking the broken hair aside, Lin Jianwu's face was completely revealed in front of her.

But then no longer look at it.

Then I saw Lin Jianwu's right hand, which was also exposed outside, with the palm facing upwards, the five fingers were slightly bent, and the well-trimmed nails felt a little round to the touch. Lin Chensan couldn't help but touch the other's fingertips due to the child's curiosity. , rubbed the fingertips, twisted the skin on the thicker part of the palm a little, and then loosened it... In the not-so-clear field of vision, you can see a very clear tooth mark there, which seems to be bitten many times, Then it bleeds, solidifies again, and the red texture is finally revealed when the blood scab falls off.

Lin Chensan lowered her eyelids. She had no intention of understanding the story behind the tooth marks, but she wanted to spread her hand and compare the theory Lin Jianwu said with her own hand.

Where did this desire to compare for no reason come from?

When the back of the hand was pressed against the palm of that hand and stretched out five fingers to compare with the back, even Lin Chensan didn't realize that she was smiling. This was her nature, or was it because of a child's emotions that were still secretly at work Woolen cloth?Or was she just a kid all along?There are always countless information hidden behind a single action, but at this time, who knows?

Lin Chensan only knew that it was still early, and she planned to go to work this morning, so, after looking at the time displayed on her phone, she lifted the quilt and put her two legs inside first.

Just another 10 minutes of sleep, she thought.

*

On the way to the company, Lin Chensan received a message from Er Jiasi, first it was a good morning phrase, and then it was a follow-up about the freshman jumping off the building last night.

[The college announcement is an emotional dispute. 】

[Is everyone okay? 】

[Now in the hospital for observation. 】

【That's good. 】

[Speaking of this point, have you eaten zero times three? ] After Erjiasi sent a message, he took a picture of breakfast. The background looks like a self-study classroom in a school.

【No. 】When Er Jiasi mentioned it, Lin Chensan was really hungry.

[Would you like me to bring you a love breakfast. 】

【don't want. 】

[why? 】

[Because I have already seen my breakfast. 】After Lin Chensan sent this message, she put her phone in her pocket. She had already seen Di Xiaole at the entrance of the company.

Di Xiaole was eating wontons this time. When he saw Lin Chensan coming, he took a sip of the soup and pointed to the two white plastic bags on the stone table next to him: "The wontons and pies you want."

"Thanks."

It was indeed a very wise choice to ask Di Xiaole to help bring breakfast.While eating, Lin Chensan inexplicably felt a little guilty: Lin Jianwu probably had to cook his own breakfast.

"If you want me to bring breakfast later, you will have to wait until the next year." Di Xiaole said with a little pride.

That's right, tomorrow is New Year's Eve. In this case, Lin Jianwu should leave home today at the latest. She forgot to ask the other party when the ticket was. Maybe, she should go to send the other party off... But the other party Since I didn't say it, um, but I should still send the other party off, right?After hesitating for a long time, after breakfast was finished, Lin Chensan still couldn't make up his mind on what to do.She felt that she could not adapt to her current status.

Lovers who didn't pierce the window paper?Not an underground lover in a married state?Friends who have never played guns before?Or the relationship between Neptune and Licking Dog?

Unable to recognize where he is, this makes it a bit difficult for Lin Chensan.

Zhao Lingmeng has already been discharged from the hospital. When she met him at work, he gave her a dozen of snacks for work in friendship.Afterwards, Ma Tiantian found out. When they met in the tea room, Ma Tiantian hooked her neck and asked them the details of their conversation.

Lin Chensan answered well, but until the end of the morning's work, she was thinking about whether to send a message to ask Lin Jianwu, as well as the format of the question.

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I feel that the progress of the daily update is too slow, so I plan to double-update it in the next few days. Chapter 2 is at [-]:[-] in the morning, and Chapter [-] is at [-]:[-], which is almost the same.