are you a clown

When Lin Jianwu started to have independent thinking ability at the age of 12, she repeatedly thought about a question: what kind of person am I.

At first, she thought of herself as someone special: someone special who can do everything well.

Then she thinks she is unique: there are things that only she can do.

In the summer after the first job, she began to understand: she is neither special nor unique, she is just a little better than ordinary people, and she is still an ordinary person.

If so, where does the meaning of life come from?

Why do people have to live?What is the value of living?

She doesn't know, and she wants to know the answer to that question.

But her parents couldn't give her an answer.

Her parents were assigned jobs in their day, her father was a teacher, and her mother was a nurse in a local public hospital. Their missions to society were natural, and they didn’t need their own blueprints for what to do. To write deliberately, the society needs them, and they are also happy to shine for such a bounden duty.

Their sense of presence can be expressed without having to manifest themselves.

When Lin Jianwu asked them, for the first time, she felt a sad gap had formed between her parents: they had never thought about such a question, and never thought that such a question was worthy of attention.

They said: "You, life is still too smooth, and a setback makes you so unbearable. There will be more days in the future."

They see it as something like teenage rebellion.When the time comes, there will be, and when the time passes, it will disappear.

Depression, loss of interest, loss of pleasure...

After listening to her question, former friends and colleagues thought it might be a manifestation of depression: "You can go to the hospital to see, now psychotherapy is very common in big cities, and the credibility is also very high."

Lin Jianwu went to a psychiatric hospital, and she was diagnosed with severe depression as expected, but all the drugs were ineffective for her.

She went to the hospital more times, and she even knew what to say, and what kind of diagnosis the doctor would give her.

It's not depression.

Later, a psychiatrist suggested that she read more books on philosophy: "Your illness is not necessarily a disease, it may be a social phenomenon, or it may be something else. There is a systematic approach to treatment."

Lin Jianwu keenly captured a word: "Social phenomenon?"

The psychiatrist nodded: "This situation like yours is not the first case we have encountered. In fact, more and more cases like yours have appeared in recent years, and there is also a There is a trend of younger age, and there are examples of this in middle and high schools in some developed areas."

Lin Jianwu didn't quite understand.

"Don't say you don't understand, me, I don't understand very well, but I can have a good chat with you, Miss Lin. After all, I may not read as many books as you, old man, but I still eat a lot." The psychiatrist said He moved a stool and sat next to Lin Jianwu, as if having a long conversation: "Miss Lin, you must have heard of the term Heisei Abandoned House, right?"

Lin Jianwu nodded.

"Now there is also the saying that Reiwa is trash." The psychiatrist smiled, "If I ask you, I think our current situation is actually a bit similar to the Heisei abandoned house back then."

"The economy is developing rapidly, consumerism is prevalent, and the real estate bubble." The psychiatrist said three words in one breath, and then he put his hands on his knees and said, "I am very impressed. When I was in college, we bought clothes, Buying shoes is not so particular, even the price of the physical store, we can basically afford it, but now, many boys just buy two white short-sleeved and two black pants on Pinduoduo, and they can It’s been a year since the launch of Taobao. If Taobao’s launch is an impact of the Internet on the real economy, then what is the reason for Pinduoduo? To be honest, don’t blame the old man for my short-sightedness. I can’t find anything else except Pinduoduo is cheaper. The reason. But the young people in our country, why do they have to pay close attention to the price of one or two good clothes?"

"Old man, I wouldn't have dared to think about this kind of thing ten years ago. If it were you, Miss Lin, would you believe it? How many years has it been since the TV series "Family with Children" came out? How many young people can live like that now? The psychiatrist is a bit angry, "If the financial industry adds 1000 million jobs, then 2 people will be laid off in the real economy. It is a good thing that the Internet industry is well developed, but we can't let so many students who graduate every year go to study. Computers, why don’t you all become programmers? Then what do other students graduate from? They want to do everything, but they can’t do anything, and they can’t all be stuffed into factories, so they have to lie flat.”

Lin Jianwu felt that the psychiatrist had gone too far, and she was a little embarrassed: "I haven't thought about lying down."

Not to mention the standard of living in "Family with Children", not many people can achieve the "I Love My Family" filmed in [-]. The TV series are filmed like that. If ordinary people can match the middle class, We don't want to be well-off in an all-round way, and we can directly go to common prosperity.

How did you know that the psychiatrist took a special look at Lin Jianwu: "You are not far from lying flat."

Lin Jianwu was getting upset: "Doctor, it's too early to talk." She was looking for the meaning of life, and it had nothing to do with how much money she made or how her living standard was.

"What kind of soil blooms what kind of flowers. Do you know why so many young people choose to lie down? Because they know that no matter how many classes are added, no matter how much labor value is created, it is all for the capitalists. , The middleman makes the difference, like your parents at that time, it was really creating wealth for the country, but you guys, most of the part-time jobs now go into the pockets of the capitalists, if the value cannot be reflected, how much significance can it have? The boss will not I feel sorry for you."

What the psychiatrist said made some sense, but Lin Jianwu still thought that it had nothing to do with her question, but she didn't have the habit of interrupting people's conversations, so she could only let the psychiatrist continue to whine. Finish the speech: "In fact, many industries, especially densely populated coastal cities, do not lack ordinary people. Of course, the ordinary people I am talking about are not the kind of workers on the front line of production. Workers are always in short supply at any time. It’s the lack of what we call high-tech talents in the industry. If the reality is divided into four levels of ABCD, you must know that it is impossible to have an A without BCD. .In a market where the supply is clearly oversupplied, for example, there are only a few people in a block, but there are ten companies selling pancakes and fruits. They have to compete with other companies, and the taste cannot be considered outstanding. Some will lower the price, and some will be free. Add ingredients. Consumers must feel that they have made money by buying low-priced pancakes at low prices, and the stalls that normally sell pancakes will inevitably lose business. If the taste is good, if you don’t engage in low-price competition, you must build a brand Advantages, consumers' consumption habits will be cultivated."

"Ordinary people can easily encounter this kind of situation in the process of job hunting. For example, there is a gap in a certain position in the company and needs to be recruited. The scope of work and salary have been stipulated in the contract, but in the actual work process, if there is a An employee’s personal ability is not outstanding. There may be many reasons. For example, she knows that her ability is limited, but in order to keep her job, she has to work hard from other directions, such as relying on doing a lot of work outside the scope of her position. To gain the approval of the leaders, and the company's management is also affected by it, the result is that the management will gradually feel that people who spend as much money as they do do less work. This situation is very common in many industries. No one is absolutely wrong, but everyone is making mistakes."

"This situation will become more obvious with a larger population, because a larger population does not necessarily mean that there are more skilled personnel. The number of skilled personnel is always constant. The imbalance between market supply and demand and many other factors will ultimately lead to This resulted in such a result. I haven’t seen many people dare to say no to unreasonable demands. It’s better to say that many people who resisted at the beginning will gradually give in after being beaten by life. Even if they know that the demands are unreasonable, they still have to find ways Please the people above. Some people will call it the life of an adult."

"It seems that the life of an adult is supposed to be so hard."

"Striving to be an A is not a solution to the problem, and it is even difficult to change the market environment, because your own efforts do not mean that others are not working hard. It can be said that when you work hard, others are also working hard. When you are not working hard, there will always be someone working hard. For another example, Miss Lin, you are in architectural design. I don’t know much about the construction industry, but I can say something for the time being. In your industry, you have a second-level architect certificate. It can be regarded as stepping into the threshold of A-level skilled personnel, so the BCD people will go to take the second-level architect exam. After the BCD people get the certificate after the exam, they find that most of them have already obtained the certificate. Everyone They can all be regarded as A-level skilled personnel, but at this time the threshold for A-level skilled personnel has become a first-level architect. Therefore, BCD people still cannot become A. "

"I say this, Miss Lin, can you understand? Your generation has been running and has never stopped, but there are always a small number of people who become A. Sometimes we have to understand that living as ordinary people is also a kind of ours. choose."

"Life doesn't necessarily need any special meaning." The psychiatrist said, "...just enjoy it."

At this time, Lin Jianwu was already in tears.

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The author has something to say:

The speech of the psychiatrist here is also the opinion of the family.

Then there is another update at four o'clock in the afternoon.