are you a clown

It's not yet one o'clock in the afternoon.

Lin Chensan hasn't left work yet.But Erjiasi has a good habit of arriving early.

Er Jiasi remembered that the coffee shop where she and Lin Chensan sat last time was by the window.Holding the flower in the right hand and the umbrella in the left, the small blackboard standing at the entrance of the coffee shop slowly appeared at the end of the field of vision.

When she was about to take another step forward, there was a black image that was a line of ink, falling from top to bottom, immediately dividing her field of vision into left and right halves... The sound of 'ba chi' sounded before her toes.

Er Jiasi first looked at the black corpse in front of his toes, it was already as bad as a puddle of mud, he only felt that there were a little green leaves in the bright red, which was roughly indistinguishable, and then he looked up at the branches of the street tree , there were a few overripe fruits on the branch that hadn't fallen, and she recognized that it was a winter persimmon.Persimmons in winter.

If they are not picked at the end of October, the back will rot little by little.I haven't noticed it since I came back last time. This is the period when I encountered a concentrated fall.

Not so lucky.

There is still about 200 meters away from the coffee shop, and the street trees on this road are full of these crumbling persimmon trees. Just in case, Erjiasi thinks that it is very correct to bring an umbrella out today.She wanted to hold an umbrella, but she was holding the flowers in her right hand, and it was difficult to open the umbrella with one hand without crushing the flowers.

Moreover, the umbrella that Lin Chensan bought for her requires the left hand to press the button and the right hand to push up. It can be said that it is impossible to do it with only one hand.

At this time, a white and soft hand suddenly came into Er Jiasi's eyes, took the umbrella, pressed the button with the left hand, and pushed it to the top once with the right hand, before Er Jiasi had time to see the person's face clearly, the owner of the hand will be The opened umbrella was handed over to Er Jiasi...another overripe winter persimmon fell from the branch and hit the top of the transparent umbrella.

Er Jiasi felt that the weight of the umbrella in his hand was much heavier, and when the winter persimmon, which was already a puddle of mud, was delivered, most of the corpses slid down the umbrella cloth like fluid, and this time, it hit her. behind the heels.

There were two sounds of 'baji'.

"Be careful on the road." The voice seemed to be laughing, as if it was just passing by once, and before the words finished, it was about to pass by Er Jiasi.

"Why?" This voice was very familiar to Er Jiasi. She didn't know the reason why the other party appeared here, but when she saw the other party stop because of her question, she hugged the flower in her arms tightly, "At this time, no matter what, I want to say thank you. Thank you for helping me hold the umbrella. Then, long time no see."

The cuffs are rolled up, the hem is exposed, the cuffs of the sweater are rolled up, and the hem of the inch shirt is exposed. Matched with linen pants, Lin Jianwu's dressing style today is quite classic, and even matches Erjiasi's very well.

They are all about the same height.The error will not exceed two centimeters, and Linjian Wu is higher.

Lin Jianwu only turned around halfway, her left hand was in her trouser pocket, her right hand was hanging by her side, her smile was a little lazy: "Well, long time no see, Er Jiasi."

This is something that Lin Chensan would not have thought of. Lin Jianwu and Er Jiasi knew each other and had a very close relationship.

At this point in the story, we have to talk about Lin Jianwu's emotional history.

This happened after the psychological consultation, perhaps because she turned her eyes back to herself, her surroundings, for the first time, two years after graduating from university, Lin Jianwu discovered that someone was pursuing her.

Someone likes her.

The reason why she used the word "discovery" was because she thought that she had seen such behavior before, and it seemed familiar, but only at this time, she had time to think about the significance of such behavior to herself.

Before the age of 22, Lin Jianwu never thought about falling in love.

To be honest, Lin Jianwu didn't think he would like the boy in front of him. He is 1.8 meters tall, a little fat, with a dark complexion and ugly appearance, but he still has unyielding attitude towards his polite indifference. Because of her enthusiasm, she agreed to the other party's request to be friends with the next best thing.On the one hand, because she has lost the motivation to pursue hopeless goals, she wonders where the enthusiasm in boys comes from; on the other hand, she still wants to have a goal that can serve as a guide for the next life.If she can change places, she thinks she can also understand some of God's tricks, why she is allowed to live in this world, but she has nowhere to belong.

Although it is about being friends, Lin Jianwu is very clear that in the eyes of the other party, being friends is a conniving behavior that has not yet touched the bottom line.

Of course, the moral bottom line of being a human being does not allow Lin Jianwu to make a green tea that treats human beings as spare tires.Therefore, most of the time when meeting and getting along with boys, Lin Jianwu only acts as a decoration.If boys don't ask her, she won't even speak.Some words that pierce the superficial calm can also be said without any scruples.

"How about I learn to sing?" The boy asked her for advice.

She felt a little distracted: "What did you say?"

The boy's eyebrows drooped: "How about I learn to sing?"

Lin Jianwu, who didn't understand the antecedent, was very surprised: "Why do you want to learn to sing?"

"You don't even watch me play basketball." The boy followed Lin Jianwu's eyes and looked over. When Lin Jianwu was distracted, the place where his eyes were scattered was the advertising stand at the entrance of the mall. famous singer.

But Lin Jianwu didn't know the boy's thoughts: "If this is the case, it's best not to learn."

"Ok?"

"If you learn it, I won't listen."

"...Why?" The boy felt that his sadness was as big as the ocean.

"Well, probably, not interested."

"So, Lin Jianwu, what are you interested in?"

"I don't know yet." Lin Jianwu smiled, "I'm looking for it."

It was this smile that gave the boy the confidence to continue pursuing Lin Jianwu: at least Lin Jianwu would not like anyone for a long time, so he would have a chance.

"Do you want to go somewhere?"

After get off work, the boy naturally wants to take Lin Jianwu's satchel, but Lin Jianwu has no interest in doing things by herself, so she naturally ignores the hand extended by the boy.

Lin Jianwu said, "Well, okay, where are you going?"

The boy was very hurt, but he was used to it. He cheered up: "Go to the river beach. The river view after eight o'clock in the evening is very beautiful."

The main road leading to the river beach is full of square dancers and night runners. Two people walk on one side, which is really not an atmosphere. At least several times when boys want to speak, they will be interrupted by various accidents .

Lin Jianwu was very happy and quiet, but she couldn't ignore the boy's countless times of hesitation: "If you want to say something, just say it."

Then the boy straightened his scalp: "Can you be my girlfriend?"

"No." Lin Jianwu replied quickly.Conversations like this have happened countless times in just three months.

Boys will send her flowers, give her birthdays, and give her gifts on various domestic and foreign festivals that are not on the calendar.Such a person as a love object can be said to be quite competent on a certain level.

However, when faced with the boy's confession again, Lin Jianwu still gave the same answer: "No."

"Lin Jianwu, what's the matter with you?" The boy was very puzzled, "It's just a stone, and it should be warmed up when you hold it in your chest, right?"

"...I really can't find a reason to agree to you." Lin Jianwu's answer was very serious.

"Don't you like me? But we haven't held hands once, how do you know you just don't like me?" The boy was a little emotional.

"Although I haven't actually promised you, except for the things that can be done between boyfriend and girlfriend, I have tried my best to cooperate with your time after work, but the result is that I don't like it." More serious things, Lin Jianwu didn't say anything Not to mention the dislike of the conclusion, the physical desire in the process has never been experienced even once. If so... In the blink of an eye, an idea flashed in her mind, and she quickly regarded it as reality.

"So it's like this..." As if he had worked so hard to finally solve a world-class problem, what flashed in Lin Jian's eyes was the desire for self-knowledge.Every time she can understand herself better, she will be happy for it, which means that she is one step closer to the answer she wants.

This time it's a boy who doesn't know: "What's wrong?"

"I found out my sexuality could be female."

The boy wanted to be angry, wanted to be angry, but in the end the flowers in his hand were thrown to the ground, and he let his feet crush them: "I should have found out a long time ago."

At this moment, Lin Jianwu asked him, "How much did this bouquet cost?"

It is also to not owe favors to others. Every time a boy gives her something, she will give back something of equivalent value. If she can't find a reference on the Internet, she will also discount it.This time I will actually ask, because she is too concerned about the fact that she likes girls, and forgets to take into account the feelings of boys.This is bad, but Lin Jianwu has no chance to make amends, as if he had been humiliated, the boy waved his hand, leaving Lin Jianwu for the first time, and left alone.

A period of unrequited love belonging to a boy ended just like that, and Lin Jianwu's first love was about to begin.

Now that she has determined her sexual orientation, what to do next is actually quite a matter for Lin Jianwu to think about.

Because the question has been given, even if the answer obtained by solving the question is very unreasonable, but the correct process can only give the correct answer, so even if the answer is unreasonable, it is correct.

As for why she was sure that it was the correct process... Lin Jianwu knew it when she went to a gay bar for the first time.

Not long after Lin Jianwu entered, she was accosted by someone. The woman was a little older than her, with exquisite makeup and a chiffon skirt. What impressed people was that she wore a silver stud earring on her left ear.

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The author has something to say:

Regarding the possible acquaintance of Lin Jianwu and Er Jiasi, it was mentioned earlier.

The journey from Lin Chensan's previous house to the company was 10 minutes by bike, and the bus station where he met Er Jiasi for the second time was within this distance.

Chapter [-]:

Lin Jianwu scratched her chin before saying, "My previous house was not too far from here, it should only be about two kilometers away."

"It's just that the place where I live has been found by people who don't want to come to me. Now I plan to find a new house to breathe a little bit."

Chapter [-]:

Er Jiasi: "What you want to say is that we don't know each other well enough. For example, you just found out today that I am a student studying in this city, and you don't even know which university I am. You don't know either. What was I doing near that bus station a few nights ago? Why did I tell you that kind of night-running lie on a rainy night? Your name, you are an office worker in the neighborhood, and there is a previously rented house address that has already moved, so it can be said that you don’t know anything about you. You think we don’t know each other well at all. The level of being able to develop that relationship, right?"