are you a clown

"Many years ago, um, there is always this kind of saying now, saying that a good book can change life, and there are many recommended words written on the girdle of published books, what to say, must read in life, no You will regret reading it. At that time, I sneered at this statement. I thought it was difficult for a book alone to change a person’s life. If a person’s way of thinking is so easily influenced by a book, it only shows this. People are simply stupid guys without their own ideas, but in recent years, I have come to agree with this statement."

Er Jiasi didn't know why Lin Jianwu suddenly said this, but Lin Jianwu had such a magic power, when Lin Jianwu wanted to speak, she could only listen.

"Life is limited, people's choices are often limited, what we can do is also quite limited, and our understanding of many things is even more limited. After doing one thing, it is difficult to have time to do another thing, but many people don't understand. You need to understand everything before you can understand. Books provide such a channel, that kind of inexplicable mood, that kind of life that I have never experienced, the scenery that I have never heard, someone put it into the pen in the form of words , It is the kind of longing that arouses people from the bottom of their hearts, and a better understanding of themselves. Can a good book change life? Maybe it is, but compared to this statement, I prefer another... "

"...So the life we ​​are experiencing at this moment is actually a life that everything we have experienced has changed subtly and unknowingly."

"Not to mention books, but the things you meet, the people you meet, the games you play, the clothes you wear, the places you live, the beds you can sleep soundly, even the water you drink from different places can also play a role Such a function."

Lin Jianwu looked at Er Jiasi: "I heard that you want to know about me, so I was thinking about what kind of way to talk to you so that you can understand me better. After thinking about it, It's still better to use this way. After all, I can't say anything straightforward."

Before Er Jiasi could open her mouth, Lin Jianwu had already taken a book from the shelf. She seemed to be picking it up casually. It was an elementary school Chinese textbook taught by a teacher. Er Jiasi recognized it just by looking at the cover. , I really didn't expect that a bookstore can put such things on the bookshelves, can this be sold as a facade?So although it seems like 30 years ago, it was not 30 years ago after all, but Lin Jianwu didn't mean to put the book back and choose again. She opened the catalog and said: "Er Jiasi, listen to me first. Tell me something about this book, then tell you about me and you, and about me and Lin Chensan, okay?"

Er Jiasi really wanted to say no, but she had already followed Lin Jianwu here. She didn't know Lin Jianwu very well, but she knew very well that if she didn't follow Lin Jianwu's way of chatting, she might talk about it later. A lot, talked a lot, and when you look back, you will find that Lin Jianwu didn't say anything, but your bottom was completely exposed, and Lin Jianwu has already said so, it really doesn't make much sense to go around in circles For various reasons, she had no choice but to answer: "I would like to know what you can say with a primary school Chinese textbook."

"Primary school Chinese textbooks, of course, are about Chinese lessons in primary schools." Lin Jianwu followed the page number shown in the table of contents, page 12, and she turned to that page of the textbook, "This is the text in the fourth grade Chinese textbook. , It’s about the young Premier Zhou, "Reading for the Rise of China", I don’t know if you have any impression, this text is not long, only a few hundred words, it takes a few minutes, I’ll read it for you to listen to.” He picked up the book and started to read: "At the age of [-], Zhou/Enlai left his hometown and came to the Northeast. The Northeast at that time..."

It was the first time that Lin Jianwu's ability to recite was shown in front of Er Jiasi. From Lin Jianwu's emotional tone and complex gaze, Er Jiasi immediately felt that this person was very different from what he had imagined just now.Especially when listening to the text, Principal Wei asked the students the question: "Why do you study?" '.She couldn't help being shocked.This problem is currently the most troublesome for her, and it is already hard for her to imagine that Lin Jianwu took this book casually.

"Reading for the rise of China" is what Premier Zhou said almost a century ago, but it is not out of date now. Lin Jianwu read this text to her. For Er Jiasi, that kind of A sense of coherence emerged spontaneously, and she said, "I have an impression" almost as soon as Lin Jianwu had finished reading the text.

After reading this text, Lin Jianwu turned the page of the textbook again, followed by a row of matt words and two teaching objectives, and until the next text, there was still a large blank space on this page : "When I was in elementary school, I liked this text the most. In addition to listening to the teacher's lectures, I also copied all the analysis of this text from the teaching aids into this blank space in the textbook. I copied two Chinese lessons. , The notes are full. It is convenient for me to remember deeply every time I read it again.”

Only then did Er Jiasi seem to understand what Lin Jianwu first gave her about this book, and she had a feeling in her heart.It's not just about reminiscing about the past.Wasting time?No, this is actually to save time on purpose, and there is only one purpose, as Lin Jianwu said: to let each other understand each other better.

I know what worries you Erjiasi the most at the moment.I was also troubled by the things that bothered you.

As a person with the same ambition, you and I should be like this.

Then, after making a preliminary judgment on each other, there is a basis for a peaceful conversation, and a lot of things can be spread out, so that it will not be regarded as picking up old feelings or turning over old scores.In this way, Erjiasi will listen to what Lin Jianwu said, and only then can he listen to it.

Rather than talking about a thousand words and ten thousand words, the kind of heart-to-heart bond where everything is unspoken is obviously much more efficient.

This is an introduction, and Er Jiasi's whole body's vigilance relaxed: "When I was with you, you didn't tell me this."

In Er Jiasi's usual impression of Lin Jianwu, Lin Jianwu doesn't seem like an idealist, she can be realistic in many cases, but she still doesn't know that Lin Jianwu has this side.

"Because I can't find the time to say it." Lin Jianwu closed the book and put the primary school textbook that had completed its current mission back on the shelf, "Er Jiasi, you have always wanted to do your best in front of me , and the best look doesn't include these, right?"

Erjiasi didn't know how to describe that feeling: "I just feel that I am still in school and you have been working for several years. If I want to tell you about the things that bother me, I think I will I'm sorry, but secondly, I think you'll think I'm making a fuss out of a molehill."

"But isn't that what a lover should do?" Lin Jianwu's finger landed on the bookshelf, and two rows up were "My Friends Are Few", "My Youth Love Story Really Has a Problem", The separate volume of "My Girlfriend and My Childhood Sweetheart's Tragic Shura Field" is actually classified in foreign children's literature, "But the premise is that you are willing to tell me. If you don't tell me, I will naturally not be so ignorant to ask."

"I..." Er Jiasi suddenly felt powerless, "Is this the reason for breaking up?"

"No."

"Ok?"

"Loving someone and not loving someone, it's hard to tell the truth, isn't it?" Lin Jianwu suddenly asked this question, this time she didn't ask and answer by herself.

Erjiasi became strange: "I thought that people like you would not have any doubts about this."

"Although I know that one plus one equals two, I really don't know why one plus one equals two."

"is it?"

"For me, love is not a big thing. It is a piece of music interspersed between movies or plays, dessert after dinner, entertainment after work, and many trivial things in daily life. If someone will Love is regarded as the most important thing in a person’s life. I must think that that person has not brought his brain out of the amniotic fluid since he was born...Many love stories throughout the ages, although they are all about love on the surface, they are all about love. , It’s just that too many people only see love. So...” Lin Jianwu paused, her tone was cold, and her mood swings would not make people feel obvious, “Who is the object of love? For me, it doesn’t matter. That’s so important. What’s important is how much I can learn about myself by falling in love with such a love object. I used to only look at the results when I did things, but now, at least when it comes to falling in love, I will pay more attention to the value of the process.”

"But even though I said that, maybe I have never stepped into this river of love... After all, I don't even know what kind of person I am... I just know... I am in love ..."

Er Jiasi quickly waved her hand: "Wait, wait, what are you talking about? Let me slowly..." After taking a deep breath on the spot, she continued: "You are the same as me. Are you sure which type you like?""

"It should mean that I only found out that I don't like you a second before I want to break up with you." Lin Jianwu corrected.

"Is there any difference?"

"Yes. You say that like I'm a scum who plays with people's feelings, but in fact it's because people change." When Lin Jianwu said this, it seemed to be saying something very Ordinary things, "Until the second before I broke up with you, I liked you, that's for sure."

It's scum, Lin Jianwu.

Er Jiasi felt that she couldn't be in harmony with Lin Jianwu's brain circuit at all. They were indeed not the same way. Now, there is really nothing to say, and there is only one last question left: "You are also in this mood with Is Lin Chensan in love?"

"What do you mean by this feeling?"

Er Jiasi thinks that Lin Jianwu is completely ignorant of his mistakes, so he has to be serious: "Treat your love partner as a tool to understand yourself!!!"