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When people are young, it is always difficult to appreciate the cruelty of passing years. They always mistakenly think that time is tolerant enough to allow certain things to wait and wait, but forget that the most common thing in the passage of time is that things are right and people are wrong.So when Xu Xie finally had the courage to talk to Fang Zhi, the young boy he wanted to meet had already gone to Z University to report.

Chen Qiruo also rushed to Z University.Chen Mushu followed in her footsteps, performed surprisingly well in the college entrance examination, and obtained the first-line admission qualification of a prestigious university just two streets away from Z University.Yan Qing performed abnormally in the college entrance examination, and passed Z University, and she didn't want to go to other schools, so she was going to repeat her studies. Next year, she insisted on her dream and took the college entrance examination as a music student.Needless to say, Jiang An, who dedicated his entire high school life to the gossip trumpet, said that he was afraid that Yan Qing would be alone and accompany her to repeat the study. In fact, his father forced him to repeat the study because he could not get a good school with a score of more than 400 points. .

In short, busy, everyone has their own head.

Fang Zhi still did not give up looking for Xu Xie.During the summer vacation, he ran back and forth between this city and that seaside city, walking through unfamiliar or familiar streets, imagining the scene when he reunited with Xu Xie.He believed that as long as he ran hard, fast, and enough, sooner or later, he would meet his destined encounter.

No one paid attention to such abnormal behavior at first, and Fang Haisheng even felt very relieved. The boy who used to stay at home during the holidays is now much more lively, which made him inexplicably feel a sense of pride that my family has grown up.

Until one day, when He Hui was cleaning the house, she found a large stack of train tickets and air tickets—all belonged to Fang Zhi, and the destinations were all in the same city.

Fang Haisheng felt strange, so he raised his mouth at the dinner table that night, still in a joking tone: "Why do you always go there? Digging for treasures in the sea?"

Who knew that Fang Zhi was silent for a long time after these two questions, then quickly stripped away the rice in his bowl without saying a word, and then hurriedly said "I'm full, then I hid back in the room and never came out again." Pass.

The three remaining people at the dinner table looked at each other, but they didn't understand what was going on.

Although Fang Zhi's attitude towards this matter was very strange, no one took it seriously, and Fang Zhi returned to normal the next day.

I thought there was no follow-up to this casually mentioned thing, but who knew that on the day Fang Zhi was sent to the station to go to Z University, he himself brought it up again.

The day when the university starts is always the same, and the gate of the station is very lively that day.Fang Haisheng and He Hui, like every pair of parents who are worried about their children's poor life outside, pulled Fang Zhiqian to remind them, saying that they must tell the family if they have anything to do.

"Tell Uncle that the living expenses are not enough, do you know? Don't touch the money in your small coffers, save it for dating, and buy shoes for yourself, do you understand?" Fang Haisheng pulled Fang Zhi to look left and right, and looked up Let's take a look, no matter how you look at it, you don't feel at ease, and finally took out your phone and transferred another two thousand to Fang Zhi, "Forget it, I don't know you yet, and I don't know what to say if I have a mouth... I will transfer a little more to you when I am outside." Don't be bullied."

Looking at Fang Haisheng's rambling appearance, Fang Zhi felt sore and uncomfortable.

He didn't want to tell this man who cared about him and treated him like his own son about his relationship with Xu Xie, but he knew that if he refused to give up for a day, sooner or later, he would have a showdown with his family.

He didn't know what expression Fang Haisheng would have when he found out, no matter what it was, he didn't dare to face it, so there was no better time than now to say those words.

After finishing speaking, he can immediately go to other cities, at least half a year, for each other to think calmly.

The station announcement had already reminded him to enter the station. Fang Zhi took a deep breath and let it out slowly. Facing Fang Haisheng and He Hui, he first apologized: "Uncle, Aunt He, I'm sorry."

The two were baffled by him, and after looking at each other, they looked at him in unison, waiting for an explanation.

Fang Zhi's left hand clenched into a fist, and when his thumb was digging at the knuckle, it touched a hard object, so his strength slipped down, and he stroked the ring.

...as if the person who said he would accompany him to face it is still there.

Fang Zhi lowered his head, then raised it quickly, looked at the two with a serious expression mixed with guilt, and said, "I went to that place to find someone."

The two were stunned for a while, but He Hui was the first to react: "Looking for someone? Who are you looking for?"

Facing the clear eyes she was looking at, Fang Zhi lowered his head as if overwhelmed, but his voice did not lower: "Look for Xu Xie."

"He is my boyfriend."

After finishing speaking, Fang Zhi ran away in embarrassment.Fortunately, there were not many people at this time, so he entered the station quickly, and then ran to the waiting area with his head buried in the shouts of Fang Haisheng chasing after him.

All the way, his heart was beating wildly.He didn't know what the attitude of the two of them would be in half a year. At least Fang Haisheng was very irritable right now. He had been texting, calling, wechat, messaging, and video calling since he entered the station.He didn't dare to look at it, so he turned off the phone and threw it into his pocket. He didn't take out the phone to check it until he got in the car for 10 minutes and was already far away from Fang Haisheng.

There were 5 missed calls, 20 unread text messages, and 48 messages when I clicked on WeChat.

The continuous bombardment of news has stopped, and the last message on WeChat is, when you see the news, please explain it to me.

It is impossible to explain, and the fool hit the gun|muzzle at this time.Fang Zhi bought a bottle of water, drank it and decided to put the matter on hold for the time being. If he could find Xu Xie within half a year, he would drag Xu Xie back to the fire during the holidays. If he could not find Xu Xie within half a year... ...then figure it out.

When he was thinking about how to find someone to take the blame, Xu Xie was moving.

With the help of Lin Yufeng, he found a salary with a good salary.He has more than half a year of work experience, is capable, and at the same time has the blessing of Lin Yufeng's face. The boss values ​​​​him very much. He helps.

"Tsk tsk tsk, why didn't I find you so attractive before?" Lin Yufeng leaned against the door frame, touched his chin while watching Xu Xie tidy up his things in amazement, "As expected of Mr. Xu, he can do everything with ease. of."

Xu Xie: "..."

These days when he came back, Lin Yufeng has always talked to him in this tone, especially after knowing that he has not yet reconciled with Fang Zhi, every time he talks to him, there is a slight sarcasm.

Xu Xie thought about it, and thought it was an illusion: "Brother Lin, are you mocking me?"

Lin Yufeng was surprised indifferently: "Ah, did a fool like you actually hear it?"

Xu Xie: "..."

Oh, it was not an illusion.

Seeing his cowardice, Lin Yufeng became angry: "I don't understand, weren't you quite bold before? Why are you so stupid when it comes to Fang Zhi?"

Xu Xie paused for a while to tidy up, his eyes lingered on the ring for a while, and then he laughed at himself in a low voice: "Brother Lin, look at me now, how can I have the capital to deceive people?"

In the past, he still had the title of number one in his grade to save face, but now?I didn't graduate from high school, I was wandering around, and I needed help from others to find a job. Every day was mediocre, and I was worrying about life.As for Fang Zhi, a student at a prestigious university, he has good academic ability and has a bright future.

Unknowingly, their lives have lost a bit of intersection, and they have even become farther and farther apart.

To coax people, to put it simply, even if Fang Zhi still has feelings for him and is willing to be coaxed back by him, what then?What about the future?He couldn't just watch Fang Zhi being dragged down by him.

In the past, when he stood with Fang Zhi, he could still afford to be a "talent and good-looking", but now he can only get the evaluation of "unsuitable".

Seeing his obviously depressed mood, Lin Yufeng felt angry and anxious.

As a bystander, he couldn't understand the endless thoughts of the person involved.He just watched the two clearly in love, but one dared not step out, and the other searched everywhere like a headless chicken, missing each other even though they were close at hand, feeling helpless and anxious.

But he made up his mind not to help, and he also knew that this kind of matter could not be solved by the intervention of others, so he could only persuade this and look at that, so that the two people's journey would not be so difficult.

Lin Yufeng looked at Xu Xie who was staring at the ring in a daze, and sighed: "It's the attitude that deceives people. What kind of capital do you want? That's the only bad thing about you. You always think about the future, the future, but you Take a look, is your current life a little similar to the future you imagined? It is said that carpe diem is good for you. If you plan the future and then go back to live, what benefits can you get except walking more cautiously? Anyway, I Let me tell you clearly that no one's feelings can withstand consumption, if you don't say it now, when Fang Zhi has no feelings for you, he will completely treat you as a stranger, and no one will care about you if you coax the ghosts to go."

Xu Xie felt bored and hurt from what he said, and muttered rather self-defeatingly: "Maybe he has no feelings now..."

"What kind of scumbag are you talking!" Lin Yufeng punched him angrily, "He has no feelings, is he just joking around every day during the summer vacation?"

Xu Xie was a little dazed by his thumping and roaring. After a few seconds to react, his heart suddenly started beating wildly, and there was a bit of cautious expectation in his tone: "...Why are you running at both ends?"

Seeing his puzzled face, Lin Yufeng was a little dazed: "What? I didn't tell you that Fang Zhi didn't do anything this summer, did he go to the city you were in before... I didn't say Pass?"

The golden light diffused into the window, lighting up Xu Xie's eyebrows little by little, as if something he had died at a certain moment, revived at this moment.

The cicadas in this city are always warm and noisy. The insects hidden in the shade of the trees have witnessed the growth of groups of teenagers. .

"Hey! No! What the hell are you running! I really forgot... Fuck! You have to go to University Z to find someone now! He's starting school!"

Xu Xie couldn't quite hear what Lin Yufeng shouted behind him.He only knew that he wanted to see Fang Zhi now, urgently, eagerly.

The heart was beating wildly in the violent running, trying to transport blood oxygen to the limbs and bones, a little suffocated, but Xu Xie only felt extremely happy, as if something stagnant in his heart was suddenly broken up and turned into dust.

He suddenly understood that compared to Fang Zhi, he always worried too much, was self-righteous, cowardly and cowardly hid himself for a long time, and let Fang Zhi's hotness be wasted for a long time in vain.

A coward and a jerk.

Xu Xie ran downstairs to Fang Zhi's house in one breath, and only then supported his knees and began to pant.

In fact, his house is rented nearby, and it's the same when he packs up his things and comes here later, but he can't wait, not even a second.

Looking up at the familiar window, Xu Xie suddenly remembered that one night in his second year of high school, he was the same way. He came to find Fang Zhi with a relaxed and joyful body and mind, and then at the place where he was standing now, he waited for the little girl who came in a hurry. juvenile.

At that time, the boy raised his eyes that were shining brightly from the street lamps, and asked in a tone of surprise that he didn't realize, why are you here?

He still remembers the ins and outs of what happened.At that time, he was also like this, worried that Fang Zhi would be frightened by the spread of his desires, and thought that it would be good for both of them to be apart and calm down, but after seeing the young man who came for him, this kind of thought dissipated.

That night, he figured it out, everything is self-deception, nothing is worse than not being able to see Fang Zhi.

...Obviously something I wanted to understand so long ago, why did I have the heart to let Fang Zhi fail and be disappointed again and again?

Xu Xie panted heavily, bent over for a long time, and then straightened up as the dull pain in his heart gradually faded away.He was confused and sad just now, he didn't hear most of what Lin Yufeng yelled, and only then remembered to ask.He took out his phone, only to find that Lin Yufeng had sent him a message 3 minutes ago.

It's a few words and a screenshot of the ticket order.

[Brother Lin]: The ticket I bought for you will arrive at eight o'clock in the evening. Do you have any objections?

[Brother Lin]: [picture]

[Brother Lin]: I'm rushing to the station to bring you something, so you should hurry over here too.

[Brother Lin]: I'll help you like this, if you don't coax people well, don't come back.

[Brother Lin]: Hurry up.

[Brother Lin]: Also, remember to reimburse the ticket money.

Fang Zhi is a good-for-nothing in life, and after failing to spread the quilt for the fifth time, he completely lost his patience.

He suddenly felt a little regretful. Why did he refuse his roommate's offer to help him spread the quilt half an hour ago because of face?

It's all right now, the roommates made up the beds and went out to visit the campus, and I was still struggling with the quilt with the core separated.

... Numb.

After finding out that neither Baidu nor the video could teach him how to lay the quilt, Fang Zhi stuffed the quilt core into the quilt cover casually, and then went out without any psychological burden.

Generally speaking, the university campus in summer night is not too peaceful, especially today is the start of freshmen, and the campus is full of people.

What Fang Zhi disliked the most was this kind of environment.He walked around the campus for a long time, finally found a relatively quiet place, and then slowed down his hasty pace.

With this slowness, Fang Zhi realized that he was going around in circles and he didn't know where he was going around.There are trees and stone benches all around here, and there are some student couples clinging together. The lively place is on the other side of the river. In a certain moment, it looks like a student forest in No. [-] Middle School.

Fang Zhi sat down on a stone bench away from the lovers, and his thoughts began to drift away when he thought of No. [-] Middle School.It seems that no matter which school has such a place, it is only for young couples to date. When he and Xu Xie were together before, he would always go to Xuezilin, because it was hidden and silent, and it could block all the sights of them. Only there , They can kiss and hug wantonly, take off the disguise of friends and brothers, and tell the trees and trees in the forest to Xiachan that they are in love.

Fang Zhi rubbed the ring unconsciously again.

This morning, a roommate asked him curiously whether this was worn for fun or had some special meaning.

He replied without much hesitation: "It's a couple ring, mine and my boyfriend's."

He thought that others would be disgusted or disgusted, but unexpectedly, the other party didn't. There was nothing but shock, and even congratulated him.

And he's not alone in this attitude.

The other roommate didn't show any negative emotions when he found out, he just joked and said: "Oh, the girls in our class are going to be disappointed now, I thought my little brother was single, but I didn't expect him to be famous long ago gone."

The others smiled kindly in agreement.

Fang Zhi also smiled, feeling relaxed and sad.

Because he suddenly thought of the time when he was estranged from Xu Xie because he was afraid. If he had known that everything was not as terrible as he thought, those days would not be a time that he feels regretful and depressed every time he thinks about it.

Not far away, a couple started kissing.The voice was a bit loud, and Fang Zhi was a little embarrassed to hear it.He slowly withdrew his drifting thoughts, and was about to get up and leave, but at this moment, he saw a snow-white kitten under a street lamp not far away.

Kind of like milk balls.

I don't know if the street lights here are to add to the date atmosphere or what. The warm yellow color falls on the kitten, which makes it look very obedient and cute.

Fang Zhi twitched his fingers and walked forward unconsciously. When he recovered, he was already squatting in front of the kitten.

The kitten is used to it at school, and it is not afraid of people. When it sees Fang Zhi approaching, it doesn't hide, so it raises its head and opens its big round eyes, looking at Fang Zhi and meowing.

Fang Zhi, the cat slave, has been turned into a cutie.

He rummaged through all the pockets on his body, and finally found a pack of small fish snacks left over from lunch in his pants pocket.

Pretty lucky.

He tore open the packaging bag, squeezed out the dried fish inside and fed it to the kitten, and then touched the kitten's soft and beautiful fur with peace of mind.

The touch is also like a milk ball.

Thinking of milk balls, Fang Zhi felt a little homesick.

I don't know how Uncle and Aunt He are doing now, should I call and ask?After all, it was the first time for me to go to school far away, and I didn't even report that I was safe, would it be bad?Or just wait until they accept themselves and Xu Xie...

"Brother Fang!"

Fang Zhi's fingers stroking the kitten's fur froze, and before he could react consciously, his body reacted first, and a soreness quickly flooded his nasal cavity.

He imagined the scene where he and Xu Xie reunited.

If Xu Xie softened his heart and was willing to come back, they might reunite in a place where they stayed together in No. [-] Middle School, in front of Zhuxi's store, on the top of Old Man Mountain, or under a certain amusement facility in the central playground.

If Xu Xie's heart is hardened and he doesn't want to come back, then they can also meet again at the seaside of that strange city, in a crowded street market, or in a famous tourist attraction.

He thought about thousands of scenes when he reunited with Xu Xie, and also thought about what he would do after the reunion, but none of those scenarios was here, so he also forgot what he should do.

Seeing the familiar figure squatting not far away, Xu Xie suddenly hesitated.

The driver who brought him over drove wildly, stopping abruptly all the way, which made him dizzy and his stomach turned upside down.When he got out of the car, he felt extremely uncomfortable, and he also had double images when he saw things, but when he hurriedly walked on the campus and caught the familiar figure under the warm yellow street lamp, he subconsciously yelled.

But the man didn't look back, and didn't move.

Xu Xie suspected that he had read it wrong, but his heart was beating so fast, so violently, so hot, the same frequency as every time he was with Fang Zhi.

His heart remembered his lover for him.

So he finally broke free from the hesitation he had been having all this time, and stepped forward quickly, but stopped when the opponent suddenly stood up.

The man turned around slowly, his eyes were red, he paused when he saw the person coming, and then the redness in his eyes slowly extended to the end of his eyes.

The tip of Xu Xie's heart seemed to be pinched, and it instantly became sore - he suddenly realized that he was very familiar with such a Fang Zhi.

...so I was always making him sad.

He took a step forward, wanting to get closer to Fang Zhi, but just like countless times before, the boy he liked always spoke before him.

A tear fell from Fang Zhi's eyes unknowingly, winding down his cheek from under the eyes to his chin, leaving a trail of tears.As if he came out of the video that Xu Xie had watched more than a dozen times, his voice was soft and hoarse: "Normally, at this time, you should immediately come over and hug me, and then say... I like you. "

At night at this time of year, there was still a bit of residual warmth from the day, Fang Zhi felt a strong hot wind blowing over him, and in the next second, he was in Xu Xie's embrace.

The young man who looked mature was buried in his neck, his voice choked up: "...I'm sorry."

Fang Zhi clenched his clothes tightly, sniffing his scent lightly with the tip of his nose, tears fell all over the visitor's clothes.He was wronged and sad: "I don't want to hear these three words."

"Okay, then I'll change it."

"I love you."