After we broke up, I still asked about your situation

Tu Jiazhi had never seen such a decisive expression on Tong Shen, so he had no choice but to sit down quietly and listen to him explain the cause and effect.

Tong Shen had to add a few words of self-reflection every two sentences, and Tu Jiazhi felt unreasonable after listening to it: "Why do you think it's your fault?"

"These things are all because of me..."

"What's wrong with you?" Tu Jiazhi interrupted him anxiously, "Should you teach those gangsters a lesson or should you help my brother raise me? And my family members were killed... What does this have to do with you? Can it stop the avalanche? Even if my brother didn't go abroad, even if he just stayed in Yangning, my aunt and the others would want to get closer and take pictures for him. What the hell does this have to do with you?! Why do you have to give yourself peace These trumped-up charges?!"

Tong Shen pursed his lips and said nothing.

Tu Jiazhi has the position to exonerate him, but he can't.

He really couldn't be that calm.

"And what are you trying to do by telling me this?" Tu Jiazhi pinched his forehead distractedly, got up and grabbed a handful of hair, then turned back and bent over, "You want me to hate you because of this?"

He held Tong Shen's wrist tightly, gritted his teeth and said, "You are dreaming!"

"Tong Shen, why are you so naive?!" He raised his hand and didn't know where to vent, so he punched the wall with his fist, "Do you think I will hate you because of these things? How much do you look down on me? Do you think I am Do you play house with you, and you will break up with me if you have a big problem?"

Tong Shen licked his lips that were almost chapped from talking too much: "I..."

"Don't be so self-righteous!" Tu Jia said angrily, "Shu Bai pretended to be mature just because he was a few years older than you, and what he did in the end was all fucking mental retardation!"

"You..." Tong Shen said weakly, "Don't say that about him..."

"Then what?! Do you still want me to praise him?!" Tu Jiazhi gritted his teeth, "This matter is going to fall on me, I can think of a thousand and ten thousand ways to make those hooligans unable to eat ! Fortunately, he is still a graduate student! Only when his brain is flooded can he do such a stupid thing as sending himself to prison!"

"..."

"And you." When the topic turned to Tong Shen, Tu Jiazhi breathed a sigh of relief, and his tone was a little gentler, "You pretended to be mature because you were a few years older than me, and never considered my opinion when making decisions—I was How stupid do you think?"

"..."

Tong Shen kept silent.

"Don't mention this matter again, I can't hate you because of this kind of thing - I can't hate you because of anything, don't find some reason to block yourself." Tu Jiazhi said, "As for my brother... You don't have to worry. Although he can't find a good job in his situation, he won't starve to death. Besides, my aunt has left things for him. When he comes out, he will develop well and he will not be bad in the future. "

"I've already considered this." Tong Shen interjected, "I'll go find my sister tomorrow..."

"No need." Tu Jiazhi shook his head, "My brother won't accept your help."

"But……"

"Maybe he still wants to repay your kindness for helping him take care of his family for so many years." Tu Jiazhi said, "everything you do will only increase his burden."

"..." Tong Shen frowned.

Tu Jiazhi looked at him, closed his eyes, and said as calmly as possible: "Whether it's you or Shu Bai, I hope that when you make a decision, you can stand on someone else's side and think for others, don't always be so Take it for granted. Shu Bai thought that by keeping this matter a secret from his family, he would not worry the family? So his parents couldn't see him for nearly two years before his death. Don't they regret it? Doesn't Shu Bai regret it?"

After a pause, he said: "As for you... I admit that if you told me the truth when I was 14 years old, I would not continue to accept your support, but at least..."

"At least, you should have told me in the year my relatives passed away... because I couldn't leave you at that time." He choked up, "If, if I knew that you had never been with him, then I And why..."

"Forget it." He sighed, "Maybe you just want to punish me. After all, I did commit crimes above and below, and I really miss you shamelessly, so I deserve to suffer for so many years."

"No..." Tong Shen said quickly, "I didn't mean that... I really didn't mean to..."

"It's all over, I don't blame you." Tu Jiazhi leaned over and hugged him helplessly, "I can understand you, brother."

Tong Shen had a sore nose and almost couldn't help crying in his arms.

"I know these things are really difficult for you...I know you've tried your best." Tu Jiazhi rubbed his head sideways and rubbed his hair, and said softly, "I'm not angry with you, just, just feel sorry for you... just said The tone is a little anxious, don't be sad... I don't want to see you sad. "

"……Um."

"I won't talk about the past, okay?" Tu Jiazhi said, "If you really blame yourself and want to do something for Shu Bai, that's fine. I'll help you, okay? You want to use your relationship to help him Looking for a job, yes, I will work with you to find a way to deceive him, and he will definitely accept it."

"……Um."

"It will get better and better in the future, I swear." Tu Jiazhi said, "If you really feel that you owe me, then..."

He tightened his arms: "Just pay yourself back to me, okay? No matter what, don't leave me... don't leave me. "

After a moment of silence, Tong Shen nodded: "Okay."

"I don't believe you." Tu Jiazhi said, "You swear."

"I..." Tong Shen held his breath and said after a long time, "I swear."

"If you lie to me," Tu Jiazhi said after thinking about it, "I'll be homeless for the rest of my life. I won't be able to start a family or start a business. I'll be alone and wandering for the rest of my life. I'll be alone and destitute for the rest of my life."

Tong Shen's lips twitched, and he said after a long while, "You know I can't make such an oath."

"Okay, I'll send it for you." Tu Jiazhi laughed indifferently, "Anyway, this is not a vow, but a reality. If I don't even have you... then I can only live like that for the rest of my life. If you don't believe me , then you try."

"...I see." Tong Shen pushed him away forcefully, pulling his lips forcefully, "I'm a little hungry, shall we have dinner?"

Tu Jiazhi observed him carefully for a moment, pinched his face and asked, "What are you thinking?"

"...I really didn't think about anything, but I was a little dazed from hunger." Tong Shen waved his hand away, "I haven't eaten all day."

"Okay." Tu Jiazhi didn't press again, "Then I'll heat up the dishes first, and soon, you go sit at the dining table and wait for me."

Tong Shen nodded weakly.

Seeing Tu Jiazhi enter the kitchen, he dragged himself to the dining table, just sat down, feeling a little tired, so he simply lay down on the table.

The resolute vows made by Tu Jiazhi just now echoed in his mind.

"I didn't even say it, so I shouldn't know how to count it?" He thought silently, "This kid looks mature and stable on the surface, but in fact, his words and actions are really extreme, and I don't know how he has the nerve to accuse Shu Bai—— If the events of the year were replaced by him, it is estimated that he would be sentenced to more than five years."

In the current situation, we can only seek stability temporarily. Only when Shu Bai is released from prison in two months can someone restrain him.

Otherwise, as it is now, I will definitely not be able to leave, and there is a high probability that I will make trouble like last time and make my friends around me feel uneasy.

two months...

Tong Shen sighed imperceptibly: I have to think about my future.

Last time, in order to appease Tu Jiazhi, he revealed all the addresses of his parents and older brothers and sisters at home and abroad. Although it is not so convenient to go abroad, with Tu Jiazhi's character, he probably can really go abroad to block people.

So had to find a new place.

Find a place where no one knows you, and cut yourself off from all friends.

...It's not that difficult when you think about it.

Anyway, I don't necessarily have a deep friendship with those friends before, so if I cut off contact, I should cut off contact.

Thinking of this, he couldn't help but silently recite what Tu Jiazhi just said in his heart.

Lonely, alone, alone.

Tong Shen thought amusedly, this oath has not yet fallen on Tu Jiazhi, and it seems that it will be fulfilled by himself first.

"Okay." Tong Shen whispered to himself, "Take it as an atonement in prison, as for the sentence..."

Sentence pending.

It just depends on when Tu Jiazhi is willing to let him go.

Not long after, Tu Jiazhi came out with a hot meal. The two ate face to face, and the atmosphere was the same as usual.

As the night passed, both of them pretended that what happened the day before had never happened, and life went on as usual.

When it was time for the next visit, Tong Shen took Tu Jiazhi with him, thinking that after all they had been separated for so many years, it was better for the two brothers to meet in advance to avoid embarrassment when they got along.

Another month later, Shu Bai was officially released from prison. The two brought Shu Bai back to Beijing and Shanghai, and helped him settle down near the place where he was going to work in the future.

Although five years is not a long time, the outside world is changing with each passing day. Shu Bai was born in software engineering and needs to update the knowledge base in time. Tong Shen helped him to buy half a year for him to get used to it before entering the job.

The job was found through the relationship of the Tong family. Tong Shen confessed to the family about Shu Bai in advance, and mentioned Tu Jiazhi by the way, but did not mention the complicated relationship between himself and Tu Jiazhi.

The family was mentally prepared that he would get into trouble sooner or later, so they asked Second Sister Tong Shen to help him find a job without asking.

Because of Shu Bai's excellent professionalism, coupled with the Tong family's endorsement, a small stain is not a fatal problem, so the process went smoothly.

But this matter has not been told to Shu Bai yet.

Tong Shen and Tu Jiazhi discussed it. After Shu Bai got used to the life outside, he asked Tu Jiazhi to remind Shu Bai Haitou to find an opportunity to disclose the company's recruitment information to him. After that, everything should follow the formal process and Shu Bai would not find himself. "Being" walked through the back door.

Since Shu Bai hadn't seen each other for more than four years, the atmosphere between Shu Bai and Tu Jiazhi was indeed a bit stiff when he was released from prison, but they were cousins ​​after all, and the relationship between the two became very harmonious soon.

So Tong Shen began to plan to leave.

At present, Shu Bai and Tu Jiazhi are both unemployed. Although they have their parents' inheritance, the consumption in Beijing and Shanghai is high, and the monthly rent alone can bring huge pressure to the two. Therefore, Tong Shen's first thing is to take Tu Jiazhi to transfer the ownership for two years. Suites, one for rent and one for living.

If it were normal, Tu Jiazhi would definitely not be willing, but now he thinks that Tong Shen still feels guilty for what happened before, so in order to make Tong Shen feel better, he can only follow Tong Shen to transfer the ownership in silence.

As a result, Tong Shen's room was completely vacated on the second day after the matter was finished.

Tu Jiazhi knocked on the door in the morning to ask Tong Shen to eat, but there was no answer after knocking for half a minute. He kicked the door and went in. The quilt on the bed was neatly folded, as if it was the same as yesterday.

Not long after, Shu Bai heard the sound and came over, saw no one in the room, and didn't realize the seriousness, so he asked slightly surprised: "Why did Xiao Shen get up so early today?"

"He's gone." Tu Jiazhi was expressionless, but his eyes seemed to pierce the bedding on the bed, as sharp as a sword, "He ran away."

Shu Bai was stunned for a moment, realizing that there was something wrong with Tu Jiazhi's tone, and looked sideways at him: "Jiajia, you..."

"He doesn't want me anymore." The veins on the back of Tu Jiazhi's hand holding the handle burst out, "He doesn't care about me."

"Jiajia..." Shu Bai pressed his shoulder anxiously, "What's the matter with you? What happened? You can tell my brother well, okay?"

"We have already made an oath...I obviously wish I could curse myself to death...but he still has to go." Tu Jiazhi strangled his throat hard, his cheeks tense, "He doesn't care about me."

"Ka..."

"For so many years, so many years..."

Tu Jiazhi slid along the base of the wall and knelt on the ground, breathing heavily with his head buried.

Due to lack of oxygen, he slammed his forehead on the floor uncontrollably, but his voice was so soft that it could be blown away by the wind:

"He never cared about me."

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