After we broke up, I still asked about your situation

Tong Shen's muscles tensed up, and he was about to strike back when he suddenly noticed something and immediately lost all his strength.

The room was dark, and the person in front of him smelled of men's perfume, everything seemed different, but Tong Shen knew that this person was Tu Jiazhi.

He let the other party press himself against the wall, raised his head, and tried hard to see the other party's face clearly.

Tu Jiazhi didn't hug him, but squeezed his shoulder hard.

There was a restrained distance between the two, neither of them spoke first, and there was only the sound of deliberately suppressed shallow breathing for a long time.

After a long time, Tong Shen felt a little pain in his shoulder and moved slightly.

Tu Jiazhi immediately let go and stepped back, saying in a low voice, "I'm sorry."

"It's okay, it doesn't hurt, it's just a little stiff."

As if he finally found a crack that could break through the ice, Tong Shen said several short sentences in a row, wishing he could grab Tu Jiazhi's hand and press it on his shoulder again.

Seeing that there was no response from the other party, he took the initiative to speak again: "Why are you here?"

Before getting an answer, he continued talking to himself as if he was afraid that the atmosphere would be cold: "It's boring down here, isn't it? Haha, I think so too."

Faint light penetrated from outside the curtains. Tu Jiazhi came early, and his eyes had already adapted to the darkness, so he could barely see.

He stared at Tong Shen obsessively for a long time, then called softly, "Brother."

The moment the voice came out, both of them were a little bit off guard.

Tong Shen met many people calling him "Brother Shen" since he was a child, but only Tu Jiazhi would call him "Brother" in a somewhat dependent tone.

Tu Jiazhi also only yelled in front of Tong Shen.

People around him said that he was a precocious young man, so he also subconsciously demanded this of himself. I don't know when he started calling his parents only single characters, but when facing Tong Shen, he would unconsciously show weakness.

"Brother." He called again, opening his mouth to say something, but he didn't know where to start.

Hearing him say that, Tong Shen felt that his breathing was throbbing.

"You..." He raised his hand and tugged on Tu Jiazhi's tie, "Come here, come closer to me, don't stand so far away."

Tu Jiazhi hesitantly took half a step closer.

Tong Shen wrapped the tie around his hands twice, forcing him to lower his head and get closer.

Hot air tangled between breaths.

Tong Shen raised his head slightly, and his lips touched Tu Jiazhi's chin.

The intimate contact filled his heart instantly, so he impatiently pretended to greet the other party in such a rude and restrained manner, and asked bluntly, "Are you sneaking here, or...waiting for me?"

"..." Tu Jiazhi's Adam's apple rolled, and he said in a hoarse voice, "waiting for you."

"Why are you waiting for me?"

"...I want to see you." Tu Jiazhi said, "I want to talk to you."

"That's all?" Tong Shen asked forcefully, "Did you think of anything else?"

"..." Tu Jiazhi's breathing suddenly became uncontrollable.

Tong Shen couldn't bear him, so he pulled his tie hard again, and was about to kiss him, but Tu Jiazhi turned his face away.

"...What do you mean?" Tong Shen was ashamed and angry, "Did you dislike me?"

"No." Tu Jiazhi said with difficulty, his cheeks stiffened, "I don't know... Is my brother still single now?"

"Yes." Tong Shen said immediately, "I haven't found anyone else in these years, and I've never held hands with anyone."

After a pause of two seconds, he suddenly smiled: "I won't ask you, after all, it was me..."

"I don't." Tu Jiazhi interrupted him, his tone suddenly became urgent, but his voice was still suppressed, "How could I find someone else? Do you think I can fall in love with anyone other than you in my life, Tong Shen?"

His throat choked, and he couldn't tell whether it was grievance or anger: "How can you think... I will find someone else?"

Tong Shen didn't know how to answer, pursed his lips and lowered his head evasively.

The two remained silent as if confronting each other. After a while, Tong Shen was the first to lose.

He slightly loosened the tie in his hand, leaned back against the wall tightly, his chin almost reached his chest, and asked cautiously, "Then you... are you... still, still willing..."

Halfway through the conversation, he felt that he was really shameless.

Back then, he tried every means to escape, but now he is brazenly begging others to change their minds...how dare you be?

Tu Jiazhi didn't wait a long time for the next sentence. He couldn't wait to take the initiative to take a step forward, but finally felt unwilling.

But Tong Shen kept silent. He was afraid that this person would run away again, so he gritted his teeth and pushed him: "You didn't want me at the beginning, but now you want to turn around, but you don't even want to ask me one more question? I am in your eyes. Li is so cheap?"

"No...don't say that..." Tong Shen immediately said, "I, I just don't know how to speak... I'm afraid you won't want to, and you think I'm so fucking shameless, how can I be ashamed..."

Tu Jiazhi was so angry that he pulled back his tie, and said coldly, "Then forget it."

"Don't..." Tong Shen hurriedly grabbed him, "Don't go..."

Tu Jiazhi stopped in his tracks.

Tong Shen swallowed his saliva, closed his eyes and said, "I just want to ask you if you can think about me now... Back then, it was my brain that made a mistake... It wasn't a crime... I... Back then... I'm just afraid, I'm afraid, do you understand? I don't know how to face Shu Bai, I don't know how to tell others about us...I don't know what to do to be right, I don't know how to get along with you, I feel like I'm simply I'm just committing a crime. I think I should leave. I thought that as long as I leave, everything will be fine, but I, I don't know... How can I be so uncomfortable? My six years... How can I live like this What about suffering?"

Tu Jiazhi resisted not turning around to hug him, and asked bluntly: "What about now? Now you are not afraid anymore?"

"I'm afraid." Tong Shen said in a low voice, "I haven't figured out what the two of us are, and I still don't know how to talk to Shu Bai."

"Then why are you still asking me?"

"Because I want to." Tong took a deep breath and said slowly, "I used to always think that the reason why you are so courageous is because you are young and talented, but I can't. Now I understand, is there actually Courage has nothing to do with age, it has nothing to do with choice."

He held Tu Jiazhi's hand tightly, raised his head and said, "Those who have a way out are qualified to think carefully, because they can choose other ways if they can't take this way, so they need to consider the risks and costs. As for those who have no way out, just I can only put all my eggs in one basket, and those who are barefoot and not afraid of wearing shoes are of course more courageous."

"I'm your only choice?" Tu Jiazhi looked sideways, "Why?"

"Because...you used to think of me as the only one." Tong Shen said bitterly, "You used to say that I saved you, but it wasn't. You saved me. Before I met you, I never felt that I was useful. You know me There is also a big brother and a second sister on it. My parents had both children before they gave birth to me. I didn’t plan to have another child. It was purely accidental that I was too lazy to have an abortion. My older brothers and sisters are very powerful. With them, the Tong family can live again It will last for 100 years, and I am dispensable, so the family indulges me because they think it doesn’t matter what I become, because I am not a necessity for anyone or anything..."

"Only you need me so much." Tong Shen choked up and said, "Only you once said that without me...you can't live."

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555 Sorry for being late and short, because there is something wrong with the three-dimensional element, I thought it could be finished at six o'clock, but I almost made it all night 555 Now it's completely all night after coding orz

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