I was petted by top idols by turning a pen [entertainment circle]

As a normal man in his twenties who understands real-time Weibo, it is impossible for Chen Yuan not to read Ji Yu's subtext:

"Who are you to persuade Li Xiao not to drink?"

He felt that he received a cold knife for no reason, smiled embarrassedly, and explained: "He just told me."

Ji Yu remembered that Li's previous limit was a can of beer, which would put him in the "drunk and sober" stage, beyond which he would basically fall asleep directly.

This is true of beer, not to mention other alcohol.

But now, he can drink any kind of wine, and his capacity for alcohol is not bad.Last time I obviously drank a lot of high-grade wine, and I can still wear a tie with quick fingers when I get home.

He asked Chen Yuan: "Then is he practicing his drinking capacity now?"

"correct."

Chen Yuan's inexplicable tone made Ji Yu a little annoyed, and he didn't know where the fire came from, so he asked in a low voice, "Why do you want to practice?"

"You can't enter the entertainment industry without drinking, especially Li Xiao, who was dragged to drink with him before his debut. After that incident, he said that he wanted to improve his drinking capacity."

Ji Yuxin seemed to be caught again: "What's the matter?"

Chen Yuan glanced at him, feeling that Ji Yu knew it well, and didn't want to make it so obvious: "You know, it didn't happen when he debuted."

Ji Yu was really annoyed now, annoyed at Chen Yuan's hypocrisy, annoyed that he had no memory of what happened when Li Xiao didn't make his debut.

At that time he was his boyfriend,

He said directly: "I don't fucking know."

Chen Yuan was taken aback for a moment, but he didn't expect that this person not only had knives in his eyes, but also stabbed in his words.

Maybe I really don't know.he thinks.

So he started to explain in a business-like tone: "Okay. You know that there are unspoken rules in the entertainment industry."

This word surprised Ji Yu. Chen Yuan, who thought it was irrelevant but didn't want to go straight to the point, poked a knife called "hidden rules".

An unreasonable worry and fear climbed up, and he even swallowed his saliva before asking the next sentence: "Is it the unspoken rule I thought?"

Chen Yuan laughed: "Probably so. Anyway, you know, capital puts interests first. If it's just a small company, it may be coercion. For a big company like SOL, there is definitely no coercion, which affects reputation, but voluntary ones still exist." , after all, there are many niche students who want to be in the top position."

Ji Yu didn't speak.

"SOL, a company that made its fortune in Yushi, has been able to grow bigger and stronger, and it is indispensable to have dinner with big shots from all walks of life to discuss resources. They have a tradition of attracting beautiful artists to socialize with them, so they mean to accompany the leader. Li Xiao You know, he is very good-looking. When he was called to accompany him for the first time, he immediately fell in love with the two capitalists at the dinner. They said that if he wanted to, he could package him separately and make him a big star. There is no need to torture trainees and gangs."

Ji Yu understood what this "willing" meant.

He was a little afraid to listen.

"This kind of thing is your choice, and no one will force it. Li Xiao would not do it either. But no one thought at that time that he could not drink any alcohol, and Li Xiao himself did not think that the alcohol was so strong. He I was forced to take a sip out of luck and got drunk."

"He fell asleep leaning on the chair, right at the dinner."

Ji Yuqing couldn't help clenching her hands tightly, her voice trembling: "And then."

"But everyone else is still there. Those two capitalists must have really taken a fancy to Li Xiao. They thought he was very interesting and good-looking like that, and they wanted to play with him even more."

"Then they went to touch him."

Snapped.

The chopsticks fell out of Ji Yu's hands, fell to the ground, and rolled towards his feet.

For a moment, it was as if someone had pushed his head into the water tank, suffocating out of breath, and his ears were roaring.

Ji Yu didn't even notice that the chopsticks fell off, so he asked in disbelief, "Did they touch him?"

"No. Li Xiao seemed to have a radar on his body, and he woke up immediately after they touched his hand. At that time, Li Xiao didn't know any rules after all, so he was kind of... how should I put it, immature. He didn't know who gave him the sobriety and courage, so he stood up and poured all the wine on the two predators, and ran out."

"This matter naturally made the two capitalists furious. The SOL executives at the dinner party were also very angry that day. They thought that Li Xiao would not come, and no matter what, they couldn't pour alcohol. For a while, they wanted to hide him. No, not even the practice room for him.”

"But it is a big company after all. At that time, Li Xiao went crazy to find the monitoring of the dinner. They were afraid that they would not be able to follow through. If this tradition of unspoken rules was exposed, it would be over. And it might be a little guilty. The dinner collapsed anyway. Li Xiao is still there anyway, and the conditions are so good, so it's like this again. Let's see if he can get out of it."

"When did that happen?"

"Just three months before debut."

It took him three months to live in the company dormitory.

"Li Xiao was in the same dormitory as me. He ran back that night and fell unconscious. He fell to the ground and scared me to death. Fortunately, he was only sleeping. When he woke up the next day, he made up his mind that he must learn to drink. , and then I helped him find a surveillance camera, so I have a better understanding of the situation at that time. That's it."

Chen Yuan heaved a sigh of relief after explaining, feeling that the task had been completed.He started picking up vegetables and eating on his own.

But Ji Yu couldn't eat anymore.

He turned his head to look at Li Xiao.

Li Xiao immediately felt his gaze, squinted and smiled at him in the crowd.

Ji Yu looked away again.

He couldn't recover from this blow to the head, and his heart hurt from the blow.It was at this time that he received a message from the nurse's aunt.

Said grandma had a fever.

Then he stood up abruptly, as if jumping from one bad reality to another bad reality.

He made a big move, and the chair was turned directly to the ground, and everyone looked at him.

Infectious fever in patients with blood diseases is likely to be fatal, and conversely, fever is also common in patients with blood diseases.Since coming to the capital, grandma has had a fever twice, but for some reason, Ji Yu is now in a state of anxiety, as if she is about to lose her former calmness.

Li Xiao came over and helped him up the chair: "What's wrong."

Ji Yu didn't answer, but took a deep look at him.

Li Xiao felt that there was something inexplicable in Ji Yu's eyes, and he looked helpless.

He probably understood:

"Go, I'll be with you."

As he spoke, he pulled Ji Yu out, and the staff called him: "Where are you going, Brother Xiao, I have to come back to comment later——"

"I can't." Li Xiao put down these few words briefly, then walked out with Ji Yu, and quickly got into the car to go to the hospital.

Ji Yu didn't say a word all the way, which made Li Xiao even more worried.When he got out of the car, he stuffed Ji Yu's hand into his own: "Don't worry, my god."

Ji Yu hummed, and moved forward.

When they arrived at the ward, grandma was lying weakly on the hospital bed with her eyes closed.

The attending doctor, Zhou Hong, was also there, so he checked the situation.Said to Ji Yu:

"I just took the medicine, and the fever has not subsided. You should wipe your body with warm water. Pay attention to whether there is any rash or bleeding tendency on any part of the body. Work hard tonight."

"Okay, thank you Doctor Zhou."

Ji Yu, Li Xiao and the nurse's aunt were all guarding the ward, taking turns taking care of her and taking their body temperature.In the early hours of the morning, grandma's fever finally subsided.

The two came out of the ward.

Hospitals are always a place where noise and silence are inseparable.Even in the early hours of the morning, you can hear the rescue of medical staff and the rush of family members here, but on the other side, only the blue antibacterial floor reflects a string of bright white lights, which is very dazzling and quiet.

As soon as you are quiet, you will think of some urgent problems that need to be solved.

Li Xiao feels a little sleepy when he relaxes now, but he always thinks that Ji Yu hasn't agreed to him yet.The smell of disinfectant in the hospital was heavy, making it stuffy.

He wanted to go out to catch his breath.

Before he could say anything, Ji Yu spoke first: "I want to smoke a cigarette, go upstairs to the rooftop?"

"it is good."

As soon as he stepped onto the rooftop, Li Xiao woke up when he was blown by the refreshing night wind in the early morning, and even felt a sense of comfort.

He watched the flickering lights of the opposite building, and counted the windows to see which one was his home.

Later, he will also take Ji Yu home and light up a grid of lights.

He turned his head to face Ji Yu again, and Ji Yu just took out the cigarette case and took out one.

Speaking of which, he hadn't seen Ji Yu smoke for a long time, but on the day they reunited, Ji Yu caught him smoking.

"I'll have one too."

"En." Ji Yu handed it over.

Li Xiao picked up one and held it slantly in his mouth. He didn't have a lighter now, so he was waiting for Ji Yu to light it first.

Ji Yu also only had the disposable lighter that he bought a few days ago, which was push-type and had an advertisement printed on it.

It may be because the lighter is of poor quality, and the night wind is strong, making it difficult to light a fire.He had no choice but to cover the fire with his other hand, lowered his eyes and closed his eyes. When he took the first sip, his cheeks were slightly retracted, and he raised his head slightly.

Smoke flew into the sky.

He habitually likes to raise his head when he takes the first puff of a cigarette, and his whole body seems to be stained with a rebellious and free flavor by the smoke.Li Xiao looked fascinated.

Ji Yu felt that Li Xiao was like a cynical dandy, who had been smoking a cigarette for a long time, letting his body move up and down.

"God, borrow the fire."

Ji Yu handed over the lighter.

In the end, Li Xiao's hand directly wrapped his hand.

Thumb pressed his thumb.

Ji Yu's thumb pressed the switch tightly under his strength, and the flames burst out.

Li Xiao raised his other hand to cover the fire, leaned slightly, and the light of the fire swayed on the tip of his nose.

He used Ji Yu's hand to light a cigarette.

After taking a puff, he pinched the body of the cigarette with his thumb and index finger, tilted his head loosely, and then slowly exhaled the smoke. The white gas blurred his face and drifted past Ji Yu's ears.

He let go, and Ji Yu slowly put the lighter in his pocket, but his eyes couldn't move away from Li Xiao's smoky face.

This was the first time for the two of them to swallow clouds and smoke together, and their eyes were inevitably intertwined in the night, and the red light of the cigarette butts also seemed to be intertwined in sympathy.But soon the two stood side by side, looking at the dark purple night.

"When will you start smoking?" Ji Yu asked him.

Li Xiao raised his eyebrows: "I can't remember exactly after my debut."

"Is it a lot of pressure?"

"Maybe." Li Xiao chuckled, and a puff of smoke just spewed out, "It's mainly because of being handsome."

Ji Yu brought the cigarette to his mouth again, exhaled, and the mist dispersed:

"What about drinking? Is it also because you are handsome?"

"That's not true," Li Xiao said calmly, "you have to drink something when you eat with someone."

Ji Yu squinted at him.

This is the second time he saw Li Xiao smoking, still the same, flirtatious and melancholy, with frivolous eyes but deep eyes, like a handsome street boy wandering outside after being beaten by reality.

It's not that I've learned to be good, but I'm holding back my breath, holding myself up, holding it hard, and there's also some haze that can't be dispelled.

"Then," Ji Yu asked, "the day after your birthday, the day I went to your house, who did you drink with?"

"Forgot." Li Xiao replied.

He really forgot that SOL often asked him to go to various wine bureaus because of the agreement with him. They were all people he didn't know, and he didn't bother to remember their identities.

But he still remembered what those people said.This annoyed him a bit, and he wanted to put it another way.

Not wanting Ji Yu to be reluctant, pretending to be absent-minded and knowingly asking: "Oh, what about the first time?"

"That's even more forgotten." Li Xiao replied.

"It's no joke."

"No."

"Have you ever been drunk?"

Li Xiao frowned: "No."

He had a feeling that he was being interrogated by Ji Yu.But I don't know if it's because of smoking, Ji Yu's voice is a little hoarse, light, and it sounds charming, so he can't interrupt his thoughts.

Ji Yu snorted almost imperceptibly, the smoke was entangled with the smoke that Li Xiao had just exhaled: "But I saw you drunk last time."

Li Xiao was slightly stunned:

"Did I get drunk last time?"

He couldn't tell the line between drunk and not drunk.Anyway, the destination is to sleep, and there is no memory.

From this point of view, Chong Jiyu may have gone crazy with drinking.

"This shouldn't be the first time I've been drunk."

Li Xiao still had a cigarette in his mouth, and said directly vaguely, "I have no impression."

"Oh, but I have the impression. I heard you were almost caught unspoken."

This sentence is very common, and even sounds a little gentle.But there was a muffled thunder in Li Xiao's mind.His hands stiffened, and he almost sucked back the cigarette he had just exhaled.

After a long while, he lowered his head, and replied with an innocuous sentence: "So it's just almost."

"Yes." Ji Yu said.

Then no one spoke.

Silence came faster than Night Breeze.

Li Xiao always felt that Ji Yu would say something else, but Ji Yu didn't say anything.This made him feel relieved and annoyed even more.

The silence was depressing.

It wasn't until Ji Yu smoked the cigarette silently that he said:

"Li Xiao, I thought about it, let's not go any further, forget it."

Li Xiao didn't expect Ji Yu to suddenly turn to his long-awaited question at this moment, but came an answer he didn't expect.

It was like a puff of smoke went straight into the throat, burning my heart.He was unbelievable, first asked "what", Ji Yu didn't speak, then asked again:

"why?"

"Because," Ji Yu's finger was inexplicably stained with a little soot, he slowly twisted it, his voice was as flat as ever, "it's not this time, you know. It just doesn't feel right."

Li Xiao's heart sank, and his voice also sank. He was already a little annoyed, but now he was suddenly ignited.

He pinched out his cigarette with a very bad attitude:

"God damn it doesn't feel right, I can't understand it, you either speak clearly or don't fart on me."

Ji Yu lowered his head and said nothing.

He couldn't tell what was wrong, and felt a little broken.

He tried to walk into his world, tried to understand him better, he finally decided to take the initiative,

It turns out that the world is more bitter than he imagined.

Li Xiao still kept it a secret from him.

He thought he would stretch out a hand like learning to skateboard, and he would pounce on it.

But Li Xiao seemed to want to push him away.

He didn't even admit to being drunk.

Of course, he also knew that Li Xiao didn't want him to worry.

But it was also like this, Ji Yu was even more powerless and at a loss.

He didn't even get the right to worry about Li Xiao, so how could he covet the right to love him.

Ji Yu sorted out his thoughts with the effort of a cigarette, the more he rationalized, the more unpleasant it became, like guilt, like debt, like the daze of being late for class but having missed key knowledge points.

Once again, he felt like he was dragging him down.

He figured it out, this man was so busy every day, he had to go to the hospital, and he had to run around for his grandma; this man was so tired and drunk that he couldn't wake up last time, it was just because he impulsively defended him at the wine bureau ; Even going back to the very beginning, he was the one who instigated this person to be a trainee.It was he who let Li Xiao go through those drinking sessions, kept him awake, and almost made him fall into the unspoken rules.

Although Li Xiao has become a top class, it is obvious that life is not easy, even sleeping is not stable.

If he was really with Li Xiao, it would definitely drag him down even more.

But Ji Yu didn't know how to say it, and Li Xiao would also defend himself if he said it.Li Xiao is very good at talking, Ji Yu's reason may be pushed aside by him.

In the end, he used a rather roundabout sentence: "That's right, I'm not ready yet."

As soon as he finished speaking, he regretted it.

This sounds too weak.

Moreover, didn't it give Li Xiao another hope.

He deliberately added another sentence: "But I should not be ready, Li Xiao, I don't understand what's going on, I don't have the idea of ​​being with you anymore."

"Impossible." Li Xiao immediately retorted, his attitude improved and he stopped using swear words. For the first time in his life, he spoke like a law student, "You have no logic, you have no motive for not being with me."

"..." Ji Yu choked up and looked at him, "What kind of motivation is needed for this, then do I have a motivation for being with you?"

"Yes, there are quite a lot, and there is evidence. We slept together yesterday, and you came to see my stage today. God, do you think these are all playing tricks on me?"

Ji Yu was startled.

The man in front of him calmed down instantly, his voice was low and serious, and he even put his hands back into his trouser pockets.

His eyes were burning.

He suddenly realized that Li Xiao was very firm and had no doubts at all.

Li Xiao was firm that he wanted to be with him, and that he was talking nonsense.

So he continued to chatter: "Yes, I'm just kidding you, I just want to gain popularity, don't you understand that?"

Li Xiao gave a disdainful laugh, and said four words: "What do you think?"

"..." It seemed like nonsense.

Ji Yu closed his eyes, remained silent for a while, and finally switched to a gentle but strong tone, saying:

"Li Xiao, it was you who asked me if I could take it a step further, and I told you the answer, and it doesn't make any sense to go any further. I also said that I can't be ready to be with you, because..."

He thought for a while, fixed his eyes on his face still wearing stage makeup, took a deep breath,

"Because I like Li Xiaojue, you are no longer Li Xiaojue."