I was petted by top idols by turning a pen [entertainment circle]

Hearing these words, Li Xiao seemed to have been stabbed and held his breath.

The disdainful smile that was still on the corner of his mouth just now slipped and disappeared from the corner of his mouth, and the light in his eyes dimmed uncontrollably.

He took his right hand out of his pocket and grabbed his hair vigorously. The silver-gray broken hair seemed to be struggling to get out of the fingers that had been trapped so hard, flying messily.Then, nonchalantly, he lowered his head and slid his hands down from the back of his head to rub the back of his neck.

He squeezed the flesh of the nape of his neck hard, and then let go.Close your eyes, let out a long breath, and say:

"That's it."

Strongly disappointed.

Like to Ji Yu, more like to himself.

"That's right," Li Xiaosen sneered coldly, and looked down at Ji Yu, "On the first day, you said that Li Xiao would never be here."

The lower the voice, the heavier the smoke.

The rustling landed on Ji Yu's ear, which hurt for no reason.

The night wind slapped their faces, dissolving the sound of breathing.Li Xiao sighed as if he was exhausted.

"Okay," he said.

Agree, compromise.

At this moment, bitter regret climbed into Ji Yu's heart.

It turns out that the best excuse to cut them off is the cliché that times have changed and things have changed.Just to tell Li Xiao that after two years, he is no longer that unscrupulous Ji Yu, nor is he the Li Xiaojue that Ji Yu likes.

Is that so?

Of course fucking no.

Obviously he felt guilty and wanted to escape, and obviously he wanted to be his burden, but he put all the responsibility on him and complained about his changes.

I'm really cheap, Ji Yu thought.

Li Xiao's expression disappeared, and he slowly raised his hand.He untied the necklace hanging around his neck.

Ji Yu watched his movements blankly.

He noticed that Li Xiao was wearing a necklace today, but he didn't take it seriously, thinking it was just a fashion.But when Li Xiao untied it, he was startled suddenly when he saw the light of the silver sea wave pattern.

The light was like a sharp knife cutting through the night, directly poking in from his fragile city built with sand.

Poke to the heart.

It was his 19th birthday present from him.

Li Xiao grabbed Ji Yu's hand and put the necklace on his hand:

"Then I'll return Li Xiaojue's necklace to you."

"Thank you for being with Li Xiaojue when he was still around."

Ji Yu's hands kept shaking.

Li Xiao didn't look at Ji Yu again, he put the necklace in Ji Yu's hand and immediately let it go, turned around and left the rooftop quickly.

The cold touch slowly spread in Ji Yu's palm, Li Xiao's back was blurred in front of his eyes, and for the first time a resolute and thin outline was outlined.

Ji Yu was a little unsteady.

The rooftop is so fucking cold.

He wanted to turn his head and blow his eyes.

But at this moment, Li Xiao's back turned into a front again, getting closer.

Li Xiao stepped back in two steps.

Pull Ji Yu into his arms forcefully.

He seemed to want to bury Ji Yu completely in his chest, holding him tightly.

The night is about to disperse, the dawn is approaching, and the sky begins to turn blue.

The city was hustle and bustle outside the rooftop, Ji Yu couldn't breathe listening to his heartbeat.

He raised his hand involuntarily, wanting to just hug Li Xiao's back like this.

But Li Xiao pushed him away again.

"Great God, I can't give up." Li Xiao looked at him, wondering if it was because of his previous makeup, his eyes were so red that he couldn't give up, "Even if I wasn't Li Xiaojue, I couldn't give up."

"You said you couldn't be ready, I'm too lazy to care, I'll wait for you to be ready."

The voice is scattered, and it is a tone of self-deception and wishful thinking.

After saying this, he closed his eyes suddenly and took a deep breath.

He didn't want to wait for Ji Yu to say anything, so he turned and left again.

This time, there was no turning back.

Even his back was unwilling to stay in front of Ji Yu's eyes.

Ji Yu was actually speechless for a long time.

He sat weakly on the ground and took out the lighter.

Light it up, put it out, light it up, put it out again.

He wiped his eyes with the hand wrapped around the necklace.

The cold metal drew tears from his eyes.

That year, the 19-year-old Li Xiaojue held up this well-crafted necklace and asked the 19-year-old and six-day-old Ji Yu:

"What is this? It's so coquettish."

"... Nima, this is a gift from me."

"Is this a wave?"

"Well, remember what I told you before." Ji Yu put it on for him, whispering in his ear.

"What did you say, I don't remember."

"..."

Seeing that he is a birthday star, Ji Yu suppressed the urge to roll his eyes and curse, and threw out a paragraph like reading the periodic table of chemical elements:

"I said, I wish Xiaojue will always be like the sea, refreshing and dazzling, with a strong aura. I wish Xiaojue will also become a tsunami, causing bloody storms in the entertainment industry. In short, I wish the trainees a smooth career, and then the C position Debut. Do you understand?"

Only then did the dull Li Xiaojue narrow his eyes with a smile.He kissed Ji Yu: "Thank you, God."

"Okay." Ji Yu said, wrapping his arms around his neck again, untied the necklace silently, and solemnly put it back into the jewelry box.

"...What are you doing here?"

"This necklace is very expensive. You don't usually wear it. I allow you to wear it once on the day of your debut. It has a sense of ritual."

"...Then what if I don't debut."

"impossible."

"Oh, but what a waste." Reluctantly, Li Xiaojue opened it and took another look.

But in fact, he also thinks it is better to treasure it.

It was not for any other reason, but he had never worn a necklace before, and somehow felt it was too itchy, and it was uncomfortable to wrap around his neck.If it wasn't for Ji Yu's gift, and the symbolic meaning is so good, he might be playing around with this necklace around his fingers.

While admiring the layers of the waves, he asked: "Master, do you know how the entertainment industry can cause a bloodbath?"

"how."

"Tax evasion, smoking | drugs and whoring | prostitution."

"... Please get out of here."

Li Xiaojue was overjoyed, and pinched the tip of Xia Jiyu's nose:

"I'm teasing you. It's bloody, it must be waiting for me to become top-notch, and then I will officially announce my love affair with you."

Ji Yu nodded sarcastically.

"On that day, a well-known top celebrity blew up his love affair that lasted many, many years. People all over the country fell in love, and the entertainment industry was naturally shaken up. I don't understand."

"Forehead."

"The day of the official announcement was when the tsunami broke out."

"...Uh, can you stop being so high school two, it's almost over."

Li Xiaojue was still laughing: "Seriously, isn't this what we agreed on? I will make an official announcement sooner or later. Don't you still say that you are waiting to be favored by the top class?"

Hearing what he said before, Ji Yu picked his toes in embarrassment. Turning 19 really meant another big step in maturity: "Please, stop talking."

"Then what are you doing now?"

"Go to bed."

"Okay, as I wish."

But even though they both said they treasured it, Li Xiaojue still occasionally wore this necklace to go out to show off, and he even got someone to engrave the words on the back, which made him very frightened.

wxya

"The first three are me, the last two are you, we are connected together. Share a J..."

"..."

At this moment, Ji Yu, who had just turned 24 and a half months old, was sitting on the rooftop. He didn't expect this necklace to return to him in this way.

He wiped LXJY's depression, pressed it against his forehead, and buried it in the crook of his arm.

Sit directly until dawn.

So much so that the back legs were numb, unable to stand up, and staggered.

It was also at this time that two doctors came up.

Seeing a young man with pale face and lips, they were startled. They all thought that Ji Yu was going to commit suicide, and dragged him down.

Ji Yu was dragged by the two of them to find himself from the loss.

Naturally, he would not commit suicide, but for some reason, after going down from the roof of the hospital, his life really seemed to be pressed with a hopeless pause button.

He originally thought that life in the capital city passed quickly, but now it slowed down suddenly.When his life is only two points and one line between the hospital and the daily rented house, and when he can't hear other people's voices, his life at 32 times speed is stretched to [-] times speed.For the first time, there was a sense of loneliness in a foreign country.

Uncontrollable absent-mindedness and decadence.

The results of the first round of the global competition didn't make him happy. He naturally passed, and the score recorded on the balcony of Li Xiao's home was quite high.The theme set at that time was living alone, but maybe the mood was okay, the rhythm was very fast, and the judges figured out what it was "living alone but not lonely, conveying the optimistic attitude of young people."

That really doesn't exist.

But he is really alone now.

He began to think about how he came out after the breakup two years ago, but he couldn't remember, and in fact he never came out.At that time, he felt that he was not worthy of being a star, so he frantically turned his pen, opened a studio, went to live broadcast, went to competitions, conveyed new ideas, and thought of various innovative ways , I want to make my life better.

But up to now, he has been recognized as the most capable pen-twister in Asia, and even exaggeratedly said that he is an epoch-making benchmark in the circle of pen-twisters or hand extreme sports. He still feels that he is not worthy of him. , and even have no power to turn the pen.

Ji Yu has never been a person with low self-esteem, he does not have low self-esteem as an orphan, he does not have low self-esteem as a homosexual, let alone because he chose such a seemingly foolish profession.

His boyfriend, this status made Ji Yu feel inferior.

In the final analysis, why is he ashamed of himself?

Ji Yu thought about Lao Shuang saying that Xiao Jue was like licking a dog, and it was only during these two weeks of muddling that he gradually realized that his inferiority seemed not to change the distance between the author and his idol, but to encourage Xiao Jue and him to give to each other distance.

The one named Li was too kind to him, and he didn't have the ability to respond accordingly.

In the past few days, Ji Yu always thinks about the past, thinking over and over again, the more he thinks about it, the more he feels that he will not love.He was pampered by his grandparents, and he was an orphan, so he was a logical self, enjoying Li Xiaojue's love justifiably.

It just so happens that Li Xiaojue's love is always very public, and his commitment, protection, and initiative are very righteous, strong and straightforward.Coupled with his occasional romance, he played the guitar for him and cut his hair, he switched the lock screen to draw for him, he arranged various activities to weave memories, and he encouraged him to open an online store to take him on the road.

Li Xiaojue made him live a happy life in college.

Where did Ji Yu enjoy such love? It's too heavy.Especially after breaking up for two years, he still treats him so well.Even after he said that on the rooftop, Li Xiao still said in disbelief that he had to wait for him to get ready.

How to get ready.

He greedily accepts it, but fears he won't be able to afford it.

He really can't afford it.He couldn't bring help to the surname Li, give him support, he couldn't give him light.

At most, his love was just that faint flash of light, which never illuminated the dazzling him.

He doesn't deserve it.

But he missed him too much.

Ji Yu was thinking like crazy, there was a rational rope with "You will drag others down" printed in his mind, but the other end of this rope was also being pulled.

Li Xiao is still waiting for him.

So he was very cheap and reluctant to extinguish his own light.

He was so confused for half a month, almost collapsed, and finally found a way to relieve himself without driving himself crazy.

Like looking at plums to quench his thirst, he went to watch the videos of Li Xiao's various activities in the past two years, as long as he had his name on them, and he could find them on the Internet, he would watch them all.

He even learned a lot of idioms in the fan circle, registered a small account in Lixiao Fanchao, and imitated the tone of those girls to post.

[Xin Xiaomi enters the pit, Amway quickly smashes it]

But I don't think the current Xiaomi seems to have another identity.

That is the cp fan of the two of them.

There is a lot of private work in their Amway.

[My sister first recommends you to watch the variety show Yixing Yisu, I guarantee that you will lose your head if you eat it]

[Xiao Zong is very different inside, he is aggressive and warm, and the investment is not a loss]

[Xiao Zong beats us, Ji Yu beats Xiao Zong, so Ji Yu is the top man in the entertainment circle]

Naturally, Ji Yu didn't look at these, but silently pocketed the other Amway.And when the brainwashing style switched him to a fan of Li Xiao, he felt much better for no reason, and felt that the distance had been opened.

But when he watched those "Killing Part mixed cuts", watched Li Xiao's 1800-megapixel pen-hold shots, and watched the only episode of the group show he ever appeared in, he would always think of how this person was by his side.

Damn, I can't get out.

The advantage of being a star is that everything is recorded, there are many things to see, official releases, and power generation for love.Ji Yu first made up all his stages, listened to his songs, and finished all his [Yawn Collection], [Touching the Back of the Neck], and [Fans Series 1-20].

Naturally, any grave can be dug up in the depths of the archaeological examination. On this day, he found a very heavy post.

[Sisters!Has anyone watched the animated short film "Fish in Water"? It was nominated for the best animated short film of the Golden Pearl, but it has not been released in China. I heard Mr. Xiao is also the producer. Please, let me watch it Look at my almighty man, what other surprises I don’t know]

This post is only a late reply after one or two months, and I lost a link to the network disk.

[The picture quality is not very clear, I asked for it from a foreign friend]

Ji Yu clicked in, but fortunately the link to the online disk was not linked.

So in another early morning, leaning against the yellowed wall, he clicked on the 6-minute animation.

Even though the picture quality is appallingly poor, Ji Yu can still see that the animation style is very good, very healing, a bit Hayao Miyazaki style.

The story is also quite interesting.The protagonist who first appeared was the water in a small pond, which was dirty and muddy.According to the narration in a crisp, childlike voice, this pool of water is stagnant and no one takes care of it.

Until one day, a small golden fish suddenly appeared in this pool of water.

Xiaoyu is beautiful, kind, and has magical abilities.

It can purify water.

It breathed out bubbles with its gills, making the water in the small pond clearer and clearer.The water came back to life, and the two of them naturally became good friends, and there were some childlike dialogues in the animation.

They rely on each other, play and play, the small fish is immersed in the arms of the small water, and the small water can always be crystal clear because of the small fish's breathing.

They are inseparable from each other.

Until one day, a few people came by the pond and made a diversion.

Small water need not be confined in the pond.

It has the opportunity to flow to the creek and the sea, and hang out with the living water bosses.

The sea is the ultimate dream of all water. They even have the opportunity to fight monsters and upgrade in the sea, and gradually become waves that beat the shore.

This is great luck.

But Xiaoshui didn't want to go to the sea, because Xiaoyu didn't want to go.

The little fish said: "I can only go to the stream, I am too small, I will be eaten in the sea."

Xiao Shui said, "Then I won't go either, I want to be with you."

Xiaoyu squeezed Xiaoshui's eyes with bubbles: "No, you have to go."

"You don't need my purification now, you have to go to the sea to become your best self, otherwise I will look down on you."

Xiao Shui was sad and hesitant.But the little fish kept urging it to go, until one day the little fish got impatient: "I don't want to live in this small pond all the time, I want to flow into the stream and be with other small fish. You went to the sea together, you can't protect me, so what should I do."

"Let's go our separate ways, Xiao Shui."

Xiao Shui was stunned and agreed.

Yes, it cannot protect small fish, the sea is so unsafe, it is not strong enough.

So Xiao Shui silently made up his mind.

It's going to be a wave.

Water wants to grow into waves, and so does Little Water.

And, after it becomes a powerful wave, it can protect the little fish and be worthy of playing with the little fish.

It can take the small fish to swim freely in the vast blue ocean without restraint.

So Xiaoshui flowed into the sea, struggling in it, accumulating water droplets and ripples to accumulate experience.It was lonely, scared, and almost swallowed by other water giants several times.

Every time at this time, the image of Xiaoshui falling into memories will appear in the screen, recalling the scene of the little fish swimming in its arms.

Then in the next scene, it was beaten with chicken blood, suddenly became stronger, and said in his heart: "I can't let myself and Xiaoyu down" and started to fight monsters.

It desperately grows in the sea full of dangers.

In the end it really became a wave.

Then it went to the stream to look for small fish.

Xiaoyu couldn't recognize it at first, thinking it was not Xiaoshui, Xiaoshui tried desperately to prove himself.

After some interesting code-to-sign sessions, they finally recognize each other, and Xiaoshui wraps the little fish in his arms, leading to the free sea.

The animation ended here, and the beautiful pure music BGM sounded, sweet and lemon wine.

The name of the production team did not appear from the beginning to the end of this animation.Interestingly, except for the golden fish, everything else in the picture is black and white.And every time Xiaoshui is with Xiaoyu, it will turn azure blue. After leaving Xiaoyu, even if it becomes waves in the sea, the picture will have no color.

No matter how stupid Ji Yu is, it's impossible not to see the symbolic meaning in it.

His lips were tightly pursed, and countless emotions surfaced.

He searched for "Fish in Water".

Sure enough, nothing was found in the country, so he went to the Internet again.

The Golden Pearl Award is not a particularly famous award, it mostly rewards the works of newcomers. Ji Yu searched for a long time before he found some people's interpretation of this work.

In fact, the general interpretations are similar. They all think that the setting of the water is the highlight of this animation, and it is also very interesting to turn it into waves.The whole animation is carried out from Xiaoshui's first perspective, conveying a particularly novel and innovative concept.

In this work, it is not that fish cannot be separated from water, but that water cannot be separated from fish.

Without fish, it is stagnant water that will not be purified; without fish, it will not last long enough to become waves.

"It's the first priority of the fish saving the water!!"

(This is the first time I saw the story of fish saving water!)

Ji Yu stayed up all night, and the picture kept replaying in his mind.He didn't find out whether Li Xiao was the producer, but he found one of the directors named Ran.

There was a crack in the head, with Sally's voice.

——Brother Xiao has no heart-to-heart people in the circle...except for Chen Yuan who can chat with him a few words, that's Ran Ran.

——So she has the capital to break free, wanting to make a movie for a while, and a TV series for a while.

——Now her relationship is probably the richest one among your CP fans.

—— Brother Xiao.

He couldn't wait to send a message to the person named [One Star One Su Director] at six o'clock in the morning.But his fingers paused on the keyboard, not knowing what to say.

Finally, he asked stupidly:

【JY: Ran Ran, do you know where Li Xiao is?】

In fact, he knew that Li Xiao was preparing for the concert, and Li Xiao disappeared for a week after the separation from the rooftop, and then began to resume the status of permanent hot search.Now he hangs out in Li Xiaochao's chat every day, and he even knows what clothes he wears every day.

Li Xiao was also very haggard.

Ran Ran didn't reply the message until ten o'clock in the morning:

[Director Yixing Yisu: Good morning, brother Ji Yu, brother Xiao is in Gongti, tonight is the concert! ! 】

[Director Yixing Yisu: This is our brother Xiao's last concert at AVEC, you should go too! ! 】

Ji Yuzheng changed her note back to her name. This girl's wechat name is Ran Ransheng, which is quite interesting.I came back to see what she posted.

He pursed his lips, did not answer, and asked directly:

[JY: Ran Ran, I watched a cartoon today and said that you directed it, and Li Xiao also participated in it, right? 】

[JY: Did you know Li Xiao a long time ago? 】

He asked two questions, and Ran Ran replied with one:

[Ran Ran: It's okay, brother Ji Yu, you're early! ! 】

【JY: Can you tell me how you met him?】

Ran Ran sent an emoji of a piglet fainting.

After a while, the name started to change to "The other party is typing".

Ran Ran was a little confused.

She didn't know how far Ji Yu and Li Xiao's relationship had progressed.Originally, she watched the trending search and saw that Ji Yu had gone to see Li Xiao's stage, thinking that it would probably be made public, and it happened to be the moment when Brother Xiao wanted to terminate the contract.

But there is no more text.

What is Brother Ji Yu doing here?

But even the animation has been seen, it should be soon.

She struggled for a long time, and finally decided to tell the truth.

【Ran Ran: Ah, I used to like brother Xiao very much.I watched him on stage when he debuted, and I was astounded. I have never seen such a handsome person.So I kept blocking him backstage, praising him for his good looks, good looks, good clothes, and good necklaces.God, at that time he only said two words to me and I fell in love at first sight, Brother Ji Yu, guess which two words. 】

Ji Yu considered Ran Ran's identity as the daughter of a rich family, but couldn't figure it out.

The only thing in my mind is what is the first sentence that Li Xiaoabsolute said.

Ran Ran simply started to speak, imitating Li Xiao's tone.

"He said get out of the way."

Ji Yu: "..."

"God, he's so fierce, it hits my heart."

"Then I decided to chase him even more. I got tired of chasing him. He told me he was gay. I didn't believe it. He said he had a boyfriend. I didn't believe it either, so I just kept my face."

"It's been like this for a long time. Once they won a major award, but brother Xiao lost something, which seemed to be quite important. My dad happened to be in charge of the exhibition center for the award ceremony, and I was quite familiar with it. I just Thinking of such a good opportunity, if I help Brother Xiao find something, isn’t that the same as finding Cinderella’s crystal slipper.”

"It turned out to be a necklace with words engraved on it, and I was gone."

"Then I went to Brother Xiao. He was very pleasantly surprised and thanked me. It was the first time he said so many words to me. As a result, I started crying hahaha. It was so disappointing."

"It was also my first time chasing backwards. I was very swollen. I never thought I would fail. When I got the necklace, I realized that I had never had a chance. This was a blow to my self-confidence. You know, women's desire to win is terrible. Yes, I just want to see who that woman is."

"Brother Xiao was helpless. He didn't know how to coax me. Finally, he looked through his photo album and said, he's the only one. Look. I'm dizzy, he's really a man."

Ji Yu: "..."

"I was dazzled by curiosity, I stopped crying for a moment, and started gossip about him."

"Then Brother Xiao was also a little happy that day, and he thanked me very much. He replied whatever I asked him, probably just told a little bit of your story, and didn't tell specifics, just said how he was encouraged. How to be supported, how to be cured."

"I just muttered why we broke up, Brother Xiao said."

Ran Ran seemed to want to imitate his tone, sent it a few times and then withdrew it, and finally said in a rough voice, in a light tone,

"He said, let's divide it. I don't look like myself now. In the final analysis, I don't have enough ability. Let's wait."

"I asked when to wait. He said soon. He finally said that this necklace will not be worn in the future. If it is lost, it will be over. I asked him when to wear it. He said he didn't know, and he would never lose it. Time."

"It was the first time I heard him talk so much that day. I couldn't believe that brother Xiao in front of me was the man I had been chasing for so long. They were completely two people, so gentle. I was moved, surprised and jealous."

"I just sighed, he is so lucky. Then Brother Ji Yu, guess what Brother Xiao said."

Ji Yu immediately typed and sent it:

[What did you say? 】

"He smiled at me for the first time that day and said, no, I was lucky."

"He held the necklace in his hand and said, Ran Ran, you don't understand, without him, I wouldn't be standing here."