That 1 his waist protruded

31

Tang Hongxi brought me back a box of Suxiao Jiuxin Pills, and I said, "Thank you, third brother."

Tang Hongxi glanced at me, "You are so awkward."

I tentatively asked, "Little Sanzi?"

Tang Hongxi blew me away.I rubbed my forehead and stared at him.

Tang Hongxi reached out and rubbed my hair into a chicken coop, "Don't think that you will be lawless if the boss supports you, and the boss can't deal with me for no reason."

I pointed to his messy hands on my head, "Isn't that the reason?"

Yan Chaoling interjected: "That's your joke, don't get involved with me."

Qian Yi protested: "Then why am I being punished by the boss?"

Tang Hongxi replied: "Because you are stupid."

Qian Yi: "..."

After Yan Chaoling finished cooking, he came over to look at my medicine, picked it up and looked at the instructions for a while, then put it down again.

I asked him, "What do you see?"

He said, "Nothing."

Seeing me sniggering, he smiled helplessly.I don't know if it's my illusion, but I tasted a bit of pampering.Immediately, my heart was beating like a drum, and I looked at him blankly, knowing that I had sunk deeper into this secret love.

Soon Yan Chaoling cooked the dishes and greeted us for dinner.The dining table in the dormitory was a large cardboard box buckled on the ground. The four of us carried our bowls and dragged our chairs to sit in a circle.

I often think it's more like a family dinner table, where everyone eats and talks.

When I lived with my grandpa and grandma at my uncle’s house, there was only my aunt’s sarcasm at the dinner table, and I couldn’t decide who to shoot at. Anyway, she didn’t like anyone.At first, grandma couldn't bear her, but later she didn't bother to talk to her anymore.

If her uncle and cousin told her to "speak less" or "don't say such things", she would be blown up like someone stepped on her tail, and she would start talking about how much she had paid for this family, "It doesn't matter what outsiders say , how can you two treat me like this?" Yunyun, until he said that he dropped the chopsticks, put down the bowl and hid in the room.

After my grandparents passed away, I moved out. My aunt knew that the two old people had left wills, and they went through the procedure of notarization. After leaving the property to me, I became very angry for a month.

Except for Ayu's "family gathering", the "dining table" in the dormitory is the only dining table left where I can find a little bit of home life.

Human beings live in groups and naturally desire companions. This is a choice imprinted in genes during the long evolution.Not only am I no exception, but I also long for family members because of family factors.

Besides my thoughts on Yan Chaoling, Qian Yi and Tang Hongxi also treated me very well.Qian Yi likes to hear me called brother, Tang Hongxi is a bit slow, but they will take care of me like a reliable brother, but this kind of care is reflected in different aspects.

Not only in love, but also in other aspects, I frantically search for psychological needs. When those needs are met, it's like a little water can seep out of a dry well.

32

Crush on happiness and torment.This is also a new experience for me.

Before getting to know Yan Chaoling, the only person I ever had feelings for was probably my cousin, that scumbag.I said he was a scumbag not because of how he treated me, but because he cheated on the marriage.

This is not just pretending to be a normal person that parents expect and wanting their own children, but also because the proportion of women who hate women in gay is not small, so in this kind of thing, he doesn't care whether women are hurt or not.

Long story short, having said that, it's not hard to understand why I was slightly moved by my cousin.In an unfriendly environment, every little bit of kindness is a warm fire in a world of ice and snow, which is extremely moving.

It’s just that this mixed feeling of family affection and puberty sprouted was broken a few years ago when my cousin took me out to play, hang out, and introduce me to another 1 for sex. It was so broken that I couldn’t pick it up.

In my terrible adolescence, I didn’t have the love for my peers, the fawning, no secret love and temptation, not even rebellion and secondary school, and there is no fun in recalling it.

I didn't expect that when I was 20 years old, I couldn't help but look forward to a true love with the mood of a sixteen or seventeen boy.

I naturally expect him to love me too, but I feel that with this expectation, I am like a little ghost hiding in the swamp, trying to pull him down to die together when he passes by.

It's not just a matter of liking men.If I were a healthy person, he might not take care of me like this, and I wouldn't fall in love with him like this.But I am a patient, he is with me, it is a kind of long torture.

I can't control my emotions, irritable, depressed and crying. Sometimes I feel terrified of dying, and sometimes I will unconsciously seek my own death.This is torture to me and to him.I am afraid that he will give up hope and give up on me during the long torment.I'm also afraid that even if he is tired and tired, he will accompany me like a martyr until I recover, and then bid farewell suddenly.

He's a nice guy, so I'm scared of everything.

It's hard to like someone, especially a straight guy.People say that there are only two things in the world that cannot be hidden, love and sneezing.I don't know if Yan Chaoling can see my thoughts, I even vaguely expect him to find out, and then give me a good time.

No, I can't give up on myself like this, it's still early.

33

When the first subject was over and the exam was about to take place, I realized that the big boss in this room was Qian Yi first, and Tang Hongxi second.

People can't be judged by their appearance, I didn't notice that Qian Yi was actually a player who listened carefully to the class since I had barely attended the class.Moreover, the key points can be quickly sorted out and typed into electronic documents after the class is over.

On the basis of the key points given by Qian Yi, Tang Hongxi will make notes on the question types and customary test methods corresponding to the relative knowledge points, and finally print four copies, and the dormitory staff will start to memorize one copy.

I asked Yan Chaoling: "Then what are you in charge of?"

Yan Chaoling replied, "Clean up."

I pointed to myself, "What about me?"

Yan Chaoling paused for a moment before tentatively saying, "Sit back and enjoy what you get?"

Tang Hongxi provided the answer: "Be a mascot."

Qian Yi chuckled, "Okay, we are cute just looking at them, and it will definitely bring good luck. Let's strive to be awarded scholarships this year."

I was a little surprised, "Can I too?"

"When did the second brother lie to you?"

I didn't remember whether what Qian Yi said had overturned the car, but I remembered an irrelevant joke: "Freshman planted a Northeast person in the dormitory, and senior year can harvest a roomful of Northeasters."

What Qian Yi said was full of northeast flavor.

I laughed, "Then I would like to thank my second brother first."

One of them was carrying a copy of review materials, and the dormitory became quiet again.I haven't listened to a single class well, and I've relied on cramming to save my life.

In front of the final exam, Xiaoqingxiaoai has to stand aside.