The master of metaphysics is trying to break up again

After returning from the hospital that day, Lin Xuekuang thought about it quietly for a long time again.

He is not like Xie Wenyuan, who has experienced so many tragic reincarnations with all his memories. Many things that happened in the past, even if he vaguely recalls them, he cannot be particularly clear.

But Lin Xuekuang also had to admit that, in fact, since his rebirth, the person he once loved seems to be reviving in his heart in contact with each other again and again since his rebirth. The shadow is familiar and nostalgic.

but--

Probably the pain between them was too deep, and Xie Wenyuan had been separated from him for so long that Lin Xuekuang almost forgot how this guy was relentless and stalking back then.

So he was careless.

At this time, the school just had the winter vacation after the final exam, and other students happily packed up their bags and went home, but Lin Xuekuang had nowhere to go.

At the Taoist temple, he felt a little confused for the time being, and he didn't want to get in touch with him too much. The salary he got as an undercover agent before was quite generous, which was enough to buy a nice house near University A, but even if he had a house, the inside would be He was alone, so Lin Xuekuang was not very interested, so he just made do with it, applied to stay in school during the holidays, and still lived in the dormitory.

During these days, Xie Wenyuan was in a coma, and Lin Xuekuang was also in the hospital. Because he was full of doubts and in a bad mood, he couldn't care about eating properly.In front of Xie Wenyuan in the hospital, he didn't say anything, but in fact his physical condition was not very good.

Finally, the matter came to an end this time, and he didn't dare to use his fragile stomach to death. After getting up the next morning, after tidying up, Lin Xuekuang left the dormitory and planned to go to the cafeteria to have breakfast.

He went downstairs and saw Xie Wenyuan, who was supposed to be in the hospital, sitting on a chair in the living room on the first floor, with a little yellow duck thermos in his hand.

Xie Wenyuan didn't look at his phone, and didn't do anything else to distract his attention. He just sat there in a well-behaved manner, looking at the stairs, waiting for someone wholeheartedly.

Seeing Lin Xuekuang coming out, Xie Wenyuan immediately stood up and pushed the thermos forward: "I bought it in the cafeteria of your school. I see that your favorite bean paste buns and purple rice porridge happened to be available this morning. Oh, and there is another A portion of potato shreds and a tea egg, I have peeled off the shell of the egg, and it is also in it. Would you like to try it?"

After finishing speaking in one breath while facing Lin Xuekuang's gaze, he actually felt nervous like being in love for the first time, and couldn't help picking his fingers.

Lin Xuekuang: "...Why aren't you in the hospital?"

Xie Wenyuan said: "I'm fine, I'm fine."

During the holidays, there were few people in the school, and the dormitory manager had nothing to do. He sat by the side and watched the excitement. At this time, he said with a smile: "Your friend has been sitting here for a long time. I said you should call and call him down. The hall is so cold, he said." Afraid of disturbing your sleep, I will wait below."

On the first floor, a few boys had just woken up from hunger, reluctantly went out to have breakfast with their chicken nests on their heads, and cast envious glances one after another.

Lin Xuekuang winked at Xie Wenyuan, stepped aside, and Xie Wenyuan followed.

Lin Xuekuang said in a low voice: "What the hell are you doing? Are you crazy again?"

Xie Wenyuan said: "I want to chase you again."

Lin Xuekuang: "...don't waste your efforts."

Xie Wenyuan smiled slightly: "I also like the feeling of buying food for you, it's not in vain."

He was not joking, because Xie Wenyuan really came to deliver meals every day, and sometimes brought some fruits.

The housekeeper already knew him, so he simply put Xie Wenyuan upstairs.Xie Wenyuan nailed a small basket at the door of Lin Xuekuang's dormitory, specially for putting food in it, but he didn't bother, just put it down and left, sometimes he would do some cleaning by the way, as if he was trying to silently let Lin Xuekuang get used to himself exist.

Just like when they were in high school.

Until one day Lin Xuekuang went to the library.

During the winter vacation, the school library is only open every Saturday afternoon, and Lin Xuekuang usually seizes this time to go in and look up information.He stared at his books all afternoon, and didn't leave until the library was closed, only to find that it had already started to rain and sleet outside.

The ground was covered with mud and crushed ice, and the wind was biting. A little bit of rainwater was accidentally rolled up and poured into their necks.

Lin Xuekuang could use spells to avoid the rain, but there were so many people around, he couldn't do that, so he put the hood behind his clothes on his head and planned to run back in one go.

As soon as he walked up the next step, Lin Xuekuang saw Xie Wenyuan running from the other side of the playground, holding two umbrellas in his hand.

Lin Xuekuang said in surprise, "You—"

Xie Wenyuan quickly said: "I'm not following you, I think the weather is not good today, I bought dinner for you just now, and I heard your classmate said you came to the library, so I came to give you an umbrella."

Lin Xuekuang said: "No, I said you have an umbrella, why don't you open it?"

Xie Wenyuan looked down before reacting, and said with a smile: "I heard that you guys close at 6 o'clock, I'm afraid you won't be able to make it, so I forgot about it in a hurry."

The two walked to the open space in front, and he took out two shoe covers from his pocket, and bent down to put them on for Lin Xuekuang: "Take your feet off and put these on so that your shoes don't get wet. I just wanted to put them on." Buy rain boots, unfortunately, there are no such shoes in the supermarket in your school, only such shoe covers are left, anyway, waterproof is enough.”

Xie Wenyuan bent over, gently held Lin Xuekuang's ankle and lifted it up. The movement was very skillful, because he had helped Lin Xuekuang put on his shoes many times before.

Lin Xuekuang lowered his head. From this angle, he could see that Xie Wenyuan's back neck and hair were covered with a layer of crystal water droplets. With his hands on Xie Wenyuan's back, he could feel that Xie Wenyuan's clothes were also a little damp.

Although he had two umbrellas, Xie Wenyuan still sent Lin Xuekuang to the door of the dormitory building, and said: "I have already put the food at the door of your dormitory, don't forget to eat it. The bottom floor is soup, be careful when you take it. If it is spilled, it will be easily scalded."

Lin Xuekuang didn't know if he was happy to listen to his ramblings, his expression was not very caring, but he didn't leave because of face.

After Xie Wenyuan finished speaking, Lin Xuekuang asked, "Are there any more?"

Xie Wenyuan's mind was empty, and he quickly thought, does he want me to say more, or does he think I have said too much?

It was difficult for him to judge for a while, so he had to say cautiously: "It's gone for now. Maybe I'll remember it later, and I'll send you a WeChat message."

Lin Xuekuang smiled, Xie Wenyuan took a breath, and only heard the other party say: "If there is nothing else, come up and change clothes."

After he finished speaking, he turned and went upstairs, leaving Xie Wenyuan standing stiffly at the entrance of the corridor, until the old housekeeper who was already familiar with him yelled at him: "Xiao Xie, I was told to go up and change clothes!" Xie Wenyuan didn't respond. come over.

He quickly smiled at the enthusiastic uncle, took a deep breath, and followed quickly.

The two were about the same size, and Xie Wenyuan's frame was slightly larger. Lin Xuekuang found two looser clothes he was wearing and threw them on the bed, and asked Xie Wenyuan to change them.

Besides this, he specially called Xie Wenyuan up because he had other things to say.

"The souls of the students we brought out from 'Don't Think of Returning' have basically found their corresponding identities. I plan to send Li Yinning back tomorrow, and at the same time I want to confirm one more thing."

During this period of time, the case triggered by Liu Xian's death has been advancing, but the work has become very trivial.

Lin Xuekuang and Xie Wenyuan brought out the souls of many children from the magic circle, and they all needed to confirm their identities one by one. It took some time to come up with the exact plan, but recently, I finally had a basic idea.

And the identity of another insider behind the scenes is gradually coming out.

Xie Wenyuan generally knew about these situations, after hearing Lin Xuekuang's words, he thought for a while and asked, "You mean why did Li Xiangqiang's safety talisman fail?"

Lin Xuekuang slightly raised his lower lip: "Yes."

Xie Wenyuan quickly understood, and immediately said: "Then I will go too."

He paused for a moment, then added a little anxiously: "Is it okay?"

Lin Xuekuang didn't answer this somewhat boring question. He lowered his head slightly, as if he was meditating on something. The dim light shone on his face, half of which was bright and clean, and half of which was hidden in the dark, which made the whole person's expression look turbulent. They all seemed dazed.

Xie Wenyuan suddenly wanted to reach out and hug him, to smooth his brows.

Lin Xuekuang pulled out the chair, sat down opposite Xie Wenyuan, and said in a deep voice, "I remember you said before that you are pursuing me."

Xie Wenyuan didn't know why Lin Xuekuang would take the initiative to raise this question, but his heart beat faster unconsciously, and he replied, "Yes, that's what I'm doing now."

Lin Xuekuang sighed, and said, "Is it worth it? You have done so much, what can you get from me, if I don't respond to you all the time, you will die at a loss."

Xie Wenyuan smiled and said, "It's worth it, not a loss."

He stroked Lin Xuekuang's hair, with a gentle and calm expression: "I don't want to get anything from you, whether you respond or not, I want to make you happy. In this case, you will be happy in the future. , with or without me, at least some of these warm and happy feelings will remain."

He felt slightly sour in his heart: "I want you to know that you don't have any problems. You can also get the happiness that normal people can enjoy."

Lin Xuekuang said, "No, I have a problem."

Xie Wenyuan said anxiously: "No, you—"

Lin Xuekuang signaled him not to speak: "Actually, before you regained your memory, I had already thought about it over and over again. Why should two people be together? It is obvious that one person can live a good life, but after being with others, it is necessary to run into each other." Temperament, disputes, pain, sadness, and even wronging myself. But life is so difficult, and the road ahead is so long, if no one supports and accompany each other, I think every day will be very difficult."

He closed his eyes: "I also need to draw strength from my feelings... But due to some previous experiences, I couldn't completely release the emotions in my heart, lower my posture, and express my care and love ...I can't bow my head, and I can't indulge, because there have been many moments in my life, if I relax, I will die."

Lin Xuekuang looked into Xie Wenyuan's eyes: "I blame you for being too paranoid and stubborn, but I really didn't give you enough sense of security. I think my character is flawed."

Xie Wenyuan was almost speechless.

He had expected Lin Xuekuang to understand and accept him countless times, but when Lin Xuekuang said these words to him, Xie Wenyuan felt extremely heartbroken.

The person he likes should always be proud. He can't see the other party bowing his head or admitting his mistakes. This makes Xie Wenyuan more uncomfortable than anything else.

Xie Wenyuan couldn't help standing up in desperation, walked over and hugged Lin Xuekuang: "Xiaoxue, Xiaoxue, don't say that, I was the one who chased you back then, and I wanted to be with you no matter what, Of course I should do more... It's not your fault that I didn't do it well, how can you have such an idea?"

Lin Xuekuang raised his hand, finally embraced Xie Wenyuan, and slowly leaned his head on his shoulder.

Xie Wenyuan embraced him, feeling as if a fluffy kitten stepped on his heart with its paws on tiptoe, the whole heart was so soft that it was about to melt, with a hint of sweetness and a hint of bitterness.

After a while, Lin Xuekuang slowly let go of Xie Wenyuan, and Xie Wenyuan also let go.

Lin Xuekuang said: "I don't blame you anymore, and you don't have to blame yourself anymore. You were not such a reserved person before, and now you don't need to be a petty person in front of me. If there is something wrong, it is because we are all wrong. .”

Xie Wenyuan twitched the corners of his lips, not showing any joy, watching Lin Xuekuang straighten his waist, his eyes slowly regained clarity.

He is always so strong, rational and calm. This is what Xie Wenyuan loves and what he is afraid of.

"I said it last time, I used to love you. But now, we have all changed. We realize our mistakes, but we can't make up for our regrets."

Lin Xuekuang smiled at Xie Wenyuan: "I hope you won't be so cautious anymore, the two of us, don't let this relationship become a burden in your life, let's be at ease, our lives are still long in the future, The eyes can only look forward."

In fact, based on his understanding of Lin Xuekuang, when he was honest, Xie Wenyuan imagined that he would probably hear such a passage next.

Instead, his heart gradually calmed down, and he squatted in front of Lin Xuekuang, holding the armrests of the chairs on both sides with both hands, and looked up at him: "You just said that you need affection and companionship in life, so you will continue to do so in the future." With anyone else?"

Lin Xuekuang was momentarily stunned by the question, and unable to refute what he had just said, he paused, and could only say, "Maybe, see if there is something suitable."

Xie Wenyuan said: "Then I love you, understand you, and adapt to your living habits. Since you don't blame me anymore, why can't that person be me?"

Lin Xuekuang: "..."

Inexplicably, he felt as if he had been entangled in a strange circle.

Xie Wenyuan stared at Lin Xuekuang with a smile, and patted his hand: "Since we have to let go, let us let it go. It is enough for each to maintain the most relaxed and comfortable state, no one needs to deliberately avoid or Please. The fate in the future... Let's look at the future, if it works, it's okay, if it doesn't work, it doesn't work, aren't you the most affordable person, why are you thinking so much now?"

Lin Xuekuang opened his mouth to say something, Xie Wenyuan just looked at him with a smile, and finally Lin Xuekuang was also discouraged, and couldn't help laughing.

He shook his head and said: "It's the first time I can't say no to you, and suddenly I miss your honest appearance just now, change back."

Xie Wenyuan laughed, and stood up: "I can't say it because you also understand in your heart that this is actually the case."

He brought the thermos over, tried it and it was still hot, put it on Lin Xuekuang's table, and said to him: "But when buying food, I was really careful and honest, it's getting late, eat quickly Bar."

Xie Wenyuan bought quite a lot of food, the two sat down and divided up, and ate dinner together, they had already said what they needed to say, and they didn't talk any more.

After eating, Xie Wenyuan stood up and packed the thermos, and said gently: "Don't think about anything, go to bed early, and let's go to Li's house together tomorrow morning."

Lin Xuekuang hesitated to speak, but finally nodded. Xie Wenyuan bent down, kissed Lin Xuekuang's forehead lightly, and left with the thermos.

At night, Lin Xuekuang lay alone on the bed in the dormitory and thought a lot. He thought he would have no sleep all night, but he fell asleep unconsciously.