I've been in love with reason for three years

Here.

He thinks his behavior is really funny, why is it so contradictory and weird, but he can't watch it or reply.He seemed to suddenly understand something.

From time to time, the sound of Yu Wenzhou retching his throat in the bathroom replayed in his brain, and every time he thought about it, he felt so uncomfortable that his heart would be torn apart.

Of course it's not just this, there are many, many, many things, which he thought were nothing before, and all of them were rolled out following the depressing and painful voice, vigorous and majestic.

Zhou Zekai really wanted to completely regret and say sorry for the whole day, but he still felt that it was useless, nothing could be made up, and everything was hopeless.

He realized that he had made an unbelievable mistake. From the very beginning to the present, everything was wrong, whether it was Yu Wenzhou's injury he couldn't bear, or the reality of Yu Wenzhou he wanted to see, or his Menacing, irrepressible longing.

Everything was wrong, Yu Wenzhou simply couldn't bear his passionate feelings that couldn't be ended.

All of these are pressures and burdens. He thought that Yu Wenzhou had been deceiving himself to accommodate himself, but that was indeed the case, and this was the truth.He pinned everything on Yu Wenzhou, no matter how heavy and irresistible his feelings were.What is the burden, is what you want but the other party can't give it, either you don't want to give it or you really can't give it.

They are not equivalent.

Zhou Zekai, who flaunts that no one can treat you badly, and Zhou Zekai who always thinks that he has never won in the relationship between the two of them, what he carefully sends to Yu Wenzhou is a great burden and oppression.

What Yu Wenzhou gave him was an endless bottom line, no bottom line of accommodation, which made him even more unstoppable to see what Yu Wenzhou was thinking.

Just stop, anyone can stop.

Zhou Zekai thought about going back and forth for half a year, thinking about the lunch once a week, thinking about the song Yu Wenzhou gave him, he felt so warm that it couldn't be warmer, but felt that all this was like a soft torture.

Yu Wenzhou said to try it, said he liked it, but he didn't like it that much.Zhou Zekai knew, he knew that he had enough time for Yu Wenzhou to gradually get used to it. He knew that he poured out all his feelings, even if he behaved calmly and gently, the strong and irrevocable love was like a shackle.

He treated Yu Wenzhou with a clear conscience, and Yu Wenzhou treated him with a clear conscience.

He treated Yu Wenzhou willingly, but he had no way of knowing whether Yu Wenzhou was truly willing.

Have you ever thought about this huge irreparable gap? Yu Wenzhou is not a person who can quietly accept everything without responding, but the response Yu Wenzhou is required to make is too difficult and obscure.

The person being forced into the corner now is Yu Wenzhou, not Zhou Zekai.It's just that everything was hidden too cleverly, Zhou Zekai didn't notice it at all when he was indulging in it, like floating in a dream, falling from the clouds when he woke up suddenly.

The real world is only black and white.

There was the sound of splashing water, Yu Wenzhou's oppressive and painful sound, Yu Wenzhou's light laughter, and Yu Wenzhou's low voice of agreement.

These voices intertwined into a web, saying to Zhou Zekai, Yu Wenzhou is not happy, you are not good to Yu Wenzhou, even though you are really good to him.

When the league returned to normal, it was Zhou Zekai's turn to go to City G again.

He was already standing in the airport hall of City S, looking at the flight numbers and boarding gates jumping on the LED screen.The tiny flickering red and green alphanumerics are so quiet that it almost drives people crazy.

Zhou Zekai went through the security check, and sat resting on a chair next to the boarding gate. He was silent for a long time, and finally took out his mobile phone to call Yu Wenzhou.

Yu Wenzhou answered quickly, and asked, what happened to Xiao Zhou?

Zhou Zekai smiled subconsciously when he heard this, and Yu Wenzhou's voice sounded gentle and soft, as always.

Zhou Zekai looked at the ticket in his hand, looked at it for a long time, and then took a light breath, and said, I won't go.

Yu Wenzhou was taken aback for a moment, and then asked with a smile, are you busy tomorrow?

Hearing this voice, Zhou Zekai was so uncomfortable that his heart was about to twitch, as if he was drowning in a deep sea without light and oxygen.

What does he want to say, what does he want to say, say I find that we are not suitable, I find that I am not good to you, I find that I am always persecuting you, I find that you are tired, I find that feelings should not be like this, I find that I was wrong.

He wanted to say so much, so much that it would explode the entire brain and atrium, and the complex entanglements became knots that could not be untied and could not be untied.

Where did he start talking, and where could he start talking.

Zhou Zekai couldn't say anything, he just felt that his wife was uncomfortable.

There was silence on both sides of the phone.

Yu Wenzhou didn't speak, but waited patiently for Zhou Zekai's answer, which made Zhou Zekai panic and uncomfortable.

He really wanted to say that you don't have to be so patient, don't be so gentle and so accommodating, you don't need to treat me like this at all, you simply don't have the strength to treat me like this.

You, don't... care about me so much.

At the end, Zhou Zekai said in a slightly hoarse voice.

Zhou Zekai never thought of such a result before.

He returned to the club after refunding his ticket that day, and met Jiang Botao in the corridor, Jiang Botao was a little surprised and thought he forgot to bring something.

Zhou Zekai shook his head, went into the room without saying a word, and turned on the computer Honor.

Burden burden burden burden, Zhou Zekai never thought that he would become a burden, from the time he ran forward with reincarnation, he never felt that he would be a burden.

It's just that we can't just see one side of everything calmly.

Zhou Zekai thought, this way you will probably never feel tired or uncomfortable, and no one will ever hurt you again, Yu Wenzhou who are you, gentle but strong, unless you get closer and see clearly, Otherwise, how could anyone hurt you in the slightest.

Zhou Zekai felt that he might already have the right to hurt Yu Wenzhou, but this kind of entanglement and sinking injury is not a stab in the heart, but a slow grinding. It seems calm and gentle, but it has already been done. Press people into the quagmire where they cannot struggle.

His original intention was never to hurt Yu Wenzhou at all, but he did it.

Zhou Zekai opened the door of death for Yu Wenzhou, and now Zhou Zekai decided to withdraw his skills.

He finally sent a text message to Yu Wenzhou: GG.

He felt that Yu Wenzhou could understand.

22.

It's been a long time since we saw each other again.

Yu Wenzhou quickly replied to his text message that day, without any substantive content, just an expression: ^^

Zhou Zekai looked at this expression for a long time.

Zhou Zekai couldn't quite express his feelings. He couldn't say good but he couldn't say bad either. It was a bit like squatting for a long time and then suddenly stood up. It wasn't very comfortable but not uncomfortable. It was just that he might not be used to it, but he must make change.

It was Jiang Botao who felt the most uncomfortable. The first week was fine, and the second week was fine even if Yu Wenzhou didn't come. By the third week, Jiang Botao had just slept late and yawned before going to dinner. Just in time to bump into Zhou Zekai who was also yawning and leaving the door, Jiang Botao first greeted him reflexively, and then suddenly felt something was wrong.

Jiang Botao was shocked.

When the two of them were sitting in the cafeteria eating breakfast, Jiang Botao had been eating a little restlessly. It wasn't until Zhou Zekai drank the last mouthful of porridge that Jiang Botao tentatively asked, Captain, why don't you go to City G for the holiday today? up.

Zhou Zekai was obviously taken aback by the movement of holding the bowl, looked up at Jiang Botao, then gently put the bowl down, and said, take it easy.

Jiang Botao saw this reaction, and wondered if something happened between the two of them.Then he asked again if there was a quarrel.

Zhou Zekai shook his head and said, just change it.

Jiang Botao completely understood this time, and changed his way of getting along, which proved that the previous way of getting along was problematic. No matter who realized it, the two of them have now reached an agreement to temporarily cancel the weekly meeting.

Jiang Botao felt a little strange.After all, few people would think about this kind of problem when getting along, so Jiang Botao's first feeling should be Yu Wenzhou who raised it, because Jiang Botao really couldn't imagine the way his captain thought about this kind of problem.

Thinking about it this way, Jiang Botao became very upset.

Jiang Botao stared helplessly at his captain, and Zhou Zekai happened to be looking back at him. The two of them stared at each other for a long time, one helpless and the other innocent.

Jiang Botao finally spoke: I said captain, why do you listen to Team Yu so much.

Zhou Zekai didn't speak, his head tilted slightly, and a big question mark appeared above his head.He didn't understand what Jiang Botao was talking about.

Jiang Botao could only continue, but he put it another way: you can go to G City if you want, why hold back, maybe the Yu team will be very surprised to see you attack suddenly.

Zhou Zekai blinked, shook his head, and said he didn't want to go.

As soon as Jiang Botao heard it, he forgot all the words he thought of later, only shock, shock, shock, his voice was in vain: Captain, you mean that Team Yu didn't bring up the matter of not seeing each other?

Zhou Zekai nodded, then lowered his head again, facing an empty bowl, but he couldn't see the expression on his face, but he heard Zhou Zekai say: Yes.

It's so uncomfortable, I kill my love and miss when I have nowhere to run, and I suppress the pressure on others in my heart.

But Zhou Zekai didn't care about these.

Yu Wenzhou also fully understood what he meant, and no longer concealed or hid it. When the two texted each other, Zhou Zekai would often receive "I'm a little sleepy, go to sleep first. ^^" so similar