The taste of love is bitter

I stared wide-eyed at the enlarged face in front of me, my hand was still on his trousers, I didn’t know what to do for a while, just when I was hesitating, he suddenly stuck his tongue into my mouth, his tongue was still With the taste of sweet and sour water, sweet and sour, you can't help but want to lick it more.However, the next second I realized, what are we doing?kiss?We are two boys, okay?Acting faster than reason, I pushed him away hard. When his lips left mine, I suddenly felt as if something was missing, and my heart was empty.

He was not pushed down by me but hugged me tightly, holding me tightly, I couldn't breathe, and then he heard him crying, "Don't leave me, Xiaoyu, don't leave me!" I suddenly My heart softened, but the hand that was pushing him unexpectedly hugged him instead, patting his back while comforting him, "I won't leave, baby, go to sleep, I'll be with you!"

His hands gradually relaxed, and his breathing became steady. I knew he was asleep, so I put him down, helped him pull down his pants, and then covered the quilt. Outline, I can't sleep.Recalling the kiss just now, I couldn't help feeling warm in my heart, thinking, if I were a girl, I would definitely be with my senior, he is handsome and has a good personality, and I seem to be nostalgic for that kiss just now, but when I think of myself as a boy , I was immediately discouraged, and felt a little disappointed.At that time, I hadn’t come into contact with the term homosexuality. I didn’t know that same-sex people can also fall in love. At that time, I just hated myself for not being a girl.

The next morning, when I woke up, the senior was still sleeping. I borrowed a pen and paper from the boss and left a message to the senior, telling him that he drank too much yesterday and the school was closed, so I brought him here and let him Don't worry, I will ask him for leave and ask him to get up and have breakfast by himself, and then go back to school by himself.I made up a reason to ask the senior to leave, and then went back to my classroom. I felt uneasy all day long, and I always felt that something would happen. Sometimes, his complexion is not very good.

When I got back to the dormitory at night, I saw Ruan Yuchen sitting on the bed with water dripping from his face. When he saw me coming in, he suddenly asked me coldly, "Where did you go last night?"

I was shocked, no, this guy said he wouldn't let me meet Senior Jin, could it be that he knew?But what does it matter if he knows?Why should he care about my affairs.I swallowed and said, "I didn't go anywhere!"

"I don't think you have a long memory!" He suddenly ran up to me, grabbed my shoulders with both hands, and pushed his knees hard towards my stomach. I suddenly bent down in pain. Sometimes it was really strange, why did he hit me so hard? Can't beat me to death?

"Why do you care about me?" I yelled while clutching my stomach!

"As I please!" he said, taking my arm and pulling me up, and punched me in the face again.

"Stop it!" I begged.

"Don't hit if you say don't hit, I just want to make you remember!" He said and landed another punch.

I lay on the bed with my head in my arms and begged him, "Stop beating, I'll listen to you, I won't see him anymore, never again!"

"That's what you said! I don't want to have a next time!" After finishing speaking, he didn't fight anymore.

I hid in the bed and rubbed my face, hating him, and now I hate him more and more, and I hate myself even more, why don't I even have the ability to resist?She was bullied by him in her freshman year of high school. When will such a day be the end?I really don't know what Ruan Yuchen wants to do. If I drop out of school, he won't let me go. Could it be that I owe him in my previous life?Doomed to pay back in this life?

After this incident passed, it finally stopped for a few days, and I haven't seen the senior, I don't know how he is, I'm still a little worried, sometimes I really want to see him, but when I think of Ruan Yuchen, I just want to Discouraged, in order not to get beaten up, I'd better not see my senior.

October passed quickly, and the weather in November is getting colder and colder. I haven't seen my seniors. Maybe it's because I have to study hard recently. I still have a question, and Ruan Yuchen's start of school has been delayed for more than half a month. I don't usually see him listening carefully in class, but why is he always in the top three in the class every time he takes an exam?He has never been lower than the top three. Could it be that he is a genius?No wonder he can do whatever he wants in school. The teachers always turn a blind eye and close their eyes. As long as it's not too much, just muddle along. This is the difference between a good student and a bad student!

And no matter how hard I tried, I still stayed in the sixteenth or seventeenth position. Ruan Yuchen would make trouble for me when I had nothing to do. Gradually, I even got used to being bullied by him every day, but he never beat me again, and only he If someone bullies me, if others shout at me or make rude remarks, he will not allow it. Sometimes I feel that he is abnormal, and my disgust towards him is getting stronger every day!

In mid-November, it started to snow, the first snow was heavy, and the goose feather snow fluttered down. Standing in the snow and looking up at the sky, it felt really romantic. I stood there with open arms and went on. Xuehua, at this moment, she doesn't think about anything, she just feels the existence of Xue, and feels her own existence!Suddenly a snowball hit me, I turned around and found that it was Ruan Yuchen, who was holding another snowball in his hand, and suddenly lost all mood, I patted the snow off my body and turned back to the teaching building. Of course, I deliberately walked around Over his position, far away from him, surprisingly, he didn't pester me.