The taste of love is bitter

I also knelt down, patted him on the back, and said softly, "Ruan Yuchen, stop being obsessed, stop living such a corrupt life, live a good life, and let's be good friends, can't we be good buddies?"

"Friends? Dude? I don't lack these. You let me start now, study hard, and be a good boy? I'm sorry, I can't go back. If you don't agree, just leave me alone, just pretend that I never showed up, you You didn't even know me!" He stood up and said with a wry smile.

"Are we really going to do this?" I asked him anxiously.

"Do you want me to watch you suffer every day?" he replied.

I lowered my head, at this time the sky was completely dark, the moon was very round and bright, and I saw the faint tears in the corners of his eyes.

He took the box and handed it to me, "This is the last birthday I celebrate for you, and in the future...maybe you won't be able to celebrate it."

"I don't want it!" I bit my lip and looked at him.

"Take it, in the future... maybe there will be no chance to give you a gift..." he said softly.

I took the box, lifted it high, threw it on the ground, and said loudly, "Ruan Yuchen, I said, I don't want it. If you continue to degenerate like that, I will never see you, so I will treat you as a real person." We've never known each other before, I won't be able to die for a while, so please be good to me, and I'll wait for your birthday present next time!"

The box fell to the ground, and there was a click, like a broken sound.

He looked at the box on the ground, frowned slightly, and then said slowly, "If you don't see it, you won't see it, it's the best! This isn't a birthday gift, it's the latest Walkman, so it's a compensation for you. It’s okay if you fall, in case you see it in the future, you will be troubled, Wu Qiong, you remember, I, Ruan Yuchen, have always loved you, never changed, and never will in the future, since you said that you will never see each other, then let’s see each other , as long as you are comfortable, I will do whatever you want. Go back early and be careful not to catch a cold, I'm leaving..." He said, turned and left.

I looked at his back, and tears welled up in my eyes again, Ruan Yuchen, why are you so stupid?How can I make you love me so much?Instead of doing this, why don't we go back to the days when you bullied me every day, at least we were not strangers back then!I picked up the box and slowly opened it. The outer casing of the Walkman inside had been torn apart, exposing the circuit board and metal wires inside. There was also a tape in a pile of wreckage. I carefully put the box back on, and then hugged It cried out loud.

When I went back to the dormitory at night, I saw several missed calls on the phone, and there was a message from Xu Jingjing. She asked me why I didn’t answer the phone. She wanted to say happy birthday to me, but now I can only wish me a text message. Said that the course is tight and I can’t come back to celebrate my birthday, and the gift will be replenished in the future, so that I can take care of myself. There was a lot of long-winded, I just replied thank you, don’t worry about it, everything is fine.So I didn't contact him anymore, I just carefully put away the box containing the Walkman.

Since then, Ruan Yuchen seems to have really restrained himself. It is better to say that he disappeared than that he restrained himself. The rumors about him also decreased day by day. In the end, no one talked about him anymore.He no longer hangs out with those buddies, no longer has boyfriend and girlfriend, but he doesn't study anymore, he either skips class or sleeps in class all day long, and sometimes he comes back with a wound on his face, some people speculate that he went to fight No one knows what happened to him.Only I know that he really didn't want to, and gave up on himself completely. I was shaken. Seeing him like this, I really felt distressed, so I made a decision secretly.

On this day, Ruan Yuchen slept in the classroom again, and the teacher had no choice but to let him fend for himself.During class break, I went to look for him again, this time instead of going in to push him, I shouted loudly at the door of the classroom, "Ruan Yuchen! Come out!"

Everyone is looking at me, because so far, no one seems to have dared to talk to Ruan Yuchen like this, as I have said, it may end badly!

He was lying on the table, and when he heard someone provoking, he sat up suddenly, looked towards me, and could see that he was on fire, but the moment he saw it was me, the anger in his eyes disappeared completely, and he changed into a Regardless of my expression, I lay back on the table again.

I was angry, I went in and grabbed his arm, only to realize that he had lost a lot of weight, but his long bangs covered half of his face, making it inconspicuous.Suddenly there was a burst of heartache, why did he torture himself like this, did he not want to live anymore?

Seeing me teasing him, he looked up at me, didn't break free, didn't get up, and asked flatly, "Is there anything you can do with me?"

"Come with me, I have something to tell you." Although he is very thin, I still can't move him.

"If you have anything to say, say it here." He still didn't move.

"I... can't say it here." I was a little embarrassed.

"Are you going to preach again? I've followed what you said. I haven't continued to do anything wrong, and I haven't insulted your ears with rumors. What else do you want from me? You are not mine, so why bother with me! "He said every word.

I suddenly felt sore in my heart, he actually said that, did he think I said those words because he was afraid that his rumors would insult my ears?Without thinking about it, I raised my hand and slapped him on the face. With a slap, his head tilted to one side. Accompanied by the slap, the boys gasped and the girls in the classroom screams.

I stared at my hand blankly, I didn't expect to hit him, I was at a loss for a while, I didn't know what to do.He turned his face slowly, moved his jaw, then touched the half of my face that was hit by me with his hand, smiled, stood up, looked at me and said, "It's over, it's nothing, please go back! "He said and made a gesture of invitation.

When I saw his expression at this moment, I felt so distressed, even if he hit me back, I would be willing and stronger than he is now.

I raised my hand, wanting to touch his face, but he smiled, and said immediately, "Do you still want to fight? Haven't you hit enough? Come on, I'll greet you vigorously, and hit until you're happy. I just have itchy skin recently. Don't be soft, try harder, come on, hit!" He said and brought his face closer.

"Ruan Yuchen, why did you become like this?" My raised hand trembled slightly.

"What's wrong with me? That's how I used to be, hooligan! Bully! Didn't you call me that? Why? Did you know me? Then take a good look today, lest you don't know me later, I'm a hooligan, why? Isn’t it good? I want Xiong-Di to have Xiong-Di, and women to have women. How many people envy you? Do you want to hang out with your buddies too? I’ll give you two women..."

'Snapped! 'I saw that his words became more and more outrageous, and he slapped him again. At this time, the whole classroom was extremely quiet, and even students from other classrooms came to watch. After this slap, no one spoke, and a tree fell in the classroom. The needles sound real.

Ruan Yuchen looked at me and smiled wryly. Just as he was about to sit back, I grabbed him and said, "Follow me!"

"Wu Qiong, what on earth are you going to do? I beat you, what else do you want?" He staggered when I dragged him away, and asked, shaking off my hand.

"Ruan Yuchen, listen to me. From today on, you'll be good and quit your bad habits. I'll make up your homework for you at night. You...what you said...I promise you!" I don't care what the classmates around me think, now it's the kingly way to get Ruan Yuchen's life back on track.

"You said... what did you say?" He was stunned.

"I said I promise you, but you can't go on like this anymore. I hope you will do well. You can decide for yourself if you can do it." After I finished speaking, I walked out of the classroom amidst the discussions of my classmates.

If you die, you will die. If you go all out, as long as Ruan Yuchen is well, I don't care. If it doesn't work, we will jump off the building together. It's better than the current situation.

As soon as he walked out of the classroom, Ruan Yuchen yelled behind him, "Wu Qiong! I don't need you to pity me!"

I stopped and said without looking back, "Would you like to make up your own mind, I don't have pity on you, just don't agree!" After I finished speaking, I went straight to my classroom.

The turmoil subsided like this. Many people knew that I had slapped Ruan Yuchen twice. Suddenly, I became a warrior who dared to slap Ruan Yuchen. My heart is about to break, seeing the handprints on his face, I really want to cut my own paws.

In the evening, Ruan Yuchen came to see me for the first time since we parted last time. We went to the valley field and sat there without speaking, just quietly watching the sunset slowly setting in the sky.After a long time, Ruan Yuchen said, "Wu Qiong, is what you said today true?"

"Well!" I replied.

"You... actually don't need to do this, I will be fine in the future, you... don't force it, I think about it, even if we can't be together, we can be friends, at least, you are still by my side, I can see you every day You, aren't you?" he said, looking at me.

This sentence is very familiar, yes, the senior once said that to be a friend or a younger brother, at least you can be by his side and see him every day.Hehe, that's great, he's really generous, in order to see the same face, he doesn't even care if I'm a boy.

"Wu Qiong?" Ruan Yuchen saw that I didn't speak, and called me again.

"Huh?" My thoughts were pulled back, damn it, I remembered someone I shouldn't have thought of again.

"What are you thinking, are you listening to me?" he asked.

"Ruan Yuchen, do you know why I rejected you?" I looked at him and asked.

He shook his head, "Maybe I'm not good enough, you said, you don't like me..."

"That was in the past, and then I found out that I also started to like you, but at that time, you were intoxicated with tenderness every day. I think that's fine, at least you love women..."

"No..." he cut me off.

"Hush! Listen to me." I put a finger on his mouth, not letting him explain, and continued, "Actually, I know you use them to numb yourself. I thought you really You can forget it. After forgetting, you are relieved and I feel at ease. But I didn’t expect you to go too far. I’m afraid it will destroy you if you go on like this. I’m actually quite timid. I have no friends since childhood, except Almost no one in my family would care about me, so when you cared about me or confessed to me, I thought it was my illusion, and I was a little flattered, so I didn't dare to accept it for a while.

Then, when I saw your serious face, I thought more about my illness. The reason why I didn’t tell you that I have a bad heart is because, since I was a child, I was rejected by my peers because of this illness. Being regarded as a different kind by others, I finally came to an environment where no one knew me. I don’t want to go back to that kind of life. I want to live like a normal person, and I don’t need other people’s sympathy. Do you understand?

When you said you liked me and wanted to be with me, the first thing I thought of was, how long can I be with you?This is also the shadow that I have been unable to get rid of, Ruan Yuchen, my illness, I can't live to be 30 years old, maybe, I will die suddenly tomorrow, so I don't want to make you suffer.When I know that I'm in love with you, I want to tell you, let's be together, don't care about gender, don't care what others say, as long as we are happy.

But will you be happy?do you know?If you torture yourself in this way, why not torture me?Every time I see you like that, my heart hurts like a hole has been dug, but what can I do?promise you?be with you?But what if I can't be with you for a few days?I can't give you hope and then give you a huge disappointment!

But I still can't help it, I really can't bear to see you depressed day by day, Ruan Yuchen, promise me, okay, even if we are together today, I will die tomorrow, you should live well, don't torture yourself, In that case, I will also be sad in heaven, and I will die with regret, promise me, okay? "When I said this, tears were streaming down my face.

With tears in the corners of his eyes, he nodded fiercely, then hugged me and said, "I won't let you die, and you are not allowed to die. You can't leave me alone in the world so cruelly. If you are gone , I’ll go with you, otherwise, you will be alone.”

"Ruan Yuchen, promise me that if I am really gone one day, you will live a good life. If you go with me, I will not forgive you even if I die. I hope you are happy and live a safe and healthy life." Go down! Do you understand? Promise me! Okay?" I buried my head in his arms and said.

"Well, I promise, let's not talk about this anymore, what is not dead, bad luck, we will live well, live to be a hundred years old, and then we will be together in the next life, in the next life, you must have a good body, Do you know?" He hugged me, his tone full of doting.

"Well, I will marry you in my next life!" I burst into laughter!

"No, I will marry you in this life, and I will marry you in the next life!" He pinched my nose.

"Okay, I will be a woman in my next life and give you many children, okay?" I said.

"It doesn't matter if it's a man or a woman, as long as it's you, nothing else matters." He tightened his arms around me.

Suddenly feel so happy, sometimes the feeling of happiness is so simple, a hug, a word of care, a promise, will make people feel that there is no regret in this life, this is enough!

"Ruan Yuchen!"

"Ok?"

"Cut your hair, long hair doesn't look good, you are so handsome, simple short hair will look better."

"it is good!"

"Ruan Yuchen!"

"Ok?"

"Make up the lessons well, make up all the courses, we have to go to the same university, don't separate the two places, okay?"

"it is good!"

"Ruan Yuchen!"

"Huh? Call me Yuchen!"

"Oh! Ruan... Yuchen!"

"It's Yuchen!"

"Yu Chen?"

"Ok?"

"It's okay, I just want to call you."

"fool!"

"Yuchen!"

"Ok?"

"Yuchen!"

"Ok?"

……

I just snuggled into his arms and shouted, and he just answered tirelessly, I don't know when I fell asleep, and when I woke up, I was still in Ruan Yuchen's arms, covered with his coat, and He put his arms around me, wearing only a short T, and leaned against the grain pile, with his head against mine, and we slept like this all night.

As soon as I moved, he woke up, with slightly dark circles under his eyes. It looked like he hadn't rested well. When he saw me wake up, he wrapped me in his clothes again and asked if I had caught a cold.Before I answered, he sneezed solidly. I hurriedly asked him to put on his clothes and blamed him for not waking me up. He also fell asleep unknowingly. Although it was uncomfortable, it was the most solid sleep he had in a while.

I laughed and said he was a fool, got up and moved around, half of his body was numb from my pressure, his legs were weak, and he could not walk for a long time, we had breakfast together, and then went back to school, each went back to the class, We made an appointment that he would listen to the class carefully during the day, and I would make up for his missed homework at night. He is so smart and effortless.