Qinghong

I was sitting in the taxi, Qin Xuan lowered her head and focused on typing on her mobile phone, half a white Tiguan appeared in the rearview mirror.The taxi turned the third corner, and I was finally sure that the Tiguan behind us was following us, so I said, "Master, pull over, I have something to do."

"Okay." said the master.

"Where are you going?" Qin Xuan asked.

"Private business," I said. "Go to school by yourself."

"En." Qin Xuan nodded.

I got out of the car, raised my hand to close the door, and stood on the side of the road.

The white Tiguan stopped slowly, and Ning Hong stared at me through the front windshield.

I looked at him, and my heart, which hadn't moved in three months, thumped hard. I clenched my hands in my coat pockets, frowning to suppress the pain.This feeling was not good, three months of ignorance made me think that numbness was my only perception, and when I saw Ning Hong again, it was as if my fingers were caught off guard by boiling water, which made me shiver.

Ning Hong stared at me with piercing eyes and did not speak.

He didn't move, and I stood there for a while, not in the mood to play the boring game of one, two, three wooden figures with him, and walked towards the school with my pocket.

"Zou Lansheng!" Ning Hong lowered the car window and gritted his teeth, "You are not allowed to leave!"

I stopped to look at him, waiting for his next words.

Ning Hongqing lost some weight, and blue stubble appeared on his chin. He tore off his seat belt and opened the car door to walk in front of me. Miss me?"

Ning Hong lost weight, I looked at his half-stretched wrist and asked, "You came to see me, what's the matter?"

"Can't I come to you if I have nothing to do?" Ning Hong asked angrily.

I stared at him, he had lost a lot of weight, the flesh on both sides of his cheeks tightened, and he looked sharp and cold.He asked me, do I miss him?Maybe I can’t remember clearly, the half-dream and half-awake trance in the morning, the sudden pause in class, the momentary distraction when writing the thesis, the fragments pieced together into fragments, slowly, I got used to it.

I just don't know what the point of all this is.

"I owe you a lot," I said, "what do you want?"

Ning Hong looked at me blankly. After a while, he laughed like he was crying: "What do I want? You will always be like this. You are human, Zou Lansheng, you are human." He grabbed my coat angrily, "You ask Ask yourself what you want."

I do not want anything.

I don't want Ning Qing Ning Hong, friendship and love. I just want to hug the cat and watch TV on the sofa. It is raining outside the window and the room is warm and dark.

I was silent for so long that Ning Hong withdrew his arm and asked me in confusion, "Zou Lansheng, don't you have a heart?"

"You go." I said, "Don't come looking for me."

Ning Hong stood still in a daze, I turned and left, leaving him standing in the bitter cold wind.

He didn't catch up, and I didn't look back.

Maybe this is the end, I thought.

I am a candle, burning is enough.

The place where I got off the bus was not far from the school. I walked step by step, and the snow on the soles of my shoes made a "creaking" sound.

"Xiao Zou, are you going back to the office?" Old Kang, wrapped up like a fur ball, shrugged his shoulders and asked me cheerfully.

"Yeah." I replied.

"Aren't you cold? Wear so little." He came over and walked side by side with me.

"It's okay." I tugged at my coat, "This is made of cashmere, to keep you warm."

"It's nice to be young." Kang Yanfeng said, "When I was young, I could dress as handsome as I wanted. I wanted style but not temperature. Now I can't. I wear thick clothes."

"What do you want to be handsome if you have a sister-in-law?" I said.

"Yeah." Kang Yanfeng nodded, "Are you almost thirty? I see the birthday at the end of the year written on your application form."

"Yes, just these two days." I said.

"Do you have a date?" Kang Yanfeng smiled wickedly.

I shook my head: "No."

"It's time to look for it." Kang Yanfeng said, "You youngsters don't want to raise children, I think it's okay, but you have to find a partner."

"It's hard to find someone," I said.

"Difficult than topology?" Kang Yanfeng asked.

I am convinced: "Yes, it is more difficult than topology."

"..." Kang Yanfeng scratched his sparse hair, "It shouldn't be, you have such excellent conditions."

I shrugged: "God is not beautiful."

We walked to the door of the office, I took out the key to open the door, Kang Yanfeng took off the scarf and hung it on the hanger.

I just sat down when the phone rang and I pressed the answer button: "Hello?"

"Brother!" Zou Haiyang shouted crisply.

"...Did you take the wrong medicine or drink too much?" I pressed down the fine hairs on the surface of my arms.

"Hey, have you bought a ticket to go home?" Zou Haiyang asked.

"Air ticket?" I frowned suspiciously.

"Aren't you going home for Chinese New Year?" Zou Haiyang raised his voice.

"Did I go home every year? Why can't I remember." I said.

Zou Haiyang groaned: "You come back, I told my mother that you are coming back, she is very happy."

"She's so happy?" I said, "Make a draft before you lie."

"I'll pay you back, [-]." Zou Haiyang used his trump card, "As long as you come back for the New Year."

"Where did you get the money?" I asked.

"I saved it from a part-time job." Zou Haiyang muttered, "I wanted to change to a laptop, but my broken computer was so stuck that I couldn't play any games."

"You can buy a computer, and I will pay back the money after graduation." I said.

"Brother." Zou Haiyang said seriously, "You remember when you were a child, you took me to skate, that was my happiest afternoon, happier than my parents took me to Happy Valley."

"You're 21." I said.

"What's wrong with 21? I don't even dislike you when you're [-]." Zou Haiyang said, the emotional card couldn't be played, and he started to mess around, "I don't care, you have to come back for the New Year, I bought you a plane ticket, and the information will be sent to you on WeChat."

He hung up the phone, and I put down the phone, feeling a little helpless.

"What's wrong?" Kang Yanfeng asked while biting a toothpick.

"My brother, it's very annoying." I said.

"Did you get into trouble?" Kang Yanfeng asked.

I shook my head: "No, you must let me go home for the New Year."

"That's what it should be." Kang Yanfeng said, he realized belatedly, "Oh yes, you're still not dating at thirty..."

"My brother is very smart, drag me back to block the gun for him." I said, "He has been appointed to fail." At that time, the seven aunts and eight aunts would pimp me around, and no one cared how many subjects Zou Haiyang failed.

In the early Chinese New Year this year, Zou Haiyang bought me a plane ticket in early January, so I had to pack my luggage in advance and fly back to Xi'an.Zou Haiyang bought a flight that landed around the same time as mine. As soon as I walked to the exit, Zou Haiyang, who had been lying in wait for a long time, ran over and hugged me enthusiastically: "Brother, I miss you so much."

I tore him off me, and Zou Haiyang, who was wearing a down jacket, looked like a fluffy Alaska. I asked, "How many subjects did you pass?"

"Ah?" Zou Haiyang blinked innocently, "I didn't fail."

"Then what are you doing to drag me home?" I asked.

"That's it," Zou Haiyang said naturally, "I miss you."

I glanced at him suspiciously: "Oh."

Zou Haiyang walked beside me and said coyly, "Are you wondering why I didn't call you before?"

"Well." I said.

"Because, I, I was a little afraid of you before." Zou Haiyang said, "You always have a straight face and no smile. I thought you hated me."

I did hate him before, but this targeted hatred ended when Zou Haiyang became an adult.I don't like underage children, especially little boys who blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.Zou Haiyang successfully stepped on the two traits that I hate the most, one is underage, and the other is smug kid.However, when he became an adult, his behavior was slightly restrained, and his thinking was at least like a normal person.

"Why aren't you afraid now?" I asked.

"I caused trouble, you lent me money, and I was injured, so you flew to see me." Zou Haiyang said, "You are my brother, we are brothers."

I rubbed his soft hair in relief: "It's good to know."

Zou Haiyang squinted his eyes, and I seemed to be able to see his fluffy tail turning into a propeller.