Qinghong

Now that I have decided not to get married, I will definitely not regret it.The "hmm" I said to Xia Xianxian was just a momentary compromise of my dizziness.I found Xia Xianxian and said, "I won't marry you." What I said was that I wouldn't, not that I didn't want to, which meant that there was no room for maneuver in this matter.

Xia Xianxian's eyes were red in an instant, and her lips trembled: "Teacher..."

"I want to save you, Xiaoxia." I said, "I wanted to."

Xia Xianxian rubbed her eyes and said, "I'm sorry, teacher. I was too scared before, and I only thought about myself. When Xiaoke said he came out, I came out. Now that he's dead, I don't want to die. Teacher, I I really don't want to die, I don't have anyone I like yet, I..."

"Xiao Xia." I interrupted her, "I'll write you a letter of introduction, you can apply to go abroad, to the United States, to Europe, anywhere is fine. If you don't want to study for a Ph. Project, you go follow it for four or five months, find a job locally and get rid of your family's control, okay?"

Xia Xianxian's eyes gradually lit up, shining like stars, she held her cuffs nervously, and said repeatedly, "Okay, okay." She paused for a moment, then said dully, "Teacher...I'm causing you trouble..."

"You are my student." I said, "This is my responsibility."

"I want to talk to the project." Xia Xianxian lowered her head in shame, "I never thought of going abroad before, and I have forgotten my English."

"Well." I said, "I will send you the project information in the past two days, and you can choose by yourself. After you choose, go away, and another mentor will take you."

"What?" Xia Xianxian opened her eyes wide, "You don't..."

"I won't take you with me anymore. I don't want to take you with you for doing such a thing." I said, "I will take a long vacation later, and I will transfer your graduation materials and thesis to Teacher Tang. When she arrives I will contact you." After speaking, I left the office and walked towards the dean's room at the end of the corridor.

I knocked on the door, and Dean Qi's voice came: "Come in."

I pushed the door open and went in: "Dean Qi."

"It's Xiao Zou." Dean Qi said gently, "Sit."

"Dean, I want to take a long vacation..." I said.

"How long?" Dean Qi asked.

"Two months, until the summer vacation." I said.

Dean Qi nodded: "Okay, you really need to take a vacation." He took a sip of tea, "What about Xiao Ke, oh... you should make some adjustments."

"Yes." I said, "Thank you, Dean."

"You are a good teacher." Dean Qi said, "I never doubted this."

"I transferred Xia Xianxian to Teacher Tang." I said.

Dean Qi took a deep look at me: "You did the right thing."

He must know something, I thought, and I said, "Then I'm going."

"Go." Dean Qi said, "Have a nice holiday."

"Thank you." I opened the door of the dean's room and walked out.

Standing in the corridor, I breathed a sigh of relief, but I still didn't feel relaxed. There was one more thing I didn't do—say goodbye to Xiao Ke.

Xiao Ke in my memory is vivid and vivid. He once took me to watch the sunrise side by side, gave me two paintings, walked around the Fifth Avenue with me, and invited me to watch a movie.He said to me, [Teacher Zou, I hope you are doing well].I connected this kind of him with the figure falling against the morning sun in the large photo on the front page of the news, and suddenly realized that he was always fighting.

He fights with himself, he fights with his father, he fights with invisible colossal forces, he jumps off the roof, not looking for an end, but into the sun.He is the green grass drilled out of the cracks in the stone, and the slender blades are trying to hold up a dewdrop.

I set foot on the roof of the dormitory building No. [-] in Xiyuan, the small door leading to the roof was open, and the students spontaneously distributed flowers in the corner of the low wall.I carried two bottles of Erguotou and sat on a flat surface on top of the raised air vent on the roof.The phone showed nine o'clock in the evening, so I unscrewed a bottle of wine and took a sip.

The wine slid down the esophagus into the stomach, leaving a warm trail.I clinked glasses with Xifeng, who came from afar, raised my head and sighed, took off my glasses and put them aside, sat cross-legged, staring at the street lights on both sides of the street in a daze.

I have three or four hundred degrees of myopia, and the light from the street lamps turns into fluffy blobs of light in my eyes.I put down the bottomless empty wine bottle, the heat surged up, I squinted my eyes, and felt my body light and light, like an inflated hot air balloon, trembling a few centimeters off the ground.

It may be that I drank too fast, my skin gradually became numb to touch, and my consciousness seemed to be soaked in warm water, flickering and about to melt.I heard the "click" of the door opening in the distance, followed by extremely illogical heavy footsteps and panting. I lowered my head, and there was still half of another bottle of Erguotou left.

Niulanshan Erguotou at 42 degrees, half a catty for one bottle, one catty for two bottles, I don’t know what time it is.

I heard someone approaching, I lowered my head to take out my mobile phone, suddenly the bright screen hurt my eyes, I stretched out my hand to cover the screen, and looked at the time display with white characters on a black background through my fingers.

Who is coming?I stumbled and said: "Eleven...twelve."

"Zou..."

Someone called my name.

"……pregnancy."

I looked up suspiciously. In the dark night, someone was very close to me. Alcohol paralyzed my perception. I only felt that the distance was long, and my dull brain turned one by one: "You..."

The man bent over and put his hands on my shoulders. He was very thin, with a pointed chin, and two small flames were burning in his eyes: "Look at me, I am Ning Hong."

Ning Hong?I recited it silently, and felt a huge grievance in my heart. Why did he come here? I'm about to get married.

At [-] o'clock in the evening, the plane landed at Tianjin Binhai International Airport, drove smoothly, turned, and successfully docked with the corridor bridge.Ning Hong turned on his mobile phone to connect to the Internet, and news pop-ups popped up one after another, "A senior student at Jinmen University jumped off a building and sued a college in Shandong for electroshock therapy for homosexuality."

Wang Tongshu said, "Oh, what's the matter?"

When Ning Hong saw the first line of the report, his heart skipped a beat. [Xiao, a student from the Department of Mathematics of Jinmen University...] He put his mobile phone in his pocket, ran out of the cab in a hurry, and left a sentence that still survived: "I have an appointment beforehand." gone."

"Why are you in a hurry to reincarnate?" Wang Tongshu muttered.

Ning Hong ran to the parking lot, got into the Tiguan and rushed to Tianjin University, praying in his heart that it would not be Xiao Ke, not Xiao Ke, not Xiao Ke.If it was Xiao Ke who jumped off the building, Zou Lansheng didn't know how sad he would be. Ning Hong stared at the red light at the intersection, and pressed the horn twice impatiently.

When he arrived at the Tianjin University campus, Ning Hong first went to Zou Lansheng's house to knock on the door. After knocking for a long time, no one answered. He returned to the car and clicked on the news headlines.The accompanying picture shows the figure falling from the roof of the dormitory building reflecting the golden-red morning sun. Ning Hong knew that dormitory building, the place where Zou Lansheng persuaded Xiao Ke to come down a year ago, Xiyuan Building No. [-].Ning Hong started the car, drove into Jinda Xiyuan, and parked downstairs in Building No. [-].He rushed into the dormitory building and was stopped by the building manager. He explained a lot, and he was able to enter after stuffing two packs of cigarettes.

Panting and climbing to the top of the building, Zou Lansheng was indeed here, with his glasses folded beside him, an empty wine bottle tilted under his feet, and a bottle in his hand.When Ning Hong walked into him, the man seemed unaware, staring blankly into the distance.

"Zou Lansheng." Ning Hong said, "Lansheng, what are you doing here?"

When Zou Lansheng heard the voice, he turned his head and looked at him blankly, as if he couldn't understand Chinese.

Ning Hong sniffed, the air was filled with the strong smell of alcohol.Zou Lansheng's face was pale, with sweat oozing from his forehead, and his lips were extremely red. He picked up the phone with trembling fingers, and squinted his eyes to see the numbers on the screen: "Eleven o'clock...twelve."

"Twelve past ten." Ning Hong corrected.

Zou Lansheng didn't speak, Ning Hong bent down patiently and held the other person's shoulders so that he wouldn't fall down: "Look at me, I'm Ning Hong."

Hearing the word "Ning Hong", Zou Lansheng opened his eyes wide, stretched out his hand tentatively, and put it on Ning Hong's arm, his voice was soft and soft, with a long tail: "Why did you come here... I want, I want Married." His voice was pitiful, every syllable was filled with sugar water, he frowned, and drooped his head listlessly, like a snail who had been bullied by wind and rain after a long journey, with a dirty shell and even less courage,

After hearing this, Ning Hong's heart felt weak, and he immediately realized the amount of information contained in this sentence, and flew three feet high with anger, are you going to get married?With whom?Which bastard pried the corner of his wall?

Ning Hong swallowed the questioning words, restrained the sudden dark emotion in his eyes, and said in a good voice: "Let's go, follow me back."

Zou Lansheng held his arm, stood up staggeringly, raised his head to finish the remaining Erguotou, he threw away the empty wine bottle, pulled Ning Hong into his arms, and said in a rambling voice: "I persuaded Xiao Ke to come back, He jumped again."

"He gave me a painting, and he promised me to live a good life."

"We went to the movies, and he said there will be a next time."

"Cheat me, lie to me."

Ning Hong stood upright, hugged Zou Lansheng, patted Zou Lansheng on the back with one hand like a child, and clenched his fist with the other hand to secretly drink jealousy.After a while, Ning Hong was so angry that he contracted the jealousy of the entire North China region tonight.