youth and time

When she got home at night, Chen Jin saw Zhong Chaozhou's absent-mindedness at a glance, and wanted to ask him what's wrong, but Zhong Chaozhou didn't answer, just said nothing, and then went back to her room.

He threw his schoolbag on the sofa and lay down on the bed in a daze.

Today, the words of the boys in class six forced him to get out of the state of self-deception and face the relationship between him and Jiang Yufan.

It was originally a joke, and Zhong Chaozhou knew it, but he still couldn't help but take it seriously, still bored, anxious, and worried.

Because, when he really forced himself to get out of self-deception and face this matter head-on, he undeniably found that he really fell in love with Jiang Yufan.

That special liking.

But how is this possible?

How could he like boys?

How could he...

Zhong Chaozhou wanted to continue to find reasons for himself, to prove that he didn't like Jiang Yufan, but in the end, the so-called reasons were listed one after another, and even he didn't believe it, let alone let others listen.

He, Zhong Chaozhou, really, fell in love with Jiang Yufan.

The eyes of the white light on the top of his head hurt, Zhong Chaozhou raised a hand to cover his eyes, gritted his teeth, and squeezed out a word between his teeth: "Damn!"

That night, Zhong Chaozhou thought about Jiang Yufan all night, but he didn't sleep well at all. The next day, there were thick dark circles under his eyes.

Jiang Yufan was taken aback by his appearance: "You...stayed up late? What are you doing at night?"

After correctly realizing his feelings for Jiang Yufan, Zhong Chaozhou didn't know how to face him.

Thinking of Jiang Yufan caring so much about himself, taking care of himself, admitting to his family that he is his good friend, and treating him with sincerity, but what about him?He actually had other thoughts about...a person who sincerely regarded him as a friend, and he was still...such a good person.

He suddenly felt that he was like... tarnishing Jiang Yufan.

He closed his eyes and took a deep breath, as if making up his mind, he opened his eyes and looked at Jiang Yufan, opened his mouth, and said, "Jiang, Jiang Yufan, can I discuss something with you?" ?”

His voice was a little hoarse, it didn't sound right, and his face was not good. Jiang Yufan was a little worried, and reached out to touch his forehead: "Are you all right? I feel that you..."

"Don't worry, I didn't have a fever, I just didn't sleep well." Zhong Chaozhou avoided Jiang Yufan's hand, coughed twice to make his voice sound normal, and said, "I'm going to play basketball with Yang Zhinuo and the others this week Sai, we plan to discuss tactics, formation and so on at noon, that is, maybe, at noon, we can't have dinner with you, and we won't go to the study room, so..."

At the end of Zhong Chaozhou's speech, his tone became lower and lower, and his confidence became weaker and weaker.

Jiang Yufan was taken aback for a moment, listening to Zhong Chaozhou's explanation, it made sense, he had nothing to refute, but inexplicably, a strange feeling filled his whole body, which made him feel powerless: "So... this week, I Alone for a while?"

Jiang Yufan deliberately stressed the words "this week" and "temporarily", as if to confirm something.

Zhong Chaozhou gritted his teeth and nodded: "Yes! Just... for the time being... to wrong you. Also, there is no need for the military adviser, we can do it ourselves."

Jiang Yufan looked at Zhong Chaozhou with an unknown emotion in his eyes. After a long time, he nodded: "Okay, I see. Let's go to school first, or we'll be late."

"……it is good."

When we arrived at school, we still went to and from class normally, there was nothing wrong with it, the only difference was probably that Jiang Yufan and Zhong Chaozhou didn't say a few words, and the two of them took water and went to the bathroom separately, unlike before. It's like a conjoined twin, and they have to go wherever they go.

Even so, when Jiang Yufan sat beside him, Zhong Chaozhou still felt uncomfortable. He wanted to stay away from Jiang Yufan. It seemed that this way, he could cover up his liking for him, himself, and others, and he didn't have to worry about showing anything. The horse's feet were suspected by others, and by Jiang Yufan.

Because he knew that Jiang Yufan sincerely regarded him as a friend, and he was very afraid to see that one day, when Jiang Yufan knew that he liked him, he might show that kind of shocked, scared, disgusted, and even disgusting eyes.

Although the chance of being discovered is very small as long as he hides well, Zhong Chaozhou is still a little afraid to take the risk. troubled.

Boys and boys, how could it be...

Instead of continuing to get along with Jiang Yufan like walking on thin ice, it's better... to stay away.

Staying away is better for everyone.

Coincidentally, during the big class break, Mu Zi entered the class and said that he wanted to change seats, and there was no need to draw lots again, just shift the current seat.

Jiang Yufan and the others moved to the group next to the door, and Zhao Jianjian had to sit against the wall.

Zhao Jianjian: "Ah, I don't want to lean against the wall, it's very troublesome to get in and out."

Hearing this, Zhong Chaozhou's eyes lit up, and he said, "Why don't we switch? I want to lean against the wall."

Jiang Yufan paused while packing the books beside him, and the fingertips holding the books turned white, but he quickly returned to his original appearance, calm and calm.

"Ah?" Zhao Jianjian was stunned for a moment, and subconsciously glanced at Jiang Yufan, feeling that if he agreed, he would feel like dismantling his own CP, but he refused, and couldn't find a good reason. Helplessly, Zhao Jianjian nodded, "Then... well, let's change, let's talk to the teacher first."

Mu Zi's side is easy to talk to, just switch left and right, and Mu Zi readily agrees.

Zhong Chaozhou breathed a sigh of relief, it was much better.

After the big class break, after two more classes, it was time for school to be over. Zhong Chaozhou and Yang Zhinuo went to the cafeteria. Jiang Yufan walked behind with his schoolbag on his back, with his head down, not knowing what he was thinking, but It can be seen that the mood is very low.

Yang Zhinuo turned his head to look at Jiang Yufan, and asked Zhong Chaozhou, "Shouldn't you invite him to come with you?"

"Stop barking." Zhong Chaozhou shook his head, "Aren't we still discussing things, he's on the playground at noon, and he's going to the study room."

"That doesn't prevent us from having dinner together."

"Do you talk a lot?"

"Okay, okay, okay, I won't ask."

"It's almost there."

Yang Zhinuo gave Zhong Chaozhou a strange look, then turned his head to look at Jiang Yufan, and couldn't help thinking: This posture, is there a conflict?

Jiang Yufan was walking towards the cafeteria alone while kicking stones, when suddenly, Meng Jiale jumped in front of him: "Brother Yufan!"

Jiang Yufan trembled in fright: "Ah, it's you."

"Yeah!" Meng Jiale looked at him with bright eyes, carrying a schoolbag on his back, "Hey, are you alone? Where's Brother Zhou?"

As soon as Zhong Chaozhou was mentioned, Jiang Yufan felt sore, and an inexplicable feeling filled his whole body. He was so uncomfortable that he didn't even have the strength to pull the corners of his mouth to force a smile: "He... participated in the basketball game, with other people. Let's eat and discuss tactics."

"Oh, so are you alone?"

"……Um."

"That's right, you can eat with us!"

"Ah?" Jiang Yufan glanced at Ji Hanzhong, who nodded, "Well, listen to him, let's eat together, eating alone is so boring."

Jiang Yufan pursed his lips: "Okay, let's go together."

"Hey!" Meng Jiale excitedly dragged Jiang Yufan to the cafeteria, "Let's go, brother Yufan, let me tell you, the curry rice on the second floor is delicious, I ate it once yesterday, it was really good , take you to taste it!"

For the next week, Zhong Chaozhou and Jiang Yufan didn't see each other anymore, they didn't eat together, their seats weren't next to each other, and Jiang Yufan didn't pick up Zhong Chaozhou's things during the basketball game, so he just connected the water to the bathroom and went to the toilet. I haven't seen the two together.

Inexplicably, the relationship between the two returned to the original point, back to...the original point before the two met.

Zhao Jian and his group of CP fans have been paying attention to the two masters, and they have also noticed that something is wrong. They have discussed it in private, and secretly asked Yang Zhinuo's boys who are close to Zhong Chaozhou if they are having a conflict. .

Yang Zhinuo shook his head to express that he didn't know, and he was also very curious.

Someone also asked Zhong Chaozhou in private, Zhong Chaozhou just smiled and said, you think too much.

Sitting between Zhong Chaozhou and Jiang Yufan, Zhao Jianjian always felt that the atmosphere between the two of them was very strange. Sitting there, she was very depressed, feeling awkward, and uncomfortable everywhere, but she had no position, no qualifications, no The reason is to ask the two around me what happened.

I haven't seen Zhong Chaozhou and Jiang Yufan together for a week, and they usually don't say hello when they meet on campus. Even Meng Jiale's rough nerves felt that something was wrong, and asked Jiang Yufan carefully if he had a conflict with Zhong Chaozhou up.

Jiang Yufan shook his head.

He didn't know what was going on.

At first, when Zhong Chaozhou proposed not to eat with him, he felt that something was weird and he felt very uncomfortable. Later, he didn't need to bring dinner, and he no longer insisted on going to the bathroom with water. When going to school in the morning and after school in the evening, he began to find various reasons not to go with him.

Any fool could see that Zhong Chaozhou was avoiding Jiang Yufan.

Unfortunately, Jiang Yufan is not stupid.

Many times, he wanted to ask Zhong Chaozhou what happened, why he avoided him so much, if he did something wrong, if he made him angry.

He looked at Zhong Chaozhou's back, he wanted to grab Zhong Chaozhou's clothes, he wanted to hold him, he wanted to ask him, but every time he wanted to do this, a sense of powerlessness would flood every organ in him , in the end, he gave up.

It's useless to ask any more.

Maybe it's... my personality is really not suitable for making friends.

Then... let's forget it.

Anyway, for so many years, I have been alone.

Already... used to it.

It's nothing... a big deal.

When Jiang Yufan returned home, he lay on the bed, his eyes were distracted, and his eyes skipped over the SpongeBob SquarePants that Zhong Chaozhou gave him, Jiang Yufan's eyes suddenly felt uncomfortable, and his nose was sore.

He looked at that SpongeBob SquarePants, SpongeBob SquarePants smiled silly, he struggled for a while, stretched out his hand, grabbed the SpongeBob SquarePants dolls, and hugged him tightly, with great strength, as if to put it Like squeezing it into your own body.

On the small coffee table next to it, Bubbles sticks to the edge of the glass tank with a heart, looking at the little master lying on the bed, spitting bubbles.

But at this moment, the bubbles it vomited are not as happy as usual. The bubbles are very small. It can be seen that the little turtle is not in a good mood now, because it can feel that the little master is very unhappy, because the little turtle The owner hasn't fed it well for a week, and the little owner's mother came to feed it.

The little master has never been like this before.

In the basketball game, the second class won the championship very smoothly. When the game ended, everyone was cheering.

Zhong Chaozhou swept around the audience, but did not find Jiang Yufan.

Jiang Yufan didn't come.

Zhong Chaozhou smiled bitterly.

That's it, it's fine.

After packing his things, Zhong Chaozhou was carrying his schoolbag and was going to have dinner with his classmates. At this moment, Ji Han finally came over: "Zhong Chaozhou, come here, I have something to see you."

Zhong Chaozhou: "..."

Seeing Zhong Chaozhou standing still, Ji Han finally walked to his side and said in a low voice: "It's about Jiang Yufan, you should listen to it."

Zhong Chaozhou narrowed his eyes.

There was still some time before evening self-study, Zhong Chaozhou changed his basketball uniform and asked his classmates to bring him his schoolbag. He and Ji Han finally came to the school playground, talking while walking around the track.

Zhong Chaozhou: "Tell me, what's the matter?"

"It's nothing, just curiosity." Ji Han finally smiled, "Curiosity, one second I was inseparable from Jiang Yufan, and the next second I'm strangers, what happened in the middle?"

Zhong Chaozhou frowned unobtrusively when he heard the words "glue like paint", and his tone was not too good: "Does it have something to do with you? Such a gossip?"

"Indeed, it has nothing to do with me. But Lele has been watching Jiang Yufan for a week and has been absent-minded and very concerned. You don't know that the last time you were in the cafeteria, you even knocked over the soup and sprinkled it all on your body. The soup was just out of the pot." , very hot..."

"What about now?" Zhong Chaozhou suddenly turned to look at him, his voice was anxious and worried, "Are you burned?"

Ji Han finally raised his eyebrows: "Why don't you ask yourself?"

Zhong Chaozhou: "..."

Having said that, Zhong Chaozhou faintly felt that this person was not kind, so he cut to the chase and said, "What exactly do you want to say?"

Ji Han's final smile faded, and he said in a low voice: "It's none of my business, and I'm too lazy to care about it, but Lele likes Jiang Yufan very much, and he cares about this matter so much that he can't eat, so I have to care about it." Actually, I probably know what happened between you and Jiang Yufan."

Ji Han finally said, stepped forward, approached Zhong Chaozhou, and whispered in his ear: "You like him, right?"