Butterfly dream life

Yu Xiaoduo was in a trance all the way. When he got home, he fell on the bed, hugged the pillow and cried loudly. When he was tired from crying, he read the chat records of the two of them. After a while, he felt even more sad, so he continued to cry.

He kept crying like this, and under the violent mood swings, his brain released high-intensity bioelectricity, which made Jobs' blood boil, and he couldn't bear it any longer, so he bravely jumped out.

[Xiao Duo, don't cry. 】Jobs persuaded, 【Your body matters. 】

【Jobs...】 Yu Xiaoduo cried and said, 【What should I do?I don't have him anymore in my life...]

[You still have me, I will always be with you. 】

【That's different... If I hadn't met him, it would be fine, but if there is no if, he has been here, and now he is gone, I feel that there is no hope in life anymore, woo woo woo...]

Jobs sighed, remained silent for a moment, and said sadly:

【I could have endured the darkness if I hadn't seen the sun. 】

[Yet the sun has turned my desolation into a new desolation. 】

[What...] Yu Xiaoduo lay on the pillow, tears streaming down his face.

[A poem by Emily Dickinson. ] Jobs said, [The title of the poem is "If I Never See the Sun", and your words remind me of it. 】

"If I hadn't seen the sun..." Yu Xiaoduo murmured and repeated, and immediately became more sad, and immediately burst into tears.

"Woo----"

[Xiao Duo, I'm sorry. 】

[I don't want to listen to you anymore, you back off——! 】

【…………………】

Jobs didn't dare to say anything, Yu Xiaoduo was so sad that he cried for an hour, and finally couldn't cry anymore, and fell asleep in a daze.

the following afternoon.

Yu Xiaoduo woke up, his eyes were red and swollen, he picked up his phone to check, Gu Haiya sent several messages, asking if he got home safely, and ambiguous comfort.

He actually likes me... Yu Xiaoduo remembered the gloomy expression on the other side's face when she wiped her tears, and suddenly realized - but what's the use of that!Gu Haiya still rejected him because he couldn't accept being a partner with a man.

Yu Xiaoduo couldn't help resenting Gu Haiya a little, hating that the other party shouldn't be so kind to him, shouldn't be flirting with him, making him fall into the trap of tenderness step by step, completely unable to extricate himself.

But he understands that this kind of resentment is unreasonable, he posted it on his own initiative, like a nympho around the front and back every day, Gu Haiya is not a grass, and it is human nature to be tempted, so they are not wrong...that's wrong Who is it?society?Or a bunch of unrelated people?

Maybe no one is wrong, it's the time that's wrong—meeting the right person at the wrong time.

It would be nice if he didn't choose double row - no!It would have been great if he hadn't met those three wonderful teammates, no, it would have been great if he hadn't been obsessed with eating chicken, so he wouldn't have met Gu Haiya, got to know each other, and then fell in love with him hopelessly.

Yu Xiaoduo felt indescribably disheartened, did not reply to Gu Haiya, lay on the bed like a dead fish, and fell asleep again after a while, as if as long as he kept sleeping, all the pain would disappear.

When it was dark, he woke up again, got out of bed to drink water with difficulty, and then crawled back to bed, staring at the ceiling in a daze.

I do not know how long it has been.

[Jobs. 】

[Xiaoduo, I'm here. 】

【What do you think I should do in the future? ] Yu Xiaoduo asked.

Jobs made him cry yesterday, leaving a huge shadow in his heart. I don't know whether to persuade him to let go, or encourage him not to give up.

[Do you want me to tell the truth? ] Jobs asked tentatively.

【be honest. 】Yu Xiaoduo said, 【I've calmed down. 】

【I think 008 likes you. 】 Jobs said, 【Maybe he still needs time to think about it. 】

Yu Xiaoduo: [He said he was sorry, obviously he had already made a choice, and he did not want to take this path. 】

[Then let it go. 】Jobs pushed the boat along with the current,【Make a break with him early, time will dilute everything. 】

[But he still sent me a message. 】Yu Xiaoduo said sadly.

[Then let's be friends. 】Jobs changed his words, 【It's not bad to have such a brother. 】

[But he didn't call. 】Yu Xiaoduo said, 【Maybe he is just perfunctory me, and he will find an opportunity to slowly alienate me in the future. 】

Jobs: 【………】

Jobs fell into the pit of "then" and "but" again, thinking gloomily that Xiaoling is a strange creature, both emotional and rational, jumping repeatedly between men and women, how did they find the balance point ?

【I made a decision. 】Yu Xiaoduo thought to himself, 【I want to make a break with him, time will dilute everything! 】

Jobs: [Um...]

Yu Xiaoduo: [You step back, I want to sleep. 】

Jobs: [……………………]

In the days that followed, Yu Xiaoduo began to strictly implement the "break" plan.

He no longer paid attention to Gu Haiya, did not reply to text messages, and refused to answer calls, so there was no movement on Gu Haiya's side, and Yu Xiaoduo turned his grief into strength, devoted himself to work, and kept hinting to himself: time It will heal all wounds, and it will make you completely forget about a person.

three weeks later.

"Hey, Song Hao." Yu Xiaoduo said wearily, "Why do you want me?"

"Tomorrow is the fifth anniversary of Jin Jing." Song Hao said on the other end of the phone, "There is a buffet party, and many students are invited to participate. You are also among them. I will be in charge of notifying you."

"What are you kicking!" Yu Xiaoduo said angrily, "Why invite me? I don't know anyone, so I won't go!"

"What do you mean you don't know anyone?" Song Hao said displeased, "Aren't I, Wan Feng, and Hai Ya all your friends?"

"I'm busy."

"What can happen on the big weekend?"

"I have to work overtime."

"Starting at six o'clock in the evening, it doesn't affect your overtime work." Song Hao said, "Come on, come on, brother, I will lead a group abroad on Sunday, don't you want to see me? I haven't seen you for a long time."

Yu Xiaoduo said in his heart that who rarely likes you, are you RMB?

"Hai Ya will come with me." Song Hao added, "If you don't come, you won't see him for a long, long time."

Yu Xiaoduo: "..."

Song Hao's words were like a spell, easily opening a magic box called "Missing", which caused Yu Xiaoduo's feelings that had been suppressed in his heart for many days to explode. With the power of parrying, the psychological defense line collapsed instantly.

"Okay, I'll go." Yu Xiaoduo said.

"That's right." Song Hao said, "Then brother will be waiting for you on Saturday, okay?"

Yu Xiaoduo hung up the phone, and Song Hao threw the phone on the table.

"I invited you." Song Hao said, "How do you thank me?"

"Help you take three lessons." Gu Hai said.

"What happened to you and so many fish?" Song Hao asked curiously, "Is there something wrong?"

Gu Haiya said casually: "I ate chicken a few days ago, he fell down and I didn't help him, I got angry."

"Can this be angry?" Song Hao couldn't laugh or cry, "A lot of fish don't look like this kind of person."

"Anyway, he was angry and ignored me all the time."

"Why do I feel like you're fooling me?"

"No."

"really?"

"Stop rambling, go to work." After speaking, Gu Haiya left.

Saturday night, Jin Jing.

"Hey, so many fish." Wan Feng said with a smile, "Long time no see, I miss you so much."

Yu Xiaoduo nodded and said, "I miss you too, Brother Feng."

"A lot of fish, you can count it here." Song Hao patted the chair next to him and said, "Sit here, do you miss brother?"

Yu Xiaoduo said perfunctorily, "Think about it", sat down and looked around, and found that there were quite a lot of people. The students formed their own tables, chatting while eating, and the whole viewing platform was very lively.

"Hai Ya is at that table." Song Hao pointed to the table not far away.

Yu Xiaoduo looked over and saw Gu Haiya sitting with several students, looking towards him, and found that most of the students were girls.

Yu Xiaoduo: "..."

"There are a lot of fish, and the food is in the lobby." Song Hao said, "Hurry up and get them, there are big lobsters."

Yu Xiaoduo groaned, walked into the hall, took a plate, stood in a daze in front of the dazzling array of food, completely lost appetite.

"Why don't you get something to eat?" Someone behind him spoke.

Yu Xiaoduo immediately turned around and found that it was Gu Haiya, also holding a plate in his hand, staring at him blankly.

In an instant, the past was like a revolving lantern, flashing through Yu Xiaoduo's mind—they used to be so close, but now thinking about it, it seems like a lifetime away, looking at the familiar man in front of him, Yu Xiaoduo only felt an indescribable strangeness and Awkward.

"I haven't thought about what to eat yet." Yu Xiaoduo said.

"Eat this shrimp." Gu Haiya walked to his side, "They all said it's delicious, I'll help you pick it up."

They, they, they, they... Yu Xiaoduo felt a little uncomfortable when he thought of Gu Haiya sitting with the girls.

In the past, Gu Haiya seldom said these two words, and always said "you are more than us", he remembered the movie he hadn't finished watching, it must be the case of love without fate.

We who used to be became "them", and they who were later became "us now" in your life.

"No." Yu Xiaoduo said coldly.

"You've lost weight." Gu Haiya said, "Have you been busy with work recently?"

Yu Xiaoduo asked back: "Was I fat before?"

"not fat."

"Humph."

"Tomorrow I will take a group to Semporna."

"understood."

"The signal over there is not good, so we can't contact you at any time."

"It's not that I haven't been there, let me tell you."

Hearing Yu Xiaoduo's displeasure, Gu Haiya fell silent, seemingly at a loss.

Yu Xiaoduo picked up some snacks and said casually, "When will you be back?"

"One month." Gu Haiya replied.

Yu Xiaoduo sneered a few times.

[Listen, Jobs. 】He said in his mind, 【It is enough to hide from me!What group has to go for so long a month?Gold-encrusted local tyrants?Already live bankrupt it! 】

[There are such groups in the virtual world. 】Jobs said, 【Diamond VIP member group, didn't 008 tell you, did you forget? 】

Yu Xiaoduo: [Cut! 】

Jobs: 【………】

"It's pretty good." Yu Xiaoduo mocked: "The scenery in Xianben is so beautiful, I never want to come back after I go there!"

"Xiaoduo..." Gu Haiya frowned.

"Hai Ya!" A beautiful girl came over, "Why don't you go back, we've been waiting for you for a long time."

There was a buzz in Yu Xiaoduo's mind, and he thought that he really wanted to come up with something!

He glanced at the girl, turned to look at Gu Haiya, and questioned with his brainwaves: Who is this?Call you Haiya, is this the "us now" in your life?

"Are you Haiya's friend?" the girl asked Yu Xiaoduo with a smile.

Yu Xiaoduo: "Student."

Gu Haiya: "Brother."

Yu Xiaoduo and Gu Haiya spoke at the same time, and then the expressions of the three of them were extremely exciting, Yu Xiaoduo's forehead twitched slightly, Gu Haiya was embarrassed, and the girl looked bewildered.

"Friend." Yu Xiaoduo corrected himself.

The girl smiled awkwardly, and said to Gu Haiya: "Have you got the things? Let's go back after we get them."

"You go there first." Gu Haiya said, "I'll wait, I still have something to do."

"Let's go, Coach Gu!"

Another three girls came over, they seemed to know this girl, took Gu Haiya's arm, and urged: "The video has been exported, go and help us see Trim."

[Dig puppet!You can show Trim to others. 】Yu Xiaoduo said sourly, 【Jobs, I remember what Coach Gu said in Xianbenna? 】

Jobs immediately doggedly said: [I'm not good at trimming, you can ask Coach Song, he's good at it. 】

Yu Xiaoduo: [Cut! 】

Jobs: [……………………]

"Xiaoduo..." Gu Haiya said.

"I've got it, you can do whatever you want." Yu Xiaoduo left without looking back.

Gu Haiya watched him leave, sighed insignificantly, and had to follow a few girls to watch the video.