love nowhere

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In the dim room, Xie Yao covered his eyes with his arms tiredly. He has been having the same dream recently.

Scattered cars are driving on the road, and the warm-colored headlights cannot warm the dark night, but show the dense rain.

This scene is very quiet, it is the kind of rainy night in horror movies where hideous ghosts haunt.

What pierced the silence was a sharp car skidding sound, the tires of a huge truck skidded on the asphalt road, and the whole car slanted to a stop in the middle of the road.

As soon as the scene changed, Qi Kang was sitting in the car, desperately removing his hands from the steering wheel, his face was pale by the glare of the truck's headlights.

"boom"

Collision, violent sparks burn, bloom, and then smash to pieces, bursting out fuzzy flesh and blood.

"Grumpy"

The whole person seemed to be buried in the damp soil, Xie Yao's chest was tight and he couldn't breathe, his neck was itchy from the sting of crawling ants, the smell of damp came into his nose and nose, and there was a buzzing roar in his ears .

He woke up suddenly, his beautiful eyes full of trembling.

"Meow." A white fluffy object pulled Xie Yao's pajamas, rubbing against him with its thick head.

"It's you." Xie Yao stretched out his hand and scratched the kitten's chin, then lifted the quilt and got out of bed.

The bright sunlight shines through the floor-to-ceiling windows, setting off the slender figure of the man. Outside is the lush scenery, and a few birdsong can be faintly heard. Everything is quiet and peaceful.

"Ding dong."

The WeChat notification sounded on the phone, and Ming Huan's message burst into the screen: I'm sorry Brother Yao, I really can't call Qi Kang.He said the anniversary party has a schedule, let's have fun.

Today is the anniversary party of the limited group Tower.

After the disbandment of the team, I and Qi Kang were basically taking on plays and running endorsements, slowly transforming into actors.The boss Gu Qingming and the youngest Tao Ran formed a new group to debut and were busy running the team schedule.

Ming Huan has been releasing solo albums, and his small round face has become the exquisite appearance it is today.Lin Buran, a beautiful woman, retired from the circle and went to play e-sports. She just finished her schedule for the World Championships.

The remaining three people are more interesting. Zheng Yuyuan, a fitness freak, turned to write novels, put on his glasses in a gentle manner, and became a writer wholeheartedly.Zhao Qing went to work as a social animal in the company of Prince Lu Lingxiao's family, and the two even quietly talked about a love affair that scared everyone to death.

The nine people made their debut from that cruel survival battle, and they got along day and night for two years.

Dodging even the anniversary party, am I that scary?

After Xie Yao finished reading the message, he pressed his tongue against his cheek, sighed, and stretched out his hand to open the bottom bedside table.

There was nothing in it. Originally, the cabinet was full of indescribable small props, but after playing a bit too much, my cool brother cleared them all out of embarrassment, leaving only a pair of handcuffs that he worked so hard to hide.

Another small box contained Qi Kang's very precious ring, which was said to have been given to him by his father when he was a child.

On the first anniversary of the two, Qi Kang sent the ring to the gold shop and engraved his name on it.

It's rare for a lover to be so romantic. Xie Yao thought he was going to propose to him at the time, and cried unreasonably the night he received the ring, but it turned out to be a simple gift, and he was ridiculed until he blush afterwards.

He looked at these two things full of memories, and was stunned for a while, then took a pen in his hand, got up and drew a circle on the calendar.

99.

"It's been so long since we broke up."

Three years of long-distance love running, gradually ushered in a period of burnout, and the cycle of quarreling and reconciliation is getting longer and longer, and sometimes it even takes a month.All the noise came over, but this time it was different, Xie Yao knew very well that Qi Kang had something to hide from him.

Because he has gradually become very silent, as long as he stops talking, the space where the two of them are together is so quiet that the heart is cold.Even the eyes that occasionally meet each other become sad and struggling.

In the three months after the breakup, it wasn't that I couldn't see Qi Kang. I could see Qi Kang briefly in the company and the crew, but there was no eye contact, no dialogue, and no physical contact.

No matter how long it takes for a close lover to become a stranger, it may be only a few seconds after a word breaks up.

"Bang!" The scene of flying flesh and blood in the dream reappeared before his eyes.It was followed by yesterday's Qi Kang kneeling on the woman, half naked, offering a pious kiss.

"He is not yours anymore, apart from colleagues, you have no other status relationship, understand?" Luo Feng's words were still harsh.

So why, he can't be mine?

Xie Yao stared at Bai Liang's handcuffs in a daze, and finally couldn't help it, and rushed out of the house.

Since the disbandment of the limited group, Qi Kang has gradually withdrawn from the public eye and lived a very regular life.He spends most of his time playing sports and that's the only hobby he has.

Self-discipline is unbelievably healthy.

The director gave them two days off. It's easy to guess what Qi Kang will do during the holiday.

In the sparkling swimming pool, the young man's body emerged from the swimming pool, showing broad shoulders and clear chest and abdominal muscles. The tight-fitting swimming trunks wrapped his buttocks more and more plumply. His slender legs stepped on the non-slip mat, barefoot Step by step towards the rest area.

Xie Yao pressed the back molars hard, changed his stance, and waited for Qi Kang to approach.

"Let's talk."

"Okay." Qi Kang wiped his hair, put on his sports sweater, and signaled Xie Yao to walk out of the swimming pool together.

He was not surprised that Xie Yao would come to him.When they were underwater, they had a vague premonition that the two would meet today.

Hiding from the meeting will not work after all, sooner or later there will be a conversation to make Xie Yao give up, but I try to postpone this conversation as much as I can.

If he insisted on not letting go, he probably couldn't help but waver.

The young actor walked in the front, looking back at his ex-boyfriend from time to time, with a smile on his fair face, "We are a bit like going back to the days when we never broke up."

His smile is the same as when we first met him, clean and youthful, like a fox in a wheat field under the sun, his dark brown eyes are full of sunshine, which can't help but make people's hearts flutter.

Dazed by this smile, Qi Kang barely restrained himself and sat in the passenger seat in silence.

"Yeah, I kind of miss it."

"Fasten your seat belt." Xie Yao started the car with one hand, and told Qi Kang in a gentle tone.

The moment he fastened his seat belt, Xie Yao took his hand and buckled the silver-white object on their wrists with lightning speed.

"Click."

Qi Kang looked at the handcuffs connecting the two in disbelief, he didn't expect Xie Yao's operation at all.

"What are you doing?."

Xie Yao didn't answer directly, he turned the steering wheel with one hand, "You'd better cooperate with me, don't end up with two people dying on the main road."

Qi Kang was shocked and speechless, his expression changed repeatedly, and finally he could only resign himself to his fate and put his body close to Xie Yao, so that it would be convenient for people to drive.

The scenery outside the car receded quickly, getting closer and closer to the house where they lived together before.Qi Kang opened his mouth, wanting to say some soothing words, but Xie Yao's hand clasped his palm, making him hold back the words.

Xie Yao's expression was indifferent, contrary to the warmth he had just met, anger was hidden in his cold eyes.

Qi Kang has seen this expression many times, it was Xie Yao's expression when he was angry.In those meaningless quarrels and back and forth tugging, the final result is that Xie Yao slams the door with this expression and leaves.

Xie Yao dragged Qi Kang out of the car and entered the door.The interior design of the house is all in a modern and minimalist style, with monotonous colors and a feeling of indifference and inhumanity everywhere. This is his favorite style. When decorating the house, Xie Yao deliberately accommodated his preference.

Xie Yao pushed him down on the sofa in the living room, stretched out his hand, from the brow bone to the end of the eye, the bridge of the nose to the lips, and finally opened his palm to attach to Qi Kang's right cheek, rubbing the corner of his eye with his index finger scars.

He always has various scars on his body, and the scars left by bumps and bumps always make him feel distressed.

Xie Yao carefully looked at his lover whom he hadn't seen for a long time.

Qi Kang's brow bone is very superior, with smooth and sharp protruding arcs.His eyes are typical lower three white eyes, the amber pupils are slightly raised up, and the whites of the eyes are leaking just right.

When not smiling, he is like a wild wolf that no one can tame, fierce and aggressive to the point of suffocation.But now his eyes are full of nervousness, and his face is forbearing, like a large canine being bullied by his master.

Xie Yao happily found a comfortable position, put his head on Qi Kang's shoulder, greedily absorbing the warmth from his body.

"Hey, why did you suddenly go crazy, let me go." Qi Kang stretched out his hand and poked Xie Yao's waist lightly, the chain on his hand made a rattling sound.

"Don't let go, let me hold you for a while longer." A muffled voice came from beside his ears, and he felt a deep sense of powerlessness when he looked at the person in his arms.

Xie Yao was acting like a baby to himself.

Qi Kang bit the tip of his tongue, restrained the urge to soften his heart, and tried his best to make his tone sound cold and alienated, "I'm leaving Xie Yao, this is not what an equal dialogue should look like. When you calm down, we Let's talk again."

How cruel, the relationship between us has become like this, I hug you, but you dare not hug me tightly, let alone push me away.

The meaning of parting deeply hurt Xie Yao.

"Huh." He took a deep breath, as if he had gathered his strength, directly broke the warmth, and squeezed Qi Kang's jaw hard.

"How long have you been hiding from me, three months? Am I so scary, Qi Kang." Xie Yao exerted force on his hands, "Do you really want to break up with me?" He narrowed his eyes, and his eyes gradually became dangerous And fierce.

Qi Kang turned his head forbearance, "I made it very clear on the phone before."

Xie Yao grabbed the collar of Qikang's sports sweater, forcing people to look up and face him. He looked indifferently, looking down at his lover who hadn't been close to him for a long time, "I tell you, I don't accept it."

Qi Kang looked back at Xie Yao, inexplicably startled, he hadn't looked at Xie Yao so seriously for a long time.

The day they broke up was Qi Kang's birthday, and it was also the day when Xie Yao won the best actor award.Drunk people were playing crazy on the phone, Qi Kang sat in the romantic lights of the room, and his heart gradually became cold.

And Xie Yao listened to the silent breathing on the other end of the phone, thinking of his lover hiding secrets, and the sad and struggling eyes, couldn't help but get angry, "Qi Kang, we have come together for such a long time, what's the matter?" You need to hide it from me?"

It wasn't supposed to be like this, our relationship was supposed to be intimate, without secrets.

Silence, suffocation, and sadness gradually overflowed.

Qi Kang went upstairs with his mobile phone and took out a stack of letters from the suitcase, each of which read: To Dear Andre.

Looking at the letter sent by that person, he raised his head, his Adam's apple rolled, as if making up his mind, he closed his eyes, "Let's break up, Xie Yao."

When he said the moment he broke up, his first thought was: Finally, he said it.

Qi Kang was very thankful that he said those two cruel words. After the moment of cutting off the relationship with force, all that was left was to let Xie Yao go through the painful period of breaking up smoothly, never to see each other again, and quietly waiting for the wound to heal.

In the past three months, he tried his best to avoid any excessive contact with Xie Yao, and then stuffed more sports schedules into his itinerary. Apart from filming, he was doing sports. The soreness in his body every morning always made him feel short-lived. ignore the pain in my heart.

"Why are you avoiding me? You also rejected the commemorative party for the first anniversary of the disbandment of the team, so you don't want to see me again?"

"Xie Yao, we have already broken up." Qi Kang gritted his teeth and replied.

Xie Yao raised Qi Kang's wrist and bit down viciously.

People's teeth are not sharp, but Qi Kang could feel his canine teeth digging into his skin a little bit, and the pain made him cry out.

"Ah, Xie Yao, what are you doing?"

"Qi Kang, do you not feel hurt when you say that? We have been together for three years, is there anything you need to hide from me, is there anything that can make you make up your mind to leave me." Xie Yao's mouth was wet. Bloodstains, just now he exerted a lot of force.

The blood seeps out from the teeth marks little by little, converging into blood beads and leaving on Qi Kang's wrist.

There was only one thought in his mind: Qi Kang must not be let go easily.Lock Qi Kang at home, so he can't go anywhere, and he will always be alone.

The devil's voice sounded in his mind, eroding all Xie Yao's thinking ability, making him unaware of the changes in Qi Kang below him.

Qi Kang stared at his wrist tightly, blood beads seeped from the tooth marks, plump and bright, reflecting his embarrassment.His eyes quickly flashed across the dark room, the bloodstains from being handcuffed for a long time and the scarlet flesh on the dining table.

Men examine him, shut him up, discipline him.He is the most desirable heir of a man, and even the offspring with the same blood cannot compare to him.

"You are the most perfect creation, you are my son, you should not hang out with failed things." The man wrote in the letter.

"I'll take care of everything for you."

"You are still a good boy in my heart."

The fear, grievance and anger of the past rushed through the blood vessels and poured into the atrium.Qi Kang's eyes gradually turned red, the corners of his mouth opened, he lowered his head and smiled to himself, even a little crazy.

"Xie Yao, we actually met a long time ago."

"what?"

We have met before, I am the little ghost raised by your father in the cage, and you are the young master who is afraid of your father outside the cage.

I recognized you when you chased me.Your love is straightforward and passionate, I couldn't help getting closer, and put my heart on you bit by bit, but I didn't expect it to end in such a disgusting way.

Qi Kang held the silver-white chain with his handcuffed hands, and threw Xie Yao down with force, and the two of them fell to the floor.His hands rested on both sides of Xie Yao's head, the handcuffed hand was strangled with blood, and the tooth marks on the other hand were silently oozing blood.

His eyes seemed to be looking at another person.Xie Yao has never seen Qi Kang like this.

"That man persuaded me. Our relationship was wrong from the very beginning. I really don't want to be right." Qi Kang raised his elbow expressionlessly and slammed Xie Yao on the head. .

"Goodbye, Xie Yao."

Xie Yao's consciousness was crashed into darkness.